Broken Inside

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : Weiss Kreuz ain't mine and they never will be either *sighs*

Paring : Ran(Aya)/Ken

Warnings : Yaoi, OCC, angst (as always *mutters*)

Last chapter you all!!!

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts.

Chapter 11. The Final Problem

Aya was concerned, deeply concerned. The six months his deal with Manx had stated was running out fast. In only two weeks Ken would be given his first mission where Aya wasn't allowed to be near him. But that wasn't his only concern.

The redhead frowned and glanced at his lover. They had had several missions but never one where they were forced to kill more than one person. Ken was shaking and his eyes shone with panic. Had the brunette come so far just to have it all ruined by this mission?

"Siberian, the three targets are heading towards you."

"Copy that Bombay." They both waited patiently for the men to enter the corridore. The redhead tried to calm himself down. He would still be there to help if something went wrong.

"Abyssinian you have four guards coming your way," Omi's voice said. Aya hesitated. If he had to take down four guards he wouldn't be able to help Ken. The targets were suppose to be alone! Brown eyes met amethyst and seemed to be begging for help. Aya screamed inside. He couldn't help his lover this time.

"Copy that Bombay. Balinese, what's your status?" he asked in a last attempt to get some help.

"Busy," was the short answer he got along with sounds of fighting. Shit! Yoji couldn't help them either. He turned around and found himself alone in the dark corridor. Ken must have gone after the targets on his own. Aya didn't have time to do anything about it since four men were approaching him. He drew his katana and faced them.

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The world was spinning and he couldn't force it to slow down anymore. He had a bloody body lying to the right and one badly wounded infront of him. The last of the three targets was circling him. Ken felt the panic shoot through him. It was too much to stand there surrounded by blood and shivering flesh.

Suddenly the man moving around him was replaced with Kase. The brunette didn't understand. He had done several missions and this had never happened before, so why now? But then the panic had been there every single time, threatening to beat him. Drawing in a deep breath Ken moved forward with his hands raised. He had to finish this! Stumbling he charged the last target.

A scream filled his ears until he heard nothing else, blood rained around him until he saw nothing else. The body hit the floor with a thud and then there was only silence. Shakingly Ken sank to his knees. He had done it, he had made it. That's when he made the mistake of looking around.

The whole room was filled with blood, his hands drenched in it. Heavy in the air was the sweet metalic stench of blood that threatened to suffocate him. Massacared bodies littered the floor. In an instant the nightmare came back.

"No, please no," he begged and tried to crawl away, only succeeding in getting himself coated in blood. His heart started pounding like a drum, his pulse ran away, his chest cramped up. It was happening again. He was being taken over by another anxiety-attack.

The voices accused him constantly as he whimpered in fear. He just didn't understand why it all came back now. Why was he still so broken inside? During the last months he had been so happy, so at ease and now it was all ruined. Aya. He needed the redhead with him, that was what was missing. Without his lover he felt unsafe, unprotected.

"AYA!" Ken screamed over the link and felt the nightmare consuming him until there was nothing else.

*~*~*~*~*~*~

Aya growled and ran his katana through the last guard. His leg hurt like hell from the knife that had stabbed him. Annoyed the redhead dried off his weapon and walked away.

"I've taken care of those guards Bombay," he muttered as he limped down the corridor.

"Abyssinian," Omi said with hesitation. "I… I can't get in touch with Siberain, he doesn't answer me." He was just about to answer when a scream reached his ears.

"AYA!" Forgetting about the pain the redhead stormed towards the sound. He almost slipped in the blood on the floor as he stopped. Ken was lying on the floor with his face pale and sweaty, eyes unseeing as he stared at something that wasn't really there.

"No Ken! Please not this!" Aya begged as he pulled his lover into his arms. The fast breathing, dangerously rapid heartbeats and sweaty face were all signs of Ken having another attack. Carefully he shook the brunette trying to get his attention. "Ken?" he asked softly. No response. "Bombay, Balinese, get up here, now!"

*~*~*~*~*~*~

It felt like déjà vu as the three assassins stood by their friend's bed looking at his limp body. Aya didn't know what to do. What he did know was that Ken would never be able to go back to being a part of Weiss again. The brunette's past had beaten him in the end.

"What's going to happen to him Aya-kun?" Omi asked quietly. Aya didn't answer. There was only one way out of Kritiker and that was in a body-bag.

"Has anyone informed Manx about this?" he asked instead and glanced at the two blondes.

"No. Shouldn't we call a doctor or something?" The redhead shook his head at Yoji's question.

"Ken-kun isn't going to… to stay with us, is he?" Amethyst eyes moved to Omi.

"No. He's normal as long as he doesn't have to kill," Aya answered and sighed. "I've seen how hard he has to fight after each mission but this one was just too much."

"And it was a type of mission we get a lot," Yoji muttered. "Aya, what is going to happen to him now?"

"We all know the answer to that Kudou. They'll remove him from the team."

"But Aya-kun," Omi objected and stepped closer. "They can't just, just…"

"We're nothing but their dogs to them Omi. If we can't kill for them we're useless," the redhead said quietly.

"What if we don't tell them? I mean we should be able to cover up for Ken until he's well enough to go back, right?"

"Yoji, he's never going to be well enough for that. It won't go away, ever. His shrink warned me about this. The only way for Ken to deal with killing is to put him back on those drugs."

"Then you two have to go away," the lanky blonde said firmly. "I'm not going to sit and watch as those damn bastard kill Ken!" Green eyes flared with anger. "Omi and I will cover up this while you find a safe place to go to." Aya stared in shock at Yoji. His oldest team-mate showed no signs of his normal grin and his eyes were hard and serious.

"What?"

"I'm telling you to get your sister away from her school, fix Ken up and then you two get lost! It's the only way out Aya and you know it. Omi can help you find a place to settle down."

"Yoji-kun is right Aya-kun. They won't let you go. Manx would try to make them but we all know that she won't be able to help in the end.

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"Abyssinian we need to talk," Manx said as she brushed past the red haired assassin. Aya followed her in silence. He sat down in the mission room and looked at her. "Aya-chan has gone missing from her school."

"What!?"

"I don't know what's happened to your sister but she's nowhere to be found," Manx muttered and paced the room. "She's been missing for two days."

"I thought you were suppose to look after her!" Aya snarled and shot up from the couch.

"Calm down Abyssinian! I'm sure we'll find her."

"If you don't you'll be sorry. You have two days to find her before I go after her myself," the redhead growled and glared at the woman. She said nothing more and left. As soon as she was done a grin spread across Aya's face.

"Did she buy it?" Aya turned around and looked at Omi.

"Why wouldn't she? Is Aya-chan safe?"

"Hai Aya-kun, she's waiting for you. When will you and Ken-kun be leaving?" The redhead walked up to his team-mate and ruffled his hair.

"Sometime the day after tomorrow. Thanks for helping us Omi. I know this could get you into some serious trouble." The small blonde smiled.

"You don't have to thank me Aya-kun, I want to help. Yoji-kun and I don't know where you're going and Manx won't have any reason to think we had anything to do with this since we'll be the ones reporting you missing," Omi said softly.

"If something backfires you know how to get in touch with me, right?"

"Hai Aya-kun. Just take care of Ken-kun he needs you so much." At that Aya smiled.

"Hai he does and I need him a lot too."

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Yoji and Omi entered the Koneko in silence. They had spent all day answering questions about the two missing team-mates. For the most part they had answered with the truth. They didn't know where Ken and Aya were, they didn't know exactly when they had left or how. Why they did know but hadn't said anything about it. If Manx had seen through their lies she hadn't showed it or said anything about it.

"I guess it's just you and me now," Yoji said quietly and put his arm around Omi.

"Hai Yoji-kun. I'll miss them."

"So will I chibi, so will I," the older man sighed as they headed towards the kitchen.

*~*~*~*~*~*~

Two men walked down a dusky street hand in hand. The sun was just barely peeking up over the ocean. It was still warm outside and the air smelled of salt and sand. They stopped to watch as the golden ball of fire drowned in the water and disappeared. The taller one faced the shorter and pulled him close.

For a long time they just stood there holding each other. They shared a kiss and then turned around to walk back the same way they had come from. The shorter man, a brunette, leaned against the taller and sighed. His companion, a redhead, smiled softly and ran his slender pale fingers through soft hair.

It was obvious they were lovers, partners in life. As they approached a small house a girl in her late teens came running towards them. The two men parted slightly to allow her to settle between them. Together they entered the house in silence. No one knew who they were, where they had come from and no one cared.

In their neighbours' eyes they were a loving family however odd they may seem. They loved and protected each other just like all families and that was enough for most people who saw them. Inside the house the lights were turned on as the two men and the young woman settled down in the living-room.

The brunette leaned against his lover with a smile and the redhead hugged him tightly as he listened to the young woman. She told them about her day at school before she left them alone to go to bed. The two man stayed on the couch satisfied just with being close to each other.

They hid secrets but then again doesn't everybody? In the night sky stars twinkled as two lovers drifted to sleep, safe in each other's company, at least for the time being…

~OWARI~

It's all over now *pouts* Hm unless I decide to write a sequel I mean I did leave the door open for one ne? *chuckles sadly* I'm gonna miss this fic so much! *wipes tears* The ending was a bit lame though, wasn't it?

Now that it's over I want to thank my reviewers who's made sure it got this far. A huge thank you to Jin, fei, Siberian, Keeshe Kal'daka, Shavica, Cece, lorien, Whisper Reilman, Kyri, Teteiyus, Kamibukurosama, chibi koneko and everybody else! You've all been so wonderful!!!! Glomps and thanks to each and every one of you! Ja/Atsureki