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Rain Drops on Roses...
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The pavement sounded of rushed foot steps as Serena ran down the the road oblivious to the world around her. The wind rushed past her face blowing her hair in everywhich direction. She just kept running, she couldn't stop. She had to concentrate on running, left foot up, now the right. If she stopped she's have to think about other things... things that hurt too much to talk about...
How could he? How dare he! Darien couldn't just dump her like that, that's not the way it was supposed to happen. They were destined for each other. Didn't he care? Did he remember? What about the Moon Kingdom, they had been in love... love. Of all the things Serena believed in; fate, destiny, truth, justice, peace; love was the most important. She loved Darien, she knew it with every fiber of her body and spirit, it just seemed that he didn't love her anymore... could it be? Was it possible that Darien really didn't love her anymore? Of course it was! When Darien had broken the news to her she looked deep into his eyes, they were so cold, so... so love-less. At the time she had though she had seen a glint of sadness... of love? But now that Serena was out of the apartment and the fresh air was rushing into her tear streamed face as she ran down the streets it was clear that she had been deluding herself, clinging to her hope. Hope, with out love how could their be hope? There was no hope now, not for her and Darien... she was hopeless.
A loud horn followed by a crash and shouts ripped Serena out of her thoughts as she looked around dazed. She was standing in the middle of an unfamilliar intersection and there were these cars all banged up by the side of the road. 'People should really watch where they are going...' Serena thought vaguely, however; when she noticed the drivers walking menacingly toward her she decided perhaps she should leave. Dashing around the corner Serena found a bench and sat down, only then did she relize that the bench was green '... like Darien's beloved coat...' suddenly tears came rushing down her face in a torent of memories and promises of love.
"How could you!" Serena sobbed as she curled up on the bench pulling her sweater closer. It had gotten late and the clouds promised rain but it didn't matter to Serena, weather outside to match the weather inside. A drop of rain landed on the side walk in front of her, soon there were three more drops beside it. Numbly, Serena tried to connect the wet dots in her mind vainly for soon enough the the rain was coming down too fast. Serena's mind numb and blank from the pain latched onto a tune that was drifting from a radio somewhere near by.
-Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by...-
They had walked in to Darien's apartment after a delicious dinner at the new french resteruant. She was laughing and joking with him, how could she not? Her belly was full and was in the arms of the man she loved. Earlier that evening she had notice he seemed really quiet and almost sad, she had brushed it aside thinking that he had probably had a bad day...
-I've been searching deep down in my soul
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said...-
Her heart flipped when he sat down on the couch with his seriously ice-blue eyes.
"Serena, I..." His voice faultered. "I can't see you any more."
-Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to...-
"What?" Something had to be wrong, her ears were playing tricks on her.
"You heard me Serena, I said I can't see you anymore."
"Oh."
-I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right...-
She looked in to his eyes, besides the earth dropping out from under her something else didn't feel right. Cold, heartless, mind-searing, ice met her watery-blue eyes. For a moment she held his gaze before Darien ripped his eyes away to stare menacingly at the wall. No there was no mistake, he meant it.
-Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to...-
"Darien?" Her voice was shaky, like a child's who didn't understand.
"What?" His responded gruff and agitated.
"Is there something wrong? If there's a problem I know we can work it out. We always do!" Tears were streaming down her face while her words filled with desperation.
-And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time...-
"Serena, there is nothing wrong!" Dariens unpatient words caught her breath, she couldn't breathe. "I just don't love you anymore."
Black, dizziness, searing pain. Serena found her self clutching the arm of the sofa for support as she stood up. She felt weak and empty and she wanted to just collapse right there and cry into oblivion.
"What?" Her breath was short as she fought to keep her vision clear.
"I'm not exactly sure how to say this but..." Darien's voice was hesitant now, Serena silently braced herself for more bad news.
"Serena, I don't think I ever really loved you..."
-Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to...-
As his voice faded away so did all of Serena's strength, she collapse on to the floor and started gasping for breath. He never loved her, it was just pretened, how could he? A new rush of tears flooded her eyes and she curled up on the floor wracked up in sobs.
Darien was quickly beside her.
"Serena! Serena! Are you okay?" He reached down to pick her up but at his touch she wrenched herself away and unevenly stood up, almost losing her balance.
"Get your damn hands off me you monster!" Serena's screams resounded through the apartment as Darien just stared. Serena's face was red and puffy from crying and her eyes bloodshot, her breathing was un-even and loud as she stagger away from him. Darien's face screwed up for a moment in an expression that Serena might have called pain had she not already convinced her self that he didn't care. Suddenly his face boiled with anger.
"Leave Serena, leave right now and don't ever come back!" His voice was quiet and dangerous as Serena's eyes widend in horror. It was over, it was really over. She spun around and ran out the door, not even bothering to close it. Tears streaming down her face as she ran down the stairs. She reached the lobby and stopped and stared at the doors. Slowly she walked forward as they automatically opened and walked though into the street. With a quiet swish and finality the doors closed, it was over.
-And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star.-
Many hours later, Serena slowly opened her eyes to see that the sky had cleared up to reveal many twinkling stars and a glowing, full moon. Serena sighed and then relized that she had no idea where she was. As she sat up she noticed she was in the poorer end of town. Looking up at a sign she read: 'Hoshi Transit.' She must be at bus terminal. Looking around she found that there was a bus loading right at that moment.
"Well that's odd, it's rather late for a bus ride." Serena said to herself, relizing what exactly she had said, she quickly looked at her watch. "11:35 PM, well I guess it's not that late..."
She idly walked over to the bus thinking perhaps... well maybe not thinking at all. Her mind had gone numb long before now, no more tears left to cry just this empty space where... where Darien had ripped out her heart.
"A pox on Darien." She absently muttered to herself and then instantly regretting it. No matter how much it hurt and how much he hated her she still loved him, every gorgeous hair on his head and every beat of his heart. Suddenly a tenative voice broke though her thoughts.
"Uh, miss?" Serena looked up to find herself in front of the bus that had been loading and the driver was looking at her curiously.
"Yes?" She replied softly for her throat was still hoarse from crying.
"The fare miss, if you're going to ride the bus you have to pay the fare." Serena didn't really get what he was talking about but understood enough to tell that the driver wanted money from her. She absently reached into her pocket and pulled out a couple of coins and handed it to him while walking up the steps and then continued to walk to the back of the bus.
"Miss, miss? You gave me too much. Hello?" Relizing that she wasn't listening he shrugged and started the engine. It was going to be a long ride to Namoku.
~Back at Darien's Appartment~
Monster... that's what she had called him, a monster! And then she walked out the door, so cold and so angry... she hated him, she had to! It hurt, more than anything he had ever felt before. It wasn't the piercing pain of a sword or the prickling pain of dark energy. No, this was a pain unstoppable. It was a longing, a void, a vacum in his chest reachng out for something he couldn't have. When he had decided to break up with Serena he had thought that it would hurt, but he never thought it would hurt this much. Emptiness filled his body, a specific feeling that there was something missing. Not only did longing fill all of him, but hatred, hatred for himself. He had hurt her badly. Dairen knew how much he meant to her and to take that away from her like this... he could never forgive himself, never!
"Great!" He groaned as he sunk into his couch. He didn't think it would be possibly to sleep tonight. He sighed and closed his eyes briefly. Suddenly a sickening wave of nausea swept over his body along full relization of what had happend. He lurched up and staggered over to the bathroom and promptly threw-up. Just when Darien was convinced there was nothing left in his stomach an image of Serena's tear-stained and pained face danced across his vision. The world, along with his heart, bottomed out causing him to again lurch over the toilet and release the contents of his body.
After about a half an hour of numbly staring at the bottom of the toilet bowl he breifly rallied himself together and staggered out into the living room. He reached the closest wall and collapsed on it. As he slid down the wall to sit on the floor he looked across the floor to the bookcase and on the shelf level with him was a picture of all of the girls and him. For a while he stared at the young woman he was holding in his arms.
"Serena... I'm sorry." Darien gasped as pain shot through his body. "I love you..."
Suddenly there was a flash of light and Darien cried out in pain. After a few minutes of suffocating silence a tear trickled down his face as grief took over. A flood gate had opened and suddenly the cool, calm, collected Darien had curled up on the floor sobbing like a little boy. He chanted her name through the sobs as if saying her name might make her come back to him.
The rain fell and lightning flashed though the night but Darien stayed huddled on the floor.
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