Disclaimers: I own none of them
Summery: It's Pretty much Faith's Private thoughts about Buffy
Pairings: None although I'm sure faith would like there to be
Rating: Pretty much general with a little Aganst thrown in
Feedback: If you want to give it I'll take whatever you wanna throw my way.

Watching....

I stand & watch her wondering what's on her mind

When she looks my way is it the disgust that most feel

When they see me coming their way or is it pity she feels from knowing

That I've made the wrong choices in life leading me on a road that nobody should go down

I continue to watch as she laughs & jokes with her friends

Wishing it was me she was sitting next to instead of him

I close my eyes & imagine of holding her at night

Taking in the warmth of her skin

My fantasy continues as I think of the talks we could have & of how it would be

To lay next to her feeling how perfect her body would meld into mine

I imagine how perfect it would be waking each morning

Knowing the love she felt belonged to me

A noise brings me back & as I open my eyes

I see it's her that stands before me

Asking if everything's o.k.

I smile & tell her everything's fine

She returns the smile & lays a hand on my arm

Then turns to go back & join her friends

As she walks away I know she doesn't see

The one lonely tear that falls

As I realize nothing had ever been fine till I met her &

nothing would ever be. Because the love I feel for her

Would never be returned