Author's notes:None of the chara here belongs to me.This is my first time in writing a songfic.It's about Mito-san's thoughts after Jin left.The pain and...oh,what the heck!Just read it.
Just When I Needed You Most by Randy Van Warmer
You packed in the morning, I
Stared out the window, and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
There you were,trusting Gon to me.I couldn't understand why you want to leave your son.He was only a baby.I shouted at you and called you names.I tried to prevent you from leaving but to no avail.Still,you left.And you took with you my heart and left me pain.
Now I miss you more than I
Missed you before, and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most
I cried myself to sleep all those nights after you had left.I was very angry then I realized that the reason was not Gon but because you left me.I missed you so so much.I tried hating you,telling myself you're no good.The pain I had to suffer and the facade I had to keep up in front of Gon did nothing to hate you.Instead it even increased my love for you.
Now most ev'ry morning, I
Stare out the window, and I
Think about where you might be;
I've written you letters that I'd like to send,
If you would just send one to me
I spent every waking hour,since you left,waiting.Believing you'll come back.Gon has grown up knowing that you died.I feel sorry for him.I want to cradle him and tell him that you're alive.But where are my proof?Not once you had written a letter informing us that you're still alive and safe.You had not even gave me an address where I can send my letters to you.
Cause I need you more than I
Needed you before, and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most
Oh,how I need you Jin.I need your strength,Gon needs a father and most of all we need your love.It tears my heart thinking about that night.The night you had left us.Oh,Jin.You left me just when I needed you most.
You packed in the morning, I
Stared out the window, and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
How I wish you'd come back to us and maybe we could have a fresh beginning.Jin,I'll give you all the love you need.Just come back to us.Everyday I worry if you're still alive or are you well or safe.Come back to us,Jin.
Cause I love you more than I
Loved you before, and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
I love you so much.I loved you then,I love you now and I'll love you forever.Come back and give me a chance to show it to you.We can be a family again.You,me and Gon.
Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
I wish you hadn't left us...me.The pain will always be etched in my heart cause you left me just when I needed you most.
Just When I Needed You Most by Randy Van Warmer
You packed in the morning, I
Stared out the window, and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
There you were,trusting Gon to me.I couldn't understand why you want to leave your son.He was only a baby.I shouted at you and called you names.I tried to prevent you from leaving but to no avail.Still,you left.And you took with you my heart and left me pain.
Now I miss you more than I
Missed you before, and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most
I cried myself to sleep all those nights after you had left.I was very angry then I realized that the reason was not Gon but because you left me.I missed you so so much.I tried hating you,telling myself you're no good.The pain I had to suffer and the facade I had to keep up in front of Gon did nothing to hate you.Instead it even increased my love for you.
Now most ev'ry morning, I
Stare out the window, and I
Think about where you might be;
I've written you letters that I'd like to send,
If you would just send one to me
I spent every waking hour,since you left,waiting.Believing you'll come back.Gon has grown up knowing that you died.I feel sorry for him.I want to cradle him and tell him that you're alive.But where are my proof?Not once you had written a letter informing us that you're still alive and safe.You had not even gave me an address where I can send my letters to you.
Cause I need you more than I
Needed you before, and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most
Oh,how I need you Jin.I need your strength,Gon needs a father and most of all we need your love.It tears my heart thinking about that night.The night you had left us.Oh,Jin.You left me just when I needed you most.
You packed in the morning, I
Stared out the window, and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
How I wish you'd come back to us and maybe we could have a fresh beginning.Jin,I'll give you all the love you need.Just come back to us.Everyday I worry if you're still alive or are you well or safe.Come back to us,Jin.
Cause I love you more than I
Loved you before, and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
I love you so much.I loved you then,I love you now and I'll love you forever.Come back and give me a chance to show it to you.We can be a family again.You,me and Gon.
Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
I wish you hadn't left us...me.The pain will always be etched in my heart cause you left me just when I needed you most.