CHAPTER 3
Diana evidently had feelings for Christian, which she was still trying to understand. She felt safe with him, she felt protected, and she felt stronger. She felt comfortable around him and she wasn't afraid of anything when around him. She felt like a completely different, and better person. She didn't feel like that little rich girl from London but she felt sincere and genuine. She sat at her dresser and looked into the dirty mirror. She never felt so confused in her life. She new she was starting a new life but this was something she was not expecting. "You light me up and then I fall for you." She sang. "You lay me down and then I call for you. Stumbling on reasons that are far and few." She trailed off looking deep into her own eyes almost welling with tears. This was all torture to her. She hated it and she wanted to get away. But that was why she was here, to get away from her past. Her past that she feared with her life.
Christian, on the other hand, was looking out his window thinking about life, something he hadn't reflected on in a while. He thought about the death of his beautiful Satine and the death of a dear friend, Toulouse. How he missed them both. He thought about them and how they lived their lives the best they knew how. Toulouse's voice echoed in his head "I know she loves you Christian.. I long for it with every fiber of my being." And then the beautiful voice of Satine "Come what may.you've got to go one Christian." His eyes filled with tears. "You've got to go on." But how does one go on after so much happens in his life. Then Diana's voiced popped in his head. "My parents were murdered, in our own home." His heart then went out to her. She lost her parents. She was probably the strongest person he knew but as thought about it, she was basically the only person he knew. He would see the Argentinean every now and then and Satie was trying to make money off the streets by playing his music. Harold Zidler, God knows what happened to him. He hasn't seen him since Satine's funeral. But Diana, she was absolutely stunning. Her long, curly brown hair matching her deep brown eyes. Her smile that could light up a room. The fact that she wanted to learn more was impressive. Finding out that she never knew of homeless children was, through his eyes, was incredible cute. And she was a writer, something they both shared a passion for. She could put her writing to music very easily. She was evidently artistic. In a way, she was too good to be true. Flawless. Be he, he was frightened. Terrified that his heart would be broken once more. He let himself fall in love once and it turned out for the worst. But as he sat and thought about it, those days with Satine were the greatest days of his life. But then he fought with himself "How could you replace Satine?" He was torn and knew not what to do.
Diana walked outside to get herself some food to last her the day. As she walked the streets people looked at her but she only smiled back. Her heart was filled with such joy for some reason and she figured why be so selfish as to keep the feeling to herself when she can share it. As she walked to the store she saw a familiar young face. It was Katie. Katie grinned at Diana, and ran and gave her a hug.
"Why hello there." Diana laughed.
"Thank you for the food." Katie said looked up.
"You're very welcome. Where are your two friends?"
"They are over there." Katie pointed in the opposite direction. They boys stood there. Tommy's hand on Kris's shoulder. Kris's fingers where in his mouth as he smiled. Diana grinned and she walked over to them with Katie by her side.
"Hey you two." She said knelling down. Kris leaned into Tommy, very shy- like. "Oh don't be shy." Diana smiled.
"He says that you are very pretty." Tommy said to her.
"Did you really say that?" Kris only smiled. "Well you are a very handsome young man." Kris still smiled.
"Are you new here?" Katie asked.
"Why yes I am."
"Well, my parents were taking away from me actually so I came here looking for something special." She said to her.
"Where did your parents go?" Katie asked.
"Let's just say that God needed them."
"God needed our mommy." Katie said. "Tommy has a letter from our mommy and daddy but we don't know what it says."
"Well," Diana said. "Do you have it?"
"No, it is in our special spot."
"Well how about later today you show it to me and I will read it to you."
"What are you looking for here?" Tommy asked.
"What?"
"You said you came here looking for something special. What are you looking for?"
Diana smiled and laughed. He was so cute. "Um, I'm not sure yet."
"Well then how do you know what it is?" Tommy asked.
"When I find it, I'll know."
"Tommy, lets go get the letter." Katie said looking at her older brother. "Can we see you when the sun is above the Moulin Rouge." Katie asked.
"Of course. Right here?"
"Yeah."
"Alright."
"Okay.bye Diana." Katie said as the three of them ran away from her. She laughed and stood up.
"You're very good with kids." A voice said. She turned around to see Christian.
"Oh, Christian, you startled me." She said putting her hand over her chest. "What are you doing here?"
"Well if you haven't noticed, I always come out to town in the mornings." He said holding a newspaper. "So are those the kids you saw yesterday?"
"Yes."
"I see them walking around here all the time. They are adorable."
"I know." She said walking into the store, Christian followed. "They want me to read a note that there mother and father gave them before they, I'm guessing, passed away."
"I heard."
"But," She said nervously. "I don't know if I can read the whole thing. Would you mind coming with me? You know, if I can't get through the whole thing."
"Sure." Christian said quickly taking Diana by surprise. "Just come get me when it's time to go."
"Great. Well, it's when the sun is above the Moulin Rouge, whenever that is."
"Oh, that's not until sun set."
"Oh, well, then um, I guess I have most of the day off. Do you want to work on the story."?
"I'd love to."
Diana felt herself getting nervous around Christian and she worried if he was able to read it on her face that she was slowly but surely falling in love with him. She never felt such a feeling and she knew that as it got better, it would hurt even more. How was he to know?
Christian harbored so much love in him only didn't realize it. He had so much love to offer but didn't know how to show it. That day all he could do was push away painful memories and start over. He had to let go of the past but he had to make sure he would never forget.
At around sun set the two walked over to where they were that morning. Before they knew it three little children ran up to them, Kris holding a piece of paper. The slowed down when they saw that strange man next to Diana. "Don't worry," She told them. "This is my friend Christian." She introduced. "Christian, this is Kris, Tommy and the lovely Katie." They smiled at him before Kris slowly walked over giving her the piece of paper. Diana looked at it skimming it before she read it. "DO you want to go sit down somewhere before we read it?"
The five of them walked over to a small circle that was at the end of an ally way. There was one chair that Diana saw in. The three kids sat on the ground in front of her and Christian leaned against the wall beside her. Diana cleared her throat before reading the letter. "To my dear Children, Kristopher, Kathrine, and Thomas." She began. The children looked at her, clearly excited. She looked back at the paper and continued to read. "When God called you daddy mommy was very sad but was joyous when I found out that I was pregnant with Kristopher and Kathrine. You two never new your daddy but he was a very good man. He cared for mommy and Thomas very much. But I am afraid that God is calling me now. Fear not because I am in the arms of the angels and they will take good care of me. I am not scared because I know that I will be with your father and that we will both be watching over you from Heaven. Grow up to be the best you can be. Don't let anyone tell you that you can't do something because you can. Thomas, you are in charge now and I pray that you will watch over your baby brother and sister. Kathrine, you are mommy's angel and always remember that. Just keep a smile on your face sweetheart. Grow up, get married and have children. Be a mommy like me. To my darling Kristopher, reach for the stars. Don't be afraid of anything because mommy and daddy are with you. You also have an older brother and a twin sister who will always look out for you." Diana stopped and took a deep breath. "I know.I know." She studdered. "I know things have." She whipped a tear. Christian knelt down.
"Do you want me to read?" He asked. Diana just shook her head yes and handed the paper to him. Christian took it and finsihed reading the letter to the kids. "I know things haven't been easy but I promise you that if you hold your heads up high you will live an amazing life. Remember that possetions aren't everything. You can't buy happiness, you can't by friendship, and most importantly, you cannot buy love. Toys will break but love lasts a lifetime. Be yourself and you will go far. I love you with all my heart and one day we will all be together as a family. But until then, I love you and good-bye. With all the love I can give, Mom." He finished. Diana looked at him and smiled. She calmed herself down and then looked at the kids.
Within that week they had finished the fist skit that would be done for the children at the playhouse. The next step was to put it together. Diana would sing most of the songs for the children but they had put together a small skit about two people, one who wanted to fall in love and the other who didn't.
"So where are we going to find someone to be handsome, young, talented, poet?" Diana asked Christian walking around his room with the script in her hand. She looked over and Christian and raised an eyebrow.
"Oh no," He said. "I can't."
"Why not?"
"Because, I haven't.I.I just can't." He looked down at the floor to avoid looking at Diana.
"Come on, you are perfect. You are handsome," She said making Christian turn red. "You are young, talented and hey!" She put her hands in the air. "You're a poet! Now what are the odds of that huh?"
"I can't."
"Christian, I understand where you are coming from but this is a twenty minute skit for children. Don't you want to put smiles on those children's faces?" Christian was silent. "And besides," She continued. "It will do you some good."
Christian looked at her. She stood there with that big smile on her face. He tried not to laugh at her attempt. He took a deep breath and thought about it. "I haven't done anything like this in a long time. I might be rusty." He gave in.
"You'll do it?!"
"Yes."
Diana shrieked and gave him a hug. From them on, it was all practice for the children. Christian organized three performances. All three was for their short skit. This skit would teach children to never be afraid to take a chance, especially on love because its better try than live with the wonderment of what could have been.
Diana tried her hardest not to think of Christian but she couldn't help it. She saw him every day and as each day went by she found herself falling even more. She hated falling for him because she knew that it was something that could never be. Amazing how much her life was like her character in the performance. It wasn't as big as "Spectacular Spectacular" but the feeling was still there.
But in Christian, the feelings were the same. "Silly me," His own voice echoed in his head. "To think that you could fall in love with someone like me." Something he once said to Satine and now he feels the same with Diana. How could he so cruel to her when they first met? He pushed her away and knew that he couldn't get her back. He sat on his windows ledge and looked over the Moulin Rouge. "Girl I'm falling falling, girl I'm falling for you. And I pray your falling too. I've been falling, falling, ever since the moment, I laid eyes on you." He sang.
Meanwhile, Diana walked over to her window singing, "I loose my step, I loose my ground, I loose myself when you're around. I'm holding on for my life to keep from drowning in your eyes. Boy what have you done to me to make me fall so desperately? How am I supposed to live if I can't get over this and you decided that you don't feel same? Cause I'm falling falling boy I'm falling for you."
And they both sang the same thing. "And I pray your falling.too." They each stopped and sighed. Christian, however stayed at his window as Diana decided she needed to do something about how she felt. She walked out her window onto the ledge. She walked over to Christian's window to see him sitting there. It scared her and she jumped. He smiled at her and she calmed herself.
"You told me that when you are in love your heart is shooting stars." She said. Christian stood up and gazed into her eyes. "And that when you find it don't let go." He voice became shaky and she was evidently nervous. "I know what love feels like." She said trying to smile. Christian, leaned in and in that moment, their lips met in a kiss. A soft, slow, beautiful kiss. When they separated, they looked into each other's eyes but only for a moment and their lips, yet again, met. From that moment on Diana knew what love really was. She was in love and it seemed, as though so was he.
But just like any other love story, there was a force even stronger than love. As Diana sat in her room she got a letter that sent a chill up her spine. Her rosy checks turned white once she read it and her eyes filled with tears. She became frightened but tried not to panic. But she couldn't shake the feeling away. She grabbed her jacket and ran out to the bitter cold. Christian saw her running from his room and he decided to run after her. "Where could she be going?" He thought. He didn't want her to leave him. She ran down the streets of Paris. She pushed people to the side as she ran through crowds. She didn't care, she just needed to run but she didn't even know where she was going. As she ran, the knot in her stomach grew and she could run anymore. She stopped and fell to the grounded as she began to cry. Christian eventually found her. He saw her crying and ran as fast as he could to get to her.
"Diana.what's-what's wrong?" He asked putting his hand around her pulling her shaking body towards him.
"It's not fair!" She cried.
"What? What's not fair?"
She didn't say anything, she only cried. Christian tried his best to calm her down. "Shhh.." He didn't know what else to do. He tried to hum sweet melodies in her ear but nothing seemed to work. As they sat there for a while, Diana wrapped in the warmth of his arms she began to tell him what had happened.
"They.they got my grandparents." She cried. "They got my grandmother and grandfather." She sobbed on his shoulder. "I am so scared."
"Shh.it's okay. You'll be all right. You are away from all that. Everything will be okay. I won't let anything happen I promise. Nothing will hurt you." He kissed her forehead and rocked her in his arms. "It will-It will be okay. Nothing will ever hurt you."
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Diana evidently had feelings for Christian, which she was still trying to understand. She felt safe with him, she felt protected, and she felt stronger. She felt comfortable around him and she wasn't afraid of anything when around him. She felt like a completely different, and better person. She didn't feel like that little rich girl from London but she felt sincere and genuine. She sat at her dresser and looked into the dirty mirror. She never felt so confused in her life. She new she was starting a new life but this was something she was not expecting. "You light me up and then I fall for you." She sang. "You lay me down and then I call for you. Stumbling on reasons that are far and few." She trailed off looking deep into her own eyes almost welling with tears. This was all torture to her. She hated it and she wanted to get away. But that was why she was here, to get away from her past. Her past that she feared with her life.
Christian, on the other hand, was looking out his window thinking about life, something he hadn't reflected on in a while. He thought about the death of his beautiful Satine and the death of a dear friend, Toulouse. How he missed them both. He thought about them and how they lived their lives the best they knew how. Toulouse's voice echoed in his head "I know she loves you Christian.. I long for it with every fiber of my being." And then the beautiful voice of Satine "Come what may.you've got to go one Christian." His eyes filled with tears. "You've got to go on." But how does one go on after so much happens in his life. Then Diana's voiced popped in his head. "My parents were murdered, in our own home." His heart then went out to her. She lost her parents. She was probably the strongest person he knew but as thought about it, she was basically the only person he knew. He would see the Argentinean every now and then and Satie was trying to make money off the streets by playing his music. Harold Zidler, God knows what happened to him. He hasn't seen him since Satine's funeral. But Diana, she was absolutely stunning. Her long, curly brown hair matching her deep brown eyes. Her smile that could light up a room. The fact that she wanted to learn more was impressive. Finding out that she never knew of homeless children was, through his eyes, was incredible cute. And she was a writer, something they both shared a passion for. She could put her writing to music very easily. She was evidently artistic. In a way, she was too good to be true. Flawless. Be he, he was frightened. Terrified that his heart would be broken once more. He let himself fall in love once and it turned out for the worst. But as he sat and thought about it, those days with Satine were the greatest days of his life. But then he fought with himself "How could you replace Satine?" He was torn and knew not what to do.
Diana walked outside to get herself some food to last her the day. As she walked the streets people looked at her but she only smiled back. Her heart was filled with such joy for some reason and she figured why be so selfish as to keep the feeling to herself when she can share it. As she walked to the store she saw a familiar young face. It was Katie. Katie grinned at Diana, and ran and gave her a hug.
"Why hello there." Diana laughed.
"Thank you for the food." Katie said looked up.
"You're very welcome. Where are your two friends?"
"They are over there." Katie pointed in the opposite direction. They boys stood there. Tommy's hand on Kris's shoulder. Kris's fingers where in his mouth as he smiled. Diana grinned and she walked over to them with Katie by her side.
"Hey you two." She said knelling down. Kris leaned into Tommy, very shy- like. "Oh don't be shy." Diana smiled.
"He says that you are very pretty." Tommy said to her.
"Did you really say that?" Kris only smiled. "Well you are a very handsome young man." Kris still smiled.
"Are you new here?" Katie asked.
"Why yes I am."
"Well, my parents were taking away from me actually so I came here looking for something special." She said to her.
"Where did your parents go?" Katie asked.
"Let's just say that God needed them."
"God needed our mommy." Katie said. "Tommy has a letter from our mommy and daddy but we don't know what it says."
"Well," Diana said. "Do you have it?"
"No, it is in our special spot."
"Well how about later today you show it to me and I will read it to you."
"What are you looking for here?" Tommy asked.
"What?"
"You said you came here looking for something special. What are you looking for?"
Diana smiled and laughed. He was so cute. "Um, I'm not sure yet."
"Well then how do you know what it is?" Tommy asked.
"When I find it, I'll know."
"Tommy, lets go get the letter." Katie said looking at her older brother. "Can we see you when the sun is above the Moulin Rouge." Katie asked.
"Of course. Right here?"
"Yeah."
"Alright."
"Okay.bye Diana." Katie said as the three of them ran away from her. She laughed and stood up.
"You're very good with kids." A voice said. She turned around to see Christian.
"Oh, Christian, you startled me." She said putting her hand over her chest. "What are you doing here?"
"Well if you haven't noticed, I always come out to town in the mornings." He said holding a newspaper. "So are those the kids you saw yesterday?"
"Yes."
"I see them walking around here all the time. They are adorable."
"I know." She said walking into the store, Christian followed. "They want me to read a note that there mother and father gave them before they, I'm guessing, passed away."
"I heard."
"But," She said nervously. "I don't know if I can read the whole thing. Would you mind coming with me? You know, if I can't get through the whole thing."
"Sure." Christian said quickly taking Diana by surprise. "Just come get me when it's time to go."
"Great. Well, it's when the sun is above the Moulin Rouge, whenever that is."
"Oh, that's not until sun set."
"Oh, well, then um, I guess I have most of the day off. Do you want to work on the story."?
"I'd love to."
Diana felt herself getting nervous around Christian and she worried if he was able to read it on her face that she was slowly but surely falling in love with him. She never felt such a feeling and she knew that as it got better, it would hurt even more. How was he to know?
Christian harbored so much love in him only didn't realize it. He had so much love to offer but didn't know how to show it. That day all he could do was push away painful memories and start over. He had to let go of the past but he had to make sure he would never forget.
At around sun set the two walked over to where they were that morning. Before they knew it three little children ran up to them, Kris holding a piece of paper. The slowed down when they saw that strange man next to Diana. "Don't worry," She told them. "This is my friend Christian." She introduced. "Christian, this is Kris, Tommy and the lovely Katie." They smiled at him before Kris slowly walked over giving her the piece of paper. Diana looked at it skimming it before she read it. "DO you want to go sit down somewhere before we read it?"
The five of them walked over to a small circle that was at the end of an ally way. There was one chair that Diana saw in. The three kids sat on the ground in front of her and Christian leaned against the wall beside her. Diana cleared her throat before reading the letter. "To my dear Children, Kristopher, Kathrine, and Thomas." She began. The children looked at her, clearly excited. She looked back at the paper and continued to read. "When God called you daddy mommy was very sad but was joyous when I found out that I was pregnant with Kristopher and Kathrine. You two never new your daddy but he was a very good man. He cared for mommy and Thomas very much. But I am afraid that God is calling me now. Fear not because I am in the arms of the angels and they will take good care of me. I am not scared because I know that I will be with your father and that we will both be watching over you from Heaven. Grow up to be the best you can be. Don't let anyone tell you that you can't do something because you can. Thomas, you are in charge now and I pray that you will watch over your baby brother and sister. Kathrine, you are mommy's angel and always remember that. Just keep a smile on your face sweetheart. Grow up, get married and have children. Be a mommy like me. To my darling Kristopher, reach for the stars. Don't be afraid of anything because mommy and daddy are with you. You also have an older brother and a twin sister who will always look out for you." Diana stopped and took a deep breath. "I know.I know." She studdered. "I know things have." She whipped a tear. Christian knelt down.
"Do you want me to read?" He asked. Diana just shook her head yes and handed the paper to him. Christian took it and finsihed reading the letter to the kids. "I know things haven't been easy but I promise you that if you hold your heads up high you will live an amazing life. Remember that possetions aren't everything. You can't buy happiness, you can't by friendship, and most importantly, you cannot buy love. Toys will break but love lasts a lifetime. Be yourself and you will go far. I love you with all my heart and one day we will all be together as a family. But until then, I love you and good-bye. With all the love I can give, Mom." He finished. Diana looked at him and smiled. She calmed herself down and then looked at the kids.
Within that week they had finished the fist skit that would be done for the children at the playhouse. The next step was to put it together. Diana would sing most of the songs for the children but they had put together a small skit about two people, one who wanted to fall in love and the other who didn't.
"So where are we going to find someone to be handsome, young, talented, poet?" Diana asked Christian walking around his room with the script in her hand. She looked over and Christian and raised an eyebrow.
"Oh no," He said. "I can't."
"Why not?"
"Because, I haven't.I.I just can't." He looked down at the floor to avoid looking at Diana.
"Come on, you are perfect. You are handsome," She said making Christian turn red. "You are young, talented and hey!" She put her hands in the air. "You're a poet! Now what are the odds of that huh?"
"I can't."
"Christian, I understand where you are coming from but this is a twenty minute skit for children. Don't you want to put smiles on those children's faces?" Christian was silent. "And besides," She continued. "It will do you some good."
Christian looked at her. She stood there with that big smile on her face. He tried not to laugh at her attempt. He took a deep breath and thought about it. "I haven't done anything like this in a long time. I might be rusty." He gave in.
"You'll do it?!"
"Yes."
Diana shrieked and gave him a hug. From them on, it was all practice for the children. Christian organized three performances. All three was for their short skit. This skit would teach children to never be afraid to take a chance, especially on love because its better try than live with the wonderment of what could have been.
Diana tried her hardest not to think of Christian but she couldn't help it. She saw him every day and as each day went by she found herself falling even more. She hated falling for him because she knew that it was something that could never be. Amazing how much her life was like her character in the performance. It wasn't as big as "Spectacular Spectacular" but the feeling was still there.
But in Christian, the feelings were the same. "Silly me," His own voice echoed in his head. "To think that you could fall in love with someone like me." Something he once said to Satine and now he feels the same with Diana. How could he so cruel to her when they first met? He pushed her away and knew that he couldn't get her back. He sat on his windows ledge and looked over the Moulin Rouge. "Girl I'm falling falling, girl I'm falling for you. And I pray your falling too. I've been falling, falling, ever since the moment, I laid eyes on you." He sang.
Meanwhile, Diana walked over to her window singing, "I loose my step, I loose my ground, I loose myself when you're around. I'm holding on for my life to keep from drowning in your eyes. Boy what have you done to me to make me fall so desperately? How am I supposed to live if I can't get over this and you decided that you don't feel same? Cause I'm falling falling boy I'm falling for you."
And they both sang the same thing. "And I pray your falling.too." They each stopped and sighed. Christian, however stayed at his window as Diana decided she needed to do something about how she felt. She walked out her window onto the ledge. She walked over to Christian's window to see him sitting there. It scared her and she jumped. He smiled at her and she calmed herself.
"You told me that when you are in love your heart is shooting stars." She said. Christian stood up and gazed into her eyes. "And that when you find it don't let go." He voice became shaky and she was evidently nervous. "I know what love feels like." She said trying to smile. Christian, leaned in and in that moment, their lips met in a kiss. A soft, slow, beautiful kiss. When they separated, they looked into each other's eyes but only for a moment and their lips, yet again, met. From that moment on Diana knew what love really was. She was in love and it seemed, as though so was he.
But just like any other love story, there was a force even stronger than love. As Diana sat in her room she got a letter that sent a chill up her spine. Her rosy checks turned white once she read it and her eyes filled with tears. She became frightened but tried not to panic. But she couldn't shake the feeling away. She grabbed her jacket and ran out to the bitter cold. Christian saw her running from his room and he decided to run after her. "Where could she be going?" He thought. He didn't want her to leave him. She ran down the streets of Paris. She pushed people to the side as she ran through crowds. She didn't care, she just needed to run but she didn't even know where she was going. As she ran, the knot in her stomach grew and she could run anymore. She stopped and fell to the grounded as she began to cry. Christian eventually found her. He saw her crying and ran as fast as he could to get to her.
"Diana.what's-what's wrong?" He asked putting his hand around her pulling her shaking body towards him.
"It's not fair!" She cried.
"What? What's not fair?"
She didn't say anything, she only cried. Christian tried his best to calm her down. "Shhh.." He didn't know what else to do. He tried to hum sweet melodies in her ear but nothing seemed to work. As they sat there for a while, Diana wrapped in the warmth of his arms she began to tell him what had happened.
"They.they got my grandparents." She cried. "They got my grandmother and grandfather." She sobbed on his shoulder. "I am so scared."
"Shh.it's okay. You'll be all right. You are away from all that. Everything will be okay. I won't let anything happen I promise. Nothing will hurt you." He kissed her forehead and rocked her in his arms. "It will-It will be okay. Nothing will ever hurt you."
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