Prologue
*Why? When it all comes down to it, the only question left to ask is, "Why?" Why are we here? Why am I here? Why did this happen to me? Why was I ever born in the first place? I know what you're wondering. Why am I acting this way? Am I just some depressed kid who doesn't know that the love they need is right in front of them? Well, let me ask you a question, have you ever felt so betrayed that you begin to question your very existence? What about feeling so empty that not even your closest friends could bring life into you, when all they tried to do was kill you further? Have you ever felt that you just don't belong in this world anymore? I have, but you might never believe that if you were to casually meet me on the street. I won't tell you my name right now, for you have no need of it, only my story; the name you shall learn in time should you not guess before I reveal it to you.
I grew up like any normal girl in Japan. I went to school, I had friends, I had the perfect, loving family — a mother, father, and brother. Sounds like the perfect life doesn't it? Not a care in the world. That's what I thought too, at least for the first fourteen years of my life. When I turned fourteen, it all changed. I met a cat by the name of Luna. She informed me of my destiny' as Sailormoon. By now it should be obvious that I also go by the name of Tsukino Usagi, Rabbit of the Moon'. A fitting name, don't you think? Anyway, my story began that horrid day Luna walked into my life. From that day forth I had a nagging cat-guardian, four horrible friends, and a cheating boyfriend. My parents even began to treat me differently the day Luna followed me into the house forever. I think that subconsciously they knew I wasn't truly their daughter anymore, that I was once the princess of a long forgotten kingdom. What, you never knew I received all of my memories of the Silver Millennium the first day I met Luna? Why do you think I was so afraid when she first appeared? It wasn't because she could talk, as everyone assumed, I was afraid I would have to go back to the way things had been. I purposely made everyone think I knew nothing to stall the reawakening of what the Silver Millennium had been for me. It was pure hell. My so call "friends" were horrible and my fiancée even worse. Anyway, I knew that once Endymion's memories returned I would have to reveal myself. I only went through with becoming Sailormoon in the first place because I knew my mother would have wished me to try again, and so I did. I tried to make friends with my Senshi, even love my betrothed. They weren't as patient with me as I them though. I had thought, because they didn't have all their memories back yet, that by not acting like a princess they would see me as a person and open their hearts to me. How wrong I was. My attempt to truly become their friend backfired in my face. I was criticized at every move I made. If I fell down, not because I was clumsy but because being Tsuki-jin I wasn't used to the gravity of Chikyuu, I was scolded, mocked, or laughed at. Tests, what could they tell you about a person? I am actually quite smart, but they never guessed that my scores were so horrible because I was bored because I already knew the information, or that maybe, just maybe, being a Sailor Senshi and trying to become friends with those I hated was wearing me out. All the Senshi did was criticize. Although this treatment was very hard for me, especially since I was only a fourteen year girl (re-incarnated princess or not), I kept up the charade because I still had hope. They never understood that though, only the Outers ever looked past my façade. Saturn, being the youngest and also having all of her memories from days gone by (AN: she's the Senshi of rebirth, she needs her memories and like Moon, she can never die, only be killed and reborn. Confusing, I know. Just think about it this way: Moon = light, Saturn = dark. You can't have light without dark.), was the most trusting and understanding of all. Sadly though, even they couldn't be saved from the wrath from the wrath of my so-called friends. It happened right after the battle with Galaxia and Chaos. I became Cosmos when my Senshi died for me. I guess the legend of the lone Senshi was true, first I lost all my friends in battle, then I lost the Outers to raging Inners. They took a blast from the betraying Senshi that was meant for me. Why would they betray and try to kill me? Simple, in their eyes, I wasn't fit to be princess. It is truly sad how little they really knew me after thousands years of fighting together, and they still didn't have their complete memories. After their killing of my dearest friends, even though I knew Hotaru would eventually return, I knew it was time to rid the world of their deceit once and for all, before they had a chance to destroy any more innocent lives. I was forced to kill those I had almost come to think of as companions. Almost. I looked around with tears in my eyes, the damage to the city was devastating. Although the Senshi were brought back, the rest of the city could never return. I raised my right hand high into the air and called upon my Cosmos Staff(couldn't think of a better name). "Holy Ginzuishou, hear my plea! There is nothing left in this world for me. Take me away so that I may once again help a world in need. Send me to the future when my powers will be best served. Death, I would wish for, but this cannot be. Instead, help me let others live. I call upon you, Holy Ginzuishou!! I, Ruler of the Cosmos, Child of Light, Daughter of the Stars, Senshi of Justice, call upon you! Hear my plea! Come to my aid! This, Holy Ginzuishou, is my wish. By the powers given to you by the Moon, grant thy master's wish!" And with that, I was gone, never to reappear in that time again. That leads me to the end of my story, or is it the beginning? No matter, now, I wait for the time for Cosmos to return once more.*