A/n: This one goes out to my own best pal, I wouldn't be where I am today
without her and I'd probably lose myself if I ever lost her.
Missing Something
Mulder. Just the name made my heart wrench in pain. How could he just go and disappear on me like that? Leaving me here to wonder.and worry. How could he do this to me? I miss him some much I can't even begin to explain it. It's unlike any emotion I've ever experienced before. I remember losing my sister and while that was painful, it doesn't compare to not having my partner and best friend here. Without Mulder I feel like I'm missing something that should be there, I feel like I've lost my other half. No one knows what I'm going through, really. Not Skinner, not Monica, not my mother, not anyone. Sure they all know I must miss him, that's obvious, but no of them know how deep it goes. None of them know what Mulder truly means to me. Without Mulder it just doesn't feel right, but since no one else knows me the way he does, I've just continued on keeping the same old Scully front on the outside. I can't bring myself to open up to anyone so no one knows that my nights are sleepless and filled with nothing but thoughts of him or that behind my forced smile is pain and grief. Mulder means everything to me so no matter how hopeless it may seem that I'll ever see him again, I'll never stop looking and hoping. Mulder and I have been through a lot together in these past few years and I've come to love him so much that I could never let myself give up on, no matter how painful it is.
A/n: Well that's it. Tell me what ya think, just no flame, alright? Good. You humble writer- -Samantha J. Mulder
Missing Something
Mulder. Just the name made my heart wrench in pain. How could he just go and disappear on me like that? Leaving me here to wonder.and worry. How could he do this to me? I miss him some much I can't even begin to explain it. It's unlike any emotion I've ever experienced before. I remember losing my sister and while that was painful, it doesn't compare to not having my partner and best friend here. Without Mulder I feel like I'm missing something that should be there, I feel like I've lost my other half. No one knows what I'm going through, really. Not Skinner, not Monica, not my mother, not anyone. Sure they all know I must miss him, that's obvious, but no of them know how deep it goes. None of them know what Mulder truly means to me. Without Mulder it just doesn't feel right, but since no one else knows me the way he does, I've just continued on keeping the same old Scully front on the outside. I can't bring myself to open up to anyone so no one knows that my nights are sleepless and filled with nothing but thoughts of him or that behind my forced smile is pain and grief. Mulder means everything to me so no matter how hopeless it may seem that I'll ever see him again, I'll never stop looking and hoping. Mulder and I have been through a lot together in these past few years and I've come to love him so much that I could never let myself give up on, no matter how painful it is.
A/n: Well that's it. Tell me what ya think, just no flame, alright? Good. You humble writer- -Samantha J. Mulder