A/N - I might as well say this now: Spoilers ahead!
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Regrets
I have so many
They're countless, numerous
All of them sorrowful
None of them humorous
Braska and Jecht
Are lost because of lies
About Yevon and Sin
I miss you guys…
I need to put an end to this
The torment, the pain
Now, I wonder
If I could still be sane
Ten years have gone
Ten years have flown
Ten years I've hidden away
Everything I've known
I regret losing Braska
His sacrifice was pointless
Sin is always reborn
Killing it is nearly useless
Most of all I regret
Letting Jecht become the Final Aeon
I wanted to find a way to
Change things, but I thought of none
And now, here I am
Incapable to stop Sin unaided
I'm using their children…
Can't say that I'm elated
Could I kill Sin?
No, I couldn't
And yet, would I give up?
No, I wouldn't
Now I'll regret
Killing my best friend
But I wouldn't regret
Making his agony end.
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A/N - 8/31/02 - Wow this turned out different than I intended. I had an idea to write something on Auron's regrets when he was alive, then it almost completely changed to his regrets of losing his friends and his hope to let Jecht rest in peace. Maybe it's because I'm going through a bit of a problem in wanting to help my own friends, and regretting losing others. Wow I think I'm right. Hmm if Auron was equal to me, then Braska is like the friends I've lost due to numerous reasons, and Jecht is like my ignorant friends who I want to help. Like Jecht, they were stubborn, but when they realized that they can't stop themselves, they ask for help from their friends.
I think I'm starting to scare myself with my relation to Auron. Errr…O_o I have way too many similarities to him! You'd be surprised…