A/N: This is my very first fanfic. Please review but be kind. LOLZ
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters and etc. because Amy Sherman Paladino owns it. I wish I did though, but unfortunately all I own is the idea for this fanfic.
Pairing: R/J haha don't be confused because bag boy is involved.
Dean
I stood there waiting for Rory to answer the door. I didn't even know what I was doing here. She probably hated my guts and didn't wanna see my shadow or me. 'Dean what are you doing here?' I asked my self. Just then Rory opened the door and asked the same thing.
"Dean what are you doing here?" Her face was radiant and seemed like she was happy to see me. I her hand in mine. I said nothing at first but just looked down at the ground. I tried to get the words out but I went blank. I wanted to tell her 'Rory I love you. I'm sorry. I forgive you for everything. I don't care that you kissed Jess. I still love you.' Instead of saying this unexpected words came out of my mouth.
"I just wanted to do this one last time before." I leaned over and kissed her gently almost delicate. I knew this would be the last chance I would ever get to do this. The last time eternally that I would ever feel the tenderness of her lips on mine.
"Before what? You go off to join the army?"
I chuckled. Then I paused and the serious feeling of sorrow came over me again. I looked deeply into her eyes and placed my hand on her cheek very gently. It took me a moment to get the words out.
"Rory, Jess cares about you. a lot. I know that he loves you and that he wants to be with you and I know that you do too."
"Dean, if this is about the kiss you're wrong. It didn't mean anything. It was a mistake okay?" "No, Rory it wasn't a mistake. it was meant to happen. Jess loves you. and I could sense that you had a thing for him too. I tried to deny it all and pretend that none of it was there. But when I found out about the kiss. I realized what I had to do. I don't wanna pretend anymore Rory. I should have done this before but I couldn't accept it because I loved you too much but that was totally selfish of me and I knew it.
I acted like such a jealous freak and an over possessive monster all the time because I knew that you were fading away from my world. I knew you had feelings for Jess and I ignored it but when I found out about the kiss. that's when I realized that you're falling deeply for him. I'm sorry that I hadn't done the right thing sooner Rory. I can't change the way you feel and I'm sorry for trying to. Being with me, I know is no longer what you want."
"So you're saying this is it? Dean, you're ending our relationship because you say it's what I want. What about what you want?"
"I know what I want but I also know what is right. What I want now is not what's important. You've always been my first priority. You came before anyone else that I truly cared about. I have to do what is right because I know it is what's right for you and for us all.
I have to do the right thing no matter how much it will hurt me. Love is about making sacrifices and this is the sacrifice I have to do now. I guess we all have to suffer to delight in the truth."
A drop of tear flowed down Rory's face and then bigger drops came endlessly. My emotions were driving me to do the same but I fought the tears back with all my strength. I wiped Rory's tears away and tucked a tress of her hair behind her ear. Then I held her hand tightly enclosed into both of mine tightly.
"I wish all the best for you Rory. You're the best person that I ever knew. You've changed me a whole lot and transformed me into a complete person. Be happy with Jess. I know he loves you very much."
I took a step closer to her "I hope someday I'll find what I'm looking for. I know I'll hopefully move on and find another love."
I took another step towards her and reached for her other hand and looked deeply into her eyes with all the feeling I could muster.
". But I know I can never love anyone else to the extent of how much I loved you."
I brought her hands to my lips and kissed them softly. I placed her hands on my cheek and it made me feel wonderful and cured all the heartache I was feeling. Then I let go of her hands and wiped a drop of tear that rushed down her cheek.
"Goodbye Rory." I said it almost like in a whisper and I managed to paint a tired but promising smile on my face. Then I had to do the last thing. the hardest thing. I turned around slowly and walked away into misery.
All the tears that I've been holding back earlier now flowed down my face like the endless flow of a waterfall. I continually walked through the streets of Stars Hollow, which every corner had memories of the past. I passed the bookstore where we have been to so many times. It was where I waited endlessly with frustration until I saw Rory's face delighted with her new books. Her delighted expression faded all the frustration that I felt away. In fact. she took all the negativity in my life away and turned it into something good. Now. only memories of her can bring such comfort and happiness.
I kept walking with my hands in my pocket with no real destination in mind. Walking through the streets of Stars Hollow used to be a normal thing, now every time I pass its corners, it was like watching a flashback movie of everything. I circled the town once more and then finally stopped at the gazebo and sat down.
I rested my face in my hands and still crying, only this time not because of sorrow or anguish. It was because now I know what sacrifices in true love really mean. It means "everything", it means having to do everything no matter how impossible, including. losing it all. Losing all of it just because you want to give everything to your true love and to show that you truly care. I guess you never really know what true love is until you've lost it.
I was all - alone. feeling isolated by every soul. Then a shadow that seemed familiar appeared. It was Jess. I walked over wiping my tears. "Jess!"
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters and etc. because Amy Sherman Paladino owns it. I wish I did though, but unfortunately all I own is the idea for this fanfic.
Pairing: R/J haha don't be confused because bag boy is involved.
Dean
I stood there waiting for Rory to answer the door. I didn't even know what I was doing here. She probably hated my guts and didn't wanna see my shadow or me. 'Dean what are you doing here?' I asked my self. Just then Rory opened the door and asked the same thing.
"Dean what are you doing here?" Her face was radiant and seemed like she was happy to see me. I her hand in mine. I said nothing at first but just looked down at the ground. I tried to get the words out but I went blank. I wanted to tell her 'Rory I love you. I'm sorry. I forgive you for everything. I don't care that you kissed Jess. I still love you.' Instead of saying this unexpected words came out of my mouth.
"I just wanted to do this one last time before." I leaned over and kissed her gently almost delicate. I knew this would be the last chance I would ever get to do this. The last time eternally that I would ever feel the tenderness of her lips on mine.
"Before what? You go off to join the army?"
I chuckled. Then I paused and the serious feeling of sorrow came over me again. I looked deeply into her eyes and placed my hand on her cheek very gently. It took me a moment to get the words out.
"Rory, Jess cares about you. a lot. I know that he loves you and that he wants to be with you and I know that you do too."
"Dean, if this is about the kiss you're wrong. It didn't mean anything. It was a mistake okay?" "No, Rory it wasn't a mistake. it was meant to happen. Jess loves you. and I could sense that you had a thing for him too. I tried to deny it all and pretend that none of it was there. But when I found out about the kiss. I realized what I had to do. I don't wanna pretend anymore Rory. I should have done this before but I couldn't accept it because I loved you too much but that was totally selfish of me and I knew it.
I acted like such a jealous freak and an over possessive monster all the time because I knew that you were fading away from my world. I knew you had feelings for Jess and I ignored it but when I found out about the kiss. that's when I realized that you're falling deeply for him. I'm sorry that I hadn't done the right thing sooner Rory. I can't change the way you feel and I'm sorry for trying to. Being with me, I know is no longer what you want."
"So you're saying this is it? Dean, you're ending our relationship because you say it's what I want. What about what you want?"
"I know what I want but I also know what is right. What I want now is not what's important. You've always been my first priority. You came before anyone else that I truly cared about. I have to do what is right because I know it is what's right for you and for us all.
I have to do the right thing no matter how much it will hurt me. Love is about making sacrifices and this is the sacrifice I have to do now. I guess we all have to suffer to delight in the truth."
A drop of tear flowed down Rory's face and then bigger drops came endlessly. My emotions were driving me to do the same but I fought the tears back with all my strength. I wiped Rory's tears away and tucked a tress of her hair behind her ear. Then I held her hand tightly enclosed into both of mine tightly.
"I wish all the best for you Rory. You're the best person that I ever knew. You've changed me a whole lot and transformed me into a complete person. Be happy with Jess. I know he loves you very much."
I took a step closer to her "I hope someday I'll find what I'm looking for. I know I'll hopefully move on and find another love."
I took another step towards her and reached for her other hand and looked deeply into her eyes with all the feeling I could muster.
". But I know I can never love anyone else to the extent of how much I loved you."
I brought her hands to my lips and kissed them softly. I placed her hands on my cheek and it made me feel wonderful and cured all the heartache I was feeling. Then I let go of her hands and wiped a drop of tear that rushed down her cheek.
"Goodbye Rory." I said it almost like in a whisper and I managed to paint a tired but promising smile on my face. Then I had to do the last thing. the hardest thing. I turned around slowly and walked away into misery.
All the tears that I've been holding back earlier now flowed down my face like the endless flow of a waterfall. I continually walked through the streets of Stars Hollow, which every corner had memories of the past. I passed the bookstore where we have been to so many times. It was where I waited endlessly with frustration until I saw Rory's face delighted with her new books. Her delighted expression faded all the frustration that I felt away. In fact. she took all the negativity in my life away and turned it into something good. Now. only memories of her can bring such comfort and happiness.
I kept walking with my hands in my pocket with no real destination in mind. Walking through the streets of Stars Hollow used to be a normal thing, now every time I pass its corners, it was like watching a flashback movie of everything. I circled the town once more and then finally stopped at the gazebo and sat down.
I rested my face in my hands and still crying, only this time not because of sorrow or anguish. It was because now I know what sacrifices in true love really mean. It means "everything", it means having to do everything no matter how impossible, including. losing it all. Losing all of it just because you want to give everything to your true love and to show that you truly care. I guess you never really know what true love is until you've lost it.
I was all - alone. feeling isolated by every soul. Then a shadow that seemed familiar appeared. It was Jess. I walked over wiping my tears. "Jess!"