A/N: This is my very first fanfic. Please review but be kind. LOLZ NOTE:
Just in case you're confused or anything on the first lines of each new POV
it will say the character's name that the POV is coming from.
Disclaimer: I own everything! Hahaha Yes, that actually means nothing.=0( I know it's so sad. So I'm just gonna go and cry now. ::sniffle, sniffle::
Pairing: R/J haha don't be confused because bag boy is involved.
Flashback/Rewind: Ok, Rory and Dean broke up the night that she came home from Washington. Now Dean is really upset that he broke up with her but feels happy and good that he did it. He takes a walk around Stars Hollow and sees Jess.
"Jess!"
'Okay, why the hell am I doing this again?' I thought to myself. I walked over and he turned around with a questioning look on his face.
"Well, well, if it isn't bag boy." He smiled with that usual evil-like expression.
"Look, I just need to talk to you about something. I'm not here to start anything."
"Gee, really, cuz you don't seem like the talking type. You usually just tower over me with that ' I'm taller than you so you better get out of my way before you end up in a body cast for life' expression."
"Jess, shut up. This is the only time I'm gonna be nice and not harm you."
"So. what is this like a truce?" He began to laugh. That same laugh that I've always hated and dreaded to hear. That stupid Jess laugh.
"Whatever, call it what you want."
"Okay, fine. You have five minutes of my precious time bag boy."
"Okay, look-
"Whatever, you're wasting your time. Whatever you say in five minutes I'm probably not gonna care about anyway."
"It's about Rory." Jess' usual I-don't-care expression swiftly faded and suddenly interested.
"Wow, I can see that got your attention. You love her don't you?"
Jess paused for a second then finally got the words out that he wanted to say.
"Doesn't matter cuz she chose you."
"No."
"Oh, yeah. Why would you say that? She didn't even say goodbye to me when she left. Hell, she didn't even tell me that she was even leaving to go to Washington! And dammit! She's still with you!"
"I broke up with her." Jess
"What?!"
'Geez, I thought bag boy was obsessed about her. I thought I would have to die first to see the day that he would finally let go of her. I guess everything is full of surprises. Life isn't what it seems after all. This is like the happiest moment of my life! Well, I at least thought it was for a moment but now. I don't seem so sure anymore. It's like I'm starting to develop a sense of sympathy for the one person that I truly was disgusted at.' I thought to myself.
"Okay, not that I'm concerned about your health or anything, but I know how much this is gonna affect your "emotional pyramid". So, why the hell would you do that?"
"Because I'm an idiot."
"Well, it figures."
"I've been an idiot. I tried to deny everything that was there because I couldn't accept it. I've been blind for so long but I guess I can't go on being one."
"Denying what?"
"You really want me to go through all the pain don't you?"
"Hey, it's just an innocent question."
Jess smirked.
"I denied the fact that you had a thing for Rory and. that she had a thing for you too. I pretended not to see any of what was there. I hated reality. I hated reality so much that I never wanted to wake up from my dream. that Rory still loved me. I pretended that everything was and would stay the same. Then I found out about the kiss. and that was when I realized that I had to wake up from the dream that I was having.
And that I had to stop pretending and face reality. the truth. The truth that Rory no longer loves me . but loves you.
"Whoa, okay, so you know about the kiss. Are you gonna beat me up by any chance? Cuz, hey, it wasn't my fault she kissed me alright?"
"I know."
"Okay, so why the hell are you telling me all this?"
"Because. I was hoping that you actually do care about her. That you do truly love her."
Jess looked down at the ground with his hands in his pockets then looked back up at me.
"I do. but I'm not so sure she feels the same way." "No, that's not true. She cares about you. a lot and she doesn't know how to tell you. She can't tell you because she's too afraid. Heck, what the hell am I saying? She's in love with you Jess!"
"Then shouldn't you be clobbering me, chopping me up into tiny-itsy-bitsy pieces and hey, maybe burn me afterwards right now?!"
"No cuz I've already done enough damage. and hurting you in such a way would only bring her more sorrow and make her hate me even more in the end. I love her too much and I don't think I can live with that. knowing that I destroyed her life, because she's so in love with you. As much as I am tempted to. I just want her to be happy because. I still love her."
Jess stood there kind of blankly and half-stunned in all that I had said to him.
Jess
'I'm probably having a weird and obscure dream right now cuz the guy standing right in front of me crying his heart out looks exactly like Dean. I have never thought of Dean as a person whom felt so deeply this way. Well, probably about Rory but still, this was way more than I had expected. He truly cared for her and now it shows how much and probably even more than he has showed.'
"Look I know we're not friends or anything. but I was just hoping that you can do something for me."
'Hey, I admit I never had a good relationship with bag boy and that he didn't have a good impression of me and the same with him. I don't really know what came over me so I said.
"Sure, I mean like I don't even know why the hell I'm saying 'sure' but. what the heck, I might as well try and hear you out."
'I guess it was because I wanted to be a friend to him just for once. I guess it was because of the fact that he really cared about Rory and decided to do what was right for her. I thought that took real guts. Giving up someone you truly love.'
"Take are of Rory. and don't hurt her."
"I won't."
'With that all said our conversation was over, but it still seemed not to end. The words that we spoke were like buried in my mind eternally. I watched Dean walk away and I could tell that he was crying but probably because of happiness mixed with sadness and. heartache.'
More A/N: If you wanna read more of what's gonna happen just review. =0)
Disclaimer: I own everything! Hahaha Yes, that actually means nothing.=0( I know it's so sad. So I'm just gonna go and cry now. ::sniffle, sniffle::
Pairing: R/J haha don't be confused because bag boy is involved.
Flashback/Rewind: Ok, Rory and Dean broke up the night that she came home from Washington. Now Dean is really upset that he broke up with her but feels happy and good that he did it. He takes a walk around Stars Hollow and sees Jess.
"Jess!"
'Okay, why the hell am I doing this again?' I thought to myself. I walked over and he turned around with a questioning look on his face.
"Well, well, if it isn't bag boy." He smiled with that usual evil-like expression.
"Look, I just need to talk to you about something. I'm not here to start anything."
"Gee, really, cuz you don't seem like the talking type. You usually just tower over me with that ' I'm taller than you so you better get out of my way before you end up in a body cast for life' expression."
"Jess, shut up. This is the only time I'm gonna be nice and not harm you."
"So. what is this like a truce?" He began to laugh. That same laugh that I've always hated and dreaded to hear. That stupid Jess laugh.
"Whatever, call it what you want."
"Okay, fine. You have five minutes of my precious time bag boy."
"Okay, look-
"Whatever, you're wasting your time. Whatever you say in five minutes I'm probably not gonna care about anyway."
"It's about Rory." Jess' usual I-don't-care expression swiftly faded and suddenly interested.
"Wow, I can see that got your attention. You love her don't you?"
Jess paused for a second then finally got the words out that he wanted to say.
"Doesn't matter cuz she chose you."
"No."
"Oh, yeah. Why would you say that? She didn't even say goodbye to me when she left. Hell, she didn't even tell me that she was even leaving to go to Washington! And dammit! She's still with you!"
"I broke up with her." Jess
"What?!"
'Geez, I thought bag boy was obsessed about her. I thought I would have to die first to see the day that he would finally let go of her. I guess everything is full of surprises. Life isn't what it seems after all. This is like the happiest moment of my life! Well, I at least thought it was for a moment but now. I don't seem so sure anymore. It's like I'm starting to develop a sense of sympathy for the one person that I truly was disgusted at.' I thought to myself.
"Okay, not that I'm concerned about your health or anything, but I know how much this is gonna affect your "emotional pyramid". So, why the hell would you do that?"
"Because I'm an idiot."
"Well, it figures."
"I've been an idiot. I tried to deny everything that was there because I couldn't accept it. I've been blind for so long but I guess I can't go on being one."
"Denying what?"
"You really want me to go through all the pain don't you?"
"Hey, it's just an innocent question."
Jess smirked.
"I denied the fact that you had a thing for Rory and. that she had a thing for you too. I pretended not to see any of what was there. I hated reality. I hated reality so much that I never wanted to wake up from my dream. that Rory still loved me. I pretended that everything was and would stay the same. Then I found out about the kiss. and that was when I realized that I had to wake up from the dream that I was having.
And that I had to stop pretending and face reality. the truth. The truth that Rory no longer loves me . but loves you.
"Whoa, okay, so you know about the kiss. Are you gonna beat me up by any chance? Cuz, hey, it wasn't my fault she kissed me alright?"
"I know."
"Okay, so why the hell are you telling me all this?"
"Because. I was hoping that you actually do care about her. That you do truly love her."
Jess looked down at the ground with his hands in his pockets then looked back up at me.
"I do. but I'm not so sure she feels the same way." "No, that's not true. She cares about you. a lot and she doesn't know how to tell you. She can't tell you because she's too afraid. Heck, what the hell am I saying? She's in love with you Jess!"
"Then shouldn't you be clobbering me, chopping me up into tiny-itsy-bitsy pieces and hey, maybe burn me afterwards right now?!"
"No cuz I've already done enough damage. and hurting you in such a way would only bring her more sorrow and make her hate me even more in the end. I love her too much and I don't think I can live with that. knowing that I destroyed her life, because she's so in love with you. As much as I am tempted to. I just want her to be happy because. I still love her."
Jess stood there kind of blankly and half-stunned in all that I had said to him.
Jess
'I'm probably having a weird and obscure dream right now cuz the guy standing right in front of me crying his heart out looks exactly like Dean. I have never thought of Dean as a person whom felt so deeply this way. Well, probably about Rory but still, this was way more than I had expected. He truly cared for her and now it shows how much and probably even more than he has showed.'
"Look I know we're not friends or anything. but I was just hoping that you can do something for me."
'Hey, I admit I never had a good relationship with bag boy and that he didn't have a good impression of me and the same with him. I don't really know what came over me so I said.
"Sure, I mean like I don't even know why the hell I'm saying 'sure' but. what the heck, I might as well try and hear you out."
'I guess it was because I wanted to be a friend to him just for once. I guess it was because of the fact that he really cared about Rory and decided to do what was right for her. I thought that took real guts. Giving up someone you truly love.'
"Take are of Rory. and don't hurt her."
"I won't."
'With that all said our conversation was over, but it still seemed not to end. The words that we spoke were like buried in my mind eternally. I watched Dean walk away and I could tell that he was crying but probably because of happiness mixed with sadness and. heartache.'
More A/N: If you wanna read more of what's gonna happen just review. =0)