Truth Be Told

Book One: Music of My Heart

Chapter Five

            Quatre watched Gwen from the corner of his eye. Ever since the episode three months ago at the Christmas party, she had been very quiet. Quatre scratched the side of his neck. He still didn't know what had happened between her and Rich. But he was frustrated, not only was she quiet but he wasn't even a loud to touch her anymore. She would become stiff and scared every time he was too close. Soon after he realized how much those little sessions where they would hug or he would stand behind her and hold her just for holding her, had meant to him. He missed those moments. That's when he realized that he was in love with her. His sisters had been right, he was in love with Gwen Yuy. He had fallen hard and things weren't going to get easier. He was ashamed with himself when dirty thoughts of him and her doing something together ran through his mind. It was hard not to touch her, when all you could think about was kissing her and making love to her. And it was driving him mad, he wanted her so much but couldn't have her. The one thing in the world that he couldn't have, whoever said money could buy happiness should die. Quatre thought. He sighed again. And set his paper work a side. He stood up and walked over to the couch and sat down next to Gwen.

"Gwen we need to talk." He took a deep breath and reached over and took her hand. "I want to know what happened between you and Rich, Christmas and before." Gwen started to pull her hand away.

"Quatre please let me go." Quatre grabbed her and pulled her across his lap.

"NO! I'm not going to let go. Gwen I want to know. Tell me!" Gwen looked at his with fear in her eyes.

"Quatre let me go!"

"Gwen I want to know these past couple of months have been slowly killing me. I want to hold you Gwen. I want you!" Gwen pushed away from Quatre, but he held her close.

"Quatre please…" Quatre pulled her to him and crushed his lips on top of hers, Gwen struggled against the kiss, but finally let Quatre in. Kissing him back, she rapped her arms around his neck. With out breaking the kiss Gwen leaned back pulling Quatre down on top of her. Quatre broke the kiss and looked down at her.

"You are so beautiful." He whispered stroking her cheek. Gwen smiled and brought his lips down to hers again. He kissed her more passionately this time. He kissed down the side of her face to her chin, before attacking her neck. He heard her moan in pleasure as his hands began to roam. She rapped her arms tighter around him as he began to kiss down her chest, unbuttoning her blouse as he went. Quatre's hands grabbed her hips as she arched her back and rubbed his throbbing arousal. Quatre groaned in between her breast. He suddenly felt her go stiff. Quatre looked up,

"What's wrong?" he breathed.

"Quatre please…stop." the tears started to spill over. Quatre brushed them away.

"Gwen I'm sorry." He whispered sitting back up as she began to button her blouse back up. He covered his face in shame; he never lost control like that before.

"Don't be sorry, I was the one that was encouraging you. You're not all to blame." She whispered sitting close to him and lying her head on his shoulder. Quatre shook his head to clear it. He turned to her,

"Gwen tell me about Rich." Gwen looked away. "Gwen…" he cupped her face and made her face him, "Gwen I'm…I…I love you. I have for a while now…I understand if you don't feel the same way, but I just want to know…maybe I can help." Gwen looked at him in shock. She leaned over and kissed him then rapped her arms around his neck. Quatre rapped his arms around her waist and pulled her tighter to his body.

"I don't deserve you…you deserve someone that is pure not dirty like me." She pushed away from him and ran up the stairs to her room. Quatre starred straight ahead, if she said that she didn't deserve him…did that mean she loved him too. He shook his head, she had it reversed it was him that didn't deserve her. He leaned forward and braced his elbows on his knees. Folding his hands together and leaning his chin against it. He didn't know how long he had sat their thinking about Gwen; when he heard a scream. Jumping up he ran up the stairs, he ran to Gwen's room and tried to open it, but it was locked.

"GWEN!" he yelled pounding on the door.

"QUATRE! Please don't leave me I don't want to hurt anymore."

"GWEN!"

"NO! Leave me alone!" Gwen screamed again. Quatre threw his body into the door and heard it give way and stumbled into the room. Gwen was lying in her bed thrashing about. Quatre ran over to the bed and pulled Gwen into his arms.

"Gwen wake up. You're having a nightmare." Gwen grabbed onto him shaking. It had been several months since Quatre had seen her in a night gown; he realized how much body weight she had lost. "Gwen wake up." Her eyes opened and she looked up at him.

"Quatre?" she touched his cheek and started crying all over again. "You here…you're a live." She through her arms around his neck and sobbed into his shoulder. "Quatre it was terrible…it was happening all over again…I was so scared." Quatre tightened his hold on her and stroked her hair.

"It's all right now. I'm not going to leave you alone…I promise." He whispered, kissing the side of her head. Gwen tightened her hold around his neck.

"I don't want to loose you." She whispered into his neck.

"You're not Gwen, I promise you as long as there's a breath in me I won't leave you." He whispered cupping her face and stroking her cheeks with his thumbs.

"O Quatre…" She whispered and leaned over and gave him a chaste kiss, she hugged him again. Quatre pulled her tightly to his body and kissed her neck.

"Every thing is going to be okay now."

 "Please call my brother, call Heero. Please." Quatre nodded and left her by the bed and walked to the phone. Within seconds Heero's face was on the screen.

"Yuy"

"Heero its Quatre, something's wrong with Gwen. She's been out of it lately since she met an old friend of hers named Richard at Christmas." Heero's eyes flashed dangerously. "She wanted to speak to you." Heero nodded and Quatre went to get Gwen. Quatre picked her up and carried her across the room, and sat her down in the chair.

"Gwen." Heero said and Gwen broke down again. "Shh. Gwen it's going to be all right."

"Heero it was horrible… he…he." She broke down in tears.

"Gwen it's all right."

"No it's not Heero I've been having nightmares of it happening again and Heero I don't want it to. I can't handle it." Heero nodded. "I thought I was over it I really did…but…."

"Gwen we talked about this before I thought we agreed that if you ever saw him again you were going to call me…I still have a couple of things to say to him."

"You would have killed him." She whispered.

"No!" Heero said, "I would slowly break every bone in his body so that they would never heal…that way he could think of how horrible he was for the rest of his life…death would be to kind."

"Heero I want to come home."

"Gwen…"

"Please Heero. We both know its safe now." Heero nodded,

"Put Quatre back on." She whipped her tears away.

"Quatre" She called. Quatre came over and joined her by the phone.

"Yes?"

"I'll be there in two hours to pick her up." With that he disconnected. Quatre felt as if someone had punched him in the gut. He loved her, he should be able to protector her and take care of her. Quatre called one of the maids up to pack Gwen's things up. Quatre shook his head, how was he supposed to protect her if he didn't understand it himself. He looked down at Gwen; he suddenly realized that he was holding her hand. He pulled her to his body and rapped his arms around her waist. Gwen laid her head down on his chest.

"I'm sorry." She whispered.

Quatre looked down at her, "Don't be," he pulled her tighter, "I don't regret a single moment I shared with you." He pulled away a tilted her chin up, "The time I spent with you I will cherish always… because I lo-"

"Don't say it." Gwen whispered putting a hand to his lips. "Please don't. God Quatre I want to, but I just can't." he stroked her cheek.

"I won't say anything then." He smiled down at her; Gwen reached up and brought his lips down to hers for a sweet kiss. "We have a couple of hours to kill before Heero comes…what do you want to do?"

"I don't care as long as you let me stay in your arms." Gwen whispered into his chest. Quatre picked her up and went over to the bed and lay down, with her next to him. She rapped her arms tightly around him and hummed. "Where do you think Alex and Andy are right now?" Quatre chuckled,

"Probably sleeping somewhere, they were so excited about going to Euro Disney that I don't think they slept a wink the whole week." He felt Gwen giggle just thinking about it. He closed his eyes as he felt Gwen tracing circles on his chest. A low growl escaped from his throat. Gwen giggled and snuggled deeper into his arms.

"Quatre when u said you loved me…did you mean it?"

"I never say anything I don't mean." He felt her sigh as he stroked her hair. That lay there in silence for a while.

"What made you love me?" he heard her faint whisper.

"Gwen you are the most amazing women I have every met in my entire life. I would have to be a fool not to love you."

"Or maybe a fool to love me." Gwen whispered as she turned over so she could look at him.

"Then send me to the mental institution cause I wouldn't trade it for the world." Gwen leaned down and kissed him,

"Quatre you shouldn't say you love me when you don't know how dirty I am."

"It has to do with Richard doesn't it?" he said stroking her cheek, she leaned into his hand.

Gwen took a deep breath, "As you know several years ago he was partner as Preventers and we were stationed in South Africa…" she took another deep breath, Quatre tightened his hold on her. "He is several years older then me…but I had a crush on him…he was so nice…then one night he…" the tears started to fall from her face, Quatre leaned up and kissed them away before kissing her soft lips. He pulled her down on top of him and rubbed her back soothingly as she cried. After a while her sobs had quieted and she was able to look him in the eye. "He raped me Quatre." She said. Quatre went into a state of shook. His brother in law had raped his Angel. "Quatre say something." Gwen cried desperately. "Quatre!" Quatre tightened his hold on her and crushed her lips beneath his. The kiss was passionate and desperate, Quatre was putting everything he had into the kiss. He pulled away for air after a while. Take her face in his hand he wiped the tears away.

"Not even that could make me love you less." Gwen started to cry even harder.

"What did I do to deserve something like that Quatre?" she said as she laid her head back down on his chest. "I know I've killed and deceived but that was so I could live." She whispered.

"You didn't deserve that Gwen…no women does, but-"A sharp knock sounded on the door.

"Master Quatre, Mr. Yuy is here to retrieve his sister." Quatre looked down at Gwen brought her face up and kissed her.

"Let him in." he called. Gwen sat up in his bed. Several minutes later they heard running footsteps and then Heero ran into the room.

"Gwen." He whispered. She jumped up and ran into her brothers waiting arms and started crying all over again. Several seconds later a taller boy looking like Heero and a shorter one entered the room. Quatre went to greet them.

"You must be Todd and Jeremy." The shorter boy nodded then passed him and went to hold his sister. He turned to Todd.

"Do you know?" Todd asked.

"Yeah she just told me." Todd nodded.

"Where are her things?"

"Down the hall, there should me a women in there backing them up." Todd nodded again, he extended his hand to him.

"Thank you for taking care of her." Quatre shook his hand.

"It was no trouble." He looked over at Gwen, a soft smile playing on his lips, "No trouble at all."

"Heero?" Heero lifted his head to look at his older brother, "We leave in five. Jer?" Jeremy nodded his head and followed his brother down the hall.

"Thank you Quatre." Heero whispered nodding to him. Quatre nodded as he watched Heero pick up the sobbing Gwen and carry her downstairs to the awaiting car. Several minutes later, Jeremy and Todd joined them carrying all of her things. Quatre watched as the car sped away. His heart went with her. Quatre closed his front door and went back inside. The house would defiantly be quiet with out her. Twenty seconds later he smiled, but that didn't mean he had to be there. He pulled out his cell phone.

"Hello Sara? I want you to push all my meetings for the next two months into the next two weeks. I'm going to be taking an extended leave of absence…personal reasons." He smiled as he disconnected his phone. He was going to prove to Gwen that he loved her and if that meant finding her and chasing her down then he would, he was going to find her and bring her back. He shook suddenly as his reason dawned on him…he wanted to marry her.