::Twisted::
Himura Kawaii
Chapter 7
Yay!! We're at chapter seven!!! I just had to say that seven is my favorite number. teehee..
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
INTERRUPTION.
Hehehe,, I think this chappie should be a LOT longer.. I am really sorry that the last three chapters were short and slow as you guys said, I was trying to jumble all my schoolwork and my writing these days.. you know how it is when you have a lot of papers due and you have tests coming up, but you just can't seem to concentrate because you wanna do something else? Well, that's how it is with me.. I know I have to study, but then all I can think about is how my fics would unfold.. and how I can tell the story in a way that everyone ends up being happy.. sigh. So, gomen nasai minna if I've been giving you low quality writing.. I promise to make it up to y'all! Okay, enough about me. on to the story. ^_^
INTERRUPTION OVER
Kaoru was sitting by herself on the gumi's hangout, when Kenji turned up and smiled at her in greeting. Kaoru was surprised for whenever Kaoru was alone at their place, Kenshin would never go there. I really want to forget him. He should just continue the way he was treating me before. She smiled back uneasily and returned to her book, completely ignoring whatever Kenshin was doing. The memory from her balcony was still in her mind.
But it was impossible to ignore Kenshin. He kept on pacing around the small open house and arranging things at their table. He pbviously had something in mind. Kaoru looked up, slightly irritated.
"Do you have a problem, Kenshin?" Kaoru furrowed her brow. The sooner she asked him, the sooner he'll stop fidgeting around.
"Ano.. I don't have a problem Kaoru-dono." Kenshin smiled at Kaoru as if to show her there was no problem. And then he turned around to fix Sano's car magazines that have been mixed with Magumi's fashion ones.
Kaoru turned back to her book and shrugged. Same old Kenshin, always trying to deny whenever something is wrong. Kaoru sighed inwardly. Any other day she would've exchanged her right leg just to get a chance to talk to Kenshin. But something inside her had changed. The past few days, she'd been hanging out with Enishi a lot, and as predictable as it may seem, she really feels as if something's happening between her and Enishi. In short, he'd almost replaced Kenshin's place in her thoughts.
Kaoru felt her eyes wander from her book to Kenshin's figure in front of her. Kenshin was now attending to their bokkens in the case across Kaoru. Kaoru inwardly smiled at the sight of his handsome face concentrating on arranging the whole bunch of bokkens that were carelessly put away. Everyone, except Megumi, was on the Kendo team. Kenshin was their captain and he took Kendo seriously. As Kenshin's bangs fell to his face, shading the intense orbs of his, Kaoru felt this urge to push them away. But before she could take action, Kenshin himself pushed them away, his violet eyes never leaving his work. Kaoru observed Kenshin's lean, muscular body through his thin white cotton shirt and his relaxed wide-legged blue jeans. His strong, yet tender hands polished the wood and Kaoru couldn't help but wonder what those hands would feel on her skin. In fact, she spent almost half of her life wondering what he'd feel like in her arms.
But of course, Kaoru had now faced the fact that something like that wouldn't happen. She'd never feel Kenshin's arms around her, nor would she even get that kiss she'd always dreamt of. In fact, she shouldn't even stare at Kenshin. Her resolve was new, and temptation was at its peak. She wanted to take her eyes off him, but she can't.
It would be okay to look, right? Kaoru tried to assure herself. I will look, but I won't hope.
Kenshin stood up and brushed his hands on his jeans and sighed. Kaoru observed that something was really bothering him. But she still wasn't over the incident last Monday, when Kenshin was assigned to be her partner, and he openly rejected this. Kaoru was afraid of more rejection from him, so she didn't venture for more.
That's just one of the other reasons why I should forget him. Kaoru thought decisively. He pushes me away and I keep coming back for more. I need my pride back.
Deep in thought, Kaoru didn't notice that Kenshin was now sitting beside her and looking at her expectantly.
Kaoru looked at Kenshin, confused. "Ano.. gomen, did you say something?" Kaoru looked down, blushing. "I was deep in thought that I didn't catch what you just said."
"Oh," Kenshin frowned. "I didn't mean to disturb you, I just asked if you wanted to eat, my treat." Seeing Kaoru's shocked face, he hastily blabbed, "But if you're busy, that's okay with me. I just thought you might want to take a break, since you've been reading that book too long and you haven't turned a single page, so.oh I don't know.." He trailed off.
Kaoru turned beet red. She had been so engrossed in watching Kenshin that she forgot to pretend she was REALLY reading by turning a few pages or so! Kaoru was also surprised at Kenshin's invitation. Did he really want to treat her to something? Kaoru's world was turning upside down. Here is the man of her dreams, finally making a move, even if it may be friendly, but still a move!! Do I accept or do I refuse?!
Kaoru felt Kenshin fidgeting with his fingers. He's thinking it was a mistake to ask me.. Kaoru thought sadly.
"Uh.." Kaoru started, but couldn't quite continue.
Kenshin spoke again. "I'd love to have-"
Enishi came running up and waving to Kaoru. "Oi Kaoru-chan!! We were gonna watch that movie at the film center today, right?" Enishi grinned at Kaoru. "Let's go, or we'll be late!"
". you for company" Kenshin silently muttered to himself.
Kaoru looked at Kenshin regretfully and smiled. "I'm sorry Kenshin, but Enishi and I have plans. Maybe next time." She stood up and went over to Enishi, leaving Kenshin alone.
Enishi made a salute at Kenshin and grinned. "I'd ask you to come with us, but I remember you said you didn't like watching reruns. So ja!" With that Enishi took Kaoru's hand and they walked over to Enishi's car.
Kaoru turned around to wave at Kenshin and saw him looking at her forlornly. What's wrong with him? Kaoru wondered as Enishi opened the car door for her and she went in.
Kenshin sat glumly, not wanting to move. He looked after Kaoru's long black hair and her blue tank top slowly fading. He blew his bangs off his face and sighed, his heart feeling like a ton of bricks had been thrown on top of it.
"Why did I even ask her?" Kenshin complained to no one. "I should've known she and Enishi had plans."
"And why did I even want to ask her? I mean, she's not even a good companion for me! She'd just go on and on talking about stuff I don't want to hear."
But that's not true and Kenshin knew it. Kaoru was an interesting conversationalist and they have the same areas of interest. And those stuff they don't agree on, they have a good debate over it. She was also a no-nonsense talker.
Kenshin knew this, for there was a time when they were 10 years old that they talked the whole day. There was a country club party that encouraged adults to take their children with them. But the other children were too snobby for both their tastes and they found themselves left alone in a room with no choice but for Kenshin to talk to Kaoru. It's either that or one of the snobby kids in the other room. Soon, they were talking about things that interested them at that age, and Kenshin found himself highly entertained by Kaoru's company. It wasn't until their parents found them locked up inside that room alone, that he started to get irritated with Kaoru again. He remembered Kaoru's mom teasing his mom that someday Kenshin and Kaoru would get married and other stuff like that. He hated the conversation and turned to Kaoru, expecting her to share the same disgust with him. But he saw that she was enjoying the teasing too. Since then, he avoided Kaoru at ALL costs. His childish view of her clouded his better judgment. And he refused to see Kaoru in another way.
Until now. He didn't know what snapped in him to make him stay with Kaoru in here today. What made him stay, he couldn't figure out either. And of course, he had no idea why he even wanted to ask her to spend MORE time with him. Maybe it was because he was desperate to make it up to her when she thought that he was openly rejecting her last Monday. But no, Kaori knew Kenshin always refused her, he didn't need to make it up to her. That's really rude, Kenshin. his mind sang at him. Kenshin realized he'd been rude to Kaoru all his life, and no one would blame her if she chose to ignore him from now on.
"Kuso." Kenshin muttered, his violet eyes clouded with hate for himself.
But why am I thinking of all these now? I never thought of all these before. And even if I knew I was being rude to her, I wouldn't have cared the least bit. Kenshin wondered. So why now?
The sudden irritation at Enishi was questioned too. Kenshin never felt competitive in his life. He just wasn't the type to compare himself to other guys and prove himself the best. But lately, Enishi seems like a threat to him, and in what sense, he couldn't say. But the sight of him makes him want to turn away. And what's more intolerable is the fact that Enishi, his best friend, keeps on hanging out with Kaoru, the girl he can't stand. Another thing he can't get is how Kaoru lets Enishi ravish her with attention, when its known that Kaori likes Kenshin.
Kenshin thought that maybe he was just jealous of the time Enishi keeps on spending with Kaoru. But Enishi wasn't even here before. Plus the guys in the gumi were his best friends too. He was never the type to be possessive. And he couldn't care less if Kaoru transferred her affections to someone else. That was his wish, wasn't it?
So what could be it?
He walked outside and looked up at the sky. "So blue, like her eyes." Kenshin absently muttered. Suddenly, a thought came to his head.
"Could it be possible? Have I been in love with her all along!?" Kenshin's eyes widened in shock. The answers came rushing to him, more than he wanted to accept. More than his mind could take.
He got irritated at Kaoru because she knew from the start that they were meant to be. He wasn't ready to accept that fact yet.
He always believed himself to be a man of great control, Kaoru's appearance in his life made his emotions surface.
He avoided Kaoru because he refused to see her as a woman who could make his defenses weak, who could break his heart.
He always said he didn't want Kaoru, but he didn't know how untrue that was until Enishi came into the picture.
He hated Enishi's guts because that meant taking away Kaoru's attention from him.
He didn't like her affections and mistook them to be bad for him. In reality, he just wanted her to keep on waiting for him.
He didn't want Kaoru when she wanted him. And now that he does, she's already with someone else.
Kaoru finally found someone who's willing to give his heart to her. Maybe someone better than Kenshin.
He remembered Aoshi telling him how you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone.
Kenshin felt sick to his stomach.
He recalled his conversation with Enishi about the same thing.
Kenshin saw a hundred more thoughts swimming in his head, but he couldn't take it anymore.
How stupid could he have been?
He ran blindly to his car, speeding away- running to Kaoru and her love that might be lost to him forever.
Sometimes, the truth wasn't easy to bear.
Oh dear. revelations are always emotional, ne? I mean, you either laugh or you cry.
"Oh no it seems to go. but you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone..."
::Author sings loudly::
Now it's time for Kenshin to make his move. He's been a big baka!!! How does he take Kaoru back?!
Oh, yeah, Val-kun, I'm sorry I wasn't able to reply.. I have no more load!!!
::sob::
Minna, did you know that my As in me ONLY internet bill reached a thousand bucks?!
::kawaii faints::
Yep.. and now I'm gonna have to pay.. Waaaaaaaaaah.. :o
The Philo test went good. but the NatSci test. how do I begin to explain about that darn test?! Grrrrrrr..
Minna, thanks for reading and reviewing and still bearing with me!! I hope y'all like this chappie.
Till next time! ^_^
Himura Kawaii
Chapter 7
Yay!! We're at chapter seven!!! I just had to say that seven is my favorite number. teehee..
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
INTERRUPTION.
Hehehe,, I think this chappie should be a LOT longer.. I am really sorry that the last three chapters were short and slow as you guys said, I was trying to jumble all my schoolwork and my writing these days.. you know how it is when you have a lot of papers due and you have tests coming up, but you just can't seem to concentrate because you wanna do something else? Well, that's how it is with me.. I know I have to study, but then all I can think about is how my fics would unfold.. and how I can tell the story in a way that everyone ends up being happy.. sigh. So, gomen nasai minna if I've been giving you low quality writing.. I promise to make it up to y'all! Okay, enough about me. on to the story. ^_^
INTERRUPTION OVER
Kaoru was sitting by herself on the gumi's hangout, when Kenji turned up and smiled at her in greeting. Kaoru was surprised for whenever Kaoru was alone at their place, Kenshin would never go there. I really want to forget him. He should just continue the way he was treating me before. She smiled back uneasily and returned to her book, completely ignoring whatever Kenshin was doing. The memory from her balcony was still in her mind.
But it was impossible to ignore Kenshin. He kept on pacing around the small open house and arranging things at their table. He pbviously had something in mind. Kaoru looked up, slightly irritated.
"Do you have a problem, Kenshin?" Kaoru furrowed her brow. The sooner she asked him, the sooner he'll stop fidgeting around.
"Ano.. I don't have a problem Kaoru-dono." Kenshin smiled at Kaoru as if to show her there was no problem. And then he turned around to fix Sano's car magazines that have been mixed with Magumi's fashion ones.
Kaoru turned back to her book and shrugged. Same old Kenshin, always trying to deny whenever something is wrong. Kaoru sighed inwardly. Any other day she would've exchanged her right leg just to get a chance to talk to Kenshin. But something inside her had changed. The past few days, she'd been hanging out with Enishi a lot, and as predictable as it may seem, she really feels as if something's happening between her and Enishi. In short, he'd almost replaced Kenshin's place in her thoughts.
Kaoru felt her eyes wander from her book to Kenshin's figure in front of her. Kenshin was now attending to their bokkens in the case across Kaoru. Kaoru inwardly smiled at the sight of his handsome face concentrating on arranging the whole bunch of bokkens that were carelessly put away. Everyone, except Megumi, was on the Kendo team. Kenshin was their captain and he took Kendo seriously. As Kenshin's bangs fell to his face, shading the intense orbs of his, Kaoru felt this urge to push them away. But before she could take action, Kenshin himself pushed them away, his violet eyes never leaving his work. Kaoru observed Kenshin's lean, muscular body through his thin white cotton shirt and his relaxed wide-legged blue jeans. His strong, yet tender hands polished the wood and Kaoru couldn't help but wonder what those hands would feel on her skin. In fact, she spent almost half of her life wondering what he'd feel like in her arms.
But of course, Kaoru had now faced the fact that something like that wouldn't happen. She'd never feel Kenshin's arms around her, nor would she even get that kiss she'd always dreamt of. In fact, she shouldn't even stare at Kenshin. Her resolve was new, and temptation was at its peak. She wanted to take her eyes off him, but she can't.
It would be okay to look, right? Kaoru tried to assure herself. I will look, but I won't hope.
Kenshin stood up and brushed his hands on his jeans and sighed. Kaoru observed that something was really bothering him. But she still wasn't over the incident last Monday, when Kenshin was assigned to be her partner, and he openly rejected this. Kaoru was afraid of more rejection from him, so she didn't venture for more.
That's just one of the other reasons why I should forget him. Kaoru thought decisively. He pushes me away and I keep coming back for more. I need my pride back.
Deep in thought, Kaoru didn't notice that Kenshin was now sitting beside her and looking at her expectantly.
Kaoru looked at Kenshin, confused. "Ano.. gomen, did you say something?" Kaoru looked down, blushing. "I was deep in thought that I didn't catch what you just said."
"Oh," Kenshin frowned. "I didn't mean to disturb you, I just asked if you wanted to eat, my treat." Seeing Kaoru's shocked face, he hastily blabbed, "But if you're busy, that's okay with me. I just thought you might want to take a break, since you've been reading that book too long and you haven't turned a single page, so.oh I don't know.." He trailed off.
Kaoru turned beet red. She had been so engrossed in watching Kenshin that she forgot to pretend she was REALLY reading by turning a few pages or so! Kaoru was also surprised at Kenshin's invitation. Did he really want to treat her to something? Kaoru's world was turning upside down. Here is the man of her dreams, finally making a move, even if it may be friendly, but still a move!! Do I accept or do I refuse?!
Kaoru felt Kenshin fidgeting with his fingers. He's thinking it was a mistake to ask me.. Kaoru thought sadly.
"Uh.." Kaoru started, but couldn't quite continue.
Kenshin spoke again. "I'd love to have-"
Enishi came running up and waving to Kaoru. "Oi Kaoru-chan!! We were gonna watch that movie at the film center today, right?" Enishi grinned at Kaoru. "Let's go, or we'll be late!"
". you for company" Kenshin silently muttered to himself.
Kaoru looked at Kenshin regretfully and smiled. "I'm sorry Kenshin, but Enishi and I have plans. Maybe next time." She stood up and went over to Enishi, leaving Kenshin alone.
Enishi made a salute at Kenshin and grinned. "I'd ask you to come with us, but I remember you said you didn't like watching reruns. So ja!" With that Enishi took Kaoru's hand and they walked over to Enishi's car.
Kaoru turned around to wave at Kenshin and saw him looking at her forlornly. What's wrong with him? Kaoru wondered as Enishi opened the car door for her and she went in.
Kenshin sat glumly, not wanting to move. He looked after Kaoru's long black hair and her blue tank top slowly fading. He blew his bangs off his face and sighed, his heart feeling like a ton of bricks had been thrown on top of it.
"Why did I even ask her?" Kenshin complained to no one. "I should've known she and Enishi had plans."
"And why did I even want to ask her? I mean, she's not even a good companion for me! She'd just go on and on talking about stuff I don't want to hear."
But that's not true and Kenshin knew it. Kaoru was an interesting conversationalist and they have the same areas of interest. And those stuff they don't agree on, they have a good debate over it. She was also a no-nonsense talker.
Kenshin knew this, for there was a time when they were 10 years old that they talked the whole day. There was a country club party that encouraged adults to take their children with them. But the other children were too snobby for both their tastes and they found themselves left alone in a room with no choice but for Kenshin to talk to Kaoru. It's either that or one of the snobby kids in the other room. Soon, they were talking about things that interested them at that age, and Kenshin found himself highly entertained by Kaoru's company. It wasn't until their parents found them locked up inside that room alone, that he started to get irritated with Kaoru again. He remembered Kaoru's mom teasing his mom that someday Kenshin and Kaoru would get married and other stuff like that. He hated the conversation and turned to Kaoru, expecting her to share the same disgust with him. But he saw that she was enjoying the teasing too. Since then, he avoided Kaoru at ALL costs. His childish view of her clouded his better judgment. And he refused to see Kaoru in another way.
Until now. He didn't know what snapped in him to make him stay with Kaoru in here today. What made him stay, he couldn't figure out either. And of course, he had no idea why he even wanted to ask her to spend MORE time with him. Maybe it was because he was desperate to make it up to her when she thought that he was openly rejecting her last Monday. But no, Kaori knew Kenshin always refused her, he didn't need to make it up to her. That's really rude, Kenshin. his mind sang at him. Kenshin realized he'd been rude to Kaoru all his life, and no one would blame her if she chose to ignore him from now on.
"Kuso." Kenshin muttered, his violet eyes clouded with hate for himself.
But why am I thinking of all these now? I never thought of all these before. And even if I knew I was being rude to her, I wouldn't have cared the least bit. Kenshin wondered. So why now?
The sudden irritation at Enishi was questioned too. Kenshin never felt competitive in his life. He just wasn't the type to compare himself to other guys and prove himself the best. But lately, Enishi seems like a threat to him, and in what sense, he couldn't say. But the sight of him makes him want to turn away. And what's more intolerable is the fact that Enishi, his best friend, keeps on hanging out with Kaoru, the girl he can't stand. Another thing he can't get is how Kaoru lets Enishi ravish her with attention, when its known that Kaori likes Kenshin.
Kenshin thought that maybe he was just jealous of the time Enishi keeps on spending with Kaoru. But Enishi wasn't even here before. Plus the guys in the gumi were his best friends too. He was never the type to be possessive. And he couldn't care less if Kaoru transferred her affections to someone else. That was his wish, wasn't it?
So what could be it?
He walked outside and looked up at the sky. "So blue, like her eyes." Kenshin absently muttered. Suddenly, a thought came to his head.
"Could it be possible? Have I been in love with her all along!?" Kenshin's eyes widened in shock. The answers came rushing to him, more than he wanted to accept. More than his mind could take.
He got irritated at Kaoru because she knew from the start that they were meant to be. He wasn't ready to accept that fact yet.
He always believed himself to be a man of great control, Kaoru's appearance in his life made his emotions surface.
He avoided Kaoru because he refused to see her as a woman who could make his defenses weak, who could break his heart.
He always said he didn't want Kaoru, but he didn't know how untrue that was until Enishi came into the picture.
He hated Enishi's guts because that meant taking away Kaoru's attention from him.
He didn't like her affections and mistook them to be bad for him. In reality, he just wanted her to keep on waiting for him.
He didn't want Kaoru when she wanted him. And now that he does, she's already with someone else.
Kaoru finally found someone who's willing to give his heart to her. Maybe someone better than Kenshin.
He remembered Aoshi telling him how you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone.
Kenshin felt sick to his stomach.
He recalled his conversation with Enishi about the same thing.
Kenshin saw a hundred more thoughts swimming in his head, but he couldn't take it anymore.
How stupid could he have been?
He ran blindly to his car, speeding away- running to Kaoru and her love that might be lost to him forever.
Sometimes, the truth wasn't easy to bear.
Oh dear. revelations are always emotional, ne? I mean, you either laugh or you cry.
"Oh no it seems to go. but you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone..."
::Author sings loudly::
Now it's time for Kenshin to make his move. He's been a big baka!!! How does he take Kaoru back?!
Oh, yeah, Val-kun, I'm sorry I wasn't able to reply.. I have no more load!!!
::sob::
Minna, did you know that my As in me ONLY internet bill reached a thousand bucks?!
::kawaii faints::
Yep.. and now I'm gonna have to pay.. Waaaaaaaaaah.. :o
The Philo test went good. but the NatSci test. how do I begin to explain about that darn test?! Grrrrrrr..
Minna, thanks for reading and reviewing and still bearing with me!! I hope y'all like this chappie.
Till next time! ^_^