::Twisted::
Himura Kawaii
Chapter 10
I. Kenshin and Kaoru
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
"What.the.hell.did.you.think.you.just.did?!?!" Kaoru asked again, this time emphasizing each word.
Kenshin stared at her, unable to talk. He pulled at his hair, slumping on the beanie, hoping that the floor would open and swallow him whole.
Kaoru stood up and paced around her room, her thoughts were blurred and her heart was beating furiously. Instinctively, her hand reached up to touch her lips. She still felt Kenshin's warm and probing lips on hers, his breath tingling her sensations. She turned to Kenshin and let out a long breath. She didn't want him anymore. No. She wasn't gonna give in. Her anger quickly returned and she started to speak. "Are you a psycho or something?!"
Kenshin abruptly stood up and faced Kaoru, his pride getting the best of him. "But you kissed me back! You can't deny that!" He wailed. "How was I supposed to know I should stop? How was I supposed to know what I did was wrong when I felt that you wanted it too?!" He was shouting now.
"How dare you say I kissed you back!" Kaoru screamed at Kenshin furiously, her own pride swelling.
But I did Kaoru thought
"And how dare you even imply that I liked kissing you?! I DID NOT!" She took a step closer to Kenshin, glaring up at him.
Oh, but I did.
She could smell his scent now; their faces were only a few inches away. Kaoru could feel her knees weakening and her resolve not to love this man fading away. But Kaoru was strong-willed, and her self-value was at its peak. Instead of kissing him like she wanted to do, she continued ranting at him.
"And, god, Kenshin, you are so stupid! Of course what you did was wrong! It was totally wrong. Who do you think you are anyway?" She was now poking Kenshin with her hands due to frustration. Kenshin kept his head down, overcome with guilt and shame for making Kaoru feel this way.
"Do you think if you come trotting back into my life and started kissing me, I'd forget everything and come crawling back to you?! What is it Kenshin? Is it the pleasure of seeing me suffer because of you that you miss so much? That would make you wreck my life just to get what you want?!" Kaoru sobbed hysterically. "I am SO over you Kenshin. I am so over your jerkiness and your 'I'm-too-good-for-Kaoru' crap! I've wasted half of my life on you and I'm not about to waste the other half of my life on you!" A fresh round of tears came over Kaoru.
Kenshin felt Kaoru weaken and wiped her tears with his hands. He cupped her face and looked at her glistening eyes and saw turmoil in them. He felt a stab of pain knowing he was the reason for her hurting.
Kaoru saw Kenshin's intense violet eyes filled with love and concern that she couldn't help but turn away. She'd been waiting for this moment her entire life, and now that it's happening, she already belonged to someone else. She wanted so much to be able to return his longed for affections but she couldn't.
"Aishiteru Kaoru." Kenshin whispered. "I-
Kaoru flinched and looked down. "No, I don't want to hear any of this. Please stop!"
Kenshin grabbed Kaoru's shoulders. "No, Kaoru, look at me. Please look at me." Kaoru slowly looked up, tears brimming in her eyes. "I'm really sorry I didn't realize how much I love you earlier. Kami, if I could take everything I did to you, and if I could turn back the time, I would. Believe me, I would do anything to have you back. I just need to know if there's a chance.. any chance I might. might win you back again." It was Kenshin's turn to flinch, for as much as he wanted to have Kaoru, he didn't want to hurt his best friend at all.
But before he could stop himself, Kenshin found himself putting his arms around Kaoru and leaning over to kiss Kaoru again, but she pushed him away with her hands clutched into fists, pushing at his chest.
"Iie.." Kaoru sniffled. "I- I don't love you anymore Kenshin. I am with Enishi now and he's the one I love." Kaoru looked away so that Kenshin wouldn't know she was lying.
Kenshin slowly removed his hands on her and took a step back. His eyes wide with shock, pain evident on his handsome face.
"Kenshin, there's no more chance. I don't feel anything for you anymore. It wasn't even love, I think." It took out everything from Kaoru to be able to say that to Kenshin.
"That's not true! That is a lie and you know that Kaoru!" Kenshin lashed out on Kaoru, tears now stinging his eyes and blurring his vision. "You don't love him! I see it in your eyes! Call me a jerk, call me anything you want, but I know. I know in my heart that you still feel something for me. You've proven it from the way you kissed me back!" Kenshin stopped himself, realizing how rude he'd been, how selfish. Here he was, lashing out at Kaoru, accusing her of running away when he himself had been running away for the longest time. He took a deep breath and sighed. "Gomen nasai Kaoru. I didn't mean to scream at you. I. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore." He sat back down, his hand on his head, clutching his hair.
Kaoru stared at him and sat down in front of him. "Kenshin-"
Kenshin cut her off. "No Kaoru, the moment is here. I've been running away for too long. I will make it up to you. I will give you everything I could; just say you'll give me a chance." Kenshin begged on his knees, his violet orbs filled with tears, pleading for Kaoru to consent. "Onegai, Kaoru. you and I belong together. You know that. You don't belong to Enishi. you belong to me.."
Kaoru looked down, her hair falling to her face. She took a deep breath and looked up to see Kenshin's eyes intent on her. She laid her hand on his cheek. So handsome.I'll never touch this face again. Kaoru removed her hand on his face and stood up. "I've belonged to you the moment I laid eyes on you, you know that very well. I've loved you for so long, and I've been contented in loving you from afar." Kaoru shook her head and smiled sadly. "But you know what, Kenshin? I now realize that love just isn't enough. and that no matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to win. I've given up, Kenshin. I've given up on you."
Kenshin stood up and nodded at Kaoru. He slowly walked towards her door and left.
The silence was deafening for Kaoru. She stood there, rooted to the floor, in her mind's eye, she saw Kenshin leaving her room, leaving her life forever. She crumpled to the floor, weeping and gasping for breath and darkness enveloped her whole being.
Sorry if this is short!! And sorry if the second installation, Enishi isn't posted yet. I haven't encoded it yet!! Gomen, gomen!! ::Kawaii bows down:: It's that darn UP!! They've been loading me us freshies with exams and paperworks and projects and I'm getting used to papercuts by now!! Kuso.
So for the part two of Chap 10, Enishi and Kenshin will fight.. but not with swords, I'm afraid.. they don't have swords in this lifetime.. gomen!
Thanks for bearing with me and reading and all.. sigh.. I'm sorry I'm a bad fic writer.. I make Kaoru slap Kenshin and Kenshin shout at Kaoru. I'm inspiration-LESS!! Hahahaha.
Yoshi. where are you?! I NEED inspiration! *^_^*
Himura Kawaii
Chapter 10
I. Kenshin and Kaoru
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
"What.the.hell.did.you.think.you.just.did?!?!" Kaoru asked again, this time emphasizing each word.
Kenshin stared at her, unable to talk. He pulled at his hair, slumping on the beanie, hoping that the floor would open and swallow him whole.
Kaoru stood up and paced around her room, her thoughts were blurred and her heart was beating furiously. Instinctively, her hand reached up to touch her lips. She still felt Kenshin's warm and probing lips on hers, his breath tingling her sensations. She turned to Kenshin and let out a long breath. She didn't want him anymore. No. She wasn't gonna give in. Her anger quickly returned and she started to speak. "Are you a psycho or something?!"
Kenshin abruptly stood up and faced Kaoru, his pride getting the best of him. "But you kissed me back! You can't deny that!" He wailed. "How was I supposed to know I should stop? How was I supposed to know what I did was wrong when I felt that you wanted it too?!" He was shouting now.
"How dare you say I kissed you back!" Kaoru screamed at Kenshin furiously, her own pride swelling.
But I did Kaoru thought
"And how dare you even imply that I liked kissing you?! I DID NOT!" She took a step closer to Kenshin, glaring up at him.
Oh, but I did.
She could smell his scent now; their faces were only a few inches away. Kaoru could feel her knees weakening and her resolve not to love this man fading away. But Kaoru was strong-willed, and her self-value was at its peak. Instead of kissing him like she wanted to do, she continued ranting at him.
"And, god, Kenshin, you are so stupid! Of course what you did was wrong! It was totally wrong. Who do you think you are anyway?" She was now poking Kenshin with her hands due to frustration. Kenshin kept his head down, overcome with guilt and shame for making Kaoru feel this way.
"Do you think if you come trotting back into my life and started kissing me, I'd forget everything and come crawling back to you?! What is it Kenshin? Is it the pleasure of seeing me suffer because of you that you miss so much? That would make you wreck my life just to get what you want?!" Kaoru sobbed hysterically. "I am SO over you Kenshin. I am so over your jerkiness and your 'I'm-too-good-for-Kaoru' crap! I've wasted half of my life on you and I'm not about to waste the other half of my life on you!" A fresh round of tears came over Kaoru.
Kenshin felt Kaoru weaken and wiped her tears with his hands. He cupped her face and looked at her glistening eyes and saw turmoil in them. He felt a stab of pain knowing he was the reason for her hurting.
Kaoru saw Kenshin's intense violet eyes filled with love and concern that she couldn't help but turn away. She'd been waiting for this moment her entire life, and now that it's happening, she already belonged to someone else. She wanted so much to be able to return his longed for affections but she couldn't.
"Aishiteru Kaoru." Kenshin whispered. "I-
Kaoru flinched and looked down. "No, I don't want to hear any of this. Please stop!"
Kenshin grabbed Kaoru's shoulders. "No, Kaoru, look at me. Please look at me." Kaoru slowly looked up, tears brimming in her eyes. "I'm really sorry I didn't realize how much I love you earlier. Kami, if I could take everything I did to you, and if I could turn back the time, I would. Believe me, I would do anything to have you back. I just need to know if there's a chance.. any chance I might. might win you back again." It was Kenshin's turn to flinch, for as much as he wanted to have Kaoru, he didn't want to hurt his best friend at all.
But before he could stop himself, Kenshin found himself putting his arms around Kaoru and leaning over to kiss Kaoru again, but she pushed him away with her hands clutched into fists, pushing at his chest.
"Iie.." Kaoru sniffled. "I- I don't love you anymore Kenshin. I am with Enishi now and he's the one I love." Kaoru looked away so that Kenshin wouldn't know she was lying.
Kenshin slowly removed his hands on her and took a step back. His eyes wide with shock, pain evident on his handsome face.
"Kenshin, there's no more chance. I don't feel anything for you anymore. It wasn't even love, I think." It took out everything from Kaoru to be able to say that to Kenshin.
"That's not true! That is a lie and you know that Kaoru!" Kenshin lashed out on Kaoru, tears now stinging his eyes and blurring his vision. "You don't love him! I see it in your eyes! Call me a jerk, call me anything you want, but I know. I know in my heart that you still feel something for me. You've proven it from the way you kissed me back!" Kenshin stopped himself, realizing how rude he'd been, how selfish. Here he was, lashing out at Kaoru, accusing her of running away when he himself had been running away for the longest time. He took a deep breath and sighed. "Gomen nasai Kaoru. I didn't mean to scream at you. I. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore." He sat back down, his hand on his head, clutching his hair.
Kaoru stared at him and sat down in front of him. "Kenshin-"
Kenshin cut her off. "No Kaoru, the moment is here. I've been running away for too long. I will make it up to you. I will give you everything I could; just say you'll give me a chance." Kenshin begged on his knees, his violet orbs filled with tears, pleading for Kaoru to consent. "Onegai, Kaoru. you and I belong together. You know that. You don't belong to Enishi. you belong to me.."
Kaoru looked down, her hair falling to her face. She took a deep breath and looked up to see Kenshin's eyes intent on her. She laid her hand on his cheek. So handsome.I'll never touch this face again. Kaoru removed her hand on his face and stood up. "I've belonged to you the moment I laid eyes on you, you know that very well. I've loved you for so long, and I've been contented in loving you from afar." Kaoru shook her head and smiled sadly. "But you know what, Kenshin? I now realize that love just isn't enough. and that no matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to win. I've given up, Kenshin. I've given up on you."
Kenshin stood up and nodded at Kaoru. He slowly walked towards her door and left.
The silence was deafening for Kaoru. She stood there, rooted to the floor, in her mind's eye, she saw Kenshin leaving her room, leaving her life forever. She crumpled to the floor, weeping and gasping for breath and darkness enveloped her whole being.
Sorry if this is short!! And sorry if the second installation, Enishi isn't posted yet. I haven't encoded it yet!! Gomen, gomen!! ::Kawaii bows down:: It's that darn UP!! They've been loading me us freshies with exams and paperworks and projects and I'm getting used to papercuts by now!! Kuso.
So for the part two of Chap 10, Enishi and Kenshin will fight.. but not with swords, I'm afraid.. they don't have swords in this lifetime.. gomen!
Thanks for bearing with me and reading and all.. sigh.. I'm sorry I'm a bad fic writer.. I make Kaoru slap Kenshin and Kenshin shout at Kaoru. I'm inspiration-LESS!! Hahahaha.
Yoshi. where are you?! I NEED inspiration! *^_^*