::Twisted::
Himura Kawaii
Chapter 11
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... The song ain't mine either. it's the Goo Goo Dolls' I love them! I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
You take a lot of chances with your feelings
No one really knows what you feel
And fiction is the only way you're dealing
You turn your pretty head if it gets real
You take it so slowly
And your eyes take it so slowly
And it's only when you think about me
Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me Think About Me Goo Goo Dolls
"Do you still love him?"
Kaoru looked up at Enishi, startled. They were walking around their village that Sunday morning, trying to clear things on their heads.
"Love who, Enishi-kun?" Kaoru innocently blinked back up at Enishi.
Enishi frowned at Kaoru then looked away. "You know perfectly well who I'm talking about."
When Kaoru didn't say anything, Enishi pushed further. "I saw the kiss."
"Oh." Kaoru simply said. She didn't know what words to say to make it seem like it wasn't a big deal, like she didn't have anything to do with it. She thought that Enishi must've seen through her. She suddenly wanted to puke, overcome with guilt for her untamed emotions.
Enishi stopped walking and stood in front of Kaoru. "Oh?! Is that the best you could do? Won't you even deny anything?"
Kaoru ran a hand through her long black hair. "What do you want me to say, Enishi? That I planned everything? That I enjoyed the stupid kiss?" She walked on, leaving Enishi a few steps behind her.
"Did you?"
Kaoru stopped at that question. "What do you think?" A minute ago, she was overcome with guilt, but now instead of feeling shameful, she felt anger. Enishi seemed to want to push her into admitting something she didn't want to admit even to herself. "I didn't ask Kenshin to kiss me, nor did I want the kiss. It just happened and I couldn't do anything to stop it, okay? It wasn't my fault so stop prodding."
Enishi winced as if Kaoru had slapped him. He only wanted to make her happy. He thought that if Kaoru admitted her feelings for Kenshin, he could find it in himself to let her go. Apparently, she still refuses to see things as they really are. Maybe, he thought, maybe there was still a chance for them. "Kaoru. do you know how much I love you.?" he knew what he just said could either turn Kaoru to him or put her into Kenshin's arms. But he didn't care. He had to know the truth.
It was Kaoru's turn to wince. "Enishi, I. " She couuldn't finish. She didn't even know how to finish or what to say.
"Kaoru, I love you more than I knew I could ever love. Above all, I want to make you happy. And as cliché as it may sound, if you will be happy with someone else, even if that's not me, I'll willingly let you go." Enishi barely whispered the last words he said.
"You don't have to Enishi-kun." Kaoru protested a bit too eagerly. "I love you."
Damn Kaoru thought. It sounded weak and untrue.
It was.
Enishi shook his head and smiled a bit sadly at Kaoru. "You're a terrible liar, Kaoru-chan."
"Uh." Kaoru blushed hotly and looked down. Maybe she should just go and admit it. "It's not that I don't love you Enishi... Kami knows I do! It's just that.-"
"You love him more." Enishi finished for her. He felt an invisible sword cut through his heart. "I knew that."
"You must think I'm a bitch." Kaoru looked down, unable to meet Enishi's eyes. She felt so ashamed and relieved at the same time. "You must hate me so!"
Enishi shook his head as some of his spiked hair fell to his eyes. "I don't hate you Kaoru-chan. To me, you'll always be the sweet girl I fell in love with eight years ago. It's not your fault that you just can't help but love him, nor is it my fault that I just can't help loving you." Enishi paused and looked at the sky. "You come first, don't you see? As long as it's in my power to make you happy, I will. And right now, in order to be happy, you need to be with him, not me." It was now his turn to look down, because he felt tears starting to sting his eyes.
Kaoru threw her arms around Enishi and burst with tears of happiness. "What did I ever do to deserve a person like you? Thank you so much Enishi-kun!! Thank you so so much."
Enishi bit his lip to keep himself from crying. He felt so happy for Kaoru yet he felt as if a thousand bricks had fallen on his heart. "Now I ask you again, do you love him?" Enishi managed to croak.
"I. it may sound stupid, but." Kaoru paused and sighed. "But no matter how he pushes me away before, I keep on coming back, and hoping that someday, he might love me back."
"He has always been an insensitive guy. but he means well. And what's more important is that I know he loves you. He only found out a minute too late. The guy even tried to deny it!" Enishi felt a bit happier at the thought of his best friend being happy at last. "You both mean the world to me."
"I'm sorry it had to turn out this way. If things were a bit more different, if circumstances were-" Kaoru sighed regretfully. "You know what I'm trying to say, right?"
Enishi nodded.
"If I could love someone else, and be with someone other than him."
"Don't." Enishi cut her off. "You and I both know that in this life and in our lives before and in our next life, you'll still love him. You two belong together. I figured that out already. I'm the smart one remember.?"
They both laughed and the tension seemed to simmer down.
"Now go." Enishi urged Kaoru. "Go to Kenshin."
"You'll always own a big part of my heart, Enishi-kun." She smiled sweetly at him and turned around, towards the opposite direction.
Enishi watched her walk away; sadness and joy filled his heart at once. "And you'll always own all of my heart, Kaoru-chan." He took a deep breath and for once, let the tears freely fall down his face.
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only when you think about me Think About Me Goo Goo Dolls
God that felt good!!! I just did well on my speech and I'm so damn happy!!!
But I'm still sick. College can be awful. all those paperwork and readings. aaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
Plus I don't have my usual inspiration.. He's too busy dissecting a frog!!! Hmmmph.
Please rant or rave.. cuz this is gonna end soon. and I'm living for your comments!!
Elaine-san. sorry I wasn't able to reply.I ran out of load. ::wails::
Love you guys! This is for you!! ^_^
Himura Kawaii
Chapter 11
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... The song ain't mine either. it's the Goo Goo Dolls' I love them! I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
You take a lot of chances with your feelings
No one really knows what you feel
And fiction is the only way you're dealing
You turn your pretty head if it gets real
You take it so slowly
And your eyes take it so slowly
And it's only when you think about me
Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me Think About Me Goo Goo Dolls
"Do you still love him?"
Kaoru looked up at Enishi, startled. They were walking around their village that Sunday morning, trying to clear things on their heads.
"Love who, Enishi-kun?" Kaoru innocently blinked back up at Enishi.
Enishi frowned at Kaoru then looked away. "You know perfectly well who I'm talking about."
When Kaoru didn't say anything, Enishi pushed further. "I saw the kiss."
"Oh." Kaoru simply said. She didn't know what words to say to make it seem like it wasn't a big deal, like she didn't have anything to do with it. She thought that Enishi must've seen through her. She suddenly wanted to puke, overcome with guilt for her untamed emotions.
Enishi stopped walking and stood in front of Kaoru. "Oh?! Is that the best you could do? Won't you even deny anything?"
Kaoru ran a hand through her long black hair. "What do you want me to say, Enishi? That I planned everything? That I enjoyed the stupid kiss?" She walked on, leaving Enishi a few steps behind her.
"Did you?"
Kaoru stopped at that question. "What do you think?" A minute ago, she was overcome with guilt, but now instead of feeling shameful, she felt anger. Enishi seemed to want to push her into admitting something she didn't want to admit even to herself. "I didn't ask Kenshin to kiss me, nor did I want the kiss. It just happened and I couldn't do anything to stop it, okay? It wasn't my fault so stop prodding."
Enishi winced as if Kaoru had slapped him. He only wanted to make her happy. He thought that if Kaoru admitted her feelings for Kenshin, he could find it in himself to let her go. Apparently, she still refuses to see things as they really are. Maybe, he thought, maybe there was still a chance for them. "Kaoru. do you know how much I love you.?" he knew what he just said could either turn Kaoru to him or put her into Kenshin's arms. But he didn't care. He had to know the truth.
It was Kaoru's turn to wince. "Enishi, I. " She couuldn't finish. She didn't even know how to finish or what to say.
"Kaoru, I love you more than I knew I could ever love. Above all, I want to make you happy. And as cliché as it may sound, if you will be happy with someone else, even if that's not me, I'll willingly let you go." Enishi barely whispered the last words he said.
"You don't have to Enishi-kun." Kaoru protested a bit too eagerly. "I love you."
Damn Kaoru thought. It sounded weak and untrue.
It was.
Enishi shook his head and smiled a bit sadly at Kaoru. "You're a terrible liar, Kaoru-chan."
"Uh." Kaoru blushed hotly and looked down. Maybe she should just go and admit it. "It's not that I don't love you Enishi... Kami knows I do! It's just that.-"
"You love him more." Enishi finished for her. He felt an invisible sword cut through his heart. "I knew that."
"You must think I'm a bitch." Kaoru looked down, unable to meet Enishi's eyes. She felt so ashamed and relieved at the same time. "You must hate me so!"
Enishi shook his head as some of his spiked hair fell to his eyes. "I don't hate you Kaoru-chan. To me, you'll always be the sweet girl I fell in love with eight years ago. It's not your fault that you just can't help but love him, nor is it my fault that I just can't help loving you." Enishi paused and looked at the sky. "You come first, don't you see? As long as it's in my power to make you happy, I will. And right now, in order to be happy, you need to be with him, not me." It was now his turn to look down, because he felt tears starting to sting his eyes.
Kaoru threw her arms around Enishi and burst with tears of happiness. "What did I ever do to deserve a person like you? Thank you so much Enishi-kun!! Thank you so so much."
Enishi bit his lip to keep himself from crying. He felt so happy for Kaoru yet he felt as if a thousand bricks had fallen on his heart. "Now I ask you again, do you love him?" Enishi managed to croak.
"I. it may sound stupid, but." Kaoru paused and sighed. "But no matter how he pushes me away before, I keep on coming back, and hoping that someday, he might love me back."
"He has always been an insensitive guy. but he means well. And what's more important is that I know he loves you. He only found out a minute too late. The guy even tried to deny it!" Enishi felt a bit happier at the thought of his best friend being happy at last. "You both mean the world to me."
"I'm sorry it had to turn out this way. If things were a bit more different, if circumstances were-" Kaoru sighed regretfully. "You know what I'm trying to say, right?"
Enishi nodded.
"If I could love someone else, and be with someone other than him."
"Don't." Enishi cut her off. "You and I both know that in this life and in our lives before and in our next life, you'll still love him. You two belong together. I figured that out already. I'm the smart one remember.?"
They both laughed and the tension seemed to simmer down.
"Now go." Enishi urged Kaoru. "Go to Kenshin."
"You'll always own a big part of my heart, Enishi-kun." She smiled sweetly at him and turned around, towards the opposite direction.
Enishi watched her walk away; sadness and joy filled his heart at once. "And you'll always own all of my heart, Kaoru-chan." He took a deep breath and for once, let the tears freely fall down his face.
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only when you think about me Think About Me Goo Goo Dolls
God that felt good!!! I just did well on my speech and I'm so damn happy!!!
But I'm still sick. College can be awful. all those paperwork and readings. aaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
Plus I don't have my usual inspiration.. He's too busy dissecting a frog!!! Hmmmph.
Please rant or rave.. cuz this is gonna end soon. and I'm living for your comments!!
Elaine-san. sorry I wasn't able to reply.I ran out of load. ::wails::
Love you guys! This is for you!! ^_^