Duo sat on the shuttle on his way to Earth. By what he had read in Heero's journal he didn't have much time. Duo was furious. ::What the hell is wrong with that guy, what makes him think that he deserves death? No one deserves that, not even him! When I get there…:: He sat fuming for the rest of the ten hours he still had left on his flight. His stomach was churning with anticipation. He hadn't seen his friends for a long time. But he really missed Heero, he thought about him every day, how could he not with him being in his dreams.

Duo sighed looking out the window. ::What did Heero mean about the person in his dreams. Hmm now that I think about it he mentioned his stomach aching. Maybe he really was in my dream.:: Duo's thoughts were cut short by the announcement that they were landing. Clenching his fists he took a deep breath and tried to prepare his mind for what he would have to do. ::Calm down, Calm down. Have to talk with Heero, make him change his mind. If he wont then I will force him::

He grinned. "This is gonna be a long trip."

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Heero found himself planning his day. :: I need to take two pills, and force myself to stay awake for an hour to take the other pills, then hopefully I wont pass out… hmm not likely, but four pills will be enough. And if I do manage to stay awake for the two hours I will have completed my last mission successfully.:: Heero decided to start tonight when no on would be suspicious.

He walked downstairs to the dining room. Looking at his friends he smiled inside. ::They look happy, I hope they will get over my death soon. They may suffer a little, but I never deserved friends like them in the first place. He sat at the table sighing and began what was suppose to be his last meal. He knew he looked horrible, he just hoped no one else will pick up on it today since they hadn't any of the other days. ::Not like they really care, they don't even see that I am in pain, I thought Quatre was suppose to sense these sort of things::

Suddenly Heero felt his chest hurt. ::Even if Quatre sensed it, he wouldn't do anything, I'm not worth it. I don't deserve this.:: he looked down at his food, preparing to give it to the dogs when he saw something in the corner of his eye that made him turn slightly and gasp.

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Duo parked his rented car a block from the mansion. He was planning on sneaking in to see if he could watch Heero and assess the situation. He snuck around back and found himself in the kitchen. People were busily cleaning plates and paid no attention to the boy who stuck to the shadows. From what Duo could tell, if they were cleaning up pots then there was a good chance that everyone was in the dining room still. ::Now if only I could find out where that is::

After roaming around for ten minutes he finally found himself outside of the large rectangle room. He peeked his head around and saw that there were about fifteen people seated at the table. He could see Quatre, Trowa and Wufei at one end laughing at some joke Quatre made. ::But where is Heero?:: Just then he looked all the way at the other end of the table and spotted him.

Heero looked pale and way too thin. His cheeck bones were starting to sink in and he had bags under his eyes. ::What the hell! Does no one notice that Heero looks like dead run over? They are not even looking at him. No wonder hes depressed.:: Duo watched for a couple more minutes, noticing that not once did any of the other ex pilots look in Heero's direction. All though something interesting did catch his eye.

The girl next to Heero seemed to be flirting uncontrollably with Heero, and of course Heero looked half paying attention. ::Hah! He looks the same as when I use to ramble on in front of him.:: Suddenly his chest hurt at the memory of Heero and him during the war. How he missed seeing Heero during the war. Duo looked around the room and his anger rose again. He had to do something. There was no way he would let Heero kill himself, he would do everything in his power to stop him. ::I just hope I don't make things worse::

Duo came out of his hiding place and started to slowly walk towards the table. He saw that the first person who noticed him was Heero. ::Well he always noticed things before everyone else, that's the perfect soldier for you, well not so perfect anymore:: Duo stared into the dark cobalt eyes he hadn't looked into for almost a year and a half, and he glared. He was angry and he knew Heero could tell.

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Heero stared in shock. standing before him was the person he had dreamed about, the person who he longed most to see, but as he looked into Duo's angry violet eyes he shivered. ::Oh shit, Duo looks pissed. Well at least you know he read your journal. SHIT what am I gong to do?:: Heero looked around quickly. He noticed that everyone else had become quiet and they were all looking at a very pissed off Duo who wasn't taking his eyes off of Heero. ::What do I do? Need …escape… There! The door behind me, now if only I can make it.::

Heero sat up fast and bolted from the table as fast as he could. But in his unhealthy state it wasn't fast enough, Heero felt Duo's weight hit him and he fell to the floor. Duo sat on top of Heero pinning him to the dinning room floor. "Aw ah ah Heero, your not getting away from me. Now be a good little boy and stop struggling so I don't have to get rough."

Heero could feel the eyes of everyone in the room staring at him lying face down on the floor. He quicked a glance at Quatre to see him wide eyed and standing up. "D-duo! What are you doing here?"

Duo glared at Quatre angrily, he was too mad at him to respond. Quatre backed up a step staring in shock. He had never seen Duo so angry before.

Duo pulled Heero to his feet and pushed him back down into his chair. He then moved some dished aside and sat on the table directly in front of Heero cross-legged. He took up the plate there and scooped up some of the eggs onto the fork. He grinned at Heero who's eyes were wide with shock. "Open up!" he moved the fork in front of Heero's face like someone would a child, making Heero glare at the braided boy in front of him. "Aww come on you don't want to get egg on your face do you?"

Heero's eyes widened again. What was Duo doing? He wasn't going to play this game, Duo had no right to interfere in his life. He tried to stand up but found that both his arms were stuck. He looked down and noticed that his arms were handcuffed to the chair arms. Wide eyed Heero looked at the grinned boy in front of him "W-when?"

"Aww now come on Heero, your not getting soft in these times of peace are ya? Or is it just because you haven't eaten barely anything for a month." His face took in on a serious look as he said this, and Heero could here Quatre gasp from across the table. He looked down at the other end of the room and saw three very wide sets of eyes staring at him. "Now, open up for the chu-chu train little boy, before the coals get cold!"

Seeing as he had no choice, Heero gave in and opened his mouth. He could see Duo looking seriously again as he took in his sickly appearance. ::Why did he come here? I didn't want him to see me like this.::

After the fourth bite of the eggs he felt he couldn't eat anymore. "Duo… cant eat anymore." He looked pleadingly into the serious face across from him. He saw a flash of sadness in Duo's eyes but it disappeared as he sighed and put down the fork.

"Well of course you cant, Now are you going to tell me why the HELL you haven't been eating properly, or am I gonna have to figure it out on my own. And let me tell you I have a pretty good idea but I wanna here it from you." Heero just stared at him then looked down ashamed. Duo sighed again and started to take off the handcuffs. "Alright we'll talk later, but for now I want you to sleep, from the looks of it you havent been. God Heero! You look like shit!" Heero led Duo out of the room, glancing one last time at the shocked faces.

::Mission failed::

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Duo couldn't believe how weak Heero had become. He looked like he was going to collapse as he led Duo down to his room. ::And he could only take four bites of food! Only four!:: He walked into the door Heero stopped at. As he stepped inside he felt the freezing temperature of the room and frowned.

"God Heero, you really wanted to die didn't you?" He glared at Heero who was looking anywhere but him and walked to the window to shut it. "Come here." Heero obeyed the command and sat next to Duo who was sitting on the edge of the bed. His eyes softened as he looked into Heero's eyes.

"Why didn't you get help Heero? You could have told someone?" Heero could see now that Duo was in pain. His violet eyes showed sadness and hurt.

::Oh god, I ended up hurting him again! Why cant I ever do anything right? I cant even kill myself, well I never could kill myself. I always failed, I'm weak. And now my weakness is hurting him again!:: Heero clamped his hands into a fist and took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry Duo, I never meant to hurt you. You weren't suppose to find out about this." He looked up and knew he said something wrong for Duo's was once again furious, even more so than before.

"You. Don't think… I would be hurt when you killed yourself?" Duo tried to control his temper. His breathing was growing harsher as he looked at Heero who know looked afraid. "Heero.." he took a deep breath calming down before continuing. "I would be hurt more if you died, I would be hurt because I wasn't here to help you. I am glad that I made it in time to stop you from doing something stupid." He wrapped his arms around Heero giving him a gentle hug.

Heero breath quickened as Duo hugged him. He wrapped his arms around him returning the hug. ::This feels good:: Then he jumped up breaking the hug. ::I don't deserve this! How dare I touch him after what I did.::

Duo looked up at him sadly. "Heero, we will talk more later, you need to sleep. And I need to go talk to some people around here." He led Heero to the bed and gently helped him into bed. Heero had to admit that he was tired. And it was nice having someone around helping him for a change. "And don't you dare do anything stupid you hear me? If you do I swear to Shinigami I will hunt you down and make you miserable!" He looked seriously at Heero. "Promise me Heero, that at least while I'm here you wont try anything suicidal! I swear somewhere in that programming J did on ya, you turned out to be pretty messed up in that head of yours!"

Heero scowled at him, which earned him a grin from Duo. Seeing now that Duo was just trying to lighten up the mood with his statement he sighed. "Hai, I wont."

Duo beamed down at Heero who's eyes were slowly drifting shut. "Arigato" he said while lightly brushing Heeros bangs from his eyes. Soon Heero was asleep and Duo took one last glance and drifted out of the room in search of three ex-gundam pilots.