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Duo found himself in a different place than he usually was when dreaming. This time he was in a dark room resembling a cell. He could here heavy breathing coming from somewhere to his right.

Huddled in the corner, Heero sat with his knees tightly pressed against his chest and his hands wrapped tightly around them. He was looking at Duo as if trying to figure out if he was really standing there or not. Cobalt eyes looked warily at Duo's chest.

Looking down to see what was the matter, Duo realized he was in his old priest outfit with his cross hanging there shining even in the darkness of the room.

"Heero… where…?" Duo whispered questioningly.

"Shh… There about to come." Heero motioned for Duo to look to the door on one of the far walls. Sure enough it started to creep slowly open.

"W-what's coming?" He managed to breath out, never taking his eyes away from the door that was now almost all the way open. They both stared into the pitch black opening in the door. Out of the darkness stepped a tall light brown haired woman who appeared to look in her early twenties. Her dark green eyes sent shivers down Duo's spine, they looked so empty and distant.

She was staring at Heero with a cold look that frightened Duo to the point that he wanted to throw himself at her to get her to look away. But he found he couldn't move. He struggled a little not understanding why his feet seemed to be rooted to the cement floor.

"You took away my heart." Her voice was thin and soft like a loud whisper.

"I'm sorry." Heero replied. Duo was surprised that he looked so calm and didn't even seem to flinch at her cold words.

"Heero… what is she talking about?" Heero glanced only for a moment in his direction before looking down at the floor.

"My life, you took away my life." She stated coldly.

"Y-you killed her." It wasn't really a question more of a shocking statement.

"Yes… and no." He never took his eyes off of her when speaking. "I killed her family. I killed her husband, her son, and after they were dead… her pain, her loss… she died. I killed her without even meaning to, without even knowing it. I crushed her soul until there was nothing left inside of her… she died. and I didn't even care." At that Heero's eyes grew wide and he threw his head back and screamed.

Duo felt like his insides were all mixed into a blender and put on a platter in front of him. Heero screamed and thrashed his head back and forth crying in terror. The woman just stared there tormenting him with her icy stare.

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Pain lanced through his arms and Duo wondered what had happened. He felt dizzy and heard someone shouting his name far away in the distance. All of a sudden things began to fade out and he found himself staring at a blurry image of Wufei. He was pinning down his arms preventing them from thrashing about.

"Maxwell!" Wufei helped him sit up, and he soon realized that his face was wet and his throat soar. "It's ok, you just had a nightmare."

Duo could feel Wufei's hand rubbing his back softly as he took deep calming breaths. He had obviously been crying and screaming. "Sorry Fei, I'm alright now, I'm good." He stood up as if too give further proof that he didn't need any more help. "How's Heero?"

Wufei smirked as he thought of the incident awhile ago, but it was quickly replaced with a frown. "He's got a really high fever, the doctor just got here and I thought I'd wake you up to tell you… when I saw you were screaming." He looked questionably at Duo who had gone pale. "You don't look so good either. You might want to lay down for awhile longer."

That was the last thing Duo wanted to do, he felt himself shiver as he remembered the nightmare still fresh in his mind. "Nah, I'm ok. Just want to go check on Heero, k?"

He could see how Wufei was looking at him with uncertainty, "I said I'm fine, and besides I'm not the one you should be worrying about." Wufei flinched at that but quickly covered it up with a sigh and started to lead Duo, who was now fully awake, to Heero's room.

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The first thing Heero noticed as he woke up from one of his horrible nightmare's was that he was soaking wet. He was having trouble breathing and he felt like he had just run a mile. For some reason he was getting these dreams more and more lately, he used to get them almost every night during the war but they seemed to fade away during the peace time and were replaced with dreams of Duo. But then he could almost remember seeing Duo in his dream as well. Though he seemed to have faded into the background once 'She' had come out.

She was one of his regulars, his ghosts that haunted him often. The expression that was on her face never changed. And she rarely spoke, just stood there and looked at him, it drove him almost crazy.

The door opened to his room and he watched as a tall thin man in his thirties walked in. Heero just glared at him as he walked up and began checking him. He wanted to swipe the hand away that was poking and prodding him. But he realized he could barely even lift his head up so far as to turn it.

::Weak… weak… weak…:: It became a sort of mantra as he said it over and over in his head. He didn't know why but it made him feel better. Maybe it made him feel like he was being punished, and of coarse he felt he deserved every ache and pain that his nerves were sending to his brain.

He noticed that Quatre had come in awhile later and was now talking in low whispers to the doctor across the room. Heero almost laughed at their show of secrecy. Didn't they know he could read their lips? Did they forget that he had almost inhuman hearing? He smirked at that but chose not to eavesdrop. ::Might as well give them what they want, if they don't want me to hear how fucked up I am then so be it.::

Soon the doctor was back with more of his so called 'examination'. ::What did he hope to find? Anyone could tell just by looking at me what's wrong… then again maybe they cant. Sure took Quatre long enough to notice.:: He cringed at his thoughts. He wasn't really being fair… it was his fault he was like this in the first place, not theirs. He was the one messed up and he was the one who was hiding it from them as best he could.

But instead of being completely repulsed by him and kicking him out, they were taking care of him and making an attempt to help. Heero knew it was useless, he was far too gone to be helped. But somehow it made him feel better to know that when he died he would die knowing that some people had actually… cared… for him.

::Duo:: He smiled as he thought of him, Duo had come all the way from L2 to make sure Heero ate something. He would be the hardest to leave behind, and Heero expected a pretty nasty fight. But there wasn't anything to do, he knew he had to die, he deserved it. And he was sure that the only way to make the people he hurt and killed really rest in peace, was to give them what they wanted.

They wanted his death, his destruction. Heero was fully prepared to give it to them.

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Duo entered the room and saw Quatre arguing with a tall man with black hair and a thin frame. Apparently they had a disagreement on where Heero should be placed. The doctor wanted to take him to a treatment center, and Quatre was arguing that he wanted Heero to be as comfortable as possible.

"We cant move him now anyway, since he has a high fever. But you should at least consider it as an option in the future if things get worse. I put the medication on the counter, he needs to take one of each after each meal. Do not have him take them on an empty stomach. His body probably wont be able to hold much food which is why I had to lower the dosage a little." The doctor looked over at Duo who walked up to stand beside Quatre. He raised his eyebrow in question.

"Its alright, Duo will most likely be with Heero most of the time so he should hear this."

The doctor still looked a little concerned but shook it off and continued, "He wont be able to hold much down for awhile if anything at all, so try to get him to eat a little every couple of hours. Oh and try to make it soft foods like soup and oatmeal. Things that are easy on the digestive system."

Duo looked over to the bed at Heero who was staring at the ceiling in deep thought. He walked away from the doctor and made his way to sit beside the weak looking boy. Heero's cobalt eyes locked onto his which sent a shiver down his spine. ::Why does Heero do this to himself?::

Heero could see Duo's eyes ask his question for him. A guilty feeling made him look away to the side to avoid anymore contact. He could feel the hurt as Duo's shoulders slumped slightly and he let out a long sigh.

"Duo?" he jumped to the sound of Quatre's voice looking at him with concern. Duo looked at him and smiled.

"What's up Quat?"

"I'm gonna go get Heero some soup or something. Do you think you could clean him up a little and then give him an extra blanket?" At Duo's nod he started out the door. But turned and smiled at Heero before exiting.

"Well looks like your gonna have to get a sort of sponge bath, well more like a washcloth bath since I don't see any sponges," Heero blushed which made Duo chuckle. "You know Heero you are kinda cute when you blush."

Heero felt his face burn even more and his eyes widen. "I-Its just the fever." He looked down trying to save himself even more embarrassment.

Duo just chuckled louder, "Sure Heero, whatever you say."

Despite the uncomfortable feeling at first, he found himself relaxing under Duo's gentleness washing him clean. The warm water was making him feel a little better, and he found himself disappointed when it was over.

Quatre came back shortly after that and left Duo to feed Heero, but not before fussing about making sure he was warm and complaining about the rooms cold temperature.

He tried to reach for the bowl to feed himself to no success as his hand was swatted away by Duo. He then began to feed him like he had in the dinning room. Surprisingly he got in a couple more bites than last time and he was rewarded with a smile from Duo.

"Stomach hurting you still? How's your temperature?" Placing a hand on Heero's head and feeling the warmth still there he frowned.

"I'm fine."

Duo gave off a sound similar to 'tut', and glared at Heero. "Don't you lie to me Yuy. Anyone of us can see you are anything but fine." Heero felt awful for some reason unknown to him. He felt like he wanted to jump up and hug Duo or do anything to get that hurt look of his face.

More pain more hurting, when was it going to stop? He felt like he was living in a never ending cycle with no dead ends or stops.

"Heero…" Heero blinked at the serious tone in Duo's voice. "Do you want to talk about those nightmares you've been having?"

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