Duo looked up when he felt movement on the bed. Heero's eyes were now open staring at him. "HEERO!" Duo jumped to his feet and had to control himself not to hug the said boy. His happiness was quickly replaced by anger as he glared at the pale looking boy on the bed. "YOU FUCKING BASTARD!"

Heero sank his head deeper in his pillow trying to distance himself as much as possible from the furious Duo Maxwell, he was in for a long lecture.

"You promised me Heero, you said you wouldn't!! How could you?? What the HELL were you thinking when you decided to just slit your FUCKING wrists?" Heero just listened, frozen in place by Duo's stare. He could see Duo's body starting to shake with anger. "Did you even think what you would do to us by pulling that stunt?? Quatre nearly had a melt down, think how he feels! He was suppose to be watching you and then you go and do… do what you did!! He keeps blaming himself… do you know what he would have done if you died?" His voice was now barely above a whisper, "Don't you even care how 'I' feel?"

Heero could still see the anger in Duo's eyes but now tears were running down his face.

He felt awful, He felt like he had betrayed them. He had hurt them… again. "D-Duo…"

"Oh gods Heero. I… I don't know what I would have done…" The pain Duo must have gone through hit Heero hard. The violet eyes were now clearly showing the hurt within.

::I am such an idiot!!.:: He wanted to reach out and comfort the sobbing boy, but he didn't know how. Duo made the decision for him, and Heero now had a very emotional boy clinging to him like a life line. Heero slowly wrapped his arms around him and in return Duo buried his head on the thin hospital gown.

"I..I was so scared Heero. Di-Didn't know if you were gonna make it. The d-doctors said you had lost too much blood… and you might…" Heero started to rub Duo's back in order to comfort him and stop the shaking. "I'm so glad… don't you ever… please Heero… I don't know what I'd do."

"I… know Duo… Its alright, I'm here. I'm not going to leave you." His comforting words were meant to soothe and it startled Heero when Duo jumped up and glared at him again.

"You better not leave me! I swear! I'll follow you and make your time in hell even worse!" He wiped the tears from his face and took a deep breath. After several minutes he seemed to settle down enough, "I'm gonna go tell the others that your awake, they'll be wanting to see you."

Heero's stomach twisted painfully. The others, they were going to be mad as hell, and Quatre… he didn't know if he could take seeing Quatre. After he had slit his wrists with Quatre standing right outside the door. It was not something anyone would be able to get over easily. "Duo please… I don't... really want to see them yet."

"That's not fair Yuy and you know it… At least let Quatre see you, he has been sick with guilt." For some reason Heero could never seem win any argument with Duo… maybe because of the way his violet eyes looked at him daring him to think otherwise. Or it could be the thought of what Duo would do to him if he refused. And he knew an angry Shinigami was not a good thing.

He sighed and turned sideways on the bed facing away from Duo. "Will you… come back after?"

"Che… you think I'm gonna leave you alone after what you did? Not a chance in hell! Your stuck with me… I don't care if I have to go into the shower with you! I'm not leaving you without someone watching you." His anger seemed to come back full blast again, "I don't trust you Heero."

That hurt. He felt like he had just gotten shot. ::I deserve it, but if only he knew… I gave up death for him, hah! Now I sound like I want him to take pity on me. I may have stopped him from following me, but I didn't stop someone else who is going to die. I only hope I can stop it, I'll do anything to atone for what I've done.:: These thoughts went round and round in his head.

Duo left and Heero was left alone in the hospital room with his guilt for company. He couldn't predict what would happen when Quatre came in. The feeling inside of him right then was indescribable, it could almost be called fear. Fear of the unknown? This was new for him, and he never before had the problem of 'not' knowing. He was suppose to be in control, that is how he always lived his life… with precision and accuracy. These last few days had sent him on a spiral, into the unknown territory of emotions, and he couldn't wait to find the end of it.

How much longer was he going to last like this?

The door opened revealing a very pale blond who was none other than Quatre, he had dark circles under his eyes which made Heero flinch when he realized he was probably the cause of it.

He walked up to the side of the bed never fully looking into Heero's eyes. His hands were clenched together tightly in front of him, and he was chewing on his bottom lip. Quatre screamed nervous.

Heero sighed in relief. Quatre wasn't mad at him, of course he wasn't! He could never stay mad at anyone for long, even during the war. When fighting against Oz, Quatre was always forgiving and understanding. He never killed out of hate or furry, and Heero rarely ever saw him angry.

Heero's thoughts were cut short, "Heero, I wanted to apologize. I am sorry, I know you might not be able to forgive me…" Quatre's head was now bent forward, and his shoulders lightly shaking.

"What are you talking about?" Heero was confused, what was there to be sorry for? Everything that he did was his own fault not Quatre's.

"I failed you… I-I should have known better… I almost killed you! I should have been watching you better!" Big blue eyes were now filling with tears as they looked at Heero for the first time since he came in.

This was not what Heero had expected, and he found himself chuckling at the situation. Here he had been worried that Quatre was going to hate his guts when in reality it was just the opposite. Quatre's eyes widened and he stood frozen just blinking at Heero who was now smiling softly at him.

"Quatre… what I did was entirely my fault… I tricked you! You shouldn't blame yourself for something you had no control over."

"Oh but I did! I… I could have…"

"No… you couldn't! I would have found another way and you know it! I was an idiot… I admit that at least, and I am sorry my mistake hurt all of you… please will you forgive me?" Heero said looking at the Arabian questioningly.

Quatre looked shocked. He could see that Heero was telling the truth, "You mean… you… your not going to hurt yourself anymore?" He could still feel a little of the self hatred stirring inside of Heero, but for some reason it had toned down a little, and was replaced with something like understanding.

*I would rather spend the rest of his life in a nightmare than hurt Duo again* That thought played repeatedly inside Heero's mind.

"I have hurt too many in my life, I now know that killing myself will only… hurt my… friends." He looked uncertainly at Quatre hoping he wasn't wrong in his assumption that he was still considered in the 'friend' category.

"But you still want to die." It would take a lot of time for Heero to heal inside, and Quatre knew better than to think he would be over it this quickly.

"Yes."

Quatre winced slightly, "I understand. But… Heero we want to help you, help you get better. And I know that you sitting here in the hospital isn't going to do much good. They will probably want to keep you here unless proven that you are not a danger to yourself any longer."

"A psychological evaluation."

"There is a way I could get you out of it, but… I need to make sure… I need your word Heero. I do not want to be responsible for… I would feel awful."

Heero looked into Quatre's eyes with all seriousness. "I give you my word, I have made a mistake. I will not do it again for I realize what would have happened if I had… died. Nothing good will come of it, I don't want to hurt you guys… I don't want to hurt Duo anymore."

His eyes widened at Heero's last statement, but he didn't comment on it. Quatre could feel a ting of fear inside of Heero that wasn't there before. Taking a deep breath he wiped the remnants of his tears away and turned towards the door.

"Alright I believe you. I'll see if I can get you out of here."

The door was halfway open when Heero called him back, "Quatre, you don't look so good… You might want to go lay down somewhere."

"Hah… I've been up for four days, I don't think a couple hours more will matter."

"Four days?? How long have I been in here?" It hadn't seemed like time had gone by at all. Would he have been asked, he would have guessed that only an hour had gone by since his accident.

"You've been in here for about a week, we were not allowed to see you until a couple days ago though… Duo was really torn up, well, all of us were…"

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be worrying about us now, you should be putting your energy into getting better. Luckily the fever went away on the third night… But we weren't sure how long before you woke up. The doctors were afraid you might have hit your head also because you were asleep for so long. I think it was just from exhaustion though." He looked at Heero softly. "I'm glad your back. Ah, that's right I should have told the doctors you were awake!" With that said he ran out of the room leaving Heero to his thoughts.

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Quatre walked back into the hospital waiting room. He had spent most of his week here and was really beginning to hate it. The hospital played soft classical music which was suppose to calm the mind, but it just ended up making everyone feel sick after the first day or two.

Duo was laying on two of the chairs pushed close together, fast asleep. Quatre smiled softly. Duo hadn't been able to sleep much either. Heero, now being awake, was probably a great relief for him. Trowa and Wufei stood up from where they had been sitting and walked over to him as he entered.

"Is everything alright?" Trowa could see that Quatre's eyes were red from crying.

"Aa…" He smiled at them, "Everything's just fine… I was actually heading over to see if I could get Heero's release forms."

"Do you think that is a good idea?" This idea was a little more than shocking for Wufei. "I mean… he just… well how can we be sure he is not going to… try 'that' again?"

"I had a little talk with him… I don't feel he is going to try anything else." Suddenly the ground seemed very interesting for Quatre. "He… I think he thought that we wouldn't have cared whether he lived or died."

"Well I cant blame him. After we practically ignored him" Trowa sighed.

"Yeah… Do you two think you could get Duo home? He exhausted, and I still have some paper work to take care of, so I'll get Heero out of here and meet you back at home."

"Are you sure you will be alright here by yourself?" Trowa said looking at Wufei for help.

"Gah! I'll be fine… right now Duo needs rest! And it might take two of you to make sure he stays in bed. I know he had it in his mind to stay with Heero twenty-four hours a day, but it just isn't healthy. Especially since he hasn't slept at all this week. I can handle Heero." With that Quatre walked out of the lobby in search of Heero's doctor.

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Hmm another chapter done… But I am not really happy with the length of them… I wanna make them a little longer, or a lot longer. Tell me what you think… SHORT CHAPTERS or LONG CHAPTERS?????

And Geez! Most of my chapters are cliffhangers! ::Eeeek. Cant help it.:: ~gomen~

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