Tainted Vengeance Chapter 4: Pretend Life, an in the forests of the night fanfic

"Tainted Vengeance"

By: Sara Angeldust

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Chapter 4:

"Pretend Life"

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"Dare you to move"

Switchfoot

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Welcome to the planet,

Welcome to existence,

Everyones's here,

Everyone's here,

Everybody's watching you now,

Everybody waits for you now,

What happens next,

I dare you to move,

I dare you to lift yourself off of the floor,

I dare you to move

I dare you to move,

Like today never happened,

Today never happened, before,

Welcome to the fall out,

Welcome to existence,

Detention is here,

It's in who are you and who you could be,

It's in how it is and how it should be,

I dare you to move,

I dare you to lift yoruself off of the floor,

I dare you to move,

Like today never happened,

Today never happened,

Maybe redemption has stories to tell,

Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell,

Where can you run to escape from yourself,

Where you gunna go,

Salvation is here,

I dare you to move,

I dare you to lift yourself off of the floor,

I dare you to move,

Like today never happened,

Today never happened,

Today never happened

Today never happened before.

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Padded feet silently creep upon the hollow ground. A dark pelt shown in the night echoing the colors of the darkness which flowed around the creature. Eyes yellow as the full moon searched around the dark forest as the wind swept past a cold nose. Smells sank into the mind of a hunter as the animal creapt low to the ground, trying not to rouse it's prey. Ears perked as a sound came from behind a bush. Like lightning on a tree the animal ran.

The creatures' breathing began to get heavy as it weaved it's way through the dark woods. It's eyes darted here and there making sure not to lose sight of it's prey. As it gained speed on the smaller creature could tell the animal was tired and was running out of a reason to live. The dark animal sensed it's terror and exaustion. As the two ran through the darkness the larger one knew it was time to end the hint. Silently, the creature swiped a paw out in front of itself, triping the smaller one and sending it sprawling into a near by tree. The creature stoppd running and stood still. It's breathe came in long heaves as it tried to slow down it's pacing heart. Slowly it began to get nearer to the downed animal. As it reached the tree it sniffed the air for signs of life. As the animal came into veiw so did the smell of blood and the sight of a cracked skull. The prey was dead. A mental smirk passed through the animals head as it greedily began to devour it's prey.

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Raven whiped the blood from her mouth as she walked back to the house that was her prison. So far she had been allowed to "live" in Nikolas's house without incident. Of course there always were those noisy parties that disturbed her sleep more then once. Nikolas had never asked Raven to go down to the parties directly, but she could sense the asking in his voice when he informed her of them. She shuned those damned vampires and their noisy parties. The only one she seemed to be able to stand was Sara.

Being who she was Raven had heard in depth about the now hated daughter of Dominique Vida. She had always hated the Vida family and the way they handled vampires. Her people would never have chased after them and played with them the way they did. Raven lowered her head at the thought of her family. She missed them more then life, and wished to die to be near them again. But as she thought of it, she wondered what death would be like for her. How could God even consider letting her into heaven with the past that she carried on her back. Not only had she broken her families code by living with vampires, but she had also inacted the worst thing to her family. Vengeance.

No one in the history of the linage of her Shifter people had ever inacted vengeace. It was agianst their code of values and was always taught to the young as being the way to darkness. She had always heard stories of her people inacting vengeance on a guilty person and becoming evil themsevlves. What was that poem again?

Kill ye must to feed thyselves, kill to feed thy lovers, but when thy kills for spilled blood, they shall become like the other.

Raven shivered at the thought. Is that what her future held for her? To become like Vailor? She hoped to her God that it wouldn't happen to her. She had never agreed with her people's passive ways. Of course all creatures human and not needed to live as peacefull as possible and not to kill each other off. But when the lives of a dissapearing race was at stake there was no other option. It was the law of nature. Kill or be killed. The vampires new that more than any race Raven could think of. They showed what they had learned at almost every party. No party of Nikolas's was complete without a fight between a vampire who had killed in another's territory. She had almost become accustom to the ideals of them the past weeks. She almost felt comforted by the violence and tension. Raven almost laughed at the idea of being violent towards them herself. She could never become the tough rouge creature she had been just two and a half weeks before. She had not the mental strength to do it anymore.

As Raven looked up she sensed the house nearby. Seeing she was right the smells and sounds of a people filled house came to her. She could smell the sweat of bodies inside the large home and could hear the loud music playing with bass high as she walked up the back porch. Another one of Nikolas's parties. It seemed to Raven that they had been getting more frequent since the first one that she had attended.

As Raven opened the door she noticed Sarah standing in the small hallway away from the noise and movement. Sarah stared in her direction as Raven closed the door behind her and leaned against the oposite wall, folding her arms in front of her chest.

"Another one huh" Raven said looking at the dancing people in the center of the room. She could sense more humans then usual and a couple that might have been hunting witches.

"Yeah. Nikolas is getting hard again. I'm beginning to see more and more of the old crowd of his now. I think he's just edging for a fight with someone." Sarah said taking her eyes off of Raven and taking up her gaze. Raven knodded as she searched the room for the host. She had become watchfull of Nikolas as the days went by. She also could feel his viciousness returning as the parties got louder and the people rowdier. She could feel Nikolas's edge returning to him. Sara had mentioned to her that after his brother Christopher had turned her into a vampire that Nikolas had calmed down. Almost as if he was contemplating the way he was handling his powers. It seemed to Raven that this new bringing of roughness was caused by her. Raven laughed at the thought. Yeah, like she could bring out anything in anyone.

As she stared at the crowd a some what familiar face began to walk toward them. As the shadow passed out of the darkness of the room and into the light of the hallway Raven noticed it was Christopher. The calmer twin of Nikolas seemed suprisingly relaxed in the chaotic motions of the party only feet away. Raven watched as he walked up to Sarah giving her a small kiss then turned to stand next to his girlfriend watching the party.

"I decided to get out while I could. It's getting pretty bad out there. I think that there's going to be another brawl tonight. Besides it's almost midnight." Christopher said to no one in particular. Raven nodded looking at him. Christopher wore what most vampires did, black. A tight short sleeve shirt and pair of baggy black pants were his cover tonight.

As the night grew darker and the vampires hungrier Raven did a double take on what she was doing. Why was she still even being seen around this damned house and around that damend vampire? Raven almost laughed at the life she had made for herself. What a turn around. She had nothing to live for so what was the first thing she did? Stay in the last place she wanted to be. Near the hands of death. She new it the first time Nikolas had stared into her eyes at his intentions. He wanted to kill her. And if not that then at the very least use her to feed from. And what surprised Raven was that she could care less. If Nikolas wanted to drink from her this night and let her live just to bite her again she wouldn't retaliate. Even if he had it out to kill her that very night she wouldn't flinch in the slightest. She welcomed the comfort of death. She only wished for her life to be silenced. She had even considered the thought of suicide. But as she thought of it again she knew she could never do it. What a coward. She could never kill herself but she would be more then happy to let a vampire take her life in a second. What honor had she of a Shifter. None.

Raven closed her eyes and sighed as she let her inner argument drop. If she was to die that night then so be it. If she was to die two weeks from now then so be it. As long as she didn't have to do the deed it was fine with her. Silently she sent out a call.

"Kill me Nikolas. I want to be dead. Whenever you decide is when I will let go." "Is that an invitation or a call of submission?"

Raven's eyes snapped open as she heard Nikolas in her head.

"Damn it." Raven cursed at the vampire. She stared at him with meanacing eyes as he walked towards her with a smirk on his face.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know the thought was a private one." Nikolas said smiling getting close enough to Raven to feel the breath on her neck as she turned her head down and to the side. She didn't want to look at him. At that moment her anger for him flared again but was subdued. It wasn't worth the energy getting mad at him anymore. Why when she had just unknownly signed her death certificate.

"Don't worry," Nikolas said cuping Ravens face in his hands and turning it to face him

"It will be our little secret. And yes you will die when I decide." Nikolas smiled at this statement but Raven just stared at him with no emotions. He lightly kissed her on the cheek then let her go. Raven tried to control the eractic beating of her heart as Nikolas walked away into the darkness back to the party.

Raven noticed the eyes of Christopher and Sarah on her. She turned to see pity in their eyes. She gave them both a hard look then walked past them and up the stairs to her room.

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Nikolas smiled to himself at the way he handled the shifter. The past days had given him back his feelings of wanting to live on the edge and his sense of fun. He loved to torment Raven. Yet when he did he felt a tingle go up his spine. Why did the girl make him feel so strange. He had known so many enemies in his time and none caused him to take so much pleasure from the sense that he was going to kill them. Nikolas licked his lips at the thought. He could almost taste the girls blood on his tongue. He had been told that like witches blood, shifter blood was sweet and rich. Of course he knew that it was to be more then witches blood. Shifters were animal like and rough, wild and untamed. They ran through the nights as any animal they could change to and had spirits of fire. Just from that Nikolas knew that it would be more then just blood. It would be life, and he longed to taste it without her fighting back.: Nikolas stared into the infinite night of his party. How he had ever not wanted to have one was a mystery to him. The movement of the humans minginling with the vampires, the way their aruas mixed and twisted was intoxicating. He loved it and wished for the night to never end. Suddenly the large grandfather clokck began to chime. One, two, three, four, five……Nikolas licked his lips again. Ahh the devils hour. Six, seven, eight, nine, ten…… A slight hush went over the crowd as the clock began it's last two chimes. Eleven, Twelve. The Devil's Hour was upon the night.
Nikolas smiled as the smell of hungry aura's and wafting blood raced through his nostrils. As a vampire Nikolas lived for this time. It was the time to feed and to have one's fun. Nikolas watched as different couples began to dispurse from the dancing area of the room. Suddenly a pang of hunger hit him.He smiled at the thought of getting his wish tonight.: Silently Nikolas began to accend the stairs to the second floor and his dinner.
**************: Raven sat quietly on the edge of her bed. She stared matiqulously at the wall of death that prosided over almost the intire left wall.
"Will I become just that. Another victum on his wall of pain?": "Why. Do you want to be?"
Raven frowned as she heard Nikolas again. This time she didn't get mad at him for interupting her thoughts. She listened to his movements as Nikolas walked thorugh her door and went to lean on the wall in front of her.: Raven kept her head down. If she avoided eye contact with him maybe he would go away. But as Raven looked at the clock on the stand next to her, her hopes sank. It was 12:05. He wouldn't be leaving tonight. Raven sighed as she stood up in front of him. She knew what he wanted and this time she wasn't going to struggle against him. Maybe it would be less painfull if she didn't.
Raven watched as Nikolas smiled then shook his head. She was puzzled at this. Wasn't he here to bite her?: "Of course I am." Nikoals said pushing off the wall to come and stand 3 feet from Raven. Raven stood firm as he put his hands on her shoulders and stared at her. She didn't even flinch when he got close enough so he could lean in to her neck. Raven leaned her head away from him to allow him to bite her more easily. Raven heard Nikolas chuckle as he kissed her neck.
"No, this time I think I'll do something else."
Raven had no time to react as Nikolas grabbed her wrists and shoved her agains the opposite wall. By the time she tried to move it was too late for Nikolas had turned her to face the wall with her arms behind her back.
"What in the name of Hades are you doing?" Raven said with her face pressed into wall.: "You'll see."
**************: Nikolas's hand was trembling as he pulled his knife from his pocket. Why was he still shaking? It wasn't like he had never put his marks on a girl before. But as he opened the switch knife he could barely control the shaking of his left hand. Regrabbing Raven with his left hand he switched the knife to his right. Much better.
Nikolas smiled as he began to draw a rose on Raven's left upper arm. He felt her squirm as he peirced her skin.: "What's the matter shifter? I thought you could handle pain?" He said as he finished the stem and went on to the bud.
"What are you doing?" Raven asked turning her head to see what he was doing to her left arm.: "It's a family practice you could say. I'm marking you. It was sort of a tradition between Christopher and me. Well actually now it's my tradition, but you could say that this is the way we determine who's ours and who's not." Nikolas said finishing the bud, and going onto writing his name beneath it. He almost smiled as Raven turned her head away from the bleeding. Nikolas could tell exactly what she was thinking.
"It's no use in trying to heal this either Shifter. I'm cutting too deep into your skin for it to totally heal. There will be scars forever." Nikolas said finishing his name.: "Forever isn't such a long time." Nikolas looked at Raven when she said this. She really was serious about death. How horrible for someone so young. Nikolas thought back to when he had been her age, brand new at being a vampire and not fully trained in the skills it took. There were plenty of times he had wished he was dead. If it hadn't been for Christopher pushing him he would certainly be dead.; Nikolas put the thoughts behind him as he shifted Raven around to grab her waist so he had and open hand to draw the ivy on her wrist. Curiously she didn't even struggle. It even seemed to Nikolas that she wasn't even flinching at the cuts anymore. As Nikolas finished the ivy droplets of blood landed on his hand. As if it was water Nikolas licked it off still with Raven secure in his arms.
The second her shifter blood touched his tongue Nikolas craved for more. It was better then anything he had ever tasted. Sweeter then honey and sharper then a knife. He swore he could feel little shock waves of life pulsing through it.: As Nikolas walked behind the ever so calm girl he put his left arm around her waist and pulled her back to him.
"Has anyone ever told you how sweet your blood is?" He whispered into her ear. Raven said nothing and just stayed tense in his arms. Nikolas smirked.: "It's more then anyone could ever imagine." As Nikolas spoke he took his right hand and tilted her head to the left baring her neck. Even as he began to kiss her neck Raven made not attempt to stop him.
" What a pity." Nikolas thought "She has so much fire in her too.": Nikolas sunk his fangs into her neck sending feelings of calmness and drowsiness to her head.
"I'll give you a break this time shifter." He thought as Raven relaxed in his arms and began to fall esleep.: ************
Goodnesss I think this is the fastest I have ever written a quality chapter! Yea for me! Another cliff hanger! Dun dun dun…… I always do that don't I , so it's more like another nother nother cliff hanger…never mind my ranting. Ok you guys are gunna get to like these next chapters! We're getting deeper and deeper into this story and the relationship between Raven and Nikolas. Oh SURE it doesn't seem like much now but you'll seee muhahahahahahahahhaa!!!!! Ok I'm done. COMMENTS PLEASE! Lemme here you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol review please!: Get ready for the next chapter (cross ur fingers I get this one done just as fast)
Chapter 5:: "Falling Down Again"
OMG F I V E C H A P T E R S!!! that is as far as I've gotten in two fics! lol