A/N the last chapter. I was thinking of doing a sequel. YAY!! I got over 60 reviews for this fic! Please tell me what you think. This isn't really long. And I'm sorry-
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A Time for Regret, Another for Peace
The words of the letter were scrabbled, as though it had been written quickly.
'Dear Kel'
it began in that rugged hand.
'I am terribly sorry that I have to inform you that Cleon of Kennan was attacked by the Scanran enemy a day ago, and was not able to survive. He died honourably, fulfilling all his duties as a knight of Tortall. The first healer on site relieved him of any pain and Sir Cleon slept peacefully. He will be...'
She stopped reading there. Shock filled her body, and she found standing became difficult. Kel collasped onto the ground. She didn't know what she felt. Her emotions seemed to have faded for a moment. All her thoughts, her feelings gell in the dust underneath her.
Cleon was gone.
Trembling with the impact of the news, Kel picked up the letter, dusted herself off and wandered, lost.
Cleon was dead. He would be gone. Forever.
'My lover's gone. His boots no longer by my door...'
A terrible guilt swarmed around inside her. If she hadn't said those things-
"Why don't you just go and get yourself killed..."
The past would echo in her for a long time.
If she had never argued with him, then he wouldn't have signed up for battle that next day. As soon as your name got on that list it stayed unless you were severly injured...
'He left at dawn...
No earthly ships will ever
bring him home
again...'
All her trails of thoughts led her back to the 'what ifs' and her regret. Regret of the fact she had never really said sorry, never accepted his apology at the beginning. That fleeting moment before he rode away - their eyes had met then. She had seem the sorrow, the hurt in his eyes. Her fault. All her fault. She had caused him pain and then he died because of it. Their 'accepted apologies' at that moment meant nothing now. A tear escaped.
'....bring him home
again
My lover's gone.
I know that kiss will be my last
No more his own'
Then she thought about what Dom had said. Sadly, so ironical, that he had mentioned they would regret what they had said earlier. How she regretted it now.
'I sing alone....'
"I miss you," she whispered softly, and a soft moan omitted from her throat. Why?
That would be the biggest question. Why....?
'No earthly ships will ever
bring him home...again...'
Kel felt someone move around her tent and come close. Neal She looked up at him, meeting his eyes. Her lip quivered.
'I sing alone.
While I watch the ocean...'
She was on the floor of her tent. The tears seeped through. She was no longer that Untouchable lake.
'returns no more...'
Kel wept, all her sadness, guilt, regret, love, whatever other feelings had been bundled up - she let them out now. Neal brought his arms around her. She buried herself in his shoulder. Her tears, which felt like the essence of her being, were pouring out. It was like that part of her was being taken away.
Cleon would never come back.
Kel felt alone. All alone...
The song is 'My lover's gone' by Dido. If you have it, I spose you should have played it while reading. I'm sure you can find it at some mp3 site.
I own nothing.
A Time for Regret, Another for Peace
The words of the letter were scrabbled, as though it had been written quickly.
'Dear Kel'
it began in that rugged hand.
'I am terribly sorry that I have to inform you that Cleon of Kennan was attacked by the Scanran enemy a day ago, and was not able to survive. He died honourably, fulfilling all his duties as a knight of Tortall. The first healer on site relieved him of any pain and Sir Cleon slept peacefully. He will be...'
She stopped reading there. Shock filled her body, and she found standing became difficult. Kel collasped onto the ground. She didn't know what she felt. Her emotions seemed to have faded for a moment. All her thoughts, her feelings gell in the dust underneath her.
Cleon was gone.
Trembling with the impact of the news, Kel picked up the letter, dusted herself off and wandered, lost.
Cleon was dead. He would be gone. Forever.
'My lover's gone. His boots no longer by my door...'
A terrible guilt swarmed around inside her. If she hadn't said those things-
"Why don't you just go and get yourself killed..."
The past would echo in her for a long time.
If she had never argued with him, then he wouldn't have signed up for battle that next day. As soon as your name got on that list it stayed unless you were severly injured...
'He left at dawn...
No earthly ships will ever
bring him home
again...'
All her trails of thoughts led her back to the 'what ifs' and her regret. Regret of the fact she had never really said sorry, never accepted his apology at the beginning. That fleeting moment before he rode away - their eyes had met then. She had seem the sorrow, the hurt in his eyes. Her fault. All her fault. She had caused him pain and then he died because of it. Their 'accepted apologies' at that moment meant nothing now. A tear escaped.
'....bring him home
again
My lover's gone.
I know that kiss will be my last
No more his own'
Then she thought about what Dom had said. Sadly, so ironical, that he had mentioned they would regret what they had said earlier. How she regretted it now.
'I sing alone....'
"I miss you," she whispered softly, and a soft moan omitted from her throat. Why?
That would be the biggest question. Why....?
'No earthly ships will ever
bring him home...again...'
Kel felt someone move around her tent and come close. Neal She looked up at him, meeting his eyes. Her lip quivered.
'I sing alone.
While I watch the ocean...'
She was on the floor of her tent. The tears seeped through. She was no longer that Untouchable lake.
'returns no more...'
Kel wept, all her sadness, guilt, regret, love, whatever other feelings had been bundled up - she let them out now. Neal brought his arms around her. She buried herself in his shoulder. Her tears, which felt like the essence of her being, were pouring out. It was like that part of her was being taken away.
Cleon would never come back.
Kel felt alone. All alone...
The song is 'My lover's gone' by Dido. If you have it, I spose you should have played it while reading. I'm sure you can find it at some mp3 site.