{Heya! I'm FINALLY writing the next chapter!!! Yay!!! The
reason(s) it took me soooo long to write this chapter was because a) had
homework… stupid teachers… lol b) was too lazy to when I had the time… and
the main reason…. c) I felt a little discouraged when I didn't get that
many reviews… I'm sorry for making everyone wait!! So now, here's the next
chapter… last chapter was left off with Seifer… and Quistis… together… BAD
Seifer!!!}
I was confused. One minute I felt Seifer's hot breath against my skin, the next, I saw him flying off me. But it wasn't until Selphie ran up to me and gave me a big hug did I know what had just happened. Zell, Irvine, and Selphie had entered my room. Irvine stood in the doorway, watching in awe, Selphie ran up to me, and pulled the blanket over me, to cover revealing skin? I didn't really know. But I was sure that Zell had punched Seifer, and Seifer fell off the bed. I sat up straight, and saw Seifer lying on the ground. His lower lip was bleeding, but he acted as if he didn't mind. Instead, he glared at Zell… then at me, and finally pushed Irvine out of the way, and stormed off.
"Quistis! Are you alright?!" Selphie asked me.
"Ya… I think so… why'd you guys come in?" I didn't want to make it sound like I didn't want them to interrupt… but I didn't like the idea that my friends would storm into my room without letting me know before hand.
"We heard you saying, 'stop Seifer, stop'. Or something along those lines." Irvine replied.
"Why the hell did you recommend Seifer back into the garden?" Zell asked me. His face was all red of anger. His fists were clenched tightly together.
"Zell! I already told you before!" Selphie interrupted. She probably could sense the tears that were welling up in my eyes. I really felt like crying. (Why? Why would I cry? Have I ever been this emotional before? No I haven't… and if I have, I would never show it… then why now?)
Zell glared at me, then softened his look, and walked out of my room, without saying another word to me. Irvine and Selphie followed. (Great, now my friends are mad at me… I wonder… is Seifer too?) I decided that I needed to see how Seifer was. So I quickly got off my bed and walked out of my door. (I hope he's not mad at me… I really didn't mean it to happen… well… I don't even know anymore… I'm so confused…) When I finally reached Seifer's door, I was about to knock, but noticed it was slightly opened. I pushed the door open a bit more and I saw Seifer sitting on his bed. He was bent over, and had his face buried in his hands. He didn't notice me. (Should I knock? Or just barge in? If I knock… he might not let me in… but if I barge in, he might get more upset at me… that is… IF he's already upset with me…I feel so…) Before I could finish that thought, Seifer's voice invaded my mind.
"What the hell are you doing here?" He glared at me.
"I… I… I… I came to see how… you were…" I replied, looking at the ground. I couldn't bear to see him glaring at me. If I did look into his eyes… I knew I would just burst into tears.
"I'm fine. Now go away." He replied harshly.
"No you're not!" I decided to go in uninvited. I took a seat right beside him. "I know you're not! And I'm sorry for what happened. I really… didn't mean it to…"
"Quistis, it wasn't your fault… okay? It was mine. Now go away! I don't want to see you right now." He shouted angrily.
"Seifer…"
"Go out! I do not like it when people just come into my room uninvited!"
"Seifer…" I began, but he interrupted.
"Quistis, don't make me throw you out." His voice was stern, and it really frightened me, but I could never show it.
"Fine then. I guess you'll have to make me." I lied down on his bed. I could smell his sweet aroma, and I felt like I was in heaven.
"If that's what you want." Suddenly, Seifer put his arms around my waist and lifted me up. I didn't know how to react, until Seifer carried me out of his room, and dropped me onto the floor. "Don't come back." And he slammed the door in my face.
I sat on the floor for a little while, hoping Seifer would come open the door and pick me back up… but it never happened. I slowly, and reluctantly got up and walked towards the cafeteria.
* * *
"Is it true?" Squall asked me. Rinoa was sitting right beside him and had her head rested on his shoulder. Their arms linked together. How I envied her.
"What is?" I took a seat across from them.
"The rumours." Irvine continued.
"What rumours?" I asked. They were confusing me.
"THE RUMOURS THAT YOU AND THAT ASSHOLE SEIFER ARE GOING OUT!" Zell shouted. The whole cafeteria was silent for a while.
"And what if we were?" I asked quietly.
"So it's true…" Squall leaned back into his chair. Everyone in the cafeteria began mumbling.
"I said, WHAT IF."
"There is no 'what if'. There's only a 'yes' or a 'no'. You can't pick something else." Irvine shrugged, and wrapped his arms around Selphie's petite waist. It made me jealous every time I saw couples together. It seemed like I was the only single person out in the world.
"Irvy, Squall, Zell… don't be so mean to Quistis. I mean, if she likes the guy, you can't stop her. And Seifer doesn't seem THAT bad anymore." Selphie stated.
"Whatever." Was Squall's response.
"Quistis, I respect you a lot… but if you are actually going out with that guy, then I'm sorry, I don't think I can respect you as much anymore." Zell told me angrily.
"Zell! How can you be so rude?" His girlfriend hit his arm.
"Okay, take it as this way. What if you had to break up with your girlfriend, 'cause nobody liked your girlfriend…" I glared at Zell. "And Squall, what if, you couldn't be together with Rinoa? Huh? How would you feel?" I shouted angrily at Squall. "And Irvine, what about you and Selphie? How would you guys all feel if you couldn't be with the one you loved?"
"Quistis! You can't pull the two things together. They aren't the same. We're talking about SEIFER, not Rinoa, not Selphie, and definitely not Elena. You just can't mix the two together, they're totally different!" Squall retorted back at me.
"How are they different?"
"Squall! Don't be so rude to Quistis!" Rinoa pulled on his arm when he got up, he was probably thinking about punching me or something.
"I can't believe it. I thought you guys were my friends. You guys don't even understand me!" I quickly ran out of the cafeteria and into my dorm.
* * *
(They don't understand me… what kind of friends are they? I can't believe it. I sort of stood up for Seifer… and for what? He even hated me enough to throw me out of his dorm room! Why is this so confusing? No one here understands me. No one. Not even my closest friends.) I put my head face down onto my pillow and began sobbing softly. (Maybe people like me aren't meant to have friends… maybe… not even meant to live…) My sobbing grew louder as that thought entered my mind. (Why am I always in this eternal nightmare? Why can't I burst into the light? Why?) A light tap was heard on the other side of my door. I pretended not to hear… but the tapping didn't go away.
"I want some time alone." I said, trying to sound normal.
"I know you don't…" I heard Seifer's voice from behind the door. I quickly wiped my tears away, put on a fake smile, and opened the door.
"Hi Seifer, I'm doing fine right now. I really need some time alone, now will you leave?" I was about to close the door, but he invited himself in. "What are you doing? Please get out."
"You've been crying." He said, sounding a little concerned.
"Like you would care." I glared at him, as if it would release all my sadness and anger.
"I do…" I heard him mumble.
"What did you say?"
"Quistis… I'm sorry…" His voice trailed off as he pushed me against the wall and leaned forward to kiss me.
{Ooooooh! Hehehe, sorry it took me, like FOREVER to get this chapter…but I listed the reason(s) above… very above… anyway, I hope you liked this chapter… I don't know if it makes sense… cuz I wrote bits and parts of it on like, different days… hehehe, sorry! Btw, please review! }
I was confused. One minute I felt Seifer's hot breath against my skin, the next, I saw him flying off me. But it wasn't until Selphie ran up to me and gave me a big hug did I know what had just happened. Zell, Irvine, and Selphie had entered my room. Irvine stood in the doorway, watching in awe, Selphie ran up to me, and pulled the blanket over me, to cover revealing skin? I didn't really know. But I was sure that Zell had punched Seifer, and Seifer fell off the bed. I sat up straight, and saw Seifer lying on the ground. His lower lip was bleeding, but he acted as if he didn't mind. Instead, he glared at Zell… then at me, and finally pushed Irvine out of the way, and stormed off.
"Quistis! Are you alright?!" Selphie asked me.
"Ya… I think so… why'd you guys come in?" I didn't want to make it sound like I didn't want them to interrupt… but I didn't like the idea that my friends would storm into my room without letting me know before hand.
"We heard you saying, 'stop Seifer, stop'. Or something along those lines." Irvine replied.
"Why the hell did you recommend Seifer back into the garden?" Zell asked me. His face was all red of anger. His fists were clenched tightly together.
"Zell! I already told you before!" Selphie interrupted. She probably could sense the tears that were welling up in my eyes. I really felt like crying. (Why? Why would I cry? Have I ever been this emotional before? No I haven't… and if I have, I would never show it… then why now?)
Zell glared at me, then softened his look, and walked out of my room, without saying another word to me. Irvine and Selphie followed. (Great, now my friends are mad at me… I wonder… is Seifer too?) I decided that I needed to see how Seifer was. So I quickly got off my bed and walked out of my door. (I hope he's not mad at me… I really didn't mean it to happen… well… I don't even know anymore… I'm so confused…) When I finally reached Seifer's door, I was about to knock, but noticed it was slightly opened. I pushed the door open a bit more and I saw Seifer sitting on his bed. He was bent over, and had his face buried in his hands. He didn't notice me. (Should I knock? Or just barge in? If I knock… he might not let me in… but if I barge in, he might get more upset at me… that is… IF he's already upset with me…I feel so…) Before I could finish that thought, Seifer's voice invaded my mind.
"What the hell are you doing here?" He glared at me.
"I… I… I… I came to see how… you were…" I replied, looking at the ground. I couldn't bear to see him glaring at me. If I did look into his eyes… I knew I would just burst into tears.
"I'm fine. Now go away." He replied harshly.
"No you're not!" I decided to go in uninvited. I took a seat right beside him. "I know you're not! And I'm sorry for what happened. I really… didn't mean it to…"
"Quistis, it wasn't your fault… okay? It was mine. Now go away! I don't want to see you right now." He shouted angrily.
"Seifer…"
"Go out! I do not like it when people just come into my room uninvited!"
"Seifer…" I began, but he interrupted.
"Quistis, don't make me throw you out." His voice was stern, and it really frightened me, but I could never show it.
"Fine then. I guess you'll have to make me." I lied down on his bed. I could smell his sweet aroma, and I felt like I was in heaven.
"If that's what you want." Suddenly, Seifer put his arms around my waist and lifted me up. I didn't know how to react, until Seifer carried me out of his room, and dropped me onto the floor. "Don't come back." And he slammed the door in my face.
I sat on the floor for a little while, hoping Seifer would come open the door and pick me back up… but it never happened. I slowly, and reluctantly got up and walked towards the cafeteria.
* * *
"Is it true?" Squall asked me. Rinoa was sitting right beside him and had her head rested on his shoulder. Their arms linked together. How I envied her.
"What is?" I took a seat across from them.
"The rumours." Irvine continued.
"What rumours?" I asked. They were confusing me.
"THE RUMOURS THAT YOU AND THAT ASSHOLE SEIFER ARE GOING OUT!" Zell shouted. The whole cafeteria was silent for a while.
"And what if we were?" I asked quietly.
"So it's true…" Squall leaned back into his chair. Everyone in the cafeteria began mumbling.
"I said, WHAT IF."
"There is no 'what if'. There's only a 'yes' or a 'no'. You can't pick something else." Irvine shrugged, and wrapped his arms around Selphie's petite waist. It made me jealous every time I saw couples together. It seemed like I was the only single person out in the world.
"Irvy, Squall, Zell… don't be so mean to Quistis. I mean, if she likes the guy, you can't stop her. And Seifer doesn't seem THAT bad anymore." Selphie stated.
"Whatever." Was Squall's response.
"Quistis, I respect you a lot… but if you are actually going out with that guy, then I'm sorry, I don't think I can respect you as much anymore." Zell told me angrily.
"Zell! How can you be so rude?" His girlfriend hit his arm.
"Okay, take it as this way. What if you had to break up with your girlfriend, 'cause nobody liked your girlfriend…" I glared at Zell. "And Squall, what if, you couldn't be together with Rinoa? Huh? How would you feel?" I shouted angrily at Squall. "And Irvine, what about you and Selphie? How would you guys all feel if you couldn't be with the one you loved?"
"Quistis! You can't pull the two things together. They aren't the same. We're talking about SEIFER, not Rinoa, not Selphie, and definitely not Elena. You just can't mix the two together, they're totally different!" Squall retorted back at me.
"How are they different?"
"Squall! Don't be so rude to Quistis!" Rinoa pulled on his arm when he got up, he was probably thinking about punching me or something.
"I can't believe it. I thought you guys were my friends. You guys don't even understand me!" I quickly ran out of the cafeteria and into my dorm.
* * *
(They don't understand me… what kind of friends are they? I can't believe it. I sort of stood up for Seifer… and for what? He even hated me enough to throw me out of his dorm room! Why is this so confusing? No one here understands me. No one. Not even my closest friends.) I put my head face down onto my pillow and began sobbing softly. (Maybe people like me aren't meant to have friends… maybe… not even meant to live…) My sobbing grew louder as that thought entered my mind. (Why am I always in this eternal nightmare? Why can't I burst into the light? Why?) A light tap was heard on the other side of my door. I pretended not to hear… but the tapping didn't go away.
"I want some time alone." I said, trying to sound normal.
"I know you don't…" I heard Seifer's voice from behind the door. I quickly wiped my tears away, put on a fake smile, and opened the door.
"Hi Seifer, I'm doing fine right now. I really need some time alone, now will you leave?" I was about to close the door, but he invited himself in. "What are you doing? Please get out."
"You've been crying." He said, sounding a little concerned.
"Like you would care." I glared at him, as if it would release all my sadness and anger.
"I do…" I heard him mumble.
"What did you say?"
"Quistis… I'm sorry…" His voice trailed off as he pushed me against the wall and leaned forward to kiss me.
{Ooooooh! Hehehe, sorry it took me, like FOREVER to get this chapter…but I listed the reason(s) above… very above… anyway, I hope you liked this chapter… I don't know if it makes sense… cuz I wrote bits and parts of it on like, different days… hehehe, sorry! Btw, please review! }