{HA!!! It didn't take me as long to do this chapter now did it?! I
am the best! Hahaha, no, not really… but I need some glory sometimes… =(
can't you let me have it this time…? NO?! Awww, you're so mean! ( don't
be afraid… this is what I do when I am just about to cross the line into
complete insanity from total boredom. Lol. Not really… just made that up…
but oh well. Probably one day it'll be true? I don't even know if I make
ANY sense now… so I'll shut up about me. Anyway, back to the story…
Seifer's gone!!! Where? Of course, he's gone to his SeeD mission. BUT!!!
Squall is trying to take over Seifer's place in Quistis' heart! What will
happen? I guess you'll have to read… in order to find out… I hate it when
authors do that… WAIT… I'm doing this… so if I hate authors who do that…
that must mean I hate myself… no I don't! Silly me! I'm probably scaring
all my readers away… I shouldn't do that! Anyway, now you can read the
story… without me bothering you… until you finish this chapter! Muahahaha!
=) }
"Squall… I … can't! I love Seifer… and I always will. You have Rinoa. There's no way I'm going to take her man." I whispered softly to him.
"But you already did…" His eyes stared right into me, as if he were reading my mind. "You've taken both."
"Both? What do you mean?" I asked thinking hard. Then it came to me. "Rinoa DOES NOT like Seifer. She likes YOU! There's no way that she likes Seifer. Squall this is crazy talk! You're going crazy! This is all wrong! This is just a horrible nightmare"
"No it isn't Quistis," he leaned towards me, his nose almost touching mine. "This is reality." With that, he turned around and walked away, leaving me confused.
(This is horrible. This CAN NOT, and I repeat, CAN NOT be true! There's no way a guy like Squall would ever like me! He's too unemotional. There's no way anyone, except Rinoa, who could pry open his emotions. He DID NOT spill all his feelings to me… … Who am I kidding? He did… or at least he pretends to have feelings for me. I don' know. But either way… I'm falling into his trap. I can't escape. He's like a quicksand I have accidentally stepped into. The deeper I go, the harder it is to get out. This is wrong. What about my precious Seifer?) I held Sibbie tightly to me and cried myself to sleep. (When I wake up… another 2 more days to suffer before I can see my dear Seifer again)
* * *
It was 1:08pm. Tuesday afternoon. And I have decided to take a stroll around the garden. Or at least I intended to. But as I walked out of the front gates and along the left side of the garden, I overheard voices talking. To be more accurate, Squall and Rinoa talking.
"Rinoa, I have something to say." Squall said, without much emotion. I hid myself behind some bushes, but had a clear view of them.
"What is it Squall?" Her expression showed signs of worry.
"I don't want to marry you any more." His words penetrated through my mind. (How could he do that to Rinoa?!) Rinoa stood there for a moment, emotionless and lifeless. Then suddenly burst out laughing. Not one of the joyous happy laughs, but one seeking for reassurance.
"Squall, it's not funny to joke around like that." She slowly stopped laughing and looked at Squall hard.
"I'm not." He continued. The words seemed to come out much more slowly to Rinoa. After a minute of disbelief she burst into tears.
"Squall… I love y…" Squall cut her off even before she got the chance to finish,
"Rinoa, you love Seifer. Not me."
"Squall! That's stupid! I DO NOT love Seifer! Why would I love Seifer?! You're everything I ever wanted. Why the hell would I love Seifer? You must be hearing these rumours from someone didn't you?" She got on her knees and hugged his legs. He didn't move. "It's all wrong! I don't love Seifer, I love you!" More tears slid down her cheek. As much as I loved the moment, I couldn't do anything but feel sorry for her. After all, she was my best friend, and the man of her dreams was rejecting her after a strong, sturdy relationship for hyne knows how long.
"I don't care if that is true or not. The real reason is… I love Quistis." He looked down at her as she faced him. I near her expression was changed into hatred. At him? No way. She was mad at me. But Squall's words, were too much for me to bear. (Was he really breaking up with Rinoa… for me? I can't believe this. I have waited for too long for this to come true… but yet… it never did until now… until I had found Seifer. What is wrong with this?!)
"…Squall…" Was all Rinoa managed to say until she broke off running and screaming and crying.
I dropped down from my crouching position to sit down, trying to recollect the new information I had just heard, but Squall's voice interrupted.
"Who's there?" He said. His hand reached forward into the bushes and pushed them aside, making me into his view. His expression softened. "Quistis… what are you doing here?"
"Squall… I can't… believe you!" I shouted and ran back into the garden. Into my room. Into freedom from this insane place.
* * *
"Quistis! Please open the door!" Squall continuously knocked on my door for the past hour.
I wanted to escape. I wanted out. I wanted Seifer… at least I thought I wanted Seifer. Up until now. Up until Squall told me his undying desire for… me. Up until I overheard Squall breaking up with Rinoa. Up until I found out Squall broke up with Rinoa because of me. Up until then.
"Quistis, please." His voice sounded desperate.
I hugged my knees tight and sat on my bed. I didn't want to talk to any one at the moment. Especially Squall.
"Quistis?" Again he called my name. "I guess you don't want to see me, so I'll just leave you alone for a while, but you know, you can't avoid me forever."
He was right. I couldn't avoid him forever. I couldn't stay locked up in my room. I just couldn't. One day, sooner or later, I would emerge from my hiding spot and have to face him. But I wished that day to be later. I didn't know what I wanted anymore. Maybe I wanted him. Maybe I wanted Seifer. I just didn't know who to choose any more. And with Seifer out of the picture for a little while… I might fall into Squall's arms. I didn't want that to happen. How could I deceive Seifer like that? I closed my eyes, and again, tears slid down my porcelain face. I'll cry myself to sleep tonight.
* * *
I stood in front of his door. Afraid to knock on it. Afraid to see the person. Afraid to talk to him. Afraid to do anything. Seifer would be coming back today. I didn't know what time. And I didn't know if I wanted to see him or not. I wanted to talk to Squall. But I didn't know what to say to him. And now I was in front of his door. I had avoided him for only one day. And I already had a guilty feeling. Sympathy perhaps? But probably not. More like… need. I guess… I wanted him. As horrible as it sounded. He had given up Rinoa… for who? For me.
"Quistis!" I looked up. Squall had opened the door during my moment of thought. When did he? I didn't know. How did he open it without me realizing? I was probably too deep in thought. "I thought you'd never would talk to me again!" He stood there. Tall, and handsome. I smiled. He looked good. I liked that.
"Squall…" I managed to say before I let my actions speak for themselves. I leaned towards him and wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my head on his shoulder. I didn't know why I did that, but I just wanted to. And for some odd reason, all thought about Seifer had vanquished. If I knew they did, I would have felt so horrible and stupid.
"Quistis. I knew you wouldn't leave me." He hugged me in return. I quickly broke the embrace as I saw Selphie in the corner of my arm walking towards us. She didn't notice us yet, and I needed to hide myself. The closest place to hide? Three doors the left. Into Seifer's dorm. I quickly unlocked the door and slipped in unnoticed. Even as I entered his room, I didn't even remember HIM. Until I looked at his open closet. Spare trench coats hung inside. Everything so neat and organized. Just like my room. Everything seemed perfect. Seifer. Seifer had just entered my mind again, and I felt horrible. (How could this all have happened? Who do I really want?) I walked to the closet and touched one of his trench coats. I remembered everything about him. His sweet aroma, his annoying smirk, his muscular body. Everything that I had missed the most in the first day he was gone. Yet now… I barely even remembered him. (It's sad… how only three days have passed, and I have pushed him away. What would he think of me when he returned?) Crystal tears slid down my cheek. Suddenly, I felt something wrap around my waist. I looked down and saw a pair of gloved hands. (That smell… it can only be…)
"Quistis… I missed you so…" A thick male voice whispered into my ear.
Seifer… he was back…
{Tsk tsk. Quisty!!! How could you do that to Seifer! He is SUCH a sweet guy now!!! It's not fair!!! Don't like Squall!!! You must like Seifer! He's such a wonderful person!!! This is wrong! =( I think I'll cry! Wait… I'm the author! Why do I keep forgetting that? Of course I know how this story'll end. And of course I know what's all going on. And of course I know she'll pick Seifer… ( oopsy, I shouldn't have said that now should I? Well, I guess you'll have to see if I'm telling the truth! Hehehe, anyways, thnxs for the reviews! Luv them soooo much! And sorry if this chappy is short… I just didn't want anyone to be waiting forever again… and the fact that I'm sick… sorta ties in… =( ya, I'm sick! *sniffles* and no body cares!!! =~( *tears* anyway, hope you enjoy reading this chappy! Sorry if Seify's not in it much… but he really isn't there! =) Oh ya, and I *think* this ficcy is ALMOST over… one or two more chappy's left! Yay! Now more waiting! Well… AFTERWARDS that is. Anyway, later!}
"Squall… I … can't! I love Seifer… and I always will. You have Rinoa. There's no way I'm going to take her man." I whispered softly to him.
"But you already did…" His eyes stared right into me, as if he were reading my mind. "You've taken both."
"Both? What do you mean?" I asked thinking hard. Then it came to me. "Rinoa DOES NOT like Seifer. She likes YOU! There's no way that she likes Seifer. Squall this is crazy talk! You're going crazy! This is all wrong! This is just a horrible nightmare"
"No it isn't Quistis," he leaned towards me, his nose almost touching mine. "This is reality." With that, he turned around and walked away, leaving me confused.
(This is horrible. This CAN NOT, and I repeat, CAN NOT be true! There's no way a guy like Squall would ever like me! He's too unemotional. There's no way anyone, except Rinoa, who could pry open his emotions. He DID NOT spill all his feelings to me… … Who am I kidding? He did… or at least he pretends to have feelings for me. I don' know. But either way… I'm falling into his trap. I can't escape. He's like a quicksand I have accidentally stepped into. The deeper I go, the harder it is to get out. This is wrong. What about my precious Seifer?) I held Sibbie tightly to me and cried myself to sleep. (When I wake up… another 2 more days to suffer before I can see my dear Seifer again)
* * *
It was 1:08pm. Tuesday afternoon. And I have decided to take a stroll around the garden. Or at least I intended to. But as I walked out of the front gates and along the left side of the garden, I overheard voices talking. To be more accurate, Squall and Rinoa talking.
"Rinoa, I have something to say." Squall said, without much emotion. I hid myself behind some bushes, but had a clear view of them.
"What is it Squall?" Her expression showed signs of worry.
"I don't want to marry you any more." His words penetrated through my mind. (How could he do that to Rinoa?!) Rinoa stood there for a moment, emotionless and lifeless. Then suddenly burst out laughing. Not one of the joyous happy laughs, but one seeking for reassurance.
"Squall, it's not funny to joke around like that." She slowly stopped laughing and looked at Squall hard.
"I'm not." He continued. The words seemed to come out much more slowly to Rinoa. After a minute of disbelief she burst into tears.
"Squall… I love y…" Squall cut her off even before she got the chance to finish,
"Rinoa, you love Seifer. Not me."
"Squall! That's stupid! I DO NOT love Seifer! Why would I love Seifer?! You're everything I ever wanted. Why the hell would I love Seifer? You must be hearing these rumours from someone didn't you?" She got on her knees and hugged his legs. He didn't move. "It's all wrong! I don't love Seifer, I love you!" More tears slid down her cheek. As much as I loved the moment, I couldn't do anything but feel sorry for her. After all, she was my best friend, and the man of her dreams was rejecting her after a strong, sturdy relationship for hyne knows how long.
"I don't care if that is true or not. The real reason is… I love Quistis." He looked down at her as she faced him. I near her expression was changed into hatred. At him? No way. She was mad at me. But Squall's words, were too much for me to bear. (Was he really breaking up with Rinoa… for me? I can't believe this. I have waited for too long for this to come true… but yet… it never did until now… until I had found Seifer. What is wrong with this?!)
"…Squall…" Was all Rinoa managed to say until she broke off running and screaming and crying.
I dropped down from my crouching position to sit down, trying to recollect the new information I had just heard, but Squall's voice interrupted.
"Who's there?" He said. His hand reached forward into the bushes and pushed them aside, making me into his view. His expression softened. "Quistis… what are you doing here?"
"Squall… I can't… believe you!" I shouted and ran back into the garden. Into my room. Into freedom from this insane place.
* * *
"Quistis! Please open the door!" Squall continuously knocked on my door for the past hour.
I wanted to escape. I wanted out. I wanted Seifer… at least I thought I wanted Seifer. Up until now. Up until Squall told me his undying desire for… me. Up until I overheard Squall breaking up with Rinoa. Up until I found out Squall broke up with Rinoa because of me. Up until then.
"Quistis, please." His voice sounded desperate.
I hugged my knees tight and sat on my bed. I didn't want to talk to any one at the moment. Especially Squall.
"Quistis?" Again he called my name. "I guess you don't want to see me, so I'll just leave you alone for a while, but you know, you can't avoid me forever."
He was right. I couldn't avoid him forever. I couldn't stay locked up in my room. I just couldn't. One day, sooner or later, I would emerge from my hiding spot and have to face him. But I wished that day to be later. I didn't know what I wanted anymore. Maybe I wanted him. Maybe I wanted Seifer. I just didn't know who to choose any more. And with Seifer out of the picture for a little while… I might fall into Squall's arms. I didn't want that to happen. How could I deceive Seifer like that? I closed my eyes, and again, tears slid down my porcelain face. I'll cry myself to sleep tonight.
* * *
I stood in front of his door. Afraid to knock on it. Afraid to see the person. Afraid to talk to him. Afraid to do anything. Seifer would be coming back today. I didn't know what time. And I didn't know if I wanted to see him or not. I wanted to talk to Squall. But I didn't know what to say to him. And now I was in front of his door. I had avoided him for only one day. And I already had a guilty feeling. Sympathy perhaps? But probably not. More like… need. I guess… I wanted him. As horrible as it sounded. He had given up Rinoa… for who? For me.
"Quistis!" I looked up. Squall had opened the door during my moment of thought. When did he? I didn't know. How did he open it without me realizing? I was probably too deep in thought. "I thought you'd never would talk to me again!" He stood there. Tall, and handsome. I smiled. He looked good. I liked that.
"Squall…" I managed to say before I let my actions speak for themselves. I leaned towards him and wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my head on his shoulder. I didn't know why I did that, but I just wanted to. And for some odd reason, all thought about Seifer had vanquished. If I knew they did, I would have felt so horrible and stupid.
"Quistis. I knew you wouldn't leave me." He hugged me in return. I quickly broke the embrace as I saw Selphie in the corner of my arm walking towards us. She didn't notice us yet, and I needed to hide myself. The closest place to hide? Three doors the left. Into Seifer's dorm. I quickly unlocked the door and slipped in unnoticed. Even as I entered his room, I didn't even remember HIM. Until I looked at his open closet. Spare trench coats hung inside. Everything so neat and organized. Just like my room. Everything seemed perfect. Seifer. Seifer had just entered my mind again, and I felt horrible. (How could this all have happened? Who do I really want?) I walked to the closet and touched one of his trench coats. I remembered everything about him. His sweet aroma, his annoying smirk, his muscular body. Everything that I had missed the most in the first day he was gone. Yet now… I barely even remembered him. (It's sad… how only three days have passed, and I have pushed him away. What would he think of me when he returned?) Crystal tears slid down my cheek. Suddenly, I felt something wrap around my waist. I looked down and saw a pair of gloved hands. (That smell… it can only be…)
"Quistis… I missed you so…" A thick male voice whispered into my ear.
Seifer… he was back…
{Tsk tsk. Quisty!!! How could you do that to Seifer! He is SUCH a sweet guy now!!! It's not fair!!! Don't like Squall!!! You must like Seifer! He's such a wonderful person!!! This is wrong! =( I think I'll cry! Wait… I'm the author! Why do I keep forgetting that? Of course I know how this story'll end. And of course I know what's all going on. And of course I know she'll pick Seifer… ( oopsy, I shouldn't have said that now should I? Well, I guess you'll have to see if I'm telling the truth! Hehehe, anyways, thnxs for the reviews! Luv them soooo much! And sorry if this chappy is short… I just didn't want anyone to be waiting forever again… and the fact that I'm sick… sorta ties in… =( ya, I'm sick! *sniffles* and no body cares!!! =~( *tears* anyway, hope you enjoy reading this chappy! Sorry if Seify's not in it much… but he really isn't there! =) Oh ya, and I *think* this ficcy is ALMOST over… one or two more chappy's left! Yay! Now more waiting! Well… AFTERWARDS that is. Anyway, later!}