{Guess who's back from the dead… ME!!! I am FINALLY writing the last chapter to this fanfic… yes, you read that right… LAST CHAPTER!!! Woo hoo! Go me!!! Well, anyway, most of you probably forgot, well here's what happened last chapter… Seifer was gone on his Seed Exam!!! *tears* and then… then… then… Quisty sorta went to Squall!!! *more tears* how dare she do that to my dear, dear, Seifer!!! *snifles* that's not right!!! We should just kill the author!! Stupid author… oh wait… lemme re-read that last part…. NOOOO you can't kill me!!! Don't kill me!!! Wait… I'm the one who's writing all this down… why don't I just go back up there, and backspace it? Nah, I'm too lazy =) hehehe, well, I hope you enjoy the last chappy of this fanfic… HOPEFULLY it's the last (everyone's probably praying that it is the last one) hehe enjoy! (and thnxs to everyone who reviewed… and also thnxs to those who read this… but DON'T gimme a review! It makes me sad, but oh well… please review ^.^}

"Seifer!" I spun around which caused my face to go into his chest.

"Quistis… is something wrong?" He edged away from me.

"Wrong? Wrong? What's wrong? Nothing's wrong. I'm perfectly fine Seifer. Absolutely fine. I'm doing great! I'm alright. Is there something wrong with you? Why do you ask if something's wrong with me?" I started to panic a little. (Could he see the fear in my eyes? Could he sense that I had deceived him? Did he know that I liked Squall… again? Did he realize that I didn't want him? Do I even know if I want him or Squall? Do I know what I'm talking about? Why am I having all these weird thoughts?!) My eyes scanned his face, hoping he didn't sense any of my fear.

"Quistis, I think something's wrong. You sounded a little annoyed when I wrapped my arms around you. And you're acting weird, and you're talking weird. And you're not sounding like yourself Quistis. Tell me what's wrong. I'm always here for you." He tried to comfort me. I wanted to be comforted. But I wasn't sure if I wanted to be comforted by him. This was all wrong. Three days he's been gone, and I'm already thinking of another guy. This is wrong.

"I think something's wrong with YOU." It came out slightly rude. And it seemed to puncture into Seifer's feelings, because he jumped back a little and his eyes seemed to show it.

We were silent before he broke it.

"Fine." Was all he said, and he walked out the door, slamming it as he walked out. (How ironic. He gets mad… at me… and we're in his room, yet he's the one who storms out. I just don' know what's going on anymore. I feel like I'm being torn apart. Half of me wants Seifer, the other half wants Squall. And for some odd reason… more of me wants Squall. I just didn't think it would ever happen. The day I would GET Squall. Somehow it feels weird. And I don't like this feeling. Or do I?) I shook my head as if it would clear my mind and walked out the door.

* * *

"Quistis, I'm sorry for what I did before. I just, thought you didn't want me or something. How silly of me to think so." Seifer laughed. Not the normal, 'ha-ha' laughs, but one trying to seek for answers. One seeking for my answer. One seeking for reliability. One seeking to defend his answer.

"It's okay." Was all I could manage to say. I didn't know what else to say to him. And that was pretty sad.

It was way past curfew and here I sat in the quad as I was invited to come by Seifer. I didn't know why, but I had a desire to see Squall rather than Seifer. I doubt that Seifer even knew that I happened to like Squall again. And I didn't intend to tell him about it either.

"Oh." He replied. A sort of sadness was in his tone. I knew it wasn't the answer he wanted to hear from me. But at that moment I didn't care. All I could think of was Squall. And how I wanted him.

"I'm tired. I think I'll go to bed now…" my voice softened.

"… Quistis. I love you."

I didn't reply to that. I knew I should have said 'I love you too' but, the words just couldn't come out. I knew they would be a lie. I just couldn't say it. But Seifer found my silence awkward, as he continued to talk.

"…don't you love me too?" he asked.

"Seifer… I …" I just couldn't do it. I couldn't say those three little words. I couldn't say it. "…don't know…"

Seifer was now alarmed as he fired questions at me.

"What happened? What went wrong? Is it because of me? Did I do something? Was it because it felt like I left you?" he paused for a moment. "… or did you find someone else?"

I looked at him straight in the eyes, and quickly turned my gaze elsewhere, but Seifer gently tilted my head to face him. Again, I moved away, or at least attempted to, but Seifer's strong grasp forced me to be locked into that position.

"Tell me Quistis. Tell me truthfully. Did you find someone else?"

I couldn't answer him. (What if I said 'yes'? Seifer would demand to find out who it was. What if I said 'no'? He would know I were lying. And I would know I were lying. So I guess it's true. In that short period of three days without Seifer, I have fallen. And Squall was the one who caught me this time. I couldn't. I just couldn't deceive Seifer… yet… I did.) Tears began streaming down my cheeks. I just couldn't hold them. Immediately Seifer let go. I could almost feel the pain in his heart. I could almost feel his heart shattering. I could almost feel it… strange thing was… it was because I felt it. It pained me to know this horrid truth. The truth that I loved Squall more than I loved Seifer. My heart seems to tear. Not entirely, but in the most part, at least in halfway. I could sense his heart beating faster, but to him, it probably felt like it was slowing, drastically. As if any second, his heart would just stop beating entirely. I knew how it felt. I felt it at that moment too. It pained. It hurt. I cried. And I ran away. I didn't, no I couldn't face him anymore. I just knew I couldn't.

* * *

I was in the ballroom. Helping Selphie decorate it for an upcoming event. I didn't remember what it was exactly, and at that moment, I didn't seem to care. She kept on going on about the event.

"…it's gonna be so fun!!! I just know it!!! And, oh, don't you just love this? Isn't it cute? And look at all the pretty balloons!!! They are just gorgeous. And then, my baby, Irvy, he was the one who help me make this poster! Look Quistis! Look!! Isn't it pretty? My Irvy's so talented! I just love him so much!"

(Oh great, now she's gonna blab on about how 'great' Irvine is…)

"Oh and the other night, Irvy sang me a song!!! It was so sweet of him! Oh ya, and then the other day, he wrote me this poem!! I don't really remember what it said, but there was A LOT of 'I love you's! And I mean A LOT!!! He is so sweet to me! I love him so much! I mean, the day we went to the carnival, he tried to win me this Siberian tiger that I wanted so much… (Siberian Tiger… Sibbie. Seifer had won that for me. And… he loves me… or maybe loved. And I just tore his heart. How could I do such a thing?) Without me knowing, tears slid down my eyes. Selphie noticed and stopped whatever she was doing and gave me a big hug.

"I'm sorry! Was it something I said? I really didn't mean it! I'm really, really sorry! Are you going to be okay?" Selphie was concerned about me. I wanted to tell someone. I just had to tell someone. Maybe Selphie would understand me.

"Selphie… I think…" I began. Wiping my tears away. "I love Squall…"

We were silent for a moment. Which really scared me. I didn't like the silence. (Selphie say something. Say anything. Say something please.)

"Quistis. It's time you found out. Squall never really liked you more than a friend. The only reason he's trying to…" I had to cut her off.

"You're crazy Selphie. He told me he loved me. He broke up with Rinoa. He loves me. Why are you being like this? You're supposed to be happy for me!" I began screaming at her. (why wasn't she happy for me? what did she mean 'Squall never really liked you more that a friend' Was she jealous? Why couldn't she be happy for me? Or did she favour that bitch Rinoa? How could this be for me?!)

"QUISTIS! Listen to me! Rinoa told me all about it. Squall didn't like the idea that you and Seifer were going out. He set up a plan with Rinoa. He wanted to break you two apart! He only pretended to like you more than a friend. He loves Rinoa. Quistis. He loves RINOA. Not you. He's just pretending so that you will fall for him and leave Seifer. Quistis. You have to know this. I know this. Zell knows this. Irvine knows this. And… even Seifer found out yesterday…" She paused. "We were talking about it… how you had fallen for Squall… Seifer overheard my conversation. He stormed off afterwards. And I haven't seen him since. Quistis. Listen to me. Squall never did like you more that a friend. Seifer loves you. Go back to Seifer. You must."

"Don't tell me what to do! Stop lying! You're just jealous that Squall likes me and not your good friend Rinoa. Well Selphie I have news for you. I love Squall. Squall loves me. And that's all I care about. Now leave me alone!" I stormed past. In the corner of eye, I thought I saw Seifer. But I didn't care. I needed to talk to Squall. And I needed to talk to him… now.

* * *

I slowly walked down the steps of the garden. It was past curfew, and the gate guard was sleeping, so it was easy for me to slip past him. I was to meet Squall nearby. I was about 10 minutes early, but I just needed to ask him some questions. Did he love me? Or was it just a set up to break Seifer and me apart. I needed answers. And I wanted them soon. As I walked down the steps, I heard voices coming from nearby. I distinctively knew one of the voices belonged to Squall. I crept behind some bushes and peered past the bushes to see who Squall was talking to. It was Rinoa. My face grew hot. I didn't like what I saw. And I would demand for an explanation. But I wanted to know what they were talking about.

"Squall… I don't like how close you're getting to Quistis…" Rinoa said softly.

(So that bitch is really jealous. Ha. Who knew in the end I would win.)

"Rinny… I'm really sorry, but I have to do this." Squall replied.

(Rinny? That was his pet name to her. He shouldn't be calling her that!)

"Ya… I know… but don't you think we went to far?" She asked.

(Went to far… what could that possibly mean?)

"… it's the only right thing. I mean, it's good for Quistis."

(He cares for me…)

"Yes… but still… I talked to Selphie about it. And she said we went too far…" Rinoa mumbled, barely audible to me.

"You told someone? You weren't supposed to!"

(Uh-oh. Squally's getting mad at Rinoa!) Quistis thought happily.

"yes, but… you see… we have gone too far. We'll break her heart!"

(… was Selphie telling… me… the… truth…?)

"It's only for her own good. She CAN'T be with Seifer."

(So it was…) tears slid down her face

"You'll break her heart. I think we should just tell her. It was all a devious plan of ours. I don't care if she hates us for it afterwards, but it's just plain wrong to do so!" Rinoa argued.

(I can't take this anymore! This is wrong!) I stood up, Squall and Rinoa looked at me. Rinoa gasped. Squall called out my name. But I couldn't, no I didn't, want to talk to him. It was just a plan. A plan to get rid of Seifer and me. I can't believe I fell for it. How stupid I was. I couldn't believe I didn't think that Selphie was telling me the truth. I couldn't believe I blew up in front of her… I can't believe I left Seifer… I just had to set things right. I had to get him back. I ran into the garden, but on my way, I bumped into someone. Someone familiar. Muscular chest. Grey trench coat. Scar near forehead. Firecrosses. Hyperion. Seifer.

"Get out of my way." He scowled.

"Seifer! I grabbed onto his leg. Desperate.

"Get off me." He tried to kick me off. But I wouldn't let go. Then I noticed the luggage he carried.

"Where are you going?" I asked not letting him go. I was on the floor, and he was standing up.

"Out of here."

"No. Seifer. Please don't. I thought you loved me." He did… I was the one who didn't love him.

"Quistis. Why the hell would I love an ice cold bitch such as yourself?" He laughed at my stupidity.

I didn't understand. Ice cold bitch? How could he call me that after all we been through. It hurt. It really, really hurt.

"No… I'm not… how could you?" More tears slid down my cheek.

"Quistis. Get off me. I never loved you. I was only using you for my own sexual pleasure. You're useless to me now. I don't love and Ice bitch. I would never." He said. I couldn't tell if it hurt him to say so, or if he actually meant it. I looked up at him. A tear. A tear slid down his cheek.

"Don't lie to me Seifer. You're crying too. You're lying. You do love me." I finally let him go. He was lying. He had to be.

"So what if I'm lying? I don't fukkin' care Quistis."

"Why are you leaving me then?!"

"Why am I leaving? Quistis, just think about what happened. Shall I recap? I leave for three days on a mission. I come back to find you avoiding me. Next, I overhear a conversation of your friends. They say something like 'Quistis fell into the trap. She doesn't love Seifer enough. Squall and Rinoa… Squall… she thinks SQUALL loves her' Next, I go talk to you. I say 'I love you' and what do you say back? 'I don't know'. So the only think I can safely assume is that what your friends said was true. Meaning you didn't love me enough. So you love Squall huh? Then go love Squall. I don't give a fukk anymore! Go back to your puberty boy!" Seifer shouted.

"I'm sorry! I really didn't mean to!! I love you Seifer. Please don't leave me!" I begged.

"Well it's too fukkin' late Quistis. I don't care!" Seifer turned around and walked away.

More tears slid down my cheek and formed a little puddle on the floor. I cried my heart out, but I knew he wouldn't come back. Tears fell as I watch the love of my life walk away from me forever…















The End…?

















{Ya, I know it's a sad ending!!! But it's not my fault!!! Well it is… but not ALL stories end happy… at least… not most of mine… but ya… I'm sorry! It's terrible. And I think I rushed this chapter a bit… but I was feeling terrible for everyone who were waiting for the ending of this dreadfully horrible fic! I'm really, really, really sorry! Oh ya… and as for the 'The End…?' I MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT, that's a lot of mights… I MIGHT continue this fic! IF… IF… IF… anyone wants me to… MIGHT… biggest might ever! But ya… I just don't want to continue if I find out that no one's reading my fic… =( that would make me sad… anyway.. again, I'm sorry for the ending! But hey… like I said… I MIGHT continue this! Anyway… (I say anyway too much) please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please REVIEW!!! It would make me one happy person! =) Again, thanks for reading!}