Thoughts of Love
By: Junsui Chikyuu
9/5/02
Heero Yuy and Relena Peacecraft. That's all I hear! No one gets it. I don't love him. I can't love... not him nor anyone else. I'm sure he can't love either. Somehow the emotion just never occurred to me. I mean, I was drawn to him, naturally, but not because I had these fantasies of falling in love and getting married one day. But I did care for him, for his safety, for the simple fact that he was human, maybe even my soul mate in the way that he understood me and I understood him. There was nothing wrong with that. There was nothing between us, not even friendship. just a sort of understanding that only people who have felt the same way for a long time so that it seeps into their character can understand each other. Perhaps that is why he couldn't find it in himself to kill me, because he saw in me what he knew he was as well. Maybe it makes no sense to you and that would be for the best, I'm sure, because that would mean you don't understand, which would imply that you know how to love and have never had to deal with the hardships we have. I'm not jealous. Yes, I was spoiled, I won't deny it. I had everything I could ever want as a child, as a teenager, as an adult. I had plenty of love too, so it wasn't that. But there was always something missing. I believe there are just some people in this world who are outcasts and unloving from the moment they are born. How else can you explain me? Maybe it was the fact that I was always put so high up on a pedestal and then abruptly and violently pulled from that pedestal at the time when it mattered most. Maybe it was when I realized everything was a lie that everyone who was nice and loving toward you was lying to you. Maybe it was when I realized that there really wasn't anything to live for, but I had to live because everyone else depended on me so I stayed against my better judgment. Whatever it was, the fact is that not everyone can know the things we've known, the thoughts we've thought or the feelings we've felt. Just the simple fact that there are so very few people like us makes it hard for us to hate each other. But we're just two people who understand each other. nothing more.
~~~ What do you think? I am a Heero x Relena shipper but. it just sounds right. Besides theses are just her thoughts. It doesn't mean it's what she really thinks. ::evil smile:: ~~~
Heero Yuy and Relena Peacecraft. That's all I hear! No one gets it. I don't love him. I can't love... not him nor anyone else. I'm sure he can't love either. Somehow the emotion just never occurred to me. I mean, I was drawn to him, naturally, but not because I had these fantasies of falling in love and getting married one day. But I did care for him, for his safety, for the simple fact that he was human, maybe even my soul mate in the way that he understood me and I understood him. There was nothing wrong with that. There was nothing between us, not even friendship. just a sort of understanding that only people who have felt the same way for a long time so that it seeps into their character can understand each other. Perhaps that is why he couldn't find it in himself to kill me, because he saw in me what he knew he was as well. Maybe it makes no sense to you and that would be for the best, I'm sure, because that would mean you don't understand, which would imply that you know how to love and have never had to deal with the hardships we have. I'm not jealous. Yes, I was spoiled, I won't deny it. I had everything I could ever want as a child, as a teenager, as an adult. I had plenty of love too, so it wasn't that. But there was always something missing. I believe there are just some people in this world who are outcasts and unloving from the moment they are born. How else can you explain me? Maybe it was the fact that I was always put so high up on a pedestal and then abruptly and violently pulled from that pedestal at the time when it mattered most. Maybe it was when I realized everything was a lie that everyone who was nice and loving toward you was lying to you. Maybe it was when I realized that there really wasn't anything to live for, but I had to live because everyone else depended on me so I stayed against my better judgment. Whatever it was, the fact is that not everyone can know the things we've known, the thoughts we've thought or the feelings we've felt. Just the simple fact that there are so very few people like us makes it hard for us to hate each other. But we're just two people who understand each other. nothing more.
~~~ What do you think? I am a Heero x Relena shipper but. it just sounds right. Besides theses are just her thoughts. It doesn't mean it's what she really thinks. ::evil smile:: ~~~