Ami Mercury
PG-13
"Oblivious"
Disclaimer: I don't own gundam wing, sailor moon, or the song "Oblivious" Again this song is a Saddest star song, sadly they are no longer a band, but I'll keep writing song fics with there songs! I know this probably doesn't have anything to do with what Scott intended when he wrote the song….yaoi
*I've drifted through the fog
Of a thousand broken promises*
I'm used to this thing called war, for years I've been a soldier, no not just a soldier, but the perfect soldier. To everyone but me, I keep fighting but all I really want is for this forsaken life to stop.
*And spoken words untrue*
I've told so many lies during my life, just to complete a mission. Just to appease to Dr. J, I've even lied to myself, telling myself that I have no feelings of love, but I do.
*Now I stand alone*
I lived my whole life alone, but now I don't seem to be alone, even that that's all I ever acted like I wanted.
*In this beautiful darkness
Oblivious to you*
He's was here, my Duo. He's all mine, or so I thought, I never imagined he would share the same feelings as I do for him. And then he was gone, off to someone else's bed.
*I've built a wall around me
Behind this wall I've found my home
Embrace this darkness surrounding me
Oblivious, I am alone
And I'll stay alone*
I should have just kept my emotions bottled in this mind of mine, it's always been this way so why did I ever expect my life to change with one night? Making love to Duo was all I ever wanted in my life, I can't believe I let down my guard so easily and let him take advantage of me.
*When everything is gone
And my only friends
Are the voices in my head*
When this war is over I imagine that Quatre, Wufei, and Trowa will no longer be around, they'll go off and be happy with their peaceful lives.
*I still stand alone
In this beautiful darkness
Oblivious and dead*
That's what it'll be like all over again, dark and dead. But the darkness is beautiful compared to this hellish war.
*I've built a wall around me
Behind this wall I've found my home
Embrace this darkness surrounding me
Oblivious, I am alone
And I'll stay alone*
I'll wander the world and the colonies alone, and hang onto the darkness of peace. I'll protect it even though all I know is to fight.
*Everything I say and do
Never meant a thing to you
You won't win, I won't cry
Just close my door and say goodbye*
That night, when we made love, I confessed how I had fallen in love with you the minute I saw you, but no Duo, you took advantage of me and left me here alone. I'll never cry over you though Duo Maxwell, I'm the perfect solider, I wasn't trained to have emotions. This Duo is my goodbye, leave my mind and never return.
*Goodbye….*