Author: JBehrsGurl
Title: Just Emotions
E-mail: swtlatinakisses@yahoo.com
Rating: R for language
Category: M/L a little AU but mostly CC
Summary: Okay, so lets say that the pod squad DID leave earth… And Two years later, they come back… Can things go back to normal?
Disclaimer: None of the songs are mine, none of the characters except for Midea! Are mine. After a song is posted I will have a small caption stating the singer and title of the song as well has what CrashDown it's on… e.g.: (Emotion [#10], By Destiny's Child - Survivor)
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!
Ch. 1
Just Emotions
Liz's POV
"Yea, Yea…
Yea, yea, yea,
Oh yea,
It's over and done,
But the heart ache lives on inside,
And who is the one your clinging to,
Instead of me tonight,
And where are you now?
Now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow,
Wherever you go, go
I cry me a river,
That leads to your ocean,
You'll never see me fall apart,
In the words of a broken heart,
Its just emotions,
Taking me over,
Caught up in sorrow,
Lost in my soul,
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darlin,
Don't you know theirs,
No body left in this world to hold tight?
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night,
Good night, good night, … Good Night,
I'm there at your side,
Apart of all the things you are,
But you have a part of someone else,
You gotta go find your shining star,
And where are you now?
Now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow,
Wherever you go, go
I cry me a river,
That leads to your ocean,
You'll never see me fall apart,
In the words of a broken heart,
Its just emotions,
Taking me over,
Caught up in sorrow,
Lost in my soul,
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darlin,
Don't you know theirs,
No body left in this world to hold tight?
(Nobody left in this world to hold me tight)
And don't you know there's
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night,
Good night, good night, … Good Night,
And where are you now?
Now that I need you, you,
Tears on my pillow,
Wherever you, you go,
I cry me a river,
That leads to your ocean,
You'll never see me fall apart,
In the words of a broken heart,
Its just emotions,
Taking me over,
I'm caught up in sorrow,
Lost in my soul, (Don't you know I'm lost without you baby)
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darlin,
Don't you know theirs,
No body left in this world to hold tight?
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night,
Nobody to kiss me yea…
Good night, good night, … Good Night…"
(Emotion [#10], By Destiny's Child - Survivor)
Crying hard is something that I've learned to adapt to. Crying until you can't breath anymore. Crying so hard that it hurts. Crying so hard that you feel there are no more tears left to cry.
But then you end up crying even more tears.
Like a never-ending river they are. Running down my cheeks like small flowing lakes that lead to nowhere at all. Tears running down my face as I, in no way at all try to wipe them away. Then theirs the sniffing that you involuntarily go through in an attempt to breath through your nose. Yet it's just so damn clogged up in there that you don't even know why you're trying at all.
Hyperventilating why'll you're trying to gasp for the tiniest breathes of air into your lungs. But to no avail that completely satisfies your lungs at all. Crying may get you nowhere they say, but that doesn't make it any easier to stop.
My face may be a horrific sight at this precise moment but I still can't stop crying. Not even when I heard the knocks pounding on my front door. The beautifully crafted oak wood door with curved designs so smooth that I sometimes would just sit there and trace them with my fingers. The glass windows are no help at all in my small and poor attempt to hide from Maria and Alex.
Maria.
Just standing there at the tall glass window screaming for me to open the door, it's raining, yet still I don't let them in.
I close my eyes and remember what my boyfriend of two wonderful years told me. "I love you but I'm not in-love with you." To think that I once thought Kyle Valenti and I had a love that was unbreakable.
Now all I have left of him is our house that we designed together; a 3 story, 23 bedrooms, 16 bathrooms, one inside pool, one outside pool, 5 whirlwind Jacuzzi's, 2 major kitchens, 6 living rooms, 4 lounge area and well… I could go on and on so I guess I got the better end of the deal.
But the thing that is blowing my mind is what he said before he left my life for good this morning. I let my mind drift back to this morning where everything fell apart…
-
"Liz, I love you, you know I love you… I always will but… I can't stop thinking about what you'll do the day he comes back." He shrugged, running his fingers through his adorably beautiful and soft brown hair.
"The day who comes back Kyle?!" I had screamed in rage, lying through my teeth, I knew perfectly well who the hell he was talking about.
"Who do you think!? I hear you say his name in your sleep! I hear you silently cry at night for him! I can't take it anymore! It's not fair to me and it's not fair to you!" He began to pack his suitcases.
"KYLE!" I screamed grabbing onto his feet near the rear of our bed.
"Liz, don't do this… please, it's hard enough as it is for me to leave you." He looked away. "You know I've loved you since the end of our freshman year of high school."
"Kyle please don't leave me! I can't be alone! Please don't leave me like he did!"
With my last comment he had stopped cold. He stood there staring at me as if I was the saddest creature on the face of the earth, "Liz." He knelt down to my place on the floor at the foot of our bed and kissed my lips soft, "You never loved me-."
"Kyle that's not true!" I protested.
"Liz." He silenced me with is fingers, "I know you might have at times but your heart, is his… Your soul, is his… You're… His."
"But I gave my life to you. I gave… I gave, myself. To. You." Tears fell down my face but I knew that there was nothing I could say or do to keep him from walking out my life.
"Half heartedly Liz. We were both sad and scared about them leaving. I should have never let you in my house that day." He looked as if he could replay that afternoon over and over in his head forever and never tire of the memory.
"I needed you then Kyle. Like I do now!" I grabbed onto his collar, pulling him to me.
He shook his head, "I never should have kissed you that day either. Then maybe we wouldn't have to be having this conversation now."
"But then where would we be then huh? What would our lives be like without each other?" I cried out to him, drawing his body even closer to mine.
"Liz." He quivered kissing my lips and trailing them down my neck.
I moaned his name and he pulled away, as if awakened from a dream.
"Liz, please. Stop." He responded sad and pulled me off him.
My tears seemed to start running down my face all at once and I let a small sob escape my trembling lips, "Oh god Kyle please… I love you, don't do this to us."
Again he shook his head, "I love you too Liz Parker. That's why I must go." He kissed my lips once more, stood and left. Walking out of my life as easily as he walked out our bedroom door.
"KYLE! PLEASE! … KYLE!" I screamed after him, sobbing. Following him all the way to his car where he shouted at me to leave him alone. I screamed and cried and nothing worked, nothing could keep him from leaving me. I saw his hurt tears streaming down his face as he started the ignition, and backed out of our driveway.
-
"Elizabeth Claudia Parker! You open this door right now!" Maria shouted into my vivid memory of this morning, the morning that would end my peaceful and happy life with Kyle Valenti forever.
I raised my head from my trembling hands to look into the frightened eyes of my two best friends, Maria Deluca and Alex Whitman.
"Please Liz… Let us in. It's cold out here ya know?" Alex pleaded.
I wanted to be alone to welter in my sorrows but you can't get rid of Maria and Alex. They're both stubborn people. Probably the most stubborn people I know. I slowly lifted my weak and fatigue body from lack of food, off the 1st living room floor and walked as slow as I could to the door. I leaned my forehead against the door before I reluctantly opened it and let out a sigh.
"Liz." Maria said grabbing me into a tight embrace when I unlocked and opened the door.
Alex shut the door and locked it; "Let's get you to a bed." He looked up to the stairs, "If we can find one." He joked.
"Lizzie's room is on the first floor, Master bedroom, end of the hall, right babe? I know I haven't been here in a while but college is just so time consuming!" She ushered me up the stairs like a child, holding me by my hand. As if I would run off if she let go.
"Yea. Me too Liz. But I call every night!" Alex brightened.
"Why are you here?" I muttered. Half way up the stairs, sniffing.
Maria stopped cold, "Uh… Alex?"
He shook his head.
"We better sit down first." Maria replied continuing her quest with me to my bedroom.
"Oh god." I cried out when I saw one of Kyle's sweaters on my bed.
"What? What is it!?" Maria yelped.
I walked over to the sweater and buried my face in his scent, "Kyle." I sobbed.
Maria's eyes widened, "What happened to Kyle!?" She cried out scared.
"He… He left me this morning." I managed to say.
"Oh baby." Maria softened.
" You tell me you don't love me
Over a cup of coffee
And I just have to look away
A million miles between us
Planets crash into dust
I just let it fade away
I'm walkin empty streets hoping we might meet
I see your car parked on the road
The light on at your window
I know for sure that you're home
But I just have to pass on by
So no of course we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I guess I always knew the score
This is how our story ends
I smoke your brand of cigarettes
And pray that you might give me a call
I lie around in bed all day just staring at the walls
Hanging round bars at night
Wishing I had never been born
And give myself to anyone who wants to take me home
So no of course we can't be friends
Not while I still feel like this
I guess I always knew the score
This is how our story ends
You left behind some clothes
My belly summersaults
When I pick them off the floor
My friends say they're all worried
I'm looking way too skinny
I've stopped returning all their calls
And no of course we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I want to ask where I went wrong
But don't say anything at all
It took a cup of coffee
To prove that you don't love me…"
(Cup of Coffee [#5], By Garbage - beautifulgarbage)
"Why Maria! Why after two years would he just get up one day and leave me!" I screamed out in the open, "Why do the men I love have to leave me? Am I really that unbearable? Am I really that unlovable! I hate this!"
"Liz don't." Alex replied from my window ceil, "You can't do this to yourself."
"Liz." Maria whispered taking my hand.
"What?" I looked into her glistening eyes; I could tell she was on the verge of tears herself.
"They're… Back." The words managed to escape her full lips before she broke down into my lap.
"W-what?" I couldn't believe it. It was absolutely unfucking believable. "When?" I said.
"Last Night." Alex responded from his place, "She came to me in my dreams." He closed his eyes tight. I could tell he was confused on what he should do. Could things between him and Isabel go back to the way they were before she left? They were madly in love with each other before she departed. But two years can change even the strongest of feelings toward one another.
"So, so what are you saying?" I asked no one in particular.
Maria shrugged in my arms, "Don't know."
"Has Michael come to you?" I asked Maria.
She shook her head no.
"Well what did Isabel say to you Alex?" I questioned.
"Just that they were back. And that she was coming for me." He looked out the window and sighed, "I have no clue what to do. I never expected her to ever come back."
"Yes you did Alex." I responded, "You all did." I referred to Alex, Maria… and even Kyle.
"I missed him so much." Maria began to sob once more.
"I know babe. I know." I tried to sooth her. "Well what do we do?" I turned to Alex. "Alex!"
"Huh?" He turned from the window dazed.
"What. Do. We. Do?" I replied slow and angry.
"They want us to meet them at Pohlman Ranch." He whispered, like if he said it any louder that it would lose all truth.
I nodded, "Well You two better get a move on! Michael and Isabel await!" I responded as cheerful as I could bare without vomiting all over my dear friend Maria.
"Max wants you there too. Liz." Alex replied.
The last words I had expected to hear, ever, just came flying out of Alex Charles Whitman's mouth and at that inevitable moment, I had to shove Maria away, jump up and run to the bathroom clasping my mouth with a hand to prevent myself from messing the carpet.
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A/N: Please review!!!! I really need to know If I should continue or not…
¤Elena¤
Title: Just Emotions
E-mail: swtlatinakisses@yahoo.com
Rating: R for language
Category: M/L a little AU but mostly CC
Summary: Okay, so lets say that the pod squad DID leave earth… And Two years later, they come back… Can things go back to normal?
Disclaimer: None of the songs are mine, none of the characters except for Midea! Are mine. After a song is posted I will have a small caption stating the singer and title of the song as well has what CrashDown it's on… e.g.: (Emotion [#10], By Destiny's Child - Survivor)
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!
Ch. 1
Just Emotions
Liz's POV
"Yea, Yea…
Yea, yea, yea,
Oh yea,
It's over and done,
But the heart ache lives on inside,
And who is the one your clinging to,
Instead of me tonight,
And where are you now?
Now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow,
Wherever you go, go
I cry me a river,
That leads to your ocean,
You'll never see me fall apart,
In the words of a broken heart,
Its just emotions,
Taking me over,
Caught up in sorrow,
Lost in my soul,
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darlin,
Don't you know theirs,
No body left in this world to hold tight?
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night,
Good night, good night, … Good Night,
I'm there at your side,
Apart of all the things you are,
But you have a part of someone else,
You gotta go find your shining star,
And where are you now?
Now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow,
Wherever you go, go
I cry me a river,
That leads to your ocean,
You'll never see me fall apart,
In the words of a broken heart,
Its just emotions,
Taking me over,
Caught up in sorrow,
Lost in my soul,
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darlin,
Don't you know theirs,
No body left in this world to hold tight?
(Nobody left in this world to hold me tight)
And don't you know there's
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night,
Good night, good night, … Good Night,
And where are you now?
Now that I need you, you,
Tears on my pillow,
Wherever you, you go,
I cry me a river,
That leads to your ocean,
You'll never see me fall apart,
In the words of a broken heart,
Its just emotions,
Taking me over,
I'm caught up in sorrow,
Lost in my soul, (Don't you know I'm lost without you baby)
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darlin,
Don't you know theirs,
No body left in this world to hold tight?
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night,
Nobody to kiss me yea…
Good night, good night, … Good Night…"
(Emotion [#10], By Destiny's Child - Survivor)
Crying hard is something that I've learned to adapt to. Crying until you can't breath anymore. Crying so hard that it hurts. Crying so hard that you feel there are no more tears left to cry.
But then you end up crying even more tears.
Like a never-ending river they are. Running down my cheeks like small flowing lakes that lead to nowhere at all. Tears running down my face as I, in no way at all try to wipe them away. Then theirs the sniffing that you involuntarily go through in an attempt to breath through your nose. Yet it's just so damn clogged up in there that you don't even know why you're trying at all.
Hyperventilating why'll you're trying to gasp for the tiniest breathes of air into your lungs. But to no avail that completely satisfies your lungs at all. Crying may get you nowhere they say, but that doesn't make it any easier to stop.
My face may be a horrific sight at this precise moment but I still can't stop crying. Not even when I heard the knocks pounding on my front door. The beautifully crafted oak wood door with curved designs so smooth that I sometimes would just sit there and trace them with my fingers. The glass windows are no help at all in my small and poor attempt to hide from Maria and Alex.
Maria.
Just standing there at the tall glass window screaming for me to open the door, it's raining, yet still I don't let them in.
I close my eyes and remember what my boyfriend of two wonderful years told me. "I love you but I'm not in-love with you." To think that I once thought Kyle Valenti and I had a love that was unbreakable.
Now all I have left of him is our house that we designed together; a 3 story, 23 bedrooms, 16 bathrooms, one inside pool, one outside pool, 5 whirlwind Jacuzzi's, 2 major kitchens, 6 living rooms, 4 lounge area and well… I could go on and on so I guess I got the better end of the deal.
But the thing that is blowing my mind is what he said before he left my life for good this morning. I let my mind drift back to this morning where everything fell apart…
-
"Liz, I love you, you know I love you… I always will but… I can't stop thinking about what you'll do the day he comes back." He shrugged, running his fingers through his adorably beautiful and soft brown hair.
"The day who comes back Kyle?!" I had screamed in rage, lying through my teeth, I knew perfectly well who the hell he was talking about.
"Who do you think!? I hear you say his name in your sleep! I hear you silently cry at night for him! I can't take it anymore! It's not fair to me and it's not fair to you!" He began to pack his suitcases.
"KYLE!" I screamed grabbing onto his feet near the rear of our bed.
"Liz, don't do this… please, it's hard enough as it is for me to leave you." He looked away. "You know I've loved you since the end of our freshman year of high school."
"Kyle please don't leave me! I can't be alone! Please don't leave me like he did!"
With my last comment he had stopped cold. He stood there staring at me as if I was the saddest creature on the face of the earth, "Liz." He knelt down to my place on the floor at the foot of our bed and kissed my lips soft, "You never loved me-."
"Kyle that's not true!" I protested.
"Liz." He silenced me with is fingers, "I know you might have at times but your heart, is his… Your soul, is his… You're… His."
"But I gave my life to you. I gave… I gave, myself. To. You." Tears fell down my face but I knew that there was nothing I could say or do to keep him from walking out my life.
"Half heartedly Liz. We were both sad and scared about them leaving. I should have never let you in my house that day." He looked as if he could replay that afternoon over and over in his head forever and never tire of the memory.
"I needed you then Kyle. Like I do now!" I grabbed onto his collar, pulling him to me.
He shook his head, "I never should have kissed you that day either. Then maybe we wouldn't have to be having this conversation now."
"But then where would we be then huh? What would our lives be like without each other?" I cried out to him, drawing his body even closer to mine.
"Liz." He quivered kissing my lips and trailing them down my neck.
I moaned his name and he pulled away, as if awakened from a dream.
"Liz, please. Stop." He responded sad and pulled me off him.
My tears seemed to start running down my face all at once and I let a small sob escape my trembling lips, "Oh god Kyle please… I love you, don't do this to us."
Again he shook his head, "I love you too Liz Parker. That's why I must go." He kissed my lips once more, stood and left. Walking out of my life as easily as he walked out our bedroom door.
"KYLE! PLEASE! … KYLE!" I screamed after him, sobbing. Following him all the way to his car where he shouted at me to leave him alone. I screamed and cried and nothing worked, nothing could keep him from leaving me. I saw his hurt tears streaming down his face as he started the ignition, and backed out of our driveway.
-
"Elizabeth Claudia Parker! You open this door right now!" Maria shouted into my vivid memory of this morning, the morning that would end my peaceful and happy life with Kyle Valenti forever.
I raised my head from my trembling hands to look into the frightened eyes of my two best friends, Maria Deluca and Alex Whitman.
"Please Liz… Let us in. It's cold out here ya know?" Alex pleaded.
I wanted to be alone to welter in my sorrows but you can't get rid of Maria and Alex. They're both stubborn people. Probably the most stubborn people I know. I slowly lifted my weak and fatigue body from lack of food, off the 1st living room floor and walked as slow as I could to the door. I leaned my forehead against the door before I reluctantly opened it and let out a sigh.
"Liz." Maria said grabbing me into a tight embrace when I unlocked and opened the door.
Alex shut the door and locked it; "Let's get you to a bed." He looked up to the stairs, "If we can find one." He joked.
"Lizzie's room is on the first floor, Master bedroom, end of the hall, right babe? I know I haven't been here in a while but college is just so time consuming!" She ushered me up the stairs like a child, holding me by my hand. As if I would run off if she let go.
"Yea. Me too Liz. But I call every night!" Alex brightened.
"Why are you here?" I muttered. Half way up the stairs, sniffing.
Maria stopped cold, "Uh… Alex?"
He shook his head.
"We better sit down first." Maria replied continuing her quest with me to my bedroom.
"Oh god." I cried out when I saw one of Kyle's sweaters on my bed.
"What? What is it!?" Maria yelped.
I walked over to the sweater and buried my face in his scent, "Kyle." I sobbed.
Maria's eyes widened, "What happened to Kyle!?" She cried out scared.
"He… He left me this morning." I managed to say.
"Oh baby." Maria softened.
" You tell me you don't love me
Over a cup of coffee
And I just have to look away
A million miles between us
Planets crash into dust
I just let it fade away
I'm walkin empty streets hoping we might meet
I see your car parked on the road
The light on at your window
I know for sure that you're home
But I just have to pass on by
So no of course we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I guess I always knew the score
This is how our story ends
I smoke your brand of cigarettes
And pray that you might give me a call
I lie around in bed all day just staring at the walls
Hanging round bars at night
Wishing I had never been born
And give myself to anyone who wants to take me home
So no of course we can't be friends
Not while I still feel like this
I guess I always knew the score
This is how our story ends
You left behind some clothes
My belly summersaults
When I pick them off the floor
My friends say they're all worried
I'm looking way too skinny
I've stopped returning all their calls
And no of course we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I want to ask where I went wrong
But don't say anything at all
It took a cup of coffee
To prove that you don't love me…"
(Cup of Coffee [#5], By Garbage - beautifulgarbage)
"Why Maria! Why after two years would he just get up one day and leave me!" I screamed out in the open, "Why do the men I love have to leave me? Am I really that unbearable? Am I really that unlovable! I hate this!"
"Liz don't." Alex replied from my window ceil, "You can't do this to yourself."
"Liz." Maria whispered taking my hand.
"What?" I looked into her glistening eyes; I could tell she was on the verge of tears herself.
"They're… Back." The words managed to escape her full lips before she broke down into my lap.
"W-what?" I couldn't believe it. It was absolutely unfucking believable. "When?" I said.
"Last Night." Alex responded from his place, "She came to me in my dreams." He closed his eyes tight. I could tell he was confused on what he should do. Could things between him and Isabel go back to the way they were before she left? They were madly in love with each other before she departed. But two years can change even the strongest of feelings toward one another.
"So, so what are you saying?" I asked no one in particular.
Maria shrugged in my arms, "Don't know."
"Has Michael come to you?" I asked Maria.
She shook her head no.
"Well what did Isabel say to you Alex?" I questioned.
"Just that they were back. And that she was coming for me." He looked out the window and sighed, "I have no clue what to do. I never expected her to ever come back."
"Yes you did Alex." I responded, "You all did." I referred to Alex, Maria… and even Kyle.
"I missed him so much." Maria began to sob once more.
"I know babe. I know." I tried to sooth her. "Well what do we do?" I turned to Alex. "Alex!"
"Huh?" He turned from the window dazed.
"What. Do. We. Do?" I replied slow and angry.
"They want us to meet them at Pohlman Ranch." He whispered, like if he said it any louder that it would lose all truth.
I nodded, "Well You two better get a move on! Michael and Isabel await!" I responded as cheerful as I could bare without vomiting all over my dear friend Maria.
"Max wants you there too. Liz." Alex replied.
The last words I had expected to hear, ever, just came flying out of Alex Charles Whitman's mouth and at that inevitable moment, I had to shove Maria away, jump up and run to the bathroom clasping my mouth with a hand to prevent myself from messing the carpet.
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A/N: Please review!!!! I really need to know If I should continue or not…
¤Elena¤