Liz's POV
After what I thought was a stroke the visions stopped and I was left panting and gasping for air. Why was I seeing things that never happened?
"Liz… Please babe, tell me your okay." Alex cried in my hair, holding on to me tight.
"Liz." Maria whimpered.
They didn't understand, they never would. I pray they never would have to go through what I just did. The visions hurt so badly I felt like my brain was frying and my body was on fire. The visions burned through me fast as flammable cloth and hot as volcanic lava. The repercussions were body aches, sweating, nausea, screaming, you name it –I felt it.
I looked at the curtains that showed the sun beginning to rise, "Was I like this the whole night?" I wondered aloud.
Alex and Maria nodded regretfully.
"They're gone now." I whispered thankfully.
"What's gone?" Maria asked.
"The visions, the flashes the… pain." I answered, the visions kept repeating themselves over and over in my head painfully the whole night.
"Should we start back up again or stay here another day? I mean I'm clueless here you guys." Maria babbled.
"Maria. You're babbling." I smiled.
"Yes. I am." She sighed. "Sorry."
"Don't be sorry." I said soft.
Maria smiled and we all shared a group hug.
"How corny." I muttered and we all shared a laugh as we wiped away our tears.
Alex stood tall. "I say we start back up. I'll drive the Navi, and Maria will drive the Bird." Alex nodded gratefully.
I shook my head, "No way. I'm all good now. And besides, " I looked to Maria and laughed, "No one drives my car but me… Ever." I grinned and stood up to get ready for another crazy ride.
***
Isabel's POV
"They're on there way again." I update everyone.
"Finally." Michael mutters, "It's 7:00, could they have taken any longer to start back up?"
"Err! Michael! Just SHUT. UP!" I complain.
"Isabel. What's with you attacking me every chance you get?" He asks annoyed.
"Nothing it's just you haven't stopped complaining since we got back." I say.
Michael just stares at me.
"What? You have no sarcastic remark to say to me? Have you run out?"
"Iz, lay off." Max says from somewhere behind me.
I whorl around to face him, "Why don't you and Michael just let me be?!" I scream and walk away.
"Why is Iz all of the sudden so hostile?" Michael asked Max, looking out to where Isabel was running nowhere.
"She misses Alex." Max sighed.
"You try to read me
You try to figure out
You try to breathe me
But you can't blow me out
You try to feel me
But I'm so out of touch
I won't be falling
You won't have to pick me up
Sorry if I sound confused
I don't feel the way like you do
But I won't turn around
But I won't turn around
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be
Trust in my instincts
Trust that I know what's right
These are the reasons
That keep you up at night (at night)
Tell me "Go Slow" - This is my flow
'Cos you don't know, know what I know
Let me tell you how it feels
Baby it's time that you see me for real
Sorry if I sound confused
I don't feel the way like you do
But I won't turn around
But I won't turn around
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be
Trust that I know , This is my show
Letting you know , Gotta go the way I go
Trust that I know , This is my show
Letting you know , Gotta go the way I go
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be (be)
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy (it ain't my philosophy, yeah)
Won't you just let me, let me be
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities (no insecurities)
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own (I can't stand on my own)
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be…"
(Let Me Be [#9], By Britney Spears– Britney)
Crying these angry tears I sniff and wipe them away. Don't I have anything else to do except cry? I miss Alex. I think I'll mind walk him and have a small chat to pass time.
I close my eyes and concentrate on Alex; it's not hard to make a connection…
*Hey Alex*
*Isabel?* he sounds shocked.
*The one and only*
*How are you doing this?*
*I just can. So how long till I'm in your arms again?*
*Not too long. Maybe a couple more hours though*
*So… How are things? Gosh I miss you*
*Yea, me too*
*Have you… dated anyone?* I cringed. So stupid!
I heard him laugh, *Yes, and, no*
Huh? *Alex I don't understand*
*You were gone for wayyyy too long Iz, and she looked JUST like you*
My heart broke. *You slept with her?*
*NO! No, no, no, I just made out with her. Nothing else Iz, NOTHING else*
*Me either. In fact I just sat there and thought of you the whole time*
*Why do I know that you're smiling right now?*
*Cuz I am* I smiled again
*Still my little perky Isabella?*
*Always, still my little wisecracker?*
*Never stopped*
*I never stopped thinking about you Alex*
*God, I missed you* I felt him sadden.
*You okay?*
*Yea, just a little shaken over Liz's episodes last night*
*What?!* –Were Max's cries for Liz caused by this?
*I don't know. She wouldn't say what it was. But she started telling me how much she loved me and hoped I never think otherwise. That we'd always be best friends, ya know. Stuff like that*
I froze. I almost lost our connection, *Alex. I had some flashes too. Some REALLY scary ones. I love you. You do know that right?*
I could feel Alex stiffen *Yea, I know. I love you too… But I gotta admit. You guys are freakin me out here.*
*I just wanted to say that okay? Or er, think it*
*Hey Iz?*
*Yea!?* I was WAY too eager on that. –Mental note to self… STOP THAT!
*I love you and all but our talking in minds here is kinda distracting me from driving. So… I'm gonna have to talk to you later okay babe?*
*Oh, yea, sure! Love ya then!* I broke our connection and cried all over again. Damn EMOTIONS! They just take you over!
***
Liz's POV
"HEY! Jaded! You got your mama's style but you're yesterday's child to me, So Jaded!" Maria and I sung aloud.
"This is great!" Maria shouted throwing her arms in the air as we continued to sing along to the radio.
"Hey jaded, you got your mama's style
But you're yesterday's child to me
So jaded
You think that's where it's at
But is that where it's supposed to be
You're gettin' it all over me and serrated
My my baby blue
Yeah I been thinkin' about you
My my baby blue
Yeah you're so jaded
And I'm the one that jaded you
Hey jaded
In all it's misery
It will always be what I love and hated
And maybe take a ride to the other side
We're thinkin' of
We'll slip into the velvet glove
And be jaded
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm thinkin about you
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm so jaded
And baby I'm afraid of you
Your thinking's so complicated
I've had it all up to here
But it's so overrated
Love and hated
Wouldn't trade it
Love me jaded
Hey jaded
There ain't no baby please
When I'm shootin the breeze with her
When everything you see is a blur
And ecstasy's what you prefer
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm talkin' about you
My my baby blue
Yeah I've been thinkin' about you
My my baby blue
Yeah you're so jaded
Baby
Jaded
Baby
You're so jaded
'Cause I'm the one that jaded you"
(Jaded, By: Aerosmith)
"This brings me back three years babe." Maria smiled at me.
I nodded, "Yea, when things were… NORMAL."
"Honey, things were anything BUT normal." She snorted.
I chuckled, "Maria you sure do have a way with words don't you?"
"Yea, I guess." She shrugged and looked at me.
"What." I said dreading her words again.
"What ARE you going to do when you see HIM?"
"I don't know, I guess we'll see when we get there." I sigh.
"You don't fool me Liz Parker. I know you WAY too well." She leaned back against the car seat and sighed also.
"You miss him?" I said to her.
"More than I care to admit."
"I'm sure he's missed you too."
"Yea. RIGHT."
"Oh hush. Hey, what's with Al?" I say to Maria and we look over to him, a worried look covering his face.
"I'm not sure. Do you think he's getting what you had?" Maria suggested.
I shake my head vigorously, "No. No way. He'd pass out."
"Oh." Maria said scared.
"I'm sure he's fine. I'm fine, you're fine. We're all… Fine."
Who was I kidding?
Not Maria.
Not Alex.
Not even myself.
Everything was WAY outta whack and I had no idea WHAT the hell was going on. And for the first time in the past 48 hours, I wanted Max.
After what I thought was a stroke the visions stopped and I was left panting and gasping for air. Why was I seeing things that never happened?
"Liz… Please babe, tell me your okay." Alex cried in my hair, holding on to me tight.
"Liz." Maria whimpered.
They didn't understand, they never would. I pray they never would have to go through what I just did. The visions hurt so badly I felt like my brain was frying and my body was on fire. The visions burned through me fast as flammable cloth and hot as volcanic lava. The repercussions were body aches, sweating, nausea, screaming, you name it –I felt it.
I looked at the curtains that showed the sun beginning to rise, "Was I like this the whole night?" I wondered aloud.
Alex and Maria nodded regretfully.
"They're gone now." I whispered thankfully.
"What's gone?" Maria asked.
"The visions, the flashes the… pain." I answered, the visions kept repeating themselves over and over in my head painfully the whole night.
"Should we start back up again or stay here another day? I mean I'm clueless here you guys." Maria babbled.
"Maria. You're babbling." I smiled.
"Yes. I am." She sighed. "Sorry."
"Don't be sorry." I said soft.
Maria smiled and we all shared a group hug.
"How corny." I muttered and we all shared a laugh as we wiped away our tears.
Alex stood tall. "I say we start back up. I'll drive the Navi, and Maria will drive the Bird." Alex nodded gratefully.
I shook my head, "No way. I'm all good now. And besides, " I looked to Maria and laughed, "No one drives my car but me… Ever." I grinned and stood up to get ready for another crazy ride.
***
Isabel's POV
"They're on there way again." I update everyone.
"Finally." Michael mutters, "It's 7:00, could they have taken any longer to start back up?"
"Err! Michael! Just SHUT. UP!" I complain.
"Isabel. What's with you attacking me every chance you get?" He asks annoyed.
"Nothing it's just you haven't stopped complaining since we got back." I say.
Michael just stares at me.
"What? You have no sarcastic remark to say to me? Have you run out?"
"Iz, lay off." Max says from somewhere behind me.
I whorl around to face him, "Why don't you and Michael just let me be?!" I scream and walk away.
"Why is Iz all of the sudden so hostile?" Michael asked Max, looking out to where Isabel was running nowhere.
"She misses Alex." Max sighed.
"You try to read me
You try to figure out
You try to breathe me
But you can't blow me out
You try to feel me
But I'm so out of touch
I won't be falling
You won't have to pick me up
Sorry if I sound confused
I don't feel the way like you do
But I won't turn around
But I won't turn around
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be
Trust in my instincts
Trust that I know what's right
These are the reasons
That keep you up at night (at night)
Tell me "Go Slow" - This is my flow
'Cos you don't know, know what I know
Let me tell you how it feels
Baby it's time that you see me for real
Sorry if I sound confused
I don't feel the way like you do
But I won't turn around
But I won't turn around
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be
Trust that I know , This is my show
Letting you know , Gotta go the way I go
Trust that I know , This is my show
Letting you know , Gotta go the way I go
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be (be)
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy (it ain't my philosophy, yeah)
Won't you just let me, let me be
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities (no insecurities)
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be
You think I might act out but I won't
Think that I might have doubts but I don't
No insecurities
Won't you just let me, let me be
Think that you know me now, but you don't
Think that I can't stand on my own (I can't stand on my own)
Ain't my philosophy
Won't you just let me, let me be…"
(Let Me Be [#9], By Britney Spears– Britney)
Crying these angry tears I sniff and wipe them away. Don't I have anything else to do except cry? I miss Alex. I think I'll mind walk him and have a small chat to pass time.
I close my eyes and concentrate on Alex; it's not hard to make a connection…
*Hey Alex*
*Isabel?* he sounds shocked.
*The one and only*
*How are you doing this?*
*I just can. So how long till I'm in your arms again?*
*Not too long. Maybe a couple more hours though*
*So… How are things? Gosh I miss you*
*Yea, me too*
*Have you… dated anyone?* I cringed. So stupid!
I heard him laugh, *Yes, and, no*
Huh? *Alex I don't understand*
*You were gone for wayyyy too long Iz, and she looked JUST like you*
My heart broke. *You slept with her?*
*NO! No, no, no, I just made out with her. Nothing else Iz, NOTHING else*
*Me either. In fact I just sat there and thought of you the whole time*
*Why do I know that you're smiling right now?*
*Cuz I am* I smiled again
*Still my little perky Isabella?*
*Always, still my little wisecracker?*
*Never stopped*
*I never stopped thinking about you Alex*
*God, I missed you* I felt him sadden.
*You okay?*
*Yea, just a little shaken over Liz's episodes last night*
*What?!* –Were Max's cries for Liz caused by this?
*I don't know. She wouldn't say what it was. But she started telling me how much she loved me and hoped I never think otherwise. That we'd always be best friends, ya know. Stuff like that*
I froze. I almost lost our connection, *Alex. I had some flashes too. Some REALLY scary ones. I love you. You do know that right?*
I could feel Alex stiffen *Yea, I know. I love you too… But I gotta admit. You guys are freakin me out here.*
*I just wanted to say that okay? Or er, think it*
*Hey Iz?*
*Yea!?* I was WAY too eager on that. –Mental note to self… STOP THAT!
*I love you and all but our talking in minds here is kinda distracting me from driving. So… I'm gonna have to talk to you later okay babe?*
*Oh, yea, sure! Love ya then!* I broke our connection and cried all over again. Damn EMOTIONS! They just take you over!
***
Liz's POV
"HEY! Jaded! You got your mama's style but you're yesterday's child to me, So Jaded!" Maria and I sung aloud.
"This is great!" Maria shouted throwing her arms in the air as we continued to sing along to the radio.
"Hey jaded, you got your mama's style
But you're yesterday's child to me
So jaded
You think that's where it's at
But is that where it's supposed to be
You're gettin' it all over me and serrated
My my baby blue
Yeah I been thinkin' about you
My my baby blue
Yeah you're so jaded
And I'm the one that jaded you
Hey jaded
In all it's misery
It will always be what I love and hated
And maybe take a ride to the other side
We're thinkin' of
We'll slip into the velvet glove
And be jaded
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm thinkin about you
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm so jaded
And baby I'm afraid of you
Your thinking's so complicated
I've had it all up to here
But it's so overrated
Love and hated
Wouldn't trade it
Love me jaded
Hey jaded
There ain't no baby please
When I'm shootin the breeze with her
When everything you see is a blur
And ecstasy's what you prefer
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm talkin' about you
My my baby blue
Yeah I've been thinkin' about you
My my baby blue
Yeah you're so jaded
Baby
Jaded
Baby
You're so jaded
'Cause I'm the one that jaded you"
(Jaded, By: Aerosmith)
"This brings me back three years babe." Maria smiled at me.
I nodded, "Yea, when things were… NORMAL."
"Honey, things were anything BUT normal." She snorted.
I chuckled, "Maria you sure do have a way with words don't you?"
"Yea, I guess." She shrugged and looked at me.
"What." I said dreading her words again.
"What ARE you going to do when you see HIM?"
"I don't know, I guess we'll see when we get there." I sigh.
"You don't fool me Liz Parker. I know you WAY too well." She leaned back against the car seat and sighed also.
"You miss him?" I said to her.
"More than I care to admit."
"I'm sure he's missed you too."
"Yea. RIGHT."
"Oh hush. Hey, what's with Al?" I say to Maria and we look over to him, a worried look covering his face.
"I'm not sure. Do you think he's getting what you had?" Maria suggested.
I shake my head vigorously, "No. No way. He'd pass out."
"Oh." Maria said scared.
"I'm sure he's fine. I'm fine, you're fine. We're all… Fine."
Who was I kidding?
Not Maria.
Not Alex.
Not even myself.
Everything was WAY outta whack and I had no idea WHAT the hell was going on. And for the first time in the past 48 hours, I wanted Max.