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Ch.10
Dealing
Liz's POV
"Why, why are you doing this?" I whimpered.
"Because I love you Liz Parker, Didn't you know that?" (Where we last left off…)
"What about Tess? What about your son?" I shouted.
"There was no child Liz-." Max started.
"What? What about you sleeping with her huh?" I snapped.
"I-It was a mistake and admit that, I was at a moment of weakness and-."
"Weakness huh? Well I'm at my weakness right now and I'm still maintaining my sanity!" I screamed at him.
"Well I thought I lost you! How was I to know? I thought you had-." He caught himself before he finished his sentence.
My breath caught in my throat. I knew what he was going to say, yet it made no difference what he thought or didn't. I didn't give a shit. All I cared about was getting the hell out of Roswell, a life I left behind years ago.
"I do lo-"
"Oh will you can it." I sneered.
"Will you let me finish a sentence on my own!?" Max shrieked.
"Will you shut up?" I shouted back.
"What's with you?" His eyes showed miserable sadness.
"Nothing. Nothings with me Max, I'm fine. You seem to be fine. Where 's Tess by the way?" I couldn't help but ask.
"I sent her away." He whispered.
"You sent her away." I repeated nasty. "Great. That's just wonderful Max. No baby, no Tess, you just got your whole live ahead of you huh?" I laughed bitterly.
"But I know better now Liz, I know that I love you. I know all about the REAL Tess. She could never have been you, in any lifetime! I know that everything she ever told me was a lie. She betrayed us in the end you know..." He looked down.
"Oh." I covered my mouth in pity, "I'm sorry Max, you need a tissue? No wait, you seem to be at a *moment of weakness*, I see a soft grounded area over there. You wanna sleep together?" I shot sarcastic.
His eyes shot up into mine and if it was possible melted part of the cold exterior I was maintaining so well. He opened his mouth to say something but thought better of it. I knew I was breaking his heart… again.
I should have been sad.
I should have had some kind of sympathy for the man I loved.
Right?
So how come when he looked back up from the floor and into my eyes I felt nothing. I had no emotion what so ever? I didn't even think that it was the Max I had fell in love with years ago. Why was I so cold? Every vein in my body ran cold for some reason. I felt ice in my body. I clenched my fists tight. I felt tingles in my palms that ran up my arms.
"Look, there's nothing else to say here Max. Let's go." I said coldly.
"But-." He tried again to gain some kind of sympathy from me. Only he didn't know that the Liz Parker he left behind had turned to ice. I had no sympathy for the prick.
"But nothing Max, you broke my heart. There is no mending or-or 'healing' that needs to take place here. At least nothing that you can fix." I could feel my voice catch on my last word and I felt the familiar tightening of my throat. I gulped down the lump in my throat and continued, "If you guys need a ride home, lets go."
"Liz-."
"No Max. I don't want to hear it, what do you want from me? You SLEPT with Tess. You left Earth with her; you never said anything about coming back. What did you expect? I thought I had lost you forever. I thought you loved Tess." I turned and attempted to climb back up the treacherous hill and get to my car.
"But. I thought you had slept with Kyle!" Max repeated loud.
I froze. That was unexpected, I turned back to face him, "I may have not then," I paused, "But I have now." I closed my eyes, to stop the angry tears from falling. I left up the hill to my car without another word.
***
Isabel's POV
My brother.
So still, so surprised.
Did he honestly think she'd wait forever for him? He certainly did not wait for her when it came to sleeping with Tess. What was he expecting? He never told Liz he was coming back for her. He never told her that he didn't love Tess. He never gave her any reason that he was going to leave Tess and be with her. He just always expected fate to bring them together. And now I guess it really is in fates hands right now.
But will it bring my brother happiness?
Or grief.
"Let's go." Alex broke my thoughts.
"Okay." Our fingers locked together as we got over the hill.
I could see the look of worry in Maria's eyes as we descended over the hill to our destination. There was nothing I could say or do to change what my brother had done. Michael's arms encircled Maria's frail body as they stepped in sync with each other's footsteps. Midea walking beside Max in understanding. She knew just how Max's heart hurt. She was after all his sister, whether he knew it or not.
I couldn't hear exactly what conversation they withheld among each other but I tried:
"You okay?" Midea said softly.
Max shrugged.
"You know, feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to help the situation Max." Midea replied serious.
Max looked at her in shock, Midea had not spoken much the whole time they had known each other but when she did speak, it was something of importance.
"I know." He finally responded.
"So what are you going to do know?" Midea stared again.
"I haven't the slightest clue what to do. I've never seen her like this before." Max shook his head.
"You broke her heart Max. What did you expect?"
"I know. But-"
"But nothing. You've been gone for two years and her heart has had to deal with that. And if that wasn't enough she thought you had deceived her by sleeping with Tess. Then as if that wasn't enough, Tess was supposedly pregnant?" Midea shook her had from side to side in wonder, "It's a miracle she came all this way to begin with. If she didn't still love you or hold the same intimate feelings she wouldn't have come all this way Max, there's just NO way."
"You really think so?" Max asked.
Midea smile, "I know so."
"But she slept with Kyle. God I thought she was lying and now-"
"How exactly did you except her to be when you returned? She never even knew you were coming back. After all that's happen you never gave her the slightest hope that you were coming back for her. You have to stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about how Liz must feel Max." Midea bluntly put it.
"Geez Midea. I didn't know you could be so informatively direct." Max said aloud.
Midea giggled sweetly, "Its one of my many talents. Give her time Max. Don't rush her. She'll come around. She needs you right now, she just doesn't know how to deal with it yet."
"Okay. I'll wait." He took Midea's hand and squeezed it, "Thanks Midea."
"You're welcome Max." She grinned wide.
I stopped listening after that, I felt as if it was a delicate moment that they needed to share alone. Max was starting to come around; he felt her familiar presence now and was starting to think that she was more close to the family than she appeared. I knew it was only a matter of time before he realized who she really was.
We were just down the massive hill now when Alex lead us to his magnificent ride.
"Kick-ass ride Alex!" I squealed, gawking at his truck.
"I thought you'd like it." He smiled, "Wait till you hear the system!" He started the truck and cranked up the stereo, winking at Liz and Maria.
I smiled back. I was so happy to be home. My REAL home. But- "Max?" I called to him.
"Coming." He sulked all the way to the truck, his pity had left but the heartache was still there.
"Uh, sorry Maxwell, no room for you in here." Michael lied, as he and Maria sprawled out in the back of the SUV, and Midea looking uncomfortable in the back of them.
Max looked to the only other means of transportation, which was Liz.
"Get in." She replied slamming her car door shut.
Max took one last glance at me, letting his sorrow lay imminent on his face. He had brought this on himself, I said nothing. I just sat in the car next to Alex, shutting us in and my brother out.
"Hurry up before I change my mind Evans." Liz spat out the drivers seat window, revving the engine.
Was it my imagination or did she have one kick-ass car too?
What was next? Her living in a giant expensive 3 story mansion with like 23 bedrooms, 16 bathrooms, one inside pool, one outside pool, 5 whirlwind Jacuzzi's, 2 major kitchens, 6 living rooms, and so on? Gosh what was NEXT? I thought I think I have had enough surprises in one day to last me a whole lifetime!
***
Liz POV
I really didn't want his ass in my car but what was I to do? The rest of the group had already decided on making me and Max play nice with each other. I couldn't believe Maria would do this to me. It was unbelievable it really was.
I was actually kinda thinking a little bit as I was walking down that steep hill, other than the fact that my calves were killing me, I thought that Max, if truth be told, had a point. I had made him think that he lost me. But it was my duty to do so. But just because of that he had no right to pull a 360 on me by sleeping with that back stabbing bitch Tess.
He had sent her away. Wow, I'm intrigued Max, I'm so turned on! –I wanted to shout in his face. What did he want from me? Did he want me to go running out to his open arms and hug and kiss him and tell him that I love him? Did he even THINK about what I would be feeling right now? Did he? And come to think of it did Kyle think about the repercussions of dumping me? I swear these native Roswell boys have absolutely NO conscious!
They just go with the flow.
-Oh I'm tired of our relationship, goodbye Liz Parker but have a nice life!-
Maybe in some alternate universe what has happened to us all will make us stringer and by doing so we will live happily ever after. I could see Max making his way to my firebird and I could feel his pain. It wasn't like I was doing this on purpose. He had hurt me for god's sake!
I wasn't being a cold-hearted bitch! I wasn't! He deserved this! He really did!
I saw Max and Isabel exchange some sort of relative look and then Isabel turned away from him, getting in the sear beside Alex. Max really was on is own now. Hmmm… I still felt no pity for the man who hurt me deep, maybe someday in the near future I'll look back at myself and think that I should have been different. But the time was now, and I felt nothing, I was empty. Emotions ran dry and arrogance blocked them from returning.
Yea I needed a moment to take this all in, and then maybe. MAYBE me and Max could talk things out.
Dammit, I was about to have a flash.
*FLASH*
"Let's go." Max entered the Valenti household and was in Tess's room.
"Max, are you sure you want to do this?" Tess said.
"Yes." He answered.
"Right." Tess nodded.
They kiss-Tess sees flash of Max and Liz kissing
"You kissed Liz!" Tess bellowed.
Max doesn't reply.
"Don't worry, you won't remember her where we're going." Tess replied smugly.
*END FLASH*
Err! This one came with a massive headache! Max was getting nearer and he hadn't caught my vision spell, or whatever the hell it was. The same vision within an hours period, what was with that?
"Thanks Li-." He began getting in my car only to be cut off by me.
"Don't talk." I snapped, cranking up my stereo. Linkon Park's loud, angry lyrics screaming in my ears the whole way home. Well almost the whole way.
"I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you
Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you
Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away...
Pushes my away..."
(PaperCut, By, Linkon Park – Hybrid Theory)
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A/N: Thanks you guys for the reviews hope to see a lot more soon! Hope you guys liked this chapter too! Don't worry dreamers the fun has just begun!
Ch.10
Dealing
Liz's POV
"Why, why are you doing this?" I whimpered.
"Because I love you Liz Parker, Didn't you know that?" (Where we last left off…)
"What about Tess? What about your son?" I shouted.
"There was no child Liz-." Max started.
"What? What about you sleeping with her huh?" I snapped.
"I-It was a mistake and admit that, I was at a moment of weakness and-."
"Weakness huh? Well I'm at my weakness right now and I'm still maintaining my sanity!" I screamed at him.
"Well I thought I lost you! How was I to know? I thought you had-." He caught himself before he finished his sentence.
My breath caught in my throat. I knew what he was going to say, yet it made no difference what he thought or didn't. I didn't give a shit. All I cared about was getting the hell out of Roswell, a life I left behind years ago.
"I do lo-"
"Oh will you can it." I sneered.
"Will you let me finish a sentence on my own!?" Max shrieked.
"Will you shut up?" I shouted back.
"What's with you?" His eyes showed miserable sadness.
"Nothing. Nothings with me Max, I'm fine. You seem to be fine. Where 's Tess by the way?" I couldn't help but ask.
"I sent her away." He whispered.
"You sent her away." I repeated nasty. "Great. That's just wonderful Max. No baby, no Tess, you just got your whole live ahead of you huh?" I laughed bitterly.
"But I know better now Liz, I know that I love you. I know all about the REAL Tess. She could never have been you, in any lifetime! I know that everything she ever told me was a lie. She betrayed us in the end you know..." He looked down.
"Oh." I covered my mouth in pity, "I'm sorry Max, you need a tissue? No wait, you seem to be at a *moment of weakness*, I see a soft grounded area over there. You wanna sleep together?" I shot sarcastic.
His eyes shot up into mine and if it was possible melted part of the cold exterior I was maintaining so well. He opened his mouth to say something but thought better of it. I knew I was breaking his heart… again.
I should have been sad.
I should have had some kind of sympathy for the man I loved.
Right?
So how come when he looked back up from the floor and into my eyes I felt nothing. I had no emotion what so ever? I didn't even think that it was the Max I had fell in love with years ago. Why was I so cold? Every vein in my body ran cold for some reason. I felt ice in my body. I clenched my fists tight. I felt tingles in my palms that ran up my arms.
"Look, there's nothing else to say here Max. Let's go." I said coldly.
"But-." He tried again to gain some kind of sympathy from me. Only he didn't know that the Liz Parker he left behind had turned to ice. I had no sympathy for the prick.
"But nothing Max, you broke my heart. There is no mending or-or 'healing' that needs to take place here. At least nothing that you can fix." I could feel my voice catch on my last word and I felt the familiar tightening of my throat. I gulped down the lump in my throat and continued, "If you guys need a ride home, lets go."
"Liz-."
"No Max. I don't want to hear it, what do you want from me? You SLEPT with Tess. You left Earth with her; you never said anything about coming back. What did you expect? I thought I had lost you forever. I thought you loved Tess." I turned and attempted to climb back up the treacherous hill and get to my car.
"But. I thought you had slept with Kyle!" Max repeated loud.
I froze. That was unexpected, I turned back to face him, "I may have not then," I paused, "But I have now." I closed my eyes, to stop the angry tears from falling. I left up the hill to my car without another word.
***
Isabel's POV
My brother.
So still, so surprised.
Did he honestly think she'd wait forever for him? He certainly did not wait for her when it came to sleeping with Tess. What was he expecting? He never told Liz he was coming back for her. He never told her that he didn't love Tess. He never gave her any reason that he was going to leave Tess and be with her. He just always expected fate to bring them together. And now I guess it really is in fates hands right now.
But will it bring my brother happiness?
Or grief.
"Let's go." Alex broke my thoughts.
"Okay." Our fingers locked together as we got over the hill.
I could see the look of worry in Maria's eyes as we descended over the hill to our destination. There was nothing I could say or do to change what my brother had done. Michael's arms encircled Maria's frail body as they stepped in sync with each other's footsteps. Midea walking beside Max in understanding. She knew just how Max's heart hurt. She was after all his sister, whether he knew it or not.
I couldn't hear exactly what conversation they withheld among each other but I tried:
"You okay?" Midea said softly.
Max shrugged.
"You know, feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to help the situation Max." Midea replied serious.
Max looked at her in shock, Midea had not spoken much the whole time they had known each other but when she did speak, it was something of importance.
"I know." He finally responded.
"So what are you going to do know?" Midea stared again.
"I haven't the slightest clue what to do. I've never seen her like this before." Max shook his head.
"You broke her heart Max. What did you expect?"
"I know. But-"
"But nothing. You've been gone for two years and her heart has had to deal with that. And if that wasn't enough she thought you had deceived her by sleeping with Tess. Then as if that wasn't enough, Tess was supposedly pregnant?" Midea shook her had from side to side in wonder, "It's a miracle she came all this way to begin with. If she didn't still love you or hold the same intimate feelings she wouldn't have come all this way Max, there's just NO way."
"You really think so?" Max asked.
Midea smile, "I know so."
"But she slept with Kyle. God I thought she was lying and now-"
"How exactly did you except her to be when you returned? She never even knew you were coming back. After all that's happen you never gave her the slightest hope that you were coming back for her. You have to stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about how Liz must feel Max." Midea bluntly put it.
"Geez Midea. I didn't know you could be so informatively direct." Max said aloud.
Midea giggled sweetly, "Its one of my many talents. Give her time Max. Don't rush her. She'll come around. She needs you right now, she just doesn't know how to deal with it yet."
"Okay. I'll wait." He took Midea's hand and squeezed it, "Thanks Midea."
"You're welcome Max." She grinned wide.
I stopped listening after that, I felt as if it was a delicate moment that they needed to share alone. Max was starting to come around; he felt her familiar presence now and was starting to think that she was more close to the family than she appeared. I knew it was only a matter of time before he realized who she really was.
We were just down the massive hill now when Alex lead us to his magnificent ride.
"Kick-ass ride Alex!" I squealed, gawking at his truck.
"I thought you'd like it." He smiled, "Wait till you hear the system!" He started the truck and cranked up the stereo, winking at Liz and Maria.
I smiled back. I was so happy to be home. My REAL home. But- "Max?" I called to him.
"Coming." He sulked all the way to the truck, his pity had left but the heartache was still there.
"Uh, sorry Maxwell, no room for you in here." Michael lied, as he and Maria sprawled out in the back of the SUV, and Midea looking uncomfortable in the back of them.
Max looked to the only other means of transportation, which was Liz.
"Get in." She replied slamming her car door shut.
Max took one last glance at me, letting his sorrow lay imminent on his face. He had brought this on himself, I said nothing. I just sat in the car next to Alex, shutting us in and my brother out.
"Hurry up before I change my mind Evans." Liz spat out the drivers seat window, revving the engine.
Was it my imagination or did she have one kick-ass car too?
What was next? Her living in a giant expensive 3 story mansion with like 23 bedrooms, 16 bathrooms, one inside pool, one outside pool, 5 whirlwind Jacuzzi's, 2 major kitchens, 6 living rooms, and so on? Gosh what was NEXT? I thought I think I have had enough surprises in one day to last me a whole lifetime!
***
Liz POV
I really didn't want his ass in my car but what was I to do? The rest of the group had already decided on making me and Max play nice with each other. I couldn't believe Maria would do this to me. It was unbelievable it really was.
I was actually kinda thinking a little bit as I was walking down that steep hill, other than the fact that my calves were killing me, I thought that Max, if truth be told, had a point. I had made him think that he lost me. But it was my duty to do so. But just because of that he had no right to pull a 360 on me by sleeping with that back stabbing bitch Tess.
He had sent her away. Wow, I'm intrigued Max, I'm so turned on! –I wanted to shout in his face. What did he want from me? Did he want me to go running out to his open arms and hug and kiss him and tell him that I love him? Did he even THINK about what I would be feeling right now? Did he? And come to think of it did Kyle think about the repercussions of dumping me? I swear these native Roswell boys have absolutely NO conscious!
They just go with the flow.
-Oh I'm tired of our relationship, goodbye Liz Parker but have a nice life!-
Maybe in some alternate universe what has happened to us all will make us stringer and by doing so we will live happily ever after. I could see Max making his way to my firebird and I could feel his pain. It wasn't like I was doing this on purpose. He had hurt me for god's sake!
I wasn't being a cold-hearted bitch! I wasn't! He deserved this! He really did!
I saw Max and Isabel exchange some sort of relative look and then Isabel turned away from him, getting in the sear beside Alex. Max really was on is own now. Hmmm… I still felt no pity for the man who hurt me deep, maybe someday in the near future I'll look back at myself and think that I should have been different. But the time was now, and I felt nothing, I was empty. Emotions ran dry and arrogance blocked them from returning.
Yea I needed a moment to take this all in, and then maybe. MAYBE me and Max could talk things out.
Dammit, I was about to have a flash.
*FLASH*
"Let's go." Max entered the Valenti household and was in Tess's room.
"Max, are you sure you want to do this?" Tess said.
"Yes." He answered.
"Right." Tess nodded.
They kiss-Tess sees flash of Max and Liz kissing
"You kissed Liz!" Tess bellowed.
Max doesn't reply.
"Don't worry, you won't remember her where we're going." Tess replied smugly.
*END FLASH*
Err! This one came with a massive headache! Max was getting nearer and he hadn't caught my vision spell, or whatever the hell it was. The same vision within an hours period, what was with that?
"Thanks Li-." He began getting in my car only to be cut off by me.
"Don't talk." I snapped, cranking up my stereo. Linkon Park's loud, angry lyrics screaming in my ears the whole way home. Well almost the whole way.
"I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you
Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you
Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away...
Pushes my away..."
(PaperCut, By, Linkon Park – Hybrid Theory)
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A/N: Thanks you guys for the reviews hope to see a lot more soon! Hope you guys liked this chapter too! Don't worry dreamers the fun has just begun!