Darkness to Light Part 12
By Minako-chan
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Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, I only own the story line
of this fanfic!
(Narrator's P.O.V.)
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Serena continued working quietly in the new
hospital, her mind constantly occupied by the
face of Darien.
"Stop it, Serena, it's been 3 months. He's
probably forgotten you by now." Serena kept
reminding herself.
During these past few months, whenever doors
opened, somehow Serena always looked up with
hope, expecting Darien to find her and hold
her in his arms. But now...
She felt stupid for giving up the one chance
of happiness in her life. She never forgave
herself for hurting him. To say those words
to him hurt herself more than they hurt him.
Each day that passed by without seeing Darien
was painful. Some days she just couldn't take
it anymore and cried quietly in the bathroom,
then splashed cold water over her face, then
resumed her work. Dr. Harper noticed it all
the time, but never bothered to question her.
It was a field that he would not be able to
help her in. He knew it had to do with love.
Only love could bring a person such pain.
With each day passed Serena missed Darien more
and more, and blamed herself much more than her
heart could take.
"SERENA!" Mina's voice chirped, interrupting her
thoughts one day.
"Hey Mina what are you doing here?"
"To visit you, like duh! Why? I look sick or
something?" Mina joked and brought a smile to Serena's
face. "Gosh Serena, I haven't seen you smile in ages."
Her tone softened. She laid a hand on Serena's shoulder.
"Stop blaming yourself."
"How can I not...I threw out my possibly one and
only chance for true love...I gave it up! Not only
did I hurt myself, I hurt him!" Serena broke down.
Several patients looked up.
"Sorry, but Nurse Tsukino would be right back, k?" Mina
addressed the patients, and gently led Serena out of
the room into the bathroom across the hall.
There were no words that Mina could say to comfort
her dear used-to-be-cheerful friend. All she could
do was patting on her back, and try to cheer her
up by being a attentive listener.
They sat in the chairs in the bathroom for long
minutes, while Serena sobbed violently, with Mina
watching her with pain. She hated Serena being
like this. She had been like this for months.
Mina wanted her old friend back so badly.
The bathroom door opened, and a nurse walked in.
Noticing the situation, the nurse quickly went
back out. When the door opened, Mina noticed
that Serena's head snapped up.
"Serena, why are you always watching the doors?"
" It's because...it's because..." she
began to choke on her words, knowing how silly
they sounded. "...Because...somehow I expect Darien
to come to me...to find me...I know it sounds
silly because I was the one who gave him up and
he's probably forgotten me by now...but still,
I miss him so much...it's killing me, Mina."
Mina wrapped her arms around Serena and gave her
a hug.
"Then why don't you tell him?"
Serena stopped crying for a while and looked up.
"Should I?" She looked at Mina with ocean blue
eyes clouded with confusion and anger at herself.
"That is something you'd have to answer yourself."
Serena looked at her hands, damp from tears, and
began to shake. She couldn't face Darien anymore,
not after all the pain that she had caused him.
Plus, what if he had really forgotten about her?
She would feel like a fool.
"I can't." She whispered.
Mina could only nod. She wouldn't try to convince
Serena if it was something she didn't want to do.
"Thanks Mina." She stood up and went to the sink,
and splashed cold water over her face. She dried
her tears with some paper towel, and turned toward
her friend with a weak smile. "Thanks for listening,
Mina."
"You're welcome." Mina said, although not knowing
exactly just how she had helped her. "About what
you said about Darien coming to you...what if one
day he really does? What would you do then?"
Serena stared into Mina's eyes with confusion.
"You know, I've never really thought of that.
Can you do me a favour what that actually happens?
Even though I know it won't happen?"
"Sure thing."
"Pretend that you're me. Please. I know that
when...if that day actually comes, I don't think
he'll look for me here. Maybe when I see him
again I'll be hanging out with you guys or
something. And your voice is so much like mine,
he might not be able to tell the difference."
"Why do you want me to pretend to be you?"
"Because, if that day comes, I don't know if my
heart can take it if I see him again. Please, Mina,
I know it sounds silly, to plan such a scheme for
something that might never happen, but I'd really
appreciate it if you'd help."
"Of course." Mina said. "I'll let you go back to
your duties now."
Serena smiled and left the bathroom. She had become
so distant, and none of the girls could really grasp
what was on her mind these days. Mina hated that.
She wanted the old-Serena. Cheerful, ditzy, and a
total Meatball Head. Now as she glimpsed at her
walking away, she almost felt as if Serena was
vanishing, disappearing, dying. Mina sank back into
her chair and shook her head with confusion.
As Serena returned to her work, she tried hard
to concentrate, but her mind kept drifting on what
Mina had asked. What if he did come to her? Would
that even be possible? She knew that he probably
had forgotten about her already and wouldn't feel
the same strong feelings for her anymore as she did
for him. She couldn't imagine how she would react
to that. Maybe that was why she wanted Mina to pretend
to be her in case Darien showed up, so that he
wouldn't be able to sense her pain and feel her
collasping in front of him.
What if she was right, that he didn't feel the same
way toward her anymore? What if he decided to stay
out of her life forever because of the pain that she
had caused him?
That was when she realized, she was madly in love
with him...and was scared that it was too late to
realize it.
A life without Darien wasn't a life worth living.
The thought scared her.
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Amy was working hard and concentrating at her desk
when a knock on her door startled her. She glanced
at her watch. It was 7:14am. Too early for any
appointments.
"Come in." She said, hesitant.
Darien walked in, with his bag flung over his
shoulder in one hand, his other running through
his hair casually.
"You look younger than I thought!" Darien exclaimed
and studied the sophisticated but young-looking woman
sitting there, with her hands folded on the desk, with
delicate-framed reading glasses. Her hair was short
and sparkled against the bright sunlight casted on it
from the window behind her.
"Thanks." Amy replied, and took a while to let his
comment sink in. "WHAT? What did you say?"
"I said, you look younger than I thought!" Darien
chuckled.
Amy stood up and rushed to stand in front of him,
her face inches away from his.
"You mean - " Amy didn't have to finish her sentence.
Darien only nodded and smiled from ear to ear.
"OH MY GOD! THAT IS WONDERFUL!" She screamed, forgetting
her manners and threw her arms around him to give him
a big hug. He hugged her back briefly then let go.
"Listen, Dr. Anderson," he winked, knowing that she
hated being called that title as much as he hated
being called 'Mr. Chiba', "I would just like to
thank you for being there during these three months.
I'm gonna check out now, so-to-speak." He smiled.
"You're welcome! It's my duty, remember? But it's
more than that with you. I don't know if it's
because of Ser-" She paused, and scratched her
head, face turning a pink hue, "sorry I shouldn't
have reminded you..."
Darien lifted his hand and shrugged slightly, trying
not to show his pain at the mention of her name.
"It's okay. Go on with what you were gonna say..."
"Well what I was gonna say is that it's more with
you because we have developed a friendship, that's all.
You'll be in touch, right? I hope to see you soon,
outside of the hospital of course." She smiled weakly,
feeling ashamed of having brought pain back to his
expressive eyes, ones that could never hide any emotions
he was feeling.
"Of course, Amy! It's easy because I know where you
work and stuff like that. Listen, I need to ask you
for a favour." He spoke softly.
"What is it, Darien?"
"I was wondering if...if you could...if you could tell
me where Serena lives or where she works? Or her number?
Anything that I can contact her with?"
Amy looked up and frowned. "I'm sorry, but I already
swore to Serena that I would keep all her personal
information confidential. I'm sorry Darien, that's
one favour I can't do for you."
Darien looked down at the floor. "Please Amy? I really
need to find her. I love her...I've missed her more
than anything in the world. I've prayed every single
day, for my sight, so that I could see her, to find
her, and let her know how I still feel about her.
Please."
Thoughts rushed through Amy's mind. She knew that
the love Darien held for Serena was constant and pure.
Now that Darien was not going to be a patient anymore,
Serena could come back and work with her! Plus, there
would not be any more barriers between Darien and Serena.
"I don't know, Darien."
"Please Amy, you know I love her. I love her more
than life itself. She's the reason why I wanted
to see again. I would have drowned in my own
misery before she came along. I would have cared
less if I stayed in the hospital forever, because
I had no reason to will myself into seeing again.
Then she came...I didn't want to live in darkness
anymore. Darkness...I hated it ever since she came
into my life. Please, Amy, you know how I feel
about her." Darien whispered, and tears slowly
dropped to the carpet below as he confessed his
feelings.
Amy's eyes welled up with tears. She knew that
Darien would be able to give Serena happiness and
love. She was so touched with his words, and how true
they were.
"Alright." Amy grabbed a piece of paper from a
pile on her desk, and gave it to Darien.
"What's this?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.
He looked at the paper and it was actually an
advertisement.
"This hospital is having a fund-raiser this Sunday.
Serena will most likely be here, and so will I and
some of our friends. That's all I'm telling you."
Amy winked and Darien unexpectedly gave her a hug.
"THANK YOU AMY!" He shouted with hope.
"And if you'd excuse me, I have to get back to
work." Amy laughed, and Darien released her,
nodded, and left for the elevator for the lobby,
where he could officially 'sign out'.
After the usual procedures like paying the enormous
bill, he stepped outside, and looked at the world
around him. He couldn't help but smile at the
children playing across the streets, mothers
feeding their babies, students waiting patiently
for the light to turn green. He turned to his left
and saw the rose garden. He saw the bench that Serena
and him were once occupied on, then the grass around it,
and then at the fountain. The breeze caused petals to
fly in the air. 'No wonder Serena likes it there so
much,' he thought to himself. He walked slowly toward
the fountain and placed his hand in the water, letting
the cold liquid slide around his fingers.
He remembered that day when they first kissed, and
when he was taken away from her. When his heart
was shattered into a million pieces when she
announced that she wanted to leave. To be
out of his life.
Then he stopped and began to wonder if it was
such a good idea to go find her so soon. How
would she take it? And worse yet, what if she
had already forgotten about him? What if she
didn't share the same feelings for him that
he had for her?
Could his heart take it if she rejected him face-to-face?
He sighed and gathered his strength and courage.
He would have to find out on Sunday.
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TO BE CONTINUED
By Minako-chan
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Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, I only own the story line
of this fanfic!
(Narrator's P.O.V.)
-------------------------
Serena continued working quietly in the new
hospital, her mind constantly occupied by the
face of Darien.
"Stop it, Serena, it's been 3 months. He's
probably forgotten you by now." Serena kept
reminding herself.
During these past few months, whenever doors
opened, somehow Serena always looked up with
hope, expecting Darien to find her and hold
her in his arms. But now...
She felt stupid for giving up the one chance
of happiness in her life. She never forgave
herself for hurting him. To say those words
to him hurt herself more than they hurt him.
Each day that passed by without seeing Darien
was painful. Some days she just couldn't take
it anymore and cried quietly in the bathroom,
then splashed cold water over her face, then
resumed her work. Dr. Harper noticed it all
the time, but never bothered to question her.
It was a field that he would not be able to
help her in. He knew it had to do with love.
Only love could bring a person such pain.
With each day passed Serena missed Darien more
and more, and blamed herself much more than her
heart could take.
"SERENA!" Mina's voice chirped, interrupting her
thoughts one day.
"Hey Mina what are you doing here?"
"To visit you, like duh! Why? I look sick or
something?" Mina joked and brought a smile to Serena's
face. "Gosh Serena, I haven't seen you smile in ages."
Her tone softened. She laid a hand on Serena's shoulder.
"Stop blaming yourself."
"How can I not...I threw out my possibly one and
only chance for true love...I gave it up! Not only
did I hurt myself, I hurt him!" Serena broke down.
Several patients looked up.
"Sorry, but Nurse Tsukino would be right back, k?" Mina
addressed the patients, and gently led Serena out of
the room into the bathroom across the hall.
There were no words that Mina could say to comfort
her dear used-to-be-cheerful friend. All she could
do was patting on her back, and try to cheer her
up by being a attentive listener.
They sat in the chairs in the bathroom for long
minutes, while Serena sobbed violently, with Mina
watching her with pain. She hated Serena being
like this. She had been like this for months.
Mina wanted her old friend back so badly.
The bathroom door opened, and a nurse walked in.
Noticing the situation, the nurse quickly went
back out. When the door opened, Mina noticed
that Serena's head snapped up.
"Serena, why are you always watching the doors?"
" It's because...it's because..." she
began to choke on her words, knowing how silly
they sounded. "...Because...somehow I expect Darien
to come to me...to find me...I know it sounds
silly because I was the one who gave him up and
he's probably forgotten me by now...but still,
I miss him so much...it's killing me, Mina."
Mina wrapped her arms around Serena and gave her
a hug.
"Then why don't you tell him?"
Serena stopped crying for a while and looked up.
"Should I?" She looked at Mina with ocean blue
eyes clouded with confusion and anger at herself.
"That is something you'd have to answer yourself."
Serena looked at her hands, damp from tears, and
began to shake. She couldn't face Darien anymore,
not after all the pain that she had caused him.
Plus, what if he had really forgotten about her?
She would feel like a fool.
"I can't." She whispered.
Mina could only nod. She wouldn't try to convince
Serena if it was something she didn't want to do.
"Thanks Mina." She stood up and went to the sink,
and splashed cold water over her face. She dried
her tears with some paper towel, and turned toward
her friend with a weak smile. "Thanks for listening,
Mina."
"You're welcome." Mina said, although not knowing
exactly just how she had helped her. "About what
you said about Darien coming to you...what if one
day he really does? What would you do then?"
Serena stared into Mina's eyes with confusion.
"You know, I've never really thought of that.
Can you do me a favour what that actually happens?
Even though I know it won't happen?"
"Sure thing."
"Pretend that you're me. Please. I know that
when...if that day actually comes, I don't think
he'll look for me here. Maybe when I see him
again I'll be hanging out with you guys or
something. And your voice is so much like mine,
he might not be able to tell the difference."
"Why do you want me to pretend to be you?"
"Because, if that day comes, I don't know if my
heart can take it if I see him again. Please, Mina,
I know it sounds silly, to plan such a scheme for
something that might never happen, but I'd really
appreciate it if you'd help."
"Of course." Mina said. "I'll let you go back to
your duties now."
Serena smiled and left the bathroom. She had become
so distant, and none of the girls could really grasp
what was on her mind these days. Mina hated that.
She wanted the old-Serena. Cheerful, ditzy, and a
total Meatball Head. Now as she glimpsed at her
walking away, she almost felt as if Serena was
vanishing, disappearing, dying. Mina sank back into
her chair and shook her head with confusion.
As Serena returned to her work, she tried hard
to concentrate, but her mind kept drifting on what
Mina had asked. What if he did come to her? Would
that even be possible? She knew that he probably
had forgotten about her already and wouldn't feel
the same strong feelings for her anymore as she did
for him. She couldn't imagine how she would react
to that. Maybe that was why she wanted Mina to pretend
to be her in case Darien showed up, so that he
wouldn't be able to sense her pain and feel her
collasping in front of him.
What if she was right, that he didn't feel the same
way toward her anymore? What if he decided to stay
out of her life forever because of the pain that she
had caused him?
That was when she realized, she was madly in love
with him...and was scared that it was too late to
realize it.
A life without Darien wasn't a life worth living.
The thought scared her.
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Amy was working hard and concentrating at her desk
when a knock on her door startled her. She glanced
at her watch. It was 7:14am. Too early for any
appointments.
"Come in." She said, hesitant.
Darien walked in, with his bag flung over his
shoulder in one hand, his other running through
his hair casually.
"You look younger than I thought!" Darien exclaimed
and studied the sophisticated but young-looking woman
sitting there, with her hands folded on the desk, with
delicate-framed reading glasses. Her hair was short
and sparkled against the bright sunlight casted on it
from the window behind her.
"Thanks." Amy replied, and took a while to let his
comment sink in. "WHAT? What did you say?"
"I said, you look younger than I thought!" Darien
chuckled.
Amy stood up and rushed to stand in front of him,
her face inches away from his.
"You mean - " Amy didn't have to finish her sentence.
Darien only nodded and smiled from ear to ear.
"OH MY GOD! THAT IS WONDERFUL!" She screamed, forgetting
her manners and threw her arms around him to give him
a big hug. He hugged her back briefly then let go.
"Listen, Dr. Anderson," he winked, knowing that she
hated being called that title as much as he hated
being called 'Mr. Chiba', "I would just like to
thank you for being there during these three months.
I'm gonna check out now, so-to-speak." He smiled.
"You're welcome! It's my duty, remember? But it's
more than that with you. I don't know if it's
because of Ser-" She paused, and scratched her
head, face turning a pink hue, "sorry I shouldn't
have reminded you..."
Darien lifted his hand and shrugged slightly, trying
not to show his pain at the mention of her name.
"It's okay. Go on with what you were gonna say..."
"Well what I was gonna say is that it's more with
you because we have developed a friendship, that's all.
You'll be in touch, right? I hope to see you soon,
outside of the hospital of course." She smiled weakly,
feeling ashamed of having brought pain back to his
expressive eyes, ones that could never hide any emotions
he was feeling.
"Of course, Amy! It's easy because I know where you
work and stuff like that. Listen, I need to ask you
for a favour." He spoke softly.
"What is it, Darien?"
"I was wondering if...if you could...if you could tell
me where Serena lives or where she works? Or her number?
Anything that I can contact her with?"
Amy looked up and frowned. "I'm sorry, but I already
swore to Serena that I would keep all her personal
information confidential. I'm sorry Darien, that's
one favour I can't do for you."
Darien looked down at the floor. "Please Amy? I really
need to find her. I love her...I've missed her more
than anything in the world. I've prayed every single
day, for my sight, so that I could see her, to find
her, and let her know how I still feel about her.
Please."
Thoughts rushed through Amy's mind. She knew that
the love Darien held for Serena was constant and pure.
Now that Darien was not going to be a patient anymore,
Serena could come back and work with her! Plus, there
would not be any more barriers between Darien and Serena.
"I don't know, Darien."
"Please Amy, you know I love her. I love her more
than life itself. She's the reason why I wanted
to see again. I would have drowned in my own
misery before she came along. I would have cared
less if I stayed in the hospital forever, because
I had no reason to will myself into seeing again.
Then she came...I didn't want to live in darkness
anymore. Darkness...I hated it ever since she came
into my life. Please, Amy, you know how I feel
about her." Darien whispered, and tears slowly
dropped to the carpet below as he confessed his
feelings.
Amy's eyes welled up with tears. She knew that
Darien would be able to give Serena happiness and
love. She was so touched with his words, and how true
they were.
"Alright." Amy grabbed a piece of paper from a
pile on her desk, and gave it to Darien.
"What's this?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.
He looked at the paper and it was actually an
advertisement.
"This hospital is having a fund-raiser this Sunday.
Serena will most likely be here, and so will I and
some of our friends. That's all I'm telling you."
Amy winked and Darien unexpectedly gave her a hug.
"THANK YOU AMY!" He shouted with hope.
"And if you'd excuse me, I have to get back to
work." Amy laughed, and Darien released her,
nodded, and left for the elevator for the lobby,
where he could officially 'sign out'.
After the usual procedures like paying the enormous
bill, he stepped outside, and looked at the world
around him. He couldn't help but smile at the
children playing across the streets, mothers
feeding their babies, students waiting patiently
for the light to turn green. He turned to his left
and saw the rose garden. He saw the bench that Serena
and him were once occupied on, then the grass around it,
and then at the fountain. The breeze caused petals to
fly in the air. 'No wonder Serena likes it there so
much,' he thought to himself. He walked slowly toward
the fountain and placed his hand in the water, letting
the cold liquid slide around his fingers.
He remembered that day when they first kissed, and
when he was taken away from her. When his heart
was shattered into a million pieces when she
announced that she wanted to leave. To be
out of his life.
Then he stopped and began to wonder if it was
such a good idea to go find her so soon. How
would she take it? And worse yet, what if she
had already forgotten about him? What if she
didn't share the same feelings for him that
he had for her?
Could his heart take it if she rejected him face-to-face?
He sighed and gathered his strength and courage.
He would have to find out on Sunday.
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TO BE CONTINUED