The Dream of Becoming Part 8
By Minako-chan
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Disclaimer: don't own anything but this storyline; "The One I Gave My Heart To" is a
song by Aaliyah.
Author's notes: This the part where the title "The Dream of Becoming" will slowly
make sense =) Hopefully you'll know when you see the clue^_~ More author's notes at
the bottom.
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
How could the one I gave my heart to, break my heart so bad
How could the one who made me happy, make me feel so sad
Won't somebody tell me, so I can understand
If you love me, how could you hurt me like that?
How could the one I gave my world to, throw my world away
How could the one who said I love you, say the things you say
How could the one I was so true to, just tell me lies
How could the one I gave my heart to, break this heart of mine
Tell me...
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Darien stared at her, worried. She hadn't spoken for 15 minutes since they
got to the restaurant. She sat there, stirring her iced tea with her
straw, her cheek resting on her palm.
"Serena?" He gulped.
Silence. She didn't hear him.
"Serena?" He called out again.
"Yeah, wha?" She snapped out of her reverie.
"What's wrong, you seem awfully quiet." Darien said, reaching across
the table to hold her hand. She pulled her hand away.
"Nothing. Just feel a little...sick." Serena half-lied. She did have
a headache, but not as big as the heartache that she had.
"Do you want me to take you home then?" Darien asked.
"Would you mind if I go alone?" She whispered, her eyes welling up with
tears.
Darien could only shake his head reluctantly.
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Serena wrapped her arms around herself, insecurity and sadness roaming
around her.
'Why do I care so much? We've only gone out for a few months...I've
had relationships that lasted longer than this, and I didn't feel
as horrible when I broke up with any of them...' her mind said.
She stopped walking at a streetlight, and looked at the moon shining
down at her from above.
A tear rolled down from her clouded eyes.
'I'm in love with him.' Her heart answered.
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
How could you be so cold to me, when I gave you everything
All my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door, how could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever, I can't understand
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
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Darien rubbed his eyes and lay down on the couch. A picture of Serena
with tears in her eyes was in his mind. He looked into a distance and
his eyes fixed on a picture near his telephone. A picture of him and
Angel. Then laying beside that picture was Serena.
He blinked. He couldn't tell the difference.
Guilt, worry and sadness drew him into a deep sleep.
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Serena looked at the photocopied pages in her hands. The first was a
full-body picture of Angel found in one of the yearbooks. The second
page was things that people wrote about her when she graduated. The
third was a page of poems that she had written and published in the
highschool newsletter. They were touching, deep, and directly from
her soul.
'I can't compete with this...this wonderful girl. I am nothing
compared to her...that must be why Darien doesn't want to move
beyond what we have...it's been months, no kiss on the lips, no
kiss on the cheeks, nothing. He must have realized that I am
nothing but a clone on the outside. I'm not the girl that he
wants to share his feelings with.' She thought sadly.
Unless...she became Angel.
Taking the pages of Angel's pictures and poems, Serena could
imagine what Angel was like. It was only a matter of time
before she could try to act like her. And maybe, just maybe,
Darien could appreciate her efforts and fall in love with her.
It was a foolish idea, but it was worth a shot. After all,
she had already fallen in love with him...this is a love
that she could not simply let go.
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
How could the one I gave my dreams to, take my dreams from me
How could the love that brought such pleasure, bring such misery
Won't somebody tell me, somebody tell me please
If you love me, how could you do this to me
Please tell me...
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
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She didn't return any calls, she didn't respond to any of the
flowers or cards that he had sent her, Darien realized.
It had been a month since he saw her when they were at the
restaurant, and she had left so abruptly that he barely
had time to think about what had happened.
Worry tugged at his mind, but not as much as something that
tugged at his heart...could it be...love?
He sat up in his bed in realization.
'I'm in love with her.' His heart screamed.
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Serena knocked on the door, hesitant. A woman around her
age opened the door.
"OH MY GOD! ANGEL?" She screamed when she saw Serena
at the door. "ANGEL IS THAT YOU?"
Serena shook her head vigorously. "No, no, calm down
miss..."
The woman looked at Serena carefully, and sighed in
relief.
"Oh Lord, I thought you were my ... deceased best friend
for a minute there." Her eyes welled with tears as they
stared into a far distance, in memory of her friend.
"I'm sorry for bringing back memories...but this best
friend of yours, Angel, I've been getting a lot of
comments that I look exactly like her, and I'd just like
to know who Angel was and what she was like, if you don't
mind telling me..." Serena stuttered.
"Of course I don't mind! Angel was a kind, sweet, loving,
person who..." The woman began as she led Serena into her
home.
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Two blonde angels surround him. They laugh merrily, dancing
around him. They are on the mountainside. Water from the
waterfall sounds like bells in the air. No, it is their
laughter.
Darien looks around him. Green grass, trees swaying in the
air, cloudless sky, and two angels. He must be in heaven.
Wait...TWO angels?
He looks carefully.
Angel is standing on a large boulder at the edge of a cliff,
smiling.
Serena is sitting by the waterfall, kicking her feet in the
water, laughing.
Darien smiles at the both of them. They smile back.
Suddenly, lightning, out of nowhere, strikes and a tree
falls down. At the sudden move and the loud noise,
all three of them scream in unison.
The girls are not as lucky as Darien, who only jumps slightly.
Angel tumbles down the cliff, Serena falls into the deep
water below.
Darien stands in the middle.
Who should he go after?
Without a second thought, he jumps into the water.
......
Darien woke up in cold sweat once again. He hadn't dreamed
for a while, since he last saw Serena. He looked at the
clock, 3am again. In frustration, he got up and went to
the balcony, staring into the empty streets below.
Cold wind blew in his face. Tears made their way down. He
made no move to stop them now. He had finally moved on,
but to the looks of it, it was too late. Serena no longer
wanted to have anything to do with him, otherwise she would
have at least returned one call, to tell him it was over,
or to tell him that she didn't want him in her life...either
way, he needed to know.
He took a deep breath and walked over to his telephone. He
knew it was late, she would hate him if he called at this
hour. But if she was like him, in love and in despair,
she would understand. And she would give him an answer.
To be in or out of his life. He needed to know.
He dialed her number.
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TO BE CONTINUED!
Author's Notes: WOOHOO! Whole new part! Lucky you^-~ Just kidding =) Anyways
I was in a mood for writing, so here it is! Sorry about taking so long =)
I had been really busy! Stay tuned and thanks for reading! And thank you
for all the comments I've been getting! You know who you are^_~
cupid_teacup@hotmail.com
By Minako-chan
---------------------
Disclaimer: don't own anything but this storyline; "The One I Gave My Heart To" is a
song by Aaliyah.
Author's notes: This the part where the title "The Dream of Becoming" will slowly
make sense =) Hopefully you'll know when you see the clue^_~ More author's notes at
the bottom.
---------------------
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
How could the one I gave my heart to, break my heart so bad
How could the one who made me happy, make me feel so sad
Won't somebody tell me, so I can understand
If you love me, how could you hurt me like that?
How could the one I gave my world to, throw my world away
How could the one who said I love you, say the things you say
How could the one I was so true to, just tell me lies
How could the one I gave my heart to, break this heart of mine
Tell me...
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
--------------------
Darien stared at her, worried. She hadn't spoken for 15 minutes since they
got to the restaurant. She sat there, stirring her iced tea with her
straw, her cheek resting on her palm.
"Serena?" He gulped.
Silence. She didn't hear him.
"Serena?" He called out again.
"Yeah, wha?" She snapped out of her reverie.
"What's wrong, you seem awfully quiet." Darien said, reaching across
the table to hold her hand. She pulled her hand away.
"Nothing. Just feel a little...sick." Serena half-lied. She did have
a headache, but not as big as the heartache that she had.
"Do you want me to take you home then?" Darien asked.
"Would you mind if I go alone?" She whispered, her eyes welling up with
tears.
Darien could only shake his head reluctantly.
---------------------
Serena wrapped her arms around herself, insecurity and sadness roaming
around her.
'Why do I care so much? We've only gone out for a few months...I've
had relationships that lasted longer than this, and I didn't feel
as horrible when I broke up with any of them...' her mind said.
She stopped walking at a streetlight, and looked at the moon shining
down at her from above.
A tear rolled down from her clouded eyes.
'I'm in love with him.' Her heart answered.
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
How could you be so cold to me, when I gave you everything
All my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door, how could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever, I can't understand
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
---------------------
Darien rubbed his eyes and lay down on the couch. A picture of Serena
with tears in her eyes was in his mind. He looked into a distance and
his eyes fixed on a picture near his telephone. A picture of him and
Angel. Then laying beside that picture was Serena.
He blinked. He couldn't tell the difference.
Guilt, worry and sadness drew him into a deep sleep.
--------------------
Serena looked at the photocopied pages in her hands. The first was a
full-body picture of Angel found in one of the yearbooks. The second
page was things that people wrote about her when she graduated. The
third was a page of poems that she had written and published in the
highschool newsletter. They were touching, deep, and directly from
her soul.
'I can't compete with this...this wonderful girl. I am nothing
compared to her...that must be why Darien doesn't want to move
beyond what we have...it's been months, no kiss on the lips, no
kiss on the cheeks, nothing. He must have realized that I am
nothing but a clone on the outside. I'm not the girl that he
wants to share his feelings with.' She thought sadly.
Unless...she became Angel.
Taking the pages of Angel's pictures and poems, Serena could
imagine what Angel was like. It was only a matter of time
before she could try to act like her. And maybe, just maybe,
Darien could appreciate her efforts and fall in love with her.
It was a foolish idea, but it was worth a shot. After all,
she had already fallen in love with him...this is a love
that she could not simply let go.
------------------
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
How could the one I gave my dreams to, take my dreams from me
How could the love that brought such pleasure, bring such misery
Won't somebody tell me, somebody tell me please
If you love me, how could you do this to me
Please tell me...
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
-------------------
She didn't return any calls, she didn't respond to any of the
flowers or cards that he had sent her, Darien realized.
It had been a month since he saw her when they were at the
restaurant, and she had left so abruptly that he barely
had time to think about what had happened.
Worry tugged at his mind, but not as much as something that
tugged at his heart...could it be...love?
He sat up in his bed in realization.
'I'm in love with her.' His heart screamed.
------------------
Serena knocked on the door, hesitant. A woman around her
age opened the door.
"OH MY GOD! ANGEL?" She screamed when she saw Serena
at the door. "ANGEL IS THAT YOU?"
Serena shook her head vigorously. "No, no, calm down
miss..."
The woman looked at Serena carefully, and sighed in
relief.
"Oh Lord, I thought you were my ... deceased best friend
for a minute there." Her eyes welled with tears as they
stared into a far distance, in memory of her friend.
"I'm sorry for bringing back memories...but this best
friend of yours, Angel, I've been getting a lot of
comments that I look exactly like her, and I'd just like
to know who Angel was and what she was like, if you don't
mind telling me..." Serena stuttered.
"Of course I don't mind! Angel was a kind, sweet, loving,
person who..." The woman began as she led Serena into her
home.
------------------
Two blonde angels surround him. They laugh merrily, dancing
around him. They are on the mountainside. Water from the
waterfall sounds like bells in the air. No, it is their
laughter.
Darien looks around him. Green grass, trees swaying in the
air, cloudless sky, and two angels. He must be in heaven.
Wait...TWO angels?
He looks carefully.
Angel is standing on a large boulder at the edge of a cliff,
smiling.
Serena is sitting by the waterfall, kicking her feet in the
water, laughing.
Darien smiles at the both of them. They smile back.
Suddenly, lightning, out of nowhere, strikes and a tree
falls down. At the sudden move and the loud noise,
all three of them scream in unison.
The girls are not as lucky as Darien, who only jumps slightly.
Angel tumbles down the cliff, Serena falls into the deep
water below.
Darien stands in the middle.
Who should he go after?
Without a second thought, he jumps into the water.
......
Darien woke up in cold sweat once again. He hadn't dreamed
for a while, since he last saw Serena. He looked at the
clock, 3am again. In frustration, he got up and went to
the balcony, staring into the empty streets below.
Cold wind blew in his face. Tears made their way down. He
made no move to stop them now. He had finally moved on,
but to the looks of it, it was too late. Serena no longer
wanted to have anything to do with him, otherwise she would
have at least returned one call, to tell him it was over,
or to tell him that she didn't want him in her life...either
way, he needed to know.
He took a deep breath and walked over to his telephone. He
knew it was late, she would hate him if he called at this
hour. But if she was like him, in love and in despair,
she would understand. And she would give him an answer.
To be in or out of his life. He needed to know.
He dialed her number.
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TO BE CONTINUED!
Author's Notes: WOOHOO! Whole new part! Lucky you^-~ Just kidding =) Anyways
I was in a mood for writing, so here it is! Sorry about taking so long =)
I had been really busy! Stay tuned and thanks for reading! And thank you
for all the comments I've been getting! You know who you are^_~
cupid_teacup@hotmail.com