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Hopefully not the lastJuly 2:nd
I don't know how to feel about anything right now. I feel like nothing is going my way. I'm on the verge of loosing my best friend, I can feel it.
Two months ago Alex died and now Maria is slipping away. Tonight she told me she slept with Michael on the day of their supposedly departure.
I can not believe that she has not told me until now. This is a big thing and it's not like Maria to keep something like it from me, her best friend.
She said that I had been spending so much time with Max lately that she has been feeling left out, but what does she expect?
After the whole Tess-thing I have been trying to get everything back to normal with him and in order to do that, I have to spend time with him. Right? Okay, so maybe I have neglected Maria a little, but she has been with Michael a whole lot too. I don't get upset with her because of that, so why should she? I mean, I admit that maybe our friendship hasn't been as great as it used to be and that we aren't as close as…
Oh my god what am I writing? Liz put down the journal and looked at the picture on her nightstand. The one with herself, Maria and Alex on it. She couldn't believe what she had been implying. That her friendship with Maria wasn't as important anymore or that she didn't care that they weren't as close anymore. She did care. Of course she cared about Maria even if she kept a secret from her. Their bond didn't break that easily.
It was just that Liz had been having this weird feeling for some time now and it was staring to come true. She couldn't exactly put her finger on it, but she knew it had something to do with her little group of friends.
It was just like the feeling she'd had before Alex died. On prom-night when she'd felt that it was the last time they'd ever stand together like that. She had been right that time, and even thought Liz really hoped that she was wrong now, she didn't think that she was…
Maria hesitated before knocking on Michael's door. She had never been so nervous about seeing Michael as she was in that exact moment. Then again, she had never been about to tell him that he was going to be a father either.
She built up some courage and finally knocked. Soon the door opened and Michael appeared.
"Finally," he said and gave her one of those amazing kisses of his that made her knees weak. "I'm so glad you're here, I've the worst day ever," he continued.
Maria stepped inside and closed the door behind her. Great! He's had a bad day and I'm about to make it even worse, she thought.
"I actually got fired today," Michael burst out when Maria had sat down in the couch.
"What? You got fired? Why?" Maria asked and forgot for a second about her own problems. Last month Michael had managed to get a job as a security guard at the mall. It wasn't his dream job, but at least it paid better than the Crashdown.
"My boss said that I was too aggressive," Michael muttered.
"Well, did you do anything to make him think that?" Maria asked.
"I saw this guy trying to steal a woman's purse, so I went after him and I caught him, but he struggled so I had to punch him, right, and apparently it upset some old lady and I got fired," Michael explained. "That's what you get when you play a hero these days."
"I'm sorry Michael," Maria said and reached out and touched his arm.
"Then I called Maxwell cause we were supposed to watch the game this afternoon, but apparently Liz was upset about something so he had be with her."
Maria felt a sting of guilt hit her. She was the reason Liz was upset, but right now she had to focus on Michael.
"That sucks," she said and changed position on the couch.
"So, what did you want to tell me?" Michael asked and sighed.
"Actually, it isn't that important…" Maria started.
"If it isn't important then why did you sound so eager and nervous on the phone?" Michael said. "Come on, tell me about it."
"Well…I've been suspecting something for a while now, but I haven't been sure so that's why I didn't tell you earlier. But yesterday I did something that made me sure."
"What are you talking about?" Michael asked.
"I'm pregnant," Maria blurted out. She backed a little on the couch.
"What? Are you sure? I mean, how can you be sure? You didn't go see a doctor did you?" Michael got up from the couch and started pacing back and forth in front of the couch.
"No, I didn't see a doctor," Maria reassured him. "I took a test, but then Kyle said that it…"
"Wait a minute," Michael interrupted. "Back a little bit. Kyle knows about this? You told him before you told me? Maybe he is the father, huh Maria?"
"Of course he's not the father Michael," Maria said. "It's just that he walked by after I took the test and he saw that something was wrong, so I had to tell him."
"Oh, I'm sorry for yelling at you," Michael said, but Maria could tell he was still upset. "So what did Kyle tell you to do?"
"Well, he called Isabel for me and she and Max came over to have a look."
"Izzy and Max knows too? So everyone knows except me. That's just great Maria," Michael yelled.
"Please Michael, stop screaming," Maria begged. "I didn't know how to tell you. I didn't know how you'd react."
"Please Maria, give me some credit. Did you really think that I would to anything but try to support you? It's not your thing to carry alone. Of course I would tell you that I would be there every step of the way."
"Oh right, I forgot," Maria said ironically. "You are responsible Michael that never does anything wrong. You are not the same guy that left me cause he was afraid to even be in a relationship. So why would I think that maybe you would freak when I told you that you were going to be a father. Stupid old Maria right?"
"Don't give me that crap. You know that I have changed since that," Michael defended himself.
"But you're still the same person," Maria said. "You can't change that."
"All I know is that you would be the person I'd go to first when I had a problem that involved only us," Michael said and didn't look at Maria.
"I made a mistake Michael. I know that now, but we need to talk about the real issue here…the baby."
"I know that we do. I need to think about it…a lot," Michael said. "But first I need to figure out how I feel about its mother."
Maria stood up and went to Michael so that she stood looking him the eyes. "What are you saying Michael?" she asked and gave up the fight to stop the tears from rolling down her cheeks.
Michael looked her straight in the eyes and Maria saw the hurt in his eyes. She knew that he didn't trust easily and then he had let her in…really deep, so she could see him for who he was. But now she'd hurt him and his wall came right up again.
"I'm saying that I need some time to think about how I feel about you," he said emotionless. It looked as if he was having a hard time forming the words. "I need some time apart from you."
Maria felt how everything inside her just fell apart. This was her worst nightmare coming to reality. But she knew what she had to do. He would come around. This was Michael. He put on the defensive as soon as he felt even the smallest betrayed.
"Okay," she whispered and reached out and gently touched his face. "Just don't forget that I love you." Then she leaned in and kissed him. A soft, sweet kiss and Maria prayed to God that it wouldn't be the last…
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