A Letter Never be Sent

Chapter2

The vivid dream plagued me. Yet I deliberately ignored it, debating that it was just a side effect caused by Kyoto Event.

I was overwhelmed by the fact that you'd stay, and I couldn't ask for more.

Or could I?

"I'm lying to myself."

For the countless time I said in the endless darkness, after jotting up from the nightmare.

There was something tugging at the back of my mind. But I just couldn't face it.

"Not yet," I pled. "Give me some more time. Give him some more time."

However, deep inside, I knew there'd be a day that we can hide no more.

The dream was a sign, of the rise of those we both wanted to set aside.

And here Jin-chuu came.

It was on the island, waiting for the unknown ending laid in front of us, did it occur to me what the dream tried to tell me.

You were living in the wrong era.

While bearing with so many visions of the future, you had to be barely drowned in the dye vat of all kinds of belief.

While shakily climbed out of the vat, you had to wear the color contradicting to others' on your soul and body.

But the beautiful nature in you is still there.

Tomoe san has noticed it.

I have noticed it.

But can I bring it out? Dare I to bring it out?

I was afraid. I was afraid that it would turn out to be more than I could handle.

I was afraid to let you down.

You were just getting adapt yourself to the new world.

Like a toddle recently conquered the dread of falling down.

Then I realized I depended too much on you.

Your existence only soothed my frustrated heart.

You were there when the whole world was against me.

And I couldn't just give you up, not when you needed me most.

To make you sad would be the last thing I'd do in this world.

It'll pain me more than to have your sword drive to my heart.

I confirmed my answer when I saw you on the island.

When we exchanged our eye contact, I knew we both found the same answer:

We would try our best to survive in this world together.

And it'll be enough for us.

"Kaoru san, could I come in?" Misao's voice.

Startled from my musing, I put my writings away. "Yes, please."

"You and Himura are so boring," Misao steps inside, noticing the papers and writing brush.

"All you do in Kyoto is sitting at home and tomb-visiting. Some couple you make."

"Misao," I grit my teeth. "need I remind you it's raining outside?"

"It didn't rain until you came here." She smirks.

I sighed. "Whatever."

"Ne, Kaoru san, tell me how Himura got the guts to propose you." Misao becomes excited all of sudden.

I glance at her. "What propose?"

"You mean he didn't propose you?" she asks incredulously.

"When Sanosuke, Megumi, and Yahiko left, we both felt it was time. And that was all." I reply casually.

"Boy, you really make the most boring couple in the world. You're beginning to act like that old Himura."

Misao pouts, and then lightens up again.

"At least he said something before you got married."

"I just turned to be19, thank you very much." I roll my eyes.

"And where did you get those ideas from? All of our parents married like this."

"Our parents weren't assassins and shihondais, were they?"

"Misao..."

Sensing my rising temper, Misao waves her hands nervously.

"Ah ha ha, forget about it, never mind."

Taking a sip of the cold tea, I reply while looking at the tea leaf in the bottom of the cup.

"After they all gone, we discussed about our future one day..." I set the cup down on my knees.

"and we just discovered that we had each other in our future plan." I smile at Misao.

Of course I forgot to mention to her that it was actually I, who proposed.

TBC

A/N: Well, sorry for the delay, if there's anyone care. Anyway, please tell me what you think of this chapter.

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