He shook his head violently, rain splashing from his hair. He looked at
her in
disbelief.
"Annie, you can't just disappear and leave us to worry our heads of
for two
years and then just drop in like everything's fine. You scared us half to
death!
Clu had to go to shrink. You broke our hearts, you broke my heart." Tears
joined the rain in streaming down Carry's face. Annie wouldn't look at
him, it
hurt too much. She was almost afraid to look at him.
"Carry my parents died on Christmas! How was I supposed to handle
it? I
yelled at them for never being there, so they decided to come home and died
on
the way. I know you wouldn't survive if Ned and Irene died." He shook his
head
again and ran his fingers through his hair. "Carry, I don't think you get
it,
I'm an orphan. I always kinda felt like one, you know? But I never
expected to
actually become one. It's scary. And remember that panther I told you
about?
The one I said follows me around, kinda protecting me? Well I haven't seen
it
in years! Not since I left. I haven't seen anything weird since I left.
And
look!" Annie showed Carry the ring Fi gave her, the engraving had worn away
and
it was now nothing more than a silver band. "Don't think you're the only
one
with a broken heart, here. You know, I-"
"Believe me," Carry cut in, "no one wanted you back more than I did,
but...now
that you're here. It's different. We don't run smoothly together anymore.
It's like, like an apple, once you slice it in two it won't stay together
anymore." Annie felt her heart sink to her toes at this.
"That's not true. People come and go, THAT'S true, but if you really
love
them, then they haunt your dreams until you see them again. I love you
more
that that. You guys are my family. I do blame myself, I scared you and I
know
that you love me. Carry, please love me. I can't do this any longer, I
can't be
alone." Just then the rain stopped and Carry smiled. Annie's heart was
back and
beating healthily in her chest. The sun shone and warmed their wet faces.
"Annie I love you, I will always love you, but people just tend to go
their
separate ways and you did that two years ago. You can't just drop in and
out of
a family's life and expect them to welcome you with open arms every time.
That's just not the way it is!"
"Carry, I know what I did was wrong and I just came back to see if I
was still
welcome, I'll stay if you guys want me too. If you love me like part of
the
family then.then.I promise on my parents' grave that I'll never leave
again."
Then Carry did something that made Annie practically choke on her
tongue. He fell to his knees, threw his arms around Annie's lap and wept.
And after the wept, he cried, then sobbed, then bawled. When Carry had
finished, Annie pulled him to his feet, and they began home. On the way
(they took the long way) they filled each other in on what had happened
over the course of two years. There had always been a strangely close, but
unspoken friendship between them.
Annie felt as light as a feather as she skipped stones across the
pond in Willson park with Carry. It was dusk and they had still not
decided to go home, there was just too much to say.
"Wow!" Carry breathed as he fell back onto the damp grass, "I had no
idea you had been through so much! You've been living in Salt Lake City?
Now that can't be all that much fun!" Annie laughed.
"Believe me it wasn't. But I met a lot of interesting people. Oh my
God! That place is just infested with Mormons. Did you know they can't
drink cafeen?" Carry put on a fake surprised look and dropped his jaw
practically to his belt. He sat up and tucked his knees to his chest.
"No freakin way!" He said scarstically. Annie rolled her eyes and
sat down next to him. He put his arm around her sholders. "Annie?"
"Yes Carry."
"There's something I have to tell you."
