Chapter 4- Alone
'Today in English we were assigned people to interview for autobiographies. Three guesses who Clark got, and the first two don't count. I swear he set it up! Well, I was lucky enough to get Clark.
At least that's what I thought until I actually tried to do the project. I think that Clark has been avoiding me. So, I went to talk to his parents to get some info. The most interesting thing I got was that Clark hates peas. Not so interesting! Pete told me something interesting.he's been doing that a lot these days. He said that in first grade there was a bully three grades ahead of him and Clark. The bully decided to pick on Pete. He said that Clark jumped between them and threw the bully through a Door, leaving splintered wood and broken hinges. Well, it just proves my powers theory, now doesn't it! Clark still hasn't told me. I guess I really don't matter enough to tell. I can't help but feel sorry for myself. I know I am acting un-Chloe-like, but this is how I feel right now.
So, not finding anything else out, I did my own research. I found out that the Kents adopted Clark through Metropolis United Charities. Weird thing is that the agency was only open six months, and Clark's was the only adoption that they handled. When I told Clark he got so angry. He just snapped. He actually yelled at me. Ladies and Gentleman we have hit a nerve! For the first time I was actually afraid of Clark. I know it was totally unfounded fear, but I know he could break me like a twig. (A large twig, but a twig nonetheless.) Clark wouldn't hurt me. Would he? I
really screwed up this time. Clark may never forgive me. I will never forgive myself.'
No, no, no. Clark would never think of hurting Chloe. Well, he had, hadn't he? The thing that hurt Clark most, was that he didn't know the pain he had rendered on Chloe. He never saw what he was doing to her. He had always just thought she took it in stride. That she understood the way he acted. She had understood, but she had misinterpreted it. Clark wanted to throw the diary as hard as he could into the dark blue sky and never think of it again. He wanted to forget everything. Forget Chloe. Forget the past. But, his heart wouldn't let him.
'I have lost the one friend I have left. I have lost Pete. Pete has a crush on me. He doesn't remember that he told me, the Nicodemus flower made sure of that. But, I do know. Pete feels upstaged by Clark and Lex. He feels replaced. Replaced in my life by Clark.in Clark's life by Lex. I know the feeling. I have also been replaced by Lex Luthor.
I have no one to talk to. Nowhere to go. How can I talk to Pete when I know what I know? I can't. All I can do is try to pay more attention to Pete. Not let him feel the pain of what I feel. I can't believe Pete feels the same way I feel about Clark. Maybe Pete knows a lot more about my situation than I gave him credit for! So, for the time being I am totally, completely, and utterly alone. Save for this journal, but even then, it's an inanimate object and can't help me (obviously).'
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'Clark knows that I like him. Precious little Ryan read my mind and told him. I was mortified when Clark confronted me.so was Clark.
Clark looked.well, he looked disgusted. Am I that repulsive? Does the thought of being with me nauseate him that much? It kills me to think of the look on his face. I almost cried right then and there. Then, later he told me that Lex was leaving. He looked so heartbroken. Like his world was coming to an end. I'm praying that this doesn't mean that Clark has a thing for Lex. No, bad thought! Bad Chloe!
I told him I wasn't leaving. He just smiled. If you call the small movement of his mouth a smile. I'm right here, Clark! Why can't you see me? Why can't you see how perfect we would be together? Look at me,
damn it!'
Clark lay back on his bed. He hadn't been disgusted. Chloe was beautiful, plucky, fun. Clark had only been shocked. He had never thought of Chloe that way. It was a new field to explore. Unfortunately it would take more than Ryan to make Clark realize his feelings for Chloe.
'Today in English we were assigned people to interview for autobiographies. Three guesses who Clark got, and the first two don't count. I swear he set it up! Well, I was lucky enough to get Clark.
At least that's what I thought until I actually tried to do the project. I think that Clark has been avoiding me. So, I went to talk to his parents to get some info. The most interesting thing I got was that Clark hates peas. Not so interesting! Pete told me something interesting.he's been doing that a lot these days. He said that in first grade there was a bully three grades ahead of him and Clark. The bully decided to pick on Pete. He said that Clark jumped between them and threw the bully through a Door, leaving splintered wood and broken hinges. Well, it just proves my powers theory, now doesn't it! Clark still hasn't told me. I guess I really don't matter enough to tell. I can't help but feel sorry for myself. I know I am acting un-Chloe-like, but this is how I feel right now.
So, not finding anything else out, I did my own research. I found out that the Kents adopted Clark through Metropolis United Charities. Weird thing is that the agency was only open six months, and Clark's was the only adoption that they handled. When I told Clark he got so angry. He just snapped. He actually yelled at me. Ladies and Gentleman we have hit a nerve! For the first time I was actually afraid of Clark. I know it was totally unfounded fear, but I know he could break me like a twig. (A large twig, but a twig nonetheless.) Clark wouldn't hurt me. Would he? I
really screwed up this time. Clark may never forgive me. I will never forgive myself.'
No, no, no. Clark would never think of hurting Chloe. Well, he had, hadn't he? The thing that hurt Clark most, was that he didn't know the pain he had rendered on Chloe. He never saw what he was doing to her. He had always just thought she took it in stride. That she understood the way he acted. She had understood, but she had misinterpreted it. Clark wanted to throw the diary as hard as he could into the dark blue sky and never think of it again. He wanted to forget everything. Forget Chloe. Forget the past. But, his heart wouldn't let him.
'I have lost the one friend I have left. I have lost Pete. Pete has a crush on me. He doesn't remember that he told me, the Nicodemus flower made sure of that. But, I do know. Pete feels upstaged by Clark and Lex. He feels replaced. Replaced in my life by Clark.in Clark's life by Lex. I know the feeling. I have also been replaced by Lex Luthor.
I have no one to talk to. Nowhere to go. How can I talk to Pete when I know what I know? I can't. All I can do is try to pay more attention to Pete. Not let him feel the pain of what I feel. I can't believe Pete feels the same way I feel about Clark. Maybe Pete knows a lot more about my situation than I gave him credit for! So, for the time being I am totally, completely, and utterly alone. Save for this journal, but even then, it's an inanimate object and can't help me (obviously).'
* * *
'Clark knows that I like him. Precious little Ryan read my mind and told him. I was mortified when Clark confronted me.so was Clark.
Clark looked.well, he looked disgusted. Am I that repulsive? Does the thought of being with me nauseate him that much? It kills me to think of the look on his face. I almost cried right then and there. Then, later he told me that Lex was leaving. He looked so heartbroken. Like his world was coming to an end. I'm praying that this doesn't mean that Clark has a thing for Lex. No, bad thought! Bad Chloe!
I told him I wasn't leaving. He just smiled. If you call the small movement of his mouth a smile. I'm right here, Clark! Why can't you see me? Why can't you see how perfect we would be together? Look at me,
damn it!'
Clark lay back on his bed. He hadn't been disgusted. Chloe was beautiful, plucky, fun. Clark had only been shocked. He had never thought of Chloe that way. It was a new field to explore. Unfortunately it would take more than Ryan to make Clark realize his feelings for Chloe.