A fanfic by Kawaii Sakura-chan
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Chapter Eleven
"So exciting. We're going to be performing today!" said Sakura excitedly.
"I know," said Syaoran.
"Kaleigh, isn't this great?" asked Sakura.
"What?" said Kaleigh.
"I said, isn't this great? Are you okay? You seem preoccupied today," said Sakura.
"No, no worries," said Kaleigh smiling, "I'm great."
"That's good," said Sakura.
"Yeah," said Kaleigh. =Oh what I have I got planned today?=
"Hey there," said Sean.
"Oh hey," said Kaleigh.
"Nervous?" asked Sean.
"Nope, I'm pretty confident," said Kaleigh.
"That's good," said Sean.
"Anyways, what about you? You nervous?" asked Kaleigh.
"A little," said Sean.
"You'll be great," said Kaleigh, "don't worry."
=Hmm…= thought Sakura, =this is a change. At least they're not fighting=
"So anyways, good luck Kaleigh, I know you'll be great," said Sakura.
"Good luck to you, and I hope things start to go better with you and Syaoran," said Kaleigh.
"Yeah, here's hoping," said Sakura crossing her fingers.
"Good luck to you too Syaoran," said Kaleigh.
"Thanks," said Syaoran.
"Hey," said Tomoyo running in, "am I late? Have you guys gone up yet?"
"No, not yet," said Sakura, "Shouldn't you be in the crowd?"
"I figured I get a better shot from here," said Tomoyo pulling out her video camera.
"Do you have to film us?" said Sakura awkwardly.
"Of course!" said Tomoyo.
"I thought you had retired that thing," said Syaoran.
"I was going to, but I decided against it," said Tomoyo.
"Well could you make a last minute change and decide for it?" asked Sakura.
"Not a chance," said Tomoyo.
"I see," said Sakura.
"Sakura Kinomoto," said one of the backstage people, "You're on in five minutes"
"Alright," said Sakura.
"You'll be great, no worries," said Tomoyo, "No negativity. It'll just make you more nervous."
"Alright, I'll take a deep breath and I'll be fine," said Sakura.
"You'll be great," said Tomoyo.
"Best one out there," said Syaoran.
Syaoran moved closer to Sakura and was about to kiss her when,
"1 minute kinomoto, get ready at the side," said the backstage person.
Syaoran scowled.
"Sorry," said Sakura and she went off to the side.
"NOW," said the announcer, "SAKURA KINOMOTO, SINGING: DREAM OF ME."
Sakura walked on to the stage. All the people cheered. She smiled weakly at them.
=So many of them= she thought.
They handed her a mike and she stood at the front in the middle. Then the music started to play. Sakura took the mike and held it up to her mouth and started to sing,
Let me sleep
For when I sleep
I dream that you are here
You're mine
And all my fears are left behind
I float on air
The nightingale sings
gentle lullabies
So let me close my eyes
And sleep
A chance to dream
So I can see the face I long to touch
To kiss, but only dreams can bring me this
So let the moon shine, softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams he'll dream of me
I believe,
The clouds
Whisper to the evening star
They tell me love is just a dream away
Dream away
I'll dream away
So let the moon shine softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams he'll dream of me
OoOoO
Dream of me
While Sakura was singing Tomoyo and Syaoran were talking backstage.
"She's something isn't she?" said Tomoyo.
"Yeah, her voice, it's amazing," said Syaoran.
"She's finished. She'll probably be up there for a long time while the crowds cheers for her," said Tomoyo.
"I wouldn't be surprised," said Syaoran.
"Tomoyo," said Syaoran turning to Tomoyo.
=Here's where I have some fun= thought Kaleigh.
=Don't meddle= said Sean to Kaleigh using his mind.
=I have to= said Kaleigh.
=I thought you had changed= said Sean.
=Just watch, this is going to be fun= thought Kaleigh.
=I can't watch this= said Sean.
"Yeah?" said Tomoyo turning to Syaoran.
Then Syaoran took Tomoyo into his arms and kissed her deeply.
Tomoyo's mind tried to get her body to pull away but she couldn't and Syaoran didn't know why he was kissing Tomoyo but he couldn't control himself.
=Why can't I move away. This is wrong. I love Eriol. This feels so wrong. Sakura is my best friend. And this feels just so wrong and yet I can't pull myself away from this kiss= thought Tomoyo.
=I love Sakura. I've never even shown any interest in Tomoyo before. Why did I have the impulse to kiss her? Why am I still kissing her? Why am I even kissing her in the first place?= thought Syaoran.
As they were kissing Sakura walked off stage smiling. When she saw Syaoran and Tomoyo kissing her smile quickly faded.
"SYAORAN!" yelled Sakura.
"What?" said Syaoran coming out the trance he was in.
"Sakura, I-I-I'm sooo sorry," said Tomoyo.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU TOMOYO AND YOU SYAORAN! HOW COULD YOU? HOW COULD EITHER OF YOU? TOMOYO YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND!" yelled Sakura running off.
"SAKURA WAIT!" yelled Syaoran running after her.
"SAKURA!" cried Tomoyo falling to the floor crying hysterically. She looked up and saw Eriol. Tomoyo stood up, "Eriol hold me please."
Eriol just stared at her. He didn't say a one word. He just shook his head with a disappointed look on his face. Then he walked away.
"ERIOL," cried Tomoyo falling to her knees again, "Please don't go."
Eriol continued to walk away. Tomoyo continued to sob and Sakura continued to run with Syaoran running after her. She ran out the doors into the pouring rain.
"SAKURA PLEASE, WAIT," yelled Syaoran.
But she continued to run. Her heart was broken. Everything hurt so much inside. The rain was almost a comfort. The rain was cold. It numbed her whole body. Maybe it could numb her heart. She ran up and down streets, just anywhere to get away from her problem. But soon she could run much further. She found herself in Stanley Park. She fell to her knees.
=Why does it hurt so much?= thought Sakura.
"Sakura," said Syaoran.
"GO AWAY," yelled Sakura.
"Please listen to me," said Syaoran.
"NO!" yelled Sakura, "JUST GO AWAY."
"That wasn't me back there. Well it was me, but I couldn't help myself. I mean, ARRGGG, this is all coming out wrong," said Syaoran.
"Typical, just typical of you. You must really hate me. Maybe you weren't being controlled when you said you hated me," said Sakura, "Because this. This doesn't show that you love me."
"Sakura, you know I love you. You also know that I would never do anything to deliberately hurt you," said Syaoran, "That back there, wasn't me inside. It was someone else."
"I can't trust you anymore Syaoran," said Sakura.
"Sakura, please," said Syaoran, "you know that there are greater powers at work here."
"Syaoran, just go. I can't talk to you right now," said Sakura.
"Sakura," said Syaoran.
"SYAORAN! JUST LEAVE, I WANT TO BE ALONE," said Sakura.
"I can't. Not when I love you so much," said Syaoran.
"I can't do this right now," said Sakura, "I gotta go."
Then she sprinted down the road deeper into Stanley Park.
Syaoran sighed.
=There is no way this is ever going to be over= thought Syaoran.
Sakura ran and ran. The rain whipped at her face but it was nothing compared the pain in her heart.
"I will never love again," said Sakura.
Finally she stopped when she had reached a big lake type thing surrounding by a park. She sat down on a park bench. Her clothes were soaked. She buried her head in her hands and cried even more.
=Syaoran, how could you do this to me?= she thought.
She looked up, the sky was dark and it continued to rain hard.
"This couldn't get any worse," said Sakura.
"SAKURA!" yelled someone.
"Oh no," sobbed Sakura, "It just gonna get worse."
She looked around for the speaker. It was Tomoyo. Her eyes were just as red as Sakura.
"I can't talk to you either," said Sakura getting up.
"Wait," cried Tomoyo, "Please hear me out."
"Why? I just found you kissing my boyfriend," said Sakura.
"It wasn't that way," said Tomoyo, "He said my name and I thought he was about to ask me something so I turned towards him. Then he kissed me. I tried to pull away, but something stopped me."
"WHAT? WHAT WAS IT THAT STOPPED YOU? WAS IT THAT FOR YEARS ME, YOU AND SYAORAN WERE ALL FRIENDS AND YOU HAD THIS HUGE CRUSH ON HIM? AND WHEN THE CHANCE CAME UP FOR YOU TO KISS HIM, YOU JUST WENT FOR IT? IS THAT WHAT STOPPED YOU?" yelled Sakura.
"Sakura, please, don't yell at me," said Tomoyo, "It wasn't anything like that."
"Tomoyo, just leave. I can't talk to you. I found you kissing my boyfriend. It hurts and I can't trust you anymore. I just want to be alone, leave me alone," said Sakura.
"Sakura please, forgive me," said Tomoyo.
"No, I can't. I don't know if I ever can. I gotta go, bye," said Sakura.
"NOW YOU LISTEN HERE!" yelled Tomoyo.
Sakura was surprised. In all the years she had known Tomoyo, she had never heard her yell before. Not like that.
"I HAVE BEEN YOUR BESTFRIEND SINCE WE WERE LITTLE KIDS. I WAS THERE FOR YOU WHEN SYAORAN FIRST EXPRESSED HIS FEELINGS AND I WAS THERE WHEN HE LEFT. I WAS THERE WHEN FOR YOU WHEN YOU CRIED YOU HEART OUT BECAUSE IT HURT SO MUCH. I WAS THERE FOR YOU ALWAYS! AND NOW I GET KISSED BY YOUR BOYFRIEND. YOU HEAR THAT, I WAS THE ONE WHO GOT KISSED AND NOW I'M GOING TO LOSE THE ONLY GUY I HAVE EVER LOVED. SAKURA KINOMOTO, YOU ARE JUST PLAIN SELFISH," yelled Tomoyo. Then she ran off.
Sakura stood in shock.
"She's right," said Sakura.
=I've lost everything. I've lost my best friend, I've lost my boyfriend and I have no one left who understands= thought Sakura.
Sakura walked through the park and found a telephone booth. She dialled the number of a taxi company.
"Stanley Park, by the aquarium," said Sakura, "Thanks you, bye."
She sat on the curb of the road.
"Looks like you could use a friend," said a voice.
Sakura looked up. It was Sean.
"Your name, it's Sean right?" said Sakura.
"Yeah," he said sitting down beside her, "who ya waiting for?"
"I'm waiting for a cab," said Sakura.
"I see," he said putting a cigarette in his mouth as he looked for a lighter.
"You smoke?" said Sakura.
"Yeah," said Sean, "you don't mind, do you?"
"No, doesn't matter to me. Can I have a cigarette?" asked Sakura.
"You smoke?" he said.
"No," said Sakura.
"Then why do you want one?" asked Sean.
"Are you going to give me one or not?" asked Sakura.
"Yeah," said Sean giving her a cigarette.
"Thanks," said Sakura.
He put the lighter up this cigarette and then to Sakura's cigarette.
"So anyways, what are you doing out here alone?" asked Sean, "Being alone isn't the best thing to do."
"I see," she took a drag of the cigarette and coughed.
"Yeah, you should put that out," said Sean taking the cigarette.
"No," said Sakura taking it back.
"Smoking is hazardous for your health you know," said Sean.
"Then why are you doing it?" asked Sakura.
"Cause I'm an idiot that just doesn't care," said Sean.
"I don't care," said Sakura.
"You should," said Sean.
"You're a hypicrit," said Sakura.
"In what way?" asked Sean.
"You say don't do it and you do it. You don't care, but you tell me to," said Sakura.
"OH! That. I know," said Sean.
"Do you have a mint or something?" asked Sakura.
"Tastes awful doesn't it?" asked Sean.
"Yeah," said Sakura.
"Here you go," he said handing her a peppermint.
"Thanks," said Sakura putting out the cigarette.
"I didn't think you'd like it," said Sean, "being your first time smoking and all."
"How did you know it was my first time?" asked Sakura.
"I didn't, you just told me," said Sean.
"My cab is here. I gotta go," said Sakura.
"Do you have any money with you?" asked Sean.
Sakura thought for a moment, "No, I don't. Damn."
"If I can get a ride with you. I'll pay for it," he said throwing his cigarette to the ground.
"Sure, that would be fine," said Sakura, "you first."
Sean climbed into the taxi and then Sakura.
"So why is it that you were by yourself?" asked Sean.
"I'd rather not talk about it," said Sakura.
"That's fine," said Sean, "So how did you do on your singing?"
"I did okay I guess," said Sakura.
"That's good," said Sean.
"What about you?" asked Sakura.
"Here's hoping right?" said Sean.
"Good luck to you, and I hope things start to go better with you and Syaoran"
"Yeah, here's hoping"
"I want to go home," said Sakura.
"Already?" said Sean, "The competition has barely started."
"I don't want to sing. Singing is starting to depress me. Before all of this singing, I was unhappy but I was sorta happy at the same time. Now I'm just sad," said Sakura.
"I see," said Sean, "Life, it's sucks doesn't it?"
"Especially when your boyfriend kisses your best friend," said Sakura.
"Your best friend kissed your boyfriend?" said Sean.
"Yeah, there we go, that's why I was alone," said Sakura.
"That's gotta be kinda depressing," said Sean.
"Kinda? Not exactly the word I'd use," said Sakura.
"That's $14.70," said the taxi driver.
Sean paid the man and got out of the taxi.
"Thanks," said Sakura.
"No problem," said Sean.
"I'll see you later," said Sakura.
"Are you going to be okay?" asked Sean.
"Yeah, I think I'll be fine," said Sakura.
"Alright, you see you later then," said Sean walking away.
Sakura walked into the elevator. She had a huge headache from crying and her eyes were still red.
She got off on her floor and went to her room.
"Hi," said Mandy.
"Hi, is Kaleigh home?" asked Sakura.
"No she's out, but there's a guy in your room," said Mandy.
"A guy? Why?" asked Sakura.
"I don't know. He said he wanted to talk to you, so I let him in and he's waiting for you in your room," said Mandy, "Are you okay? Your eyes are all red."
"I'm fine," said Sakura rushing to her room.
=Syaoran, not now= thought Sakura.
Sakura opened the door expecting to find Syaoran in there. But it wasn't him. It was a different guy and he was sitting on her bed.
"Cody?" said Sakura.
"Hey," said Cody.
"What are you doing here?" asked Sakura.
"I came to visit. My uncle is rich and he lives out here as well so he paid for my ticket and I'm staying with him," said Cody.
"Did you come to see him or me?" asked Sakura, "Wait, sorry. That makes me sound like the world revolves around me."
"I came to see you," said Cody.
"Really?" said Sakura sitting beside him on the bed.
"Really," said Cody, "I know you don't like me romantically but still you're my friend and I---."
Then Sakura did something totally unexpected. She kissed him. Cody was very surprised at first but didn't pull away. Something just told him not too. Not this time.
"Sorry," said Sakura pulling away from the kiss.
"You don't need to be sorry," said Cody.
"Cody, I can't take it. My heart hurts so much right now," said Sakura starting to cry.
"Come here," said Cody hugging her, "It's alright, tell me all about it."
"Well," said Sakura, "For a start I started yelling at Syaoran even though I love him or loved him. Either one seems to fit. And then I lost consciousness and then he yelled at me and told me he hated me though when I yelled at him and when he yelled at me, we were being controlled by people and then I found him kissing my best friend and then I ran and ran and now I'm here," said Sakura.
"It's okay," said Cody.
"I want to go home," said Sakura, "to Japan."
"What about the contest? The beautiful songs you wrote?" asked Cody.
"It doesn't matter," said Sakura.
"Is that really what you believe?" asked Cody.
"No, but I just don't wanna be here anymore," said Sakura.
"Now, can you really even judge Syaoran when he kissed you best friend?" said Cody.
"What do you mean?" said Sakura.
"You kissed me just now and before you kissed me in the forest," said Cody, "you promised him that you'd wait for him because you loved him so much and I believe that you still do. So who are you to judge?"
"But this is different, back then we weren't going out. I just sorta neutral, waiting," said Sakura.
"But still, you did kiss another guy while you promised to wait for him. So you weren't supposed to kiss any other guy or be with any other guy but him," said Cody, "I'm not taking sides though it may sound like I am. It's just that I want you to be happy. I know that even though you just kissed me, you don't love me. You still love him and you'll only be happy with him."
"You're right," said Sakura, "Thanks"
"Anytime," said Cody, "Go talk to him. Listen to him. You know that he still loves you."
"I will," said Sakura wiping away her tears.
"Bye," said Cody.
"Bye," said Sakura.
Sakura walked out of the room and through the living room to the door.
"See you later," said Mandy who was still on the couch watching TV.
Sakura pressed the elevator button and waiting for it to come. Finally the doors opened and Kaleigh was there.
"Oh hey you, where are you going?" asked Kaleigh.
"To Syaoran. I need to talk to him and hope he forgives me," said Sakura.
"Excuse me? After what he did?" said Kaleigh.
"How do you know what he did?" asked Sakura suspiciously.
"I was there when it happened," said Kaleigh.
"Well maybe he was being controlled or something," said Sakura, "who knows, I have to go talk to him."
"Why would you want to?" asked Kaleigh.
"Are you trying to stall me?" asked Sakura.
"No, I'm trying to talk some sense into you," said Kaleigh.
"I have to go," said Sakura pushing past into the elevator, "Bye"
The elevator doors shut.
"Leave them alone," said a voice.
"Who are you?" asked Kaleigh turning around.
"Leave them alone," said the person.
"What's your name?" asked Kaleigh.
"Cody, just leave Sakura and Syaoran before," said Cody.
"Who said I was doing anything to them," said Kaleigh.
"The look in your eyes says it all," said Cody walking away. But as he did he whispered something in her ear as he walked past, "that and I know what you really are. A witch."
Kaleigh turned around. No one was there.
"I have to stop her. I have to do something," said Kaleigh.
"Leave them alone," said Kaleigh.
"Hey who are you?" said Kaleigh turning around to see Sean standing there.
"It's me Sean. Did you forgot what I looked like already?" said Sean.
"I thought you were someone else," said Kaleigh.
"Just leave them alone for now," said Sean, "they've been through enough hell. Don't you think they deserve a break?"
"Of course, but you don't undestand," said Kaleigh.
"No, you don't understand. You can mess with people's lives, but you have to give them a break sometimes," said Sean.
"No, you really don't understand," said Kaleigh.
"Then enlighten me," said Sean.
"Love to but can't, but this time, just for you, I'll give in. I'll leave them alone, but if anything happens, it's your fault," said Kaleigh.
"Agreed," said Sean.
Syaoran was in his bathroom brushing his teeth.
=Sakura will never forgive me and it wasn't even my fault= thought Syaoran looking in the mirror.
*KNOCK KNOCK*
=Who could that be?= thought Syaoran.
He opened he door and there was Sakura. She was completely soaked, her make-up running down her face and her eyes reddened from tears.
"Sakura?" said Syaoran, "What are you doing here?"
"I came to apologize," said Sakura.
"Apologize?" said Syaoran.
"About today, the way I reacted. I didn't even think," said Sakura.
"It's alright," said Syaoran, "Please come in, your soaked."
Syaoran turned on the fireplace and Sakura sat down in front of it.
"Would you like some tea?" asked Syaoran.
"Yes please, that would be nice," said Sakura.
Syaoran made went to his cabinet and go the teapot down and the kettle from underneath.
"Will you forgive me?" asked Syaoran.
"Yes," said Sakura.
"Really?" said Syaoran leaving the tea on the counter and walking over to her.
"Yeah," said Sakura, her eyes starting to tear, "I'm so sorry for the way I acted. I love you so much."
"I love you too and I should be the one asking for forgiveness. How you acted was the way most people would react to something like that," said Syaoran sitting beside her.
"Hold me please," said Sakura.
"Forgive me," said Syaoran.
"I forgive you," said Sakura, "just please, never leave me. I was upset and I couldn't control the pain."
"It's alright. I'll never leave you. I'm just glad you can forgive me after I kissed your best friend," said Syaoran.
"Why did you do that?" asked Sakura.
"I had no control over it. It was just like a sudden urge. Like when I'm about to yell at you. I get this urge to and I try to fight it, but it's no use," said Syaoran.
"And how do you explain Tomoyo's reaction? Why she kept kissing you and didn't try to pull away," said Sakura.
"I don't think she could," said Syaoran, "just like I couldn't stop kissing her."
"I don't think I'll ever be able to find closure in this," said Sakura, "I forgive you and I forgive Tomoyo, but I don't know if their can be us."
"Please Sakura, don't say that," said Syaoran.
"I can't take this. The fighting, the arguing, the kissing of my best friend is just too much. I want to be with you, but the cost right now, is just too high," said Sakura.
"We can work through this. You know love conquers all," said Syaoran.
"A lot of people thought that and look where they ended up," said Sakura.
"Like who?" asked Syaoran.
"Romeo and Juliet. Both ended up dying tragically," said Sakura.
"Yeah, but that's just one case," said Syaoran.
"It's too hard," said Sakura.
"No one said life was supposed to be easy. That's what it makes it all so rewarding in the end. How far you've come and how hard you worked for it," said Syaoran.
"No one should have to work this hard," said Sakura, "and most people don't."
"I agree, but we're not most people. We're different," said Syaoran.
"I know, but still," said Sakura.
"Just, give us another chance. We'll get to the bottom of all this and we will be together, forever," said Syaoran.
"I hope your right," said Sakura, "But what would happen if things got so bad that something bad happened and you lost me or I lost you."
Syaoran turned away.
"I'm sorry Syaoran. That was a stupid thing to say," said Sakura.
"No, it's not that," said Syaoran.
"Syaoran? Are you crying?" asked Sakura.
Sakura in all the years she had known Syaoran, had never seen him cry. Even when he was hurt in battle.
"Yeah," said Syaoran, "I don't know what I'd do if I really lost you. I love you."
"I love you too," said Sakura.
"I've almost lost you so many times," said Syaoran, "I'm so stupid."
"It's alright," said Sakura.
Syaoran wiped the tears forming in his eyes away.
"No matter what happens, I will always love you Syaoran," said Sakura.
"And I will always love you too Sakura," said Syaoran.
"I have to go now," said Sakura.
"Why?" asked Syaoran.
"Tomoyo," said Sakura.
"Okay," said Syaoran, "I should talk to Eriol."
"That may not be such a good idea," said Sakura.
"Why not?" asked Syaoran.
"You kissed Tomoyo," said Sakura cringing.
"I have to try," said Syaoran.
"Just be careful," said Sakura.
"I will be," said Syaoran.
"I'll be back soon," said Sakura.
"Alright," said Syaoran.
"Bye," said Sakura closing the door.
Sakura went to the stairs exit and opened up the fire escape on the top. She walked around to see if anyone was around or for nearby helicopters. There were none so she used her key.
"Key that holds the power of darkness, reveal your true form to me! I, Sakura order you under our contract. Release!" said Sakura and the key turned to a wand.
"Fly!" said Sakura and wings appeared on her back.
She flew high over Vancouver over to West Vancouver. She landed the Tomoyo's doorstep on the wings disappeared and the wand changed back to the key. She knocked on Tomoyo's door.
"Hello," said Sakura as the butler opened the door.
"Yes miss?" said the butler.
"Can I speak to Tomoyo?" asked Sakura.
"Miss Daidouji is not here," said the butler.
"Could you please tell me where she is?" asked Sakura.
"She went to Lions gate bridge," said the butler.
"What for?" asked Sakura.
"I'm not sure," said the butler, "Go look for her there."
"Thank you," said Sakura.
Sakura got out her wand again and used the fly card after making sure no one was around. As she flew closer to the bridge she used the time card to freeze time. She looked for Tomoyo and saw a blurry image of someone. She flew down to the image and it was Tomoyo. She was standing on the edge of the bridge. She looked like she was going to jump. Sakura used the 'return card'. She went back in time about five minutes and watched.
Tomoyo was just standing looking over the water.
"What is the point in living?" said Tomoyo, "Eriol won't even look at me and Sakura will never forgive me. I should just die. Who would miss me? Not Sakura, not Eriol. Maybe Syaoran. But he's the reason that things are the way they are."
Tomoyo climbed up on the bridge ledge.
Author's Note: BIG CLIFFHANGER. I'll try to get up the next chapter soon. I had to end it somewhere. That's my problem. Ending the chapters. Anyways, enjoy ~
Kawaii Sakura-chan