A fan fic/song fic by Kawaii Sakura-chan
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Chapter Twelve
"Tomoyo, wait please!" yelled Sakura, "You can't."
"What?" said Tomoyo losing her balance slightly.
"I'm sorry for what I said, please, don't kill yourself!" yelled Sakura crying and yelling at the same time.
"Why should I? If I jump I can get away from it all. I don't need this," cried Tomoyo.
"I was wrong. What I said was wrong. What you said, now that was right," cried Sakura, "I'm selfish and I didn't realize the effect this had on you. This didn't just affect me. It affected you, Eriol and me. Just people, don't jump. You are my best friend and if I lost you, I'd be devastated and I'd jump after you even if it meant I would die too."
"Really?" said Tomoyo crying.
"Yes, please, just come off of the ledge," said Sakura.
"How can I trust you?" said Tomoyo.
"Trust is like a taking a leap. You just have to jump and know that you'll make it. So you'll just have to leap off there and you'll know," said Sakura.
"So is jumping off the bride, I'll have to trust that I go back to better place," said Tomoyo.
"Please, I help you get Eriol back. When he thinks about it, he'll come to his senses. He's very wise, and he'll realize that magic was involved," said Sakura.
"But what if he doesn't," said Tomoyo.
"Then he's not for you. If he can't forgive you then it wasn't meant to be," said Sakura.
"I don't think I could bear it if he didn't forgive me," said Tomoyo.
"You could do it. I know you. You are the strongest person I know. I know Eriol will forgive you because he loves you," said Sakura.
"How do you know?" asked Tomoyo.
"I just do, please come down," said Sakura.
"What if this happens again? What if the same thing happens all over again? What's going to happen is there's a next time?" asked Tomoyo.
"I'll be understanding. I'll use my brain. I won't go off like that, I promise," said Sakura.
"You promise?" said Tomoyo.
"I promise. You will always have your friends and your family. Just please forgive me. Eriol may be mad now, but he loves you and he'd be devastated if you left. Just remember all you have to live for," said Sakura.
"I know. I'll come down," said Tomoyo.
Sakura held out her hand for Tomoyo to grab. But as she grabbed for her hand he left foot slipped.
"Tomoyo!" yelled Sakura grabbing for her other hand.
"Sakura!" cried and yelled Tomoyo as she held on to Sakura's hand for dear life.
"It's alright. Just hold grab for my other hand," said Sakura.
"I can't reach it," said Tomoyo, "My hand it's slipping."
"Just sorta swing. I'll swing you and you grab my other hand," said Sakura.
"Alright," said Tomoyo.
Sakura swung her and felt Tomoyo's other hand slipping away from hers. Finally Sakura got hold of her other hand. But her hand was sweaty from being scared so it was hard to get a grip. Sakura pulled with all her might.
"Somebody help!" yelled Sakura at the top of her head as she pulled Tomoyo up with all her strength and looked frantically on both sides. Nobody was around.
Then Sakura felt somebody beside her who grabbed Tomoyo's arm and grabbed Tomoyo's other arm and pulled her up easily.
"Hey thanks a lot," said Sakura sitting down on the sidewalk beside her friend and talking to the person she turned and looked, "What are you doing here Cody? How?"
"I was walking and I heard you yell," said Cody.
"Thanks, Cody, you being here, that was a miracle," said Sakura, "I looked but no one was in sight."
"You must have just not seen me," said Cody, "You know while you were panicking and everything."
"Yeah that must be it," said Sakura.
"Thank you Cody," said Tomoyo. She was crying and shivering and just shaking all over because she had been so scared.
"You're like my guardian angel. You're always there when I really need you," said Sakura.
"Yeah I am, aren't I?" said Cody smiling.
"You're pretty strong, it didn't take much for you to pull Tomoyo up," said Sakura.
"She was in danger so I just you know, tried my hardest," said Cody.
"Thank you so much," said Tomoyo.
"Your welcome," said Cody, "Do you want me to call a cab?"
"I can do that," said Sakura, "I'll see you tomorrow maybe."
"Alright, bye!" said Cody walking away.
"I have to talk to Eriol," said Tomoyo.
"Alright, we'll go back to your place and then we'll try to contact him from there. He might even be there," said Sakura.
"Sakura," said Tomoyo.
"Yes?" said Sakura.
"Thanks," said Tomoyo.
"What for?" asked Sakura.
"For saving me back there. If you hadn't convinced me not to jump, I would be gone right now," said Tomoyo starting to cry.
"It was nothing. I would just be so sad and you know sad doesn't even express what I would feel if I didn't have you in my life. You've always been my best friend and you've been there for me and I had to be there for you," said Sakura, "Please don't cry."
"I can't help it," said Tomoyo, "I just feel so bad that I thought everything was so bad that I would have jumped. And I'm just so glad you talking to me again after what happened."
"That wasn't your fault and I'm sorry I said those things to you. I was sad and angry and looking for someone to blame," said Sakura, "It was all my fault."
"I just wish we could go back in time to when we were younger. Before Syaoran left you when we were all so happy. Back when you were changing the cards to Sakura cards," said Tomoyo, "We're were all so happy and content. Now we're teenagers and all the evils of the world we thought were over come back and we have to deal with it all over again."
"I know," said Sakura, "Let's just go back to yourself. Eriol still has those spells over the house, so we'll be fine there. Let's just go across the bridge and we can use my magic without being seen."
"Good idea," said Tomoyo.
So the two walked down to the end of the bridge to the Vancouver side where they entered Stanley Park. They went into the forest a bit and Sakura used her key,
"Key that holds the power of darkness, reveal your true form to me! I, Sakura order you under our contract. Release!" said Sakura.
"Fly Card," said Sakura, "Give me and Tomoyo wings."
Two sets of wings appear. One went to Sakura and another to Tomoyo.
The two flew high above the city from Vancouver across North Vancouver to West Vancouver and high into the British Properties.
"Home at last," said Tomoyo as the wings disappeared.
"Great," said Sakura as her wings also disappeared
Tomoyo opened the door.
"Miss Daidouji welcome home," said the butler.
"Is Eriol home?" asked Tomoyo.
"Yes he is, but I don't think you want to disturb him right now," said the butler.
"Why ever not?" asked Tomoyo.
"He is talking with Mr. Li at the moment," said the butler.
"Oh no," said Tomoyo.
Time for a little backtracking to when Syaoran showed up at Tomoyo's Residence
"Hi, is Eriol here?" asked Syaoran as the butler answered the door.
"Yes Mr. Hiiragizawa is home but I don't think he wants visitors at this time," said the butler.
"This can't wait, I'm sorry," said Syaoran pushing past.
"You can't just barge in here sir," said the butler.
"I have to talk to him, like I said, sorry," said Syaoran walking through the house.
"He's in the study Mr uh," said the butler trying to think of his name.
"Li, Syaoran Li," said Syaoran.
"If anything happens in there I will call the police Mr. Li," said the butler.
"Nothing will happen, I'm just going to talk to him," said Syaoran entering the study.
He looked around the room. He saw a chair by the fire.
"Eriol are you there?" said Syaoran.
"Go away," said Eriol.
"We have to talk," said Syaoran.
"No we don't," said Eriol.
"Please," said Syaoran going around the side of the chair so he could look at Eriol.
*PUNCH* Eriol punched him in the stomach.
Syaoran went flying across the room and hit the wall hard.
"Where did you *gasp* learn to *gasp* throw a punch like that?" said Syaoran groaning and gasping
"Just a bit of magic from the 'fight card'," said Eriol moving towards him.
=I can't move= thought Syaoran.
"Good, I can hit you and I won't have to worry about you moving," said Eriol.
Syaoran tried to move but he couldn't, "It wasn't my fault."
"Why should I believe you," said Eriol bringing his fist up to punch him again.
Syaoran winced waiting for the punch, but just as Eriol threw the punch a very clear figure of a girl appeared in front of them and took Eriol's punch and then disappeared.
Syaoran looked around the room for the figure.
=What? That wasn't just, no way, that couldn't have been her= thought Syaoran.
"Oww, my hand," said Eriol painfully.
"Crazy," said Syaoran.
"Throwing out insults Li?" said Eriol.
"No, you just punched something, it wasn't me and it looked like a girl," said Syaoran, "Now you listen to me. It wasn't my fault that I kissed Tomoyo. It was magic, I swear, I don't like Tomoyo in that way. I love Sakura."
"Why should I believe that?" asked Eriol still holding his hand.
"Because it's the truth. I know it and deep inside you know it, you just want someone to blame," said Syaoran.
"How could you?" said Eriol, "How could you kiss her?"
"I don't know. Eriol, I couldn't not kiss her, I just had this overwhelming feeling just to take her and kiss her and telling you this isn't helping," said Syaoran.
"Ya think?" said Eriol.
"It was just like someone was battling in my head and forcing me. I couldn't fight it," said Syaoran.
"Why didn't you try harder?" said Eriol, "you could have beat it. You did last time."
"I passed out last time I tried that and still I yelled at Sakura. I just gave into it," said Syaoran, "I'm sorry. I try to be strong and I try to be brave but when it's just you and me talking, I know I can tell you this. I am scared. I'm a Li, a descendent of Clow Reed. I'm supposed to not be afraid of death, but I am. Sakura could have died a few times now. She tries her hardest to fight it and her body shuts down. Every time, the time she spends unconscious gets greater. I can't do that. I can't spend time unconscious. I need to be conscious to help Sakura and it seems that no matter what I do I'm in a lose-lose situation. I lose no matter what. I don't fight it, I hurt Sakura. I fight it, I lose consciousness I can't be there to protect her and still she gets hurt."
"That's life. Besides what does it matter that you're a descendent of Clow Reed, I'm Clow Reed reincarnated," said Eriol.
"Are you trying to start a fight?" said Syaoran.
"Listen Syaoran, I'm sorry I punched you and I'm sorry for everything, but I just wish you would leave. Talking to you in really uncomfortable. After all, you kissed Tomoyo and I just need sometime alone. I don't hold anything against you, but just please give me some space," said Eriol.
"That sounds good to me, friends?" said Syaoran holding out his hand.
Eriol bent over and was about to shake Syaoran's hand when Tomoyo ran in.
"Tomoyo?" said Eriol.
"Please don't hurt Syaoran, it wasn't his fault," said Tomoyo.
"You're a little too late," said Syaoran who was still on the ground against the wall.
"Syaoran!" yelled Sakura rushing over to him, "Are you okay?"
"I'll be fine," said Syaoran.
"Why did you punch him?" Tomoyo asked Eriol.
"Does it matter?" said Eriol.
"I think it does," said Tomoyo.
"Would you rather be with him than me?" asked Eriol.
"What kind of question is that?" asked Tomoyo.
"Are you going to answer my question?" asked Eriol.
"Do you think I'm going to answer such a dumb question?" asked Tomoyo.
"Why won't you give me a straight answer?" asked Eriol.
"Do you think you deserve one?" asked Tomoyo.
"Oh no she's doing it again," said Sakura softly to herself and partially to Syaoran
"Doing what?" asked Syaoran.
"When Tomoyo is mad at Eriol, she won't give him a straight answer and vice versa. So it's like they're playing a game of questions, like on 'Whose line is it anyways?'," said Sakura.
"When does it end?" asked Syaoran.
"When one of them can't think of a question or just gives in," said Sakura.
"Oh no," said Syaoran.
"My sentiments exactly," said Sakura.
"Could you just stop this?" asked Eriol.
"What should I stop?" said Tomoyo.
"Don't you think this has gone on long enough?" asked Eriol.
"Do you think you'll ever see an end?" asked Tomoyo.
"Will you ever let this go?" asked Eriol.
"What is there to let go?" asked Tomoyo.
"Tomoyo, this is ridiculous," said Eriol giving up, "I'm sorry, I wasn't very understanding and I didn't think and just please, no more questions!"
"Do you promise to think before you judge a situation?" asked Tomoyo.
"Do you promise not to kiss one of my best friends?" asked Eriol.
=Oh I hope they don't start it up again= thought Syaoran and Sakura.
"Yes," said Eriol and Tomoyo at the same time.
"Thank you!" said Sakura.
"Huh?" said both Tomoyo and Eriol.
"Uh, sorry," said Sakura.
Tomoyo and Eriol hugged.
"Eriol?" said Syaoran.
"Yeah?" said Eriol.
"Friends?" said Syaoran standing up with the help of Sakura and holding out his hand.
"Yeah, friends," said Eriol shaking his hand.
"Well we should be going back to the hotel now," said Syaoran.
"No," said Eriol.
"Huh? Why not?" asked Syaoran.
"You stay here, and Sakura too. This whole situation could have been extremely detrimental to our friendships and it happened because of the evils out there. Inside this house my spells can protect all of us," said Eriol.
"Thanks Eriol," said Syaoran.
"No problem," said Eriol, "Just you know, you know."
"Yeah, I know," said Syaoran.
"Goodnight," said Sakura.
"Going to bed?" asked Syaoran.
"Yeah, this day has been tiring," said Sakura.
*KNOCK KNOCK*
"Who could that be?" said Tomoyo going to the door.
Sakura went with her and at the door was Cody.
"Cody? What are you doing here?" said Sakura.
"I just wanted to make sure both you and Tomoyo were alright," said Cody.
"Who is this guy?" asked Syaoran with jealous in his voice.
"He's a friend of mine from Japan," said Sakura.
"What is he doing here in Canada?" asked Syaoran.
"Visiting an uncle. What's wrong?" asked Sakura.
"Nothing," said Syaoran.
"So, it looks like you both are okay, just both of you stay away from bridges please," said Cody.
"I'll stay away from them for as long as I live," said Tomoyo smiling.
"Alright, see you guys later," said Cody walking away.
"Bye!" said Sakura and Tomoyo as they closed the door and turned around to see jealous looks on their boyfriend's faces.
"Syaoran? Are you sick?" asked Sakura.
"Why would you ask that?" said Syaoran trying to keep his anger inside.
"You're awfully red. Do you have a fever?" asked Sakura.
"No, I'm fine," said Syaoran.
"You should go lie down. You too Eriol, your face is pretty red too," said Sakura.
"I'm fine Sakura," said Syaoran, "Really, you just go up to bed.
"Are you sure?" asked Sakura.
"Seriously, I'm fine, just go get some sleep, you'll need it for tomorrow's competition," said Syaoran.
"Love you," said Sakura.
"Love you too," said Syaoran kissing her gently on the lips.
"Night everyone," said Sakura going up the stairs.
"Goodnight Sakura," said Tomoyo.
"Night Sakura," said Eriol.
=Still just as clueless= thought Syaoran sighing.
"I think I had better go to bed as well," said Syaoran yawning.
"Night Syaoran," said Eriol.
"Night Eriol, Night Tomoyo," said Syaoran.
"Night Syaoran," said Tomoyo.
Syaoran went up the stairs. Sakura's door was opened. He looked inside. Sakura was still awake with a pen and paper in her hand as she paced the room looking deep in thought.
=She's so cute= thought Syaoran going into his room next door.
"Hmm…What should come next?" said Sakura to herself.
Sakura was in the middle of writing her second song that night. Two ideas had popped in her head for songs so she was busily writing.
This is what her first song was.
"Cry"
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...
In places no one would find
all your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
that forever was in your eyes
the moment I saw you cry
"So what do I do about this song?" though Sakura looking over her new song. She had a chorus and the first verse. It went like this:
Don't close your eyes
They may not open
What if they open
Would you be alive
Everyone falls
But not everyone rises
Why don't you get up
And rise again for me
chorus:
What if the world were
A little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
Would you take the leap
What if the world
Were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
And blink again for me
The first verse was partially about when she was in the hospital unconscious. The second part of the first verse was about when she broke down after seeing Syaoran and Tomoyo. Then there was the verse. The verse had to do with everything in her life. She wished the world were more perfect and wondered what it would be like. Would there still be people crying? Would people take chances?
"But what comes next?" Sakura asked herself.
Then she thought about what had happened with Tomoyo that day. Tomoyo had wanted to end it all. Sakura had to make Tomoyo realize all that she had to live for. Friends, family and Eriol's love for her. She put her pen back on the paper and within minutes she had a second verse. It went like this:
What about friendship
What about friends
You said the whole world
Was against you
And it all had to end
What about love
What about family
What about all that
You have to live for
"Yes!" said Sakura, "Then I'll have the chorus again. But it needs something else. Just one more bit of song."
Sakura looked back over her life, back to other experiences in her life. One was when Syaoran had left her. What was she feeling? The thoughts going through her head. She came up with:
It isn't easy here without you
Why did you leave me
What am I supposed to do
Without you
"There, the chorus just two more times and we should be good," said Sakura to herself.
Her finished song looked like this:
Don't close your eyes
They may not open
What if they open
Would you be alive
Everyone falls
But not everyone rises
Why don't you get up
And rise again for me
chorus:
What if the world were
A little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
Would you take the leap
What if the world
Were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
And blink again for me
What about friendship
What about friends
You said the whole world
Was against you
And it all had to end
What about love
What about family
What about all that
You have to live for
chorus:
What if the world were
A little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
Would you take the leap
What if the world
Were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
And blink again for me
It isn't easy here without you
Why did you leave me
What am I supposed to do
Without you
chorus x2:
What if the world were
A little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
Would you take the leap
What if the world
Were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
And blink again for me
For me
And blink for me
"This song is Perfect," said Sakura, "So I'll call it just that."
Sakura put her pen and paper away in the desk Tomoyo had provided for her in her room. She laid down on the bed turned off the light and went to sleep.
Meanwhile Syaoran was in his room writing his own assortment of songs. He was in no mood at all at the moment and just felt like writing a song for the heck of it. Nothing that tied with how he was feeling. He put his pen to the paper and within 20 minutes came out with the song 'Rain
"This really doesn't have much to how I'm feeling. Though I agree I am better cast as the fool," said Syaoran, "and it does fit the melody I have in my head perfectly."
I wonder how I get along
I wonder where I might belong
Loosin your way is easy to do
Wandering around without a clue
If there's a way I don't where
If there's a why I'm standin here
Loosin my mind is easy to do
Where are you?
And the rain
Falls down
It's the only way it gets better
When the rain is fallin down
Telling me that I'm gonna make it through
I never thought of what it cost
All of the time I might have lost
So much to gain
Playing it cool
I'm better cast playing the fool
And the rain
Falls down
It's the only way it gets better
When the rain is fallin down
Telling me that I'm gonna make it through
I know I will
But when will I
Stand up to myself make up my mind
I might not have what I had before
But I still got the rain
And the rain
Falls down
It's the only way it gets better
If the rain would fall down
Then I know I could make it through the night
And the rain
Falls down
It's the only way it gets better
When the rain is falling down
Telling me that I'm gonna make it through
Oh yeah
It's the only way
Let it rain
Let it rain down on me
Let it rain
It's the only way
"I feel like writing another one. But what about?" Syaoran asked himself. For a while he just sat down on his bed thinking of a melody. Then he found one. He wanted to write a song for Sakura. Something he might have sang for might have written and given to her when he was away fighting. A song he felt he should have wrote for her so she would know he still cared for her. He thought about all the feelings he had when was training and after 30 minutes of writing and scratching out and rewriting he had the song all planned out. It was called 'Still'
Funny when you stop and think
times goes faster then you blink
nothings ever like it was
but girl we've got a special thing
all the happiness it brings
is more than enough
I know its hard to believe
your still the biggest part of me
all I'm living for
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
all I ever wanted was you
your still the one [2x]
It's hard to breathe when were apart
your like sunshine in my heart
I keep you here inside
you've been everything to me
you've been and always will be
the apple of my eye
And I know its hard to believe
your still the biggest part of me
all I'm living for
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
and need you by my side
I still mad about you
all I ever wanted was you
your still the one [2x]
If you love me
look into my eyes and say you do
I've been waiting all my life
for someone just like you
baby all that we've been through
girl I'm still in love with you
and I want you to know I do, I do
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
all I ever wanted was you
your still the one [2x]
"Perfect," said Syaoran.
Syaoran took his book and put it back in his drawer beside his night table like he had done in China.
"Sweet Dreams Syaoran," said a voice.
"Huh?" said Syaoran looking around. He didn't see anything or anybody else in the room.
=Strange. I thought I heard her voice= thought Syaoran.
In the silent of the night two people other than Kaleigh and Sean were watching over Syaoran and Sakura.
Author's Note: Finally finished the chapter. I hope you liked it. I hope any questions that you had about Ch. 11 were answered in this chapter. Anyways there were four new songs in here. Cry, by Mandy Moore, Still by Bryan McKnight, Rain by Joey McIntyre and Perfect by Maren Ord that is my all time favourite song at this time and it fits everything that happened in my story soooo Perfectly! Anyways all the songs are a must for downloading. I hope you enjoyed my chapter.
Kawaii Sakura-chan