Chapter 5
When you are near me, I'm free,
I'm careless I believe.
MY SACRIFICE - CREED
*She looks so pretty. I wish I could tell her that.* I didn't realise I was staring at her until it was too late. She looked over at me and, thankfully, she smiled but got up. *And now she's going to leave. You could've looked away but noooooo, you had to stare.* "Wanna dance?" she asked. *Ok so maybe she isn't leaving.* I nodded and let her pull me onto the dance floor. We danced for what seemed like hours before Sam said she needed a rest. As she said that, I heard Linkin Park's 'In The End' come on and I kept hold of her hand. "Not yet," I said, "Just one more song." "Okay, just one more," she agreed, "I love this song." I pulled her closer to me, "So do I." My heart skipped a beat when I felt her move closer in to me, of her own accord, might I add. I looked down at her and saw her smiling to herself. "What are you smiling about?" "Just thinking about something," she replied. I looked at her again, a little more closely this time. *She's even more beautiful close up!* I noticed the way her eyes sparkled all the time and the way dimples showed when she smiled a certain away. "What?" she asked. "Huh?" I said, confused. "Why are you looking at me like that?" "I was just thinking how pretty you are." I could see her blushing and she looked at the floor. "Do you mind me saying that?" I asked. She looked kinda shy as she shook her head, "No," she whispered. *Kiss her fool!* What if she doesn't want me to? *Oh well, here goes nothing.* "Do you mind me doing this?" I asked, then I kissed her lightly. She shook her head and looked up at me. I kissed her again and I felt so relieved when she kissed me back, deepening the kiss. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We were in the games room of the bar, playing a doubles match on the pool table, although I wasn't really paying very much attention. Samantha was trying to talk to me but there was a little voice inside of me saying *She's just being polite, she isn't really interested.* And I, stupidly, listened to it. I kept quiet and didn't talk for the rest of the night. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It was early in the morning, around 1:30am and I couldn't sleep so I was out on the balcony, looking at the sky. I noticed Sam come out but I don't think she noticed me 'cause she just stood and stared into space. "It's so peaceful at night," I said after a while. Without looking round, she replied, "Yeah, calm and quiet." "Sam are you annoyed at me?" *Duh, you did blank her all night! Fool.* "A little, yeah," she replied. "I'm sorry," I apologized. "Do you know what you're saying sorry for?" she asked. Thankfully, I did know what I was sorry for. "For being stand offish with you earlier. I didn't mean to." She leaned on the bar between our balconies. "You don't have to put up a wall between us, Jeff. If you don't like me just say so, I can live with it." *How could she think that I don't like her?!* "No, don't think that, I do like you," I said and I moved over to stand in front of her, "I was afraid of the rejection," I admitted. "Rejection?" "Yeah, from you." "Me?" she asked, "You thought I was gonna reject you?" I looked at her and nodded. "Don't be daft!" she exclaimed, "I told you already, I like you." "Well I like you too," I replied shyly, ducking my head. "Really?" *Well, duh!* "Yeah and I was just wonderin' maybe you'd wanna be my girlfriend?" *Uh-oh, you shouldn't have asked that!* I thought as I prepared to be knocked back. She smiled up at me and said, "I'd love to." *Oh God, she said yes!* I leaned down and kissed her lips. She kissed me back then moved away. "I should get some sleep," she said. I nodded and we kissed again. "Sweet dreams," she whispered. "You too," I replied, "Goodnight." "Night." She went into hers and Amy's room and I went into mine and Matt's. I could still taste her lip balm as I fell asleep.
*She looks so pretty. I wish I could tell her that.* I didn't realise I was staring at her until it was too late. She looked over at me and, thankfully, she smiled but got up. *And now she's going to leave. You could've looked away but noooooo, you had to stare.* "Wanna dance?" she asked. *Ok so maybe she isn't leaving.* I nodded and let her pull me onto the dance floor. We danced for what seemed like hours before Sam said she needed a rest. As she said that, I heard Linkin Park's 'In The End' come on and I kept hold of her hand. "Not yet," I said, "Just one more song." "Okay, just one more," she agreed, "I love this song." I pulled her closer to me, "So do I." My heart skipped a beat when I felt her move closer in to me, of her own accord, might I add. I looked down at her and saw her smiling to herself. "What are you smiling about?" "Just thinking about something," she replied. I looked at her again, a little more closely this time. *She's even more beautiful close up!* I noticed the way her eyes sparkled all the time and the way dimples showed when she smiled a certain away. "What?" she asked. "Huh?" I said, confused. "Why are you looking at me like that?" "I was just thinking how pretty you are." I could see her blushing and she looked at the floor. "Do you mind me saying that?" I asked. She looked kinda shy as she shook her head, "No," she whispered. *Kiss her fool!* What if she doesn't want me to? *Oh well, here goes nothing.* "Do you mind me doing this?" I asked, then I kissed her lightly. She shook her head and looked up at me. I kissed her again and I felt so relieved when she kissed me back, deepening the kiss. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We were in the games room of the bar, playing a doubles match on the pool table, although I wasn't really paying very much attention. Samantha was trying to talk to me but there was a little voice inside of me saying *She's just being polite, she isn't really interested.* And I, stupidly, listened to it. I kept quiet and didn't talk for the rest of the night. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It was early in the morning, around 1:30am and I couldn't sleep so I was out on the balcony, looking at the sky. I noticed Sam come out but I don't think she noticed me 'cause she just stood and stared into space. "It's so peaceful at night," I said after a while. Without looking round, she replied, "Yeah, calm and quiet." "Sam are you annoyed at me?" *Duh, you did blank her all night! Fool.* "A little, yeah," she replied. "I'm sorry," I apologized. "Do you know what you're saying sorry for?" she asked. Thankfully, I did know what I was sorry for. "For being stand offish with you earlier. I didn't mean to." She leaned on the bar between our balconies. "You don't have to put up a wall between us, Jeff. If you don't like me just say so, I can live with it." *How could she think that I don't like her?!* "No, don't think that, I do like you," I said and I moved over to stand in front of her, "I was afraid of the rejection," I admitted. "Rejection?" "Yeah, from you." "Me?" she asked, "You thought I was gonna reject you?" I looked at her and nodded. "Don't be daft!" she exclaimed, "I told you already, I like you." "Well I like you too," I replied shyly, ducking my head. "Really?" *Well, duh!* "Yeah and I was just wonderin' maybe you'd wanna be my girlfriend?" *Uh-oh, you shouldn't have asked that!* I thought as I prepared to be knocked back. She smiled up at me and said, "I'd love to." *Oh God, she said yes!* I leaned down and kissed her lips. She kissed me back then moved away. "I should get some sleep," she said. I nodded and we kissed again. "Sweet dreams," she whispered. "You too," I replied, "Goodnight." "Night." She went into hers and Amy's room and I went into mine and Matt's. I could still taste her lip balm as I fell asleep.