Chapter five of my first fanfiction. Spoilers for Peach Girl volume 12!
About names. Kairi is 'Kiley' 's original name in the Japanese tanks. Ryo is Kairi's older (nearly identical) brother. Aki Misao (last name Aki, first name Misao) is Kairi and Momo's school nurse, who has been a character since the earliest chapters (yes, the slightly 'plump' school nurse Kairi's always hanging around...I'm NOT making his feelings for her up ^^).
Dialogue broken off with *** indicates flashbacks. Quotes surrounded by - indicate first-person thoughts.
Sorry this chapter took MONTHS to come out. I don't know if anyone even remembers this fic by now! Well, I'm really not happy with this fic, and I just couldn't seem to write any more of it..I didn't quite know where to take it. But, I just suddenly felt in the mood to continue, so I tried to do what I could.
-Parakiss
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Circle of Trust Chapter 5: To Let You Down
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"Oomf!" Another painful grunt, and Kairi was on his knees, arms clutching at his stomach.
Touji stood over him, fists still clenched. "Get up."
Kairi whinced, trying to catch his breath. He staggered to his feet, wishing there were something, anything nearby for him in the street for him to lean on for assistance.
Touji's eyes narrowed as the boy before him slowly rose, a trickle of blood escaping from the corner of his mouth.
-He doesn't resist..-
The fact made him even more furious.
-He doesn't fight back...like he feels so guilty he knows he deserves it-
"Don't you have ANYTHING to say, you bastard?!" Another punch landed on Kairi's right cheek, and for the third time he reeled back.
-He knows he deserves this..but does he honestly think this is a suitable enough punishment for making Momo cry like that?!-
Kairi grimaced from the ground, holding a hand up to his nose as it bled. "Toji, enough, I.."
Toji glared at him, slamming his fist into the wall above Kairi's head. "No, Okayasu, it's NOT enough. What the hell are you doing? Just what are you DOING to Momo?"
Kairi froze, and took his hand from his nose, raising his gaze upwards and silently chuckling. Of course Touji would know by now, of course..
Toji took a step forward, threateningly, and Kairi blanched, holding his hands up.
But he had nothing to say.
"You don't understand." he offered weakly.
Toji positively growled at him. "I don't have to understand shit, Okayasu. I don't know you're doing, but I don't need to know. All I need to know is that right now, you're destroying Momo."
Kairi let out a slight chuckle, trying not to let the pain show on his face. Then he paused, and realized with everything going on right now, it didn't matter if he kept up a tough appearance in front of another guy. Toji didn't give a shit. He didn't give a shit.
"Toji, you know how I feel about Momo..."
"The hell I do. I thought you loved her, but if this is how you treat someone you love, you're fucking pathetic!"
Kairi stood up yet again, his mind too blank to process that he might be better off just *staying* on the ground this time. "It is pathetic. I'm pathetic. We're pathetic. Life, love, it's all pathetic." He laughed, or tried to...doubled-over still trying to adjust to the pain, it came out more like a wheezing cough which made him sound old beyond his years.
Toji stared at the sad excuse of a man before him. His babbling didn't make sense anymore..it only added to Toji's frustration. "It's not right, Okayasu. It's just not RIGHT to act like you're some sort of hero for loving Momo when all you do is hurt her even more than Sae did."
"Yeah, well that makes two of us."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"
"It means to come off your high horse, Toji. Yeah, I hurt Momo, and it's killing me. But to act like you've never done the exact same thing? Like you've never made her cry, never grabbed her heart with your hand and squeezed until it bled? Momo came to love me because I was there for her all the times you turned your back on her and chose Sae's lies instead of Momo's feelings, so stop fucking preaching to me about being pathetic."
Toji stood still, his mind racing to process everything he just heard. Nevermind the initial shock of goofball Kairi, always-smiling, always-joking, never-serious Kairi facing him with anger and resent in his face...Toji's brain just didn't want to let Kairi's accusations sink in.
-Accusations?-
Kairi brushed past him, the look of disgust never leaving his face, and Toji made no move to stop him.
Accusations...but they weren't. They were true. Entirely, completely true, and Toji's head sank into his hands as he realized how cruel, how unfair, how unreasonably complicated and twisted life could be.
"I'm so sorry, Momo..I'm so sorry.." he whispered.
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I'm halfway through chapter six, and either that or chapter seven will be the end of the story. I also hope to write a shorter, much more cheerful (and hopefully much better) PG fanfic once this one's over.
Also, for any fans of the manga 'Gals!', I posted a short fanfic entitled "Friendship" which I was actually happy with..unfortunately it's based on the characters Harue and Mami, whom don't seem to be very well-known! Anyway, if you're a Gals fan, please check it out!
About names. Kairi is 'Kiley' 's original name in the Japanese tanks. Ryo is Kairi's older (nearly identical) brother. Aki Misao (last name Aki, first name Misao) is Kairi and Momo's school nurse, who has been a character since the earliest chapters (yes, the slightly 'plump' school nurse Kairi's always hanging around...I'm NOT making his feelings for her up ^^).
Dialogue broken off with *** indicates flashbacks. Quotes surrounded by - indicate first-person thoughts.
Sorry this chapter took MONTHS to come out. I don't know if anyone even remembers this fic by now! Well, I'm really not happy with this fic, and I just couldn't seem to write any more of it..I didn't quite know where to take it. But, I just suddenly felt in the mood to continue, so I tried to do what I could.
-Parakiss
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Circle of Trust Chapter 5: To Let You Down
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"Oomf!" Another painful grunt, and Kairi was on his knees, arms clutching at his stomach.
Touji stood over him, fists still clenched. "Get up."
Kairi whinced, trying to catch his breath. He staggered to his feet, wishing there were something, anything nearby for him in the street for him to lean on for assistance.
Touji's eyes narrowed as the boy before him slowly rose, a trickle of blood escaping from the corner of his mouth.
-He doesn't resist..-
The fact made him even more furious.
-He doesn't fight back...like he feels so guilty he knows he deserves it-
"Don't you have ANYTHING to say, you bastard?!" Another punch landed on Kairi's right cheek, and for the third time he reeled back.
-He knows he deserves this..but does he honestly think this is a suitable enough punishment for making Momo cry like that?!-
Kairi grimaced from the ground, holding a hand up to his nose as it bled. "Toji, enough, I.."
Toji glared at him, slamming his fist into the wall above Kairi's head. "No, Okayasu, it's NOT enough. What the hell are you doing? Just what are you DOING to Momo?"
Kairi froze, and took his hand from his nose, raising his gaze upwards and silently chuckling. Of course Touji would know by now, of course..
Toji took a step forward, threateningly, and Kairi blanched, holding his hands up.
But he had nothing to say.
"You don't understand." he offered weakly.
Toji positively growled at him. "I don't have to understand shit, Okayasu. I don't know you're doing, but I don't need to know. All I need to know is that right now, you're destroying Momo."
Kairi let out a slight chuckle, trying not to let the pain show on his face. Then he paused, and realized with everything going on right now, it didn't matter if he kept up a tough appearance in front of another guy. Toji didn't give a shit. He didn't give a shit.
"Toji, you know how I feel about Momo..."
"The hell I do. I thought you loved her, but if this is how you treat someone you love, you're fucking pathetic!"
Kairi stood up yet again, his mind too blank to process that he might be better off just *staying* on the ground this time. "It is pathetic. I'm pathetic. We're pathetic. Life, love, it's all pathetic." He laughed, or tried to...doubled-over still trying to adjust to the pain, it came out more like a wheezing cough which made him sound old beyond his years.
Toji stared at the sad excuse of a man before him. His babbling didn't make sense anymore..it only added to Toji's frustration. "It's not right, Okayasu. It's just not RIGHT to act like you're some sort of hero for loving Momo when all you do is hurt her even more than Sae did."
"Yeah, well that makes two of us."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"
"It means to come off your high horse, Toji. Yeah, I hurt Momo, and it's killing me. But to act like you've never done the exact same thing? Like you've never made her cry, never grabbed her heart with your hand and squeezed until it bled? Momo came to love me because I was there for her all the times you turned your back on her and chose Sae's lies instead of Momo's feelings, so stop fucking preaching to me about being pathetic."
Toji stood still, his mind racing to process everything he just heard. Nevermind the initial shock of goofball Kairi, always-smiling, always-joking, never-serious Kairi facing him with anger and resent in his face...Toji's brain just didn't want to let Kairi's accusations sink in.
-Accusations?-
Kairi brushed past him, the look of disgust never leaving his face, and Toji made no move to stop him.
Accusations...but they weren't. They were true. Entirely, completely true, and Toji's head sank into his hands as he realized how cruel, how unfair, how unreasonably complicated and twisted life could be.
"I'm so sorry, Momo..I'm so sorry.." he whispered.
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I'm halfway through chapter six, and either that or chapter seven will be the end of the story. I also hope to write a shorter, much more cheerful (and hopefully much better) PG fanfic once this one's over.
Also, for any fans of the manga 'Gals!', I posted a short fanfic entitled "Friendship" which I was actually happy with..unfortunately it's based on the characters Harue and Mami, whom don't seem to be very well-known! Anyway, if you're a Gals fan, please check it out!