Soi's Thoughts Part 3; Soi's POV
I watched the battlefield with mixed horror and triumph. We were winning; that much was obvious. But all those people who died. Were their lives really worth wasting? This battle was pointless, and it accomplished nothing except death.
But then, a more intense situation caught my eye. Nakago-sama was in trouble! I didn't even stop to notice who was holding the sword, but the next thing I remembered was that sword puncturing my back. As the pain flooded through me, I couldn't keep my mind from the past. And looking into Nakago's eyes, I surrendered myself to memory.
//Flashback//
I stood beneath the tree as one of my parents' customers approached. I smiled at him politely, anything of course to help make a sale. Being vaguely friendly wasn't too much.
The man came closer still, and as his actions began to mirror his thoughts, I realized how friendly he wanted to be. I cried out for someone to help me as the man muttered for me to shut up.
My eyes squeezed shut as I screamed louder, praying to all four gods that someone would hear. To my surprise, the man fell to the ground, unconscious. I looked up at my rescuer, and was further surprised to see a handsome young man. A soldier had saved me!
He nodded as I stuttered my thanks, leaving to join his comrades. In my memory, he was always my hero in my time of need. And like an innocent child, I always believed in him.
//end flashback//
I realized he was staring at me, shocked and. dismayed? He couldn't be regretting my choice, could he? But I smiled as best I could through my pain.
"I. love you. Nakago-sama." I saw a single tear slip down his cheek, and I smiled more to reassure him than myself. Perhaps he loved me after all. And I yielded myself to the growing darkness in my mind.
I suppose I did my duty
I don't suppose you care
But I did what my heart told me
Lest they harm but one hair
I never said I love you
I never said goodbye
But I suppose it surprised us both
When at my death you cried.
'I put my trust in you
I pushed as far as I could go
Through all this, there's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
And in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
And in the end, it doesn't even matter.'
~Owari~
Note: I do not own the Linkin Park song In the End or Fushigi Yugi.
I watched the battlefield with mixed horror and triumph. We were winning; that much was obvious. But all those people who died. Were their lives really worth wasting? This battle was pointless, and it accomplished nothing except death.
But then, a more intense situation caught my eye. Nakago-sama was in trouble! I didn't even stop to notice who was holding the sword, but the next thing I remembered was that sword puncturing my back. As the pain flooded through me, I couldn't keep my mind from the past. And looking into Nakago's eyes, I surrendered myself to memory.
//Flashback//
I stood beneath the tree as one of my parents' customers approached. I smiled at him politely, anything of course to help make a sale. Being vaguely friendly wasn't too much.
The man came closer still, and as his actions began to mirror his thoughts, I realized how friendly he wanted to be. I cried out for someone to help me as the man muttered for me to shut up.
My eyes squeezed shut as I screamed louder, praying to all four gods that someone would hear. To my surprise, the man fell to the ground, unconscious. I looked up at my rescuer, and was further surprised to see a handsome young man. A soldier had saved me!
He nodded as I stuttered my thanks, leaving to join his comrades. In my memory, he was always my hero in my time of need. And like an innocent child, I always believed in him.
//end flashback//
I realized he was staring at me, shocked and. dismayed? He couldn't be regretting my choice, could he? But I smiled as best I could through my pain.
"I. love you. Nakago-sama." I saw a single tear slip down his cheek, and I smiled more to reassure him than myself. Perhaps he loved me after all. And I yielded myself to the growing darkness in my mind.
I suppose I did my duty
I don't suppose you care
But I did what my heart told me
Lest they harm but one hair
I never said I love you
I never said goodbye
But I suppose it surprised us both
When at my death you cried.
'I put my trust in you
I pushed as far as I could go
Through all this, there's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
And in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
And in the end, it doesn't even matter.'
~Owari~
Note: I do not own the Linkin Park song In the End or Fushigi Yugi.