Baby Blues.
It had now been half an hour since Janet had started examining the Major who throughout the examination had kept a careful watch on the doctors face to check for some kind of judgement or an indication of worry.
"All done." the doctor told her finally handing Carter her clothes. She then sat back down next to her friend. "So your symptoms are chronic tiredness, nausea and dizziness?"
The Major nodded.
"Sam." she said gently. "Honey why didn't you think you could come to me earlier, why go through this on your own. I'm your friend I'm not going to pass any judgement on you or condemn you because of this." she said stroking her scared friends hair back off her face.
"Because I'm pregnant you mean." the Major said quietly.
The doctor nodded confirming her friends supiscions, her heart breaking as she realised what she had been going through.
The Major could feel tears welling up behind her eyes, she willed them to stay but with her hormones being all over the place she started to cry. "I never meant for this to happen." she sobbed "Janet I want this child more than anything, I've known that since I realised what was happening to me, to my body, but now I know it's really happening..."
"It's okay." the doctor told her friend taking her in her arms. "Everything's gonna work itself out. I'm sure we'll find some way around this if you really want to keep the baby. You do right? now you know it's here"
"Yeah." Sam said putting a gentle hand on her stomach giving her friend a weak smile "But you don't understand."
"So make me." Janet told her sweetly.
Suddenly they heard footsteps at the door, it was Daniel "Um I know it's not time for the briefing yet but the General wants to know if you should be there or not." he said quietly seeing that he had appeared at an awkward time.
"Yeah, I should be." Sam told him smiling weakly.
"Everything okay?"
"Daniel could you just..." she pointed towards the door.
"Yeah, but Janet can I ask a favour first?"
"Depends, what are you asking?"
"Could you just take a look at my hand? I think I sprained it playing rock, paper, scissors."
"Sit down." she told him smiling, realising that Sam was smiling sincerely for the first time since she came in there. "What are you boys like." she said gently examining the doctors hand.
Ten minutes later his hand was bandaged up and he was ready to go. He had just reached the door when he realised something.
"Janet?"
She turned around.
"If anyone asks, tell them I sprained it doing heavy lifting or something."
"Sure." she told him sincerely as he gave her a warm smile and left. "So where were we?" the doctor continued thoughtfully, sitting down again.
"I think I was about to explain why this is gonna be so difficult." the Major answered.
"Okay, take your time." the doctor told her friend sensitively.
"Well the truth is... Damn it I've made such a mess of things." she said starting to cry again,
before taking a deep breath and blurting out "Jack's the father Janet. We, me and Daniel I mean, we went round for Thanksgiving. Daniel had to leave because he wanted to go see you and Cassie before he left for a dig so I was there on my own and..."
"He didn't..."
"No of course not. I was getting ready to leave, and it was such a beautiful night and everything, the next thing we knew we were kissing on his doorstep and then..."
"I think I know where you're going with this." Janet said sighing.
"Look I know what you're thinking, I know you think that we're stupid, stupid for breaking regulations, stupid for risking our careers and everything we have just for one night which resulted in ths child. I know you hate me for this, I should never..." the Major got up.
"Who said anything about me hating you. Sam I could never hate you, you're my best friend." the doctor told her, hurt that Sam could even think her capable of such a thing.
"I know, I'm sorry." she said looking at the floor. "It's just what's everyone going to say if I have this child and they find out whose it is? I could lose my career Janet. Everyone's going to judge me, everyone's going to judge him and everyones going to see this child as something that should never be here and I don't want that, not for him or for this child."
"Well are you happy that you're pregnant? are you happy with who the father is?"
"That's the worst thing about this Janet, I am. Since I met him I've had feelings for him, feelings that have grown so much and that night made me so happy. The thought that the child I'm carrying is his makes me warm inside but I can't ask him to risk his career to be a part of this childs life."
"So you're gonna have this baby."
"Yeah, I think I am." the Major told her sincerely.
"Then don't you think he deserves to know that he's gonna be a father. Don't you think he has the right to decide what he wants for himself. Sam he would be a brilliant dad, and you're gonna make a great mom but you need to make this decision together."
"And what if we decide we want to do this together. We could be split up Janet, we could be court martialed for this because relationships between officers like us are against regs...The General's gonna kill us isn't he." she added
Janet shook her head "I don't know sweetie, I just don't know, but whatever happens you have to tell him and Jack. We don't know if gate travels going to harm this baby, I'm going to have to run tests for that and I can't make excuses to the General because you haven't told him."
"Yeah I know." she told her. "But promise you won't tell him? We should probably do that."
Janet nodded.
Sam shrugged "Well I guess I'd better start breaking the news then. Thanks." she said turning towards her friend.
"Anytime...and Sam, congratulations." she told her friend as she left hoping with all her heart that things would work out.
It had now been half an hour since Janet had started examining the Major who throughout the examination had kept a careful watch on the doctors face to check for some kind of judgement or an indication of worry.
"All done." the doctor told her finally handing Carter her clothes. She then sat back down next to her friend. "So your symptoms are chronic tiredness, nausea and dizziness?"
The Major nodded.
"Sam." she said gently. "Honey why didn't you think you could come to me earlier, why go through this on your own. I'm your friend I'm not going to pass any judgement on you or condemn you because of this." she said stroking her scared friends hair back off her face.
"Because I'm pregnant you mean." the Major said quietly.
The doctor nodded confirming her friends supiscions, her heart breaking as she realised what she had been going through.
The Major could feel tears welling up behind her eyes, she willed them to stay but with her hormones being all over the place she started to cry. "I never meant for this to happen." she sobbed "Janet I want this child more than anything, I've known that since I realised what was happening to me, to my body, but now I know it's really happening..."
"It's okay." the doctor told her friend taking her in her arms. "Everything's gonna work itself out. I'm sure we'll find some way around this if you really want to keep the baby. You do right? now you know it's here"
"Yeah." Sam said putting a gentle hand on her stomach giving her friend a weak smile "But you don't understand."
"So make me." Janet told her sweetly.
Suddenly they heard footsteps at the door, it was Daniel "Um I know it's not time for the briefing yet but the General wants to know if you should be there or not." he said quietly seeing that he had appeared at an awkward time.
"Yeah, I should be." Sam told him smiling weakly.
"Everything okay?"
"Daniel could you just..." she pointed towards the door.
"Yeah, but Janet can I ask a favour first?"
"Depends, what are you asking?"
"Could you just take a look at my hand? I think I sprained it playing rock, paper, scissors."
"Sit down." she told him smiling, realising that Sam was smiling sincerely for the first time since she came in there. "What are you boys like." she said gently examining the doctors hand.
Ten minutes later his hand was bandaged up and he was ready to go. He had just reached the door when he realised something.
"Janet?"
She turned around.
"If anyone asks, tell them I sprained it doing heavy lifting or something."
"Sure." she told him sincerely as he gave her a warm smile and left. "So where were we?" the doctor continued thoughtfully, sitting down again.
"I think I was about to explain why this is gonna be so difficult." the Major answered.
"Okay, take your time." the doctor told her friend sensitively.
"Well the truth is... Damn it I've made such a mess of things." she said starting to cry again,
before taking a deep breath and blurting out "Jack's the father Janet. We, me and Daniel I mean, we went round for Thanksgiving. Daniel had to leave because he wanted to go see you and Cassie before he left for a dig so I was there on my own and..."
"He didn't..."
"No of course not. I was getting ready to leave, and it was such a beautiful night and everything, the next thing we knew we were kissing on his doorstep and then..."
"I think I know where you're going with this." Janet said sighing.
"Look I know what you're thinking, I know you think that we're stupid, stupid for breaking regulations, stupid for risking our careers and everything we have just for one night which resulted in ths child. I know you hate me for this, I should never..." the Major got up.
"Who said anything about me hating you. Sam I could never hate you, you're my best friend." the doctor told her, hurt that Sam could even think her capable of such a thing.
"I know, I'm sorry." she said looking at the floor. "It's just what's everyone going to say if I have this child and they find out whose it is? I could lose my career Janet. Everyone's going to judge me, everyone's going to judge him and everyones going to see this child as something that should never be here and I don't want that, not for him or for this child."
"Well are you happy that you're pregnant? are you happy with who the father is?"
"That's the worst thing about this Janet, I am. Since I met him I've had feelings for him, feelings that have grown so much and that night made me so happy. The thought that the child I'm carrying is his makes me warm inside but I can't ask him to risk his career to be a part of this childs life."
"So you're gonna have this baby."
"Yeah, I think I am." the Major told her sincerely.
"Then don't you think he deserves to know that he's gonna be a father. Don't you think he has the right to decide what he wants for himself. Sam he would be a brilliant dad, and you're gonna make a great mom but you need to make this decision together."
"And what if we decide we want to do this together. We could be split up Janet, we could be court martialed for this because relationships between officers like us are against regs...The General's gonna kill us isn't he." she added
Janet shook her head "I don't know sweetie, I just don't know, but whatever happens you have to tell him and Jack. We don't know if gate travels going to harm this baby, I'm going to have to run tests for that and I can't make excuses to the General because you haven't told him."
"Yeah I know." she told her. "But promise you won't tell him? We should probably do that."
Janet nodded.
Sam shrugged "Well I guess I'd better start breaking the news then. Thanks." she said turning towards her friend.
"Anytime...and Sam, congratulations." she told her friend as she left hoping with all her heart that things would work out.