Okay, I wrote the part about last night and Over all, It sucked. So for all of you who love Casey, this chapter will be either a favorite or a hateful one. (Fave. If you hate Delilah.) I don't want give away too much, but this chappie with leave you saying 'Poor Casey.'
So this is the next day. Casey went over Zekes house and helped with Haley. Haley went to school the next day without Zeke knowing (Or permitting.) ((Fill in the curses, I won't say them err…write them))
Finally the school day was over. Haley felt horrible looking over her shoulder for her father. The night before, she and Casey were awake most of the night. Haley felt utmost pity for him, he loved Delilah with all his heart, she barely cared about him. He didn't see it though. Zeke warned her not to say anything about Delilah in front of Casey.
Haley finally admitted to herself, she did have a crush on the little geeky kid. He was so kind, and deffinatly not self centered. He had known what it's like to go through hell.
Haley wandered around the back of the school. Around a corner she heard Delilah talking to some guy. She looked around the corner cautiously; they were close, too close.
" Come on Gabe, you know I still love you instead. I was just hoping Casey would get a little rich and popular after all of this. You still are the only one for me. Casey never has to know." This was too much for Haley to hear. She heard them make a motion, she assumed that they began to make-out. Haley, horrified for Casey, turned and wanted to get far away as possible from the witch that Casey had fallen in love with.
Unfortunately, she bumped into the worst person to bump into at that moment, Casey.
" Hey, what are you doing here?" Casey asked with a smile on his face. Haley hated it, he seemed so happy. It must have shown, he looked worried "Are you okay?" she nodded, unable to change her look of horror and pity. Casey smiled, she must have looked funny,
"Okay" he said with almost a laugh. "Have you seen Delilah?"
" Why?" Haley almost whispered.
" I didn't tell her I loved her today. I just wanted to see her." he paused trying to read the pity and self-hatred on Haley's face. " Have you seen her? Is she back there?"
Haley wanted to shake her head 'no'. She never wanted to see that pain that Casey was going to put himself through. She couldn't lie though. It just wasn't working, no movement came from her lips or head. Casey must have found this comical so he shook his head and walked behind the school.
Haley shut her eyes and tried to get to him and pull him back. It was too late, he looked at Delilah and Gabe with pure horror and disbelief.
"Ohmigosh, Casey. I can explain." Haley heard Delilah say,
Wish I was too dead to cry,
the self-affliction fades,
stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater
Casey turned, he seemed blank. Then his lip quivered, he bit it hard. Tears weld up in his eyes. Haley put a hand on his arm. He looked at the ground, then up at Delilah. He reached into his pocket, and pulled out a little black case. He let it fall to the ground,
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go 'til it bleeds.Casey turned and pushed past Haley, looking like someone just stabbed him in the back. Delilah walked forward and picked up the case and opened it. It was a diamond engagement ring.
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed i cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me ... to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying
In front of the school. Casey ran to his car. Zeke was talking to Stokely and Stan. He reached out and caught his arm.
" Hey, Case!" Casey looked at him looking so hatefully. His eyes were rimmed with red and tears on his cheeks. "What the heck's wrong with you?" Stan and Stokely looked concerned and curious at the same time. Casey wretched his arm away and ran to his car.
You don't need to botherI don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won't let go 'til it bleeds
Zeke turned and looked at Delilah, who was running from behind the school, with the case in her hands, tears on her cheeks too. Stan folded his arms, and understood to some extent, not the entire. Gabe came after her, then Haley, with her hands over her eyes, crying for Casey.
Wish I died instead of lived
The zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries
Casey cursed to himself in his car. He loved her so much. She made him feel whole. The sudden regret that he didn't die when the alien attacked him took him. He felt so empty. Delilah was his new life, he was going to ask her to live the rest of her life with him.
You don't need to botherI don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won't let go 'til it bleedsHe got home and looked around his house. No one was home, like always, no one to care. He went up to his room and threw his backpack on the floor. He looked around his room; he wasn't himself anymore even.
Most of his old life style had been given up to be 'cool' in her eyes. All the posters were off his walls. The room was neat, only one computer, and the phone was next to a picture of her. He looked around; the pictures were everywhere. Most likely he still would have ten or so in his camera.
Casey sat down on his bed, and broke down. He had cared so much about her.
'I hate it. I hate me. Why was I so blind? I should have held on tighter to her, listened more often. Spoke up more often for her. College is going to suck, I am going to the same place as her, I need to work so hard. My money was wasted on that rock I bought her. She deserved only the best. She still does, which isn't me. I wish I died when Mary Beth did that to me. I should have died there and then, It wouldn't have hurt I was high. No pain, no suffering , I wouldn't have been afraid. Taking her up would have been the smart thing.' Casey thought to himself like this for hours.
"Why Me?" he muttered to himself
There was a knock on his door. His mom opened it without asking,
" Hi honey. How was school?" his mom didn't know that this was the day he would say something to Delilah.
" Sucked."
" I don't want to hear you say that ever again, young man!" Young man. That was all he was. Not a boy not even a full man responsible enough to know if the woman you love still loved you back. Casey didn't apologize, he rolled over and stuck his head into his pillow.
Wish I was too dead to careIf indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me ... to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying
He heard his mom leave, and he must have fallen asleep. It didn't last long, Delilah was all that he could think about. He loved her so bad, he still did.
" What's wrong with me!?' he screamed into his pillow.
Back at school, Zeke saw Haley and he ran up to her followed by Stan and Stokely.
"What happened?" Zeke took her by the shoulders. Her cheeks were damp from crying. She took a deep breath and couldn't answer, instead she just shook her head. He let her go and grabbed Delilah,
" What in the flippin' world did you do to my friend?" Zeke pressed her; Delilah answered him,
" I lost him. The best thing in the world, I lost." She put the box in his hand and ran off to the bathroom crying. Zeke opened the box and understood. As Stokely gasped in shock, Stan wrapped an arm around her shoulder.
" This week sucks," Zeke muttered to himself. " Haley, I thought you were going to stay home."
" I couldn't… I want to now. Can we please go home…I mean back to your house?" Haley asked. Zeke nodded and took a deep breath. Haley looked almost as hurt as Casey did. Together they left Stan and Stokely and got in the car.
" Are you okay?" Zeke asked after a few moments. Haley shook her head and \ muttered,
" It was my fault, I should have stopped him. I knew that Delilah was back there…" Zeke slowed the car.
" Hey, don't even think that. Delilah had it coming. It was her loss not Casey's."
Haley nodded but didn't say another word.
