Please ignore the crappy spelling and grammar. Thanks. I have no spell check. (Boo-Hoo!_
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I feel so lonely. So out of place. Why? I should be happy but I'm not. I should be rejoicing but I'm not. Then why am I here?
Death.
The word echoes through my head. Am I a realy coward by doing this?
No.
Yes, I'm not running away. I'm not. I'm just going to go for a swim and accidently die. Yeah, that's it.
Squall and Rinoa are happy. Am I jealous? I was. I used to be. Now I'm happy. Happy that I can die happy. Squall found someone to love, even if it's not me. But why do I care. We'd kill each other if we got married.
Selphie and Irvine are happy. Am I jealous? I was. I used to be. Now I'm happy. Happy that I can die happy. Selphie found someone toput up with her and Irvine is a straight arrow. I hope their son grows up and becomes strong.
Zell, is well, Zell. He hasn't found his someone but she's out there. Somewhere. I hope they don't find me and stop me like they did to him.
"I have no pity for someone who is cowardly enough to run away!" I remeber Rinoa yelling.
Seifer ran away. She had pit for him. Why not Zell? Why not me? Are they really dumb enough not to notice me changing. Getting skinnier by the day. Quieter by the hour. Can they really not notice the old Quistis isn't here anymore?
I grip the railing. I am ready. I have been for the past two months. I've played it in my mind. I'm going to jump and and the cold water will hurt, but it will all be over soon. Soon.
Rain.
I stand up.
It's raining.
"Quitsy, will you promise not to leave me alone?"
No.
"Sure."
Not now.
"I'll protect you always. I am your knight in shining armour after all."
Why?
"Do you promise?"
Why now?
"Yes, I'll be by yor side forever and ever."
You lied. Where are you know?
It's hard to balance on the railing but I don't care. I hope I fall. Fall.
"Lies!" I scream and leap off.
It was cold. Colder than I though. It hurts. Hurts.
I can't breath. The current. It's to strong. Help me! I don't want to die! Please!
I open my mouth and water rushes in. It hurts. O god ti hurts.
I drift off. Am I dead yet? Should I be dead?
". . .idiot. . ."
Who's that?
". . .poor. . ."
I can't open my eyes.
". . .away. .!"
So familiar.
". . .Seifer. . .her?"
Seifer, where is he?
". . .jack ass. . .away. . .now!"
Seifer! I'm here!
". . .sorry. . ."
Why can't I open my eyes?
". . .Quistis?"
"Sei-fer." I croak.
Open eyes now!!
"Good god, what happened to you?"
I want to see him! Now!
"I can't open my eyes!" I scream.
I feel a hand on my shoulder, "They are open."
What?
Does that mean I'm. . .
. . .blind?
"Seifer!" I sob. I clutch on to him and sob.
"Shh, I'm here," he says, trying to sooth me.
I reach around and find his face. I lift if close to mine and bring our lips together. His hands go around me and for a second, time seemed to stop.
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Ummm, yeah. So, what do you think? It's pretty useless. I could do another chapter but I won't unless I get some reviews. k?
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I feel so lonely. So out of place. Why? I should be happy but I'm not. I should be rejoicing but I'm not. Then why am I here?
Death.
The word echoes through my head. Am I a realy coward by doing this?
No.
Yes, I'm not running away. I'm not. I'm just going to go for a swim and accidently die. Yeah, that's it.
Squall and Rinoa are happy. Am I jealous? I was. I used to be. Now I'm happy. Happy that I can die happy. Squall found someone to love, even if it's not me. But why do I care. We'd kill each other if we got married.
Selphie and Irvine are happy. Am I jealous? I was. I used to be. Now I'm happy. Happy that I can die happy. Selphie found someone toput up with her and Irvine is a straight arrow. I hope their son grows up and becomes strong.
Zell, is well, Zell. He hasn't found his someone but she's out there. Somewhere. I hope they don't find me and stop me like they did to him.
"I have no pity for someone who is cowardly enough to run away!" I remeber Rinoa yelling.
Seifer ran away. She had pit for him. Why not Zell? Why not me? Are they really dumb enough not to notice me changing. Getting skinnier by the day. Quieter by the hour. Can they really not notice the old Quistis isn't here anymore?
I grip the railing. I am ready. I have been for the past two months. I've played it in my mind. I'm going to jump and and the cold water will hurt, but it will all be over soon. Soon.
Rain.
I stand up.
It's raining.
"Quitsy, will you promise not to leave me alone?"
No.
"Sure."
Not now.
"I'll protect you always. I am your knight in shining armour after all."
Why?
"Do you promise?"
Why now?
"Yes, I'll be by yor side forever and ever."
You lied. Where are you know?
It's hard to balance on the railing but I don't care. I hope I fall. Fall.
"Lies!" I scream and leap off.
It was cold. Colder than I though. It hurts. Hurts.
I can't breath. The current. It's to strong. Help me! I don't want to die! Please!
I open my mouth and water rushes in. It hurts. O god ti hurts.
I drift off. Am I dead yet? Should I be dead?
". . .idiot. . ."
Who's that?
". . .poor. . ."
I can't open my eyes.
". . .away. .!"
So familiar.
". . .Seifer. . .her?"
Seifer, where is he?
". . .jack ass. . .away. . .now!"
Seifer! I'm here!
". . .sorry. . ."
Why can't I open my eyes?
". . .Quistis?"
"Sei-fer." I croak.
Open eyes now!!
"Good god, what happened to you?"
I want to see him! Now!
"I can't open my eyes!" I scream.
I feel a hand on my shoulder, "They are open."
What?
Does that mean I'm. . .
. . .blind?
"Seifer!" I sob. I clutch on to him and sob.
"Shh, I'm here," he says, trying to sooth me.
I reach around and find his face. I lift if close to mine and bring our lips together. His hands go around me and for a second, time seemed to stop.
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Ummm, yeah. So, what do you think? It's pretty useless. I could do another chapter but I won't unless I get some reviews. k?