WARNING: This chapter contains sexual themes and guy/guy kissing & sexual
behavior, if you are offended don't read my story!! But if you want to know
what happens and want me to spoil it for you, go to the bottom where it
says spoiler for brief story summary.
CAUTION: Spoiler at bottom of the page!
Please review!!! By the way I'm not a Rinoa basher, I don't really care about her either way, but she might take some abuse soon, anyhow.
TROUBLED
CHAPTER 5
Lemony Thoughts and Broken Hearts
Seifer paced around the room, starting to sweat out of being so nervous.
*How can I say this... what about "Hey chicken, I'm in love with you." No too rough, but aren't I always rough... My fantasies with Zell are always rough... maybe if I try to be nice to him first, but then he'll think my fierce exterior is only a cover-up for who I really am. Isn't that the truth, though, if I get into a relationship with him, shouldn't it be truthful? You actually think you can get Zell to like you, you big dope? Of course I can, the kid is obviously gay...* He chuckled to himself thinking of how Zell carried himself, always full of optimistic energy.
*I want to learn more about him, I thought I knew him. I thought he was always so upbeat, but I guess he has problems, just like anyone else. Serious problems, he must to attempt suicide, right?*
It didn't occur to Seifer that he could be a key factor from Zell traumatized childhood. He always thought Zell knew, until the GFs. In actuality, Zell had forgotten for the most part about Seifer's constant bullying, but that feeling of no self-worth stuck.
*I guess I should try to come off a little differently, but too much to scare him off. Something like "Hey Zell." Yeah that's good... nice enough, but still isn't quite giving in to anything*
Seifer heard the shower snap off and Zell moving around. He heard the sound of teeth being brushed and the cap of a deodorant stick being pulled off. He waited for quite a while though he didn't know what was taking Zell so long, he hoped Zell was masturbating with Seifer in mind, but knew he was probably just putting in all that hair gel.
Sure enough, it was the gel. As the spiky-haired blond boy stepped out of the bathroom, Seifer smiled at him.
Seifer was wearing his usual all-white attire, while Zell was only wearing his traditional baggy jean shorts with a belt, but was shirtless.
Seifer's eyes moved along Zell's curvy figure. His waist was tiny, but still somewhat muscled, and his broad shoulders and broad ass made him impossible to not stare at.
Zell saw how Seifer's eyes were looking at his body and he looked at Seifer closely.
Seifer looked up and quietly said,
"Hey Zell..."
*Zell? He called me Zell?*
"I was just going to see you Seif."
*Whoa... really?* "...Really?"
"Yeah, I've decided to get back at you, you asshole, I was getting ready to beat the shit out of you, just like you always used to do to me."
Mentally, that knocked Seifer over. *So he never did catch on...*
"You know, you really hurt me Seifer. It sucks to be afraid to wake up because some jerk is going to call you names and pick on you."
*How do I respond to that... obviously an apology is first, and then I guess I'll just have to explain.*
"Listen, Chicken, I'm sorry, I really am, that's why I'm here, I was going to apologize."
"You are sorry but you just did it again." Zell hands made fists and he looked as if he were about to tackle Seifer.
"I don't really mean for it to be offensive when I call you Chicken Wuss, I think it's really more of an affectionate pet-name."
"...What?!?"
*Shit, I slipped, oh well, I guess I have to 'fess up now...*
"Ya see Zell, all the picking on you, all the names and everything..."
"What about it? You liked making me feel insignificant?"
Seifer started again, "I guess it's like old grade school romance,"
*Romance?*
"you know how when you like someone when you are little, you tend to pick on them constantly? Well guess why I picked on you, Chicken."
*Oh my gods...*
"I don't know why I never stopped, I guess I thought you knew so that's why I kept it up. Plus, all the junior classmen look up to me because I act so cruel, but that's not really me, there is more to me than that... but I don't know if I can change the way I act on the outside so quickly, I don't want people to know I'm a fag..."
He sighed and looked up at the ceiling.
Zell thought he was hot, and he thought he was being sweet too. But instead of saying something forgiving and friendly, he snapped at Seifer.
"You fucking asshole, you stupid jerk. Do you have any idea how traumatized I've been since childhood. I've always been a dork or a loser because of you." Zell sat down on the floor and started crying, "And now you just act like it was no big thing, and you admit to loving me, but now I'm finally somewhat happy and with Squall and everything was going to be okay, but you had to come and screw it up again didn't you?"
*He's with Squall? Isn't Squall with Rinoa? I'm screwing it up? I'm screwing it up, his life, I'm screwing it up... I'm screwing it up...*
"I'm screwing up his life... it's my fault, my fault... I'm screwing it up..." Seifer was now crying as well. "I'm sorry Zell, I didn't mean to... I didn't, I really didn't..."
He turned and started to walk out of the room but Zell stopped him still in tears. "Wait Seif..."
Zell stood up and as Seifer turned around Zell embraced the bigger blond boy and they both cried in each others arms.
~
"WHAT!? ZELL??" Rinoa was shocked and after those two words was speechless.
"It's not that there is anything wrong with you Rinoa, it's just that he needs me and I think I need him too."
"But I need you..."
"..."
He embraced her and she cried on his shoulder. "Oh Squall, as long as you are happy I'll always understand"
"I'm sorry Rinoa, I still love you, but I just can't be with you anymore."
She passionately kissed him and he gave in and kissed back and then she let go and stepped a few feet back.
"I have nothing here anymore then... I am going back to Timber to be with the Owls... But if you don't call me on the videophone everyday I'll come back and make your life a living hell. If we aren't friends once I'm gone..." She smiled with all those tears in her eyes, and turned and ran off into the main hall.
She ran outside into the rain to the front gate and then all the way down to Balamb. She stopped only to buy a ticket to Timber before running into the train, putting her ticket in and going into her private room, she cried her wet self to sleep on the couch and dreamt of Squall until she woke
~
Squall walked around in the rain before he lay on the wet muddy ground and he too cried.
*What if this doesn't work with Zell..? I can't go running back to her because she'll think I am using her, she'll know I'm using her, I can't use her.*
He still sobbed and lie there, and he continued to cry...
~
Selphie wasn't in so bad of a mood though. She must've had all the bubbly energy that everyone was missing. She had already spoken to Cid about her and Irvine taking a week off starting Saturday, and today was Friday. She had not a care in the world, she didn't care if she failed the quiz that sat in front of her, or Zell would be okay for a week without her or Irvine. Well, that was only because she was certain enough that he could confide in Squall as much as he needed to.
~
Seifer's hands ran down Zell's back and for the first time got to feel the ass he had always longed for. Seifer tilted his head down so their lips touched and they kissed passionately.
Zell was uncomfortable. He didn't know what he wanted anymore, a week ago he thought no one loved him and now he was torn between two guys. Feeling he should be faithful to Squall, he pushed Seifer away.
Seifer sighed. "What did you say about Squall a few minutes ago?"
"I'm with Squall, Seif. I can't do this with you."
"But you do like me?"
"I've liked you for a long time, I've only liked Squall since he just kinda kissed me."
"I knew you were a fag..."
"...really? I didn't even know myself at first. I felt so awkward liking you. I felt like I wasn't supposed to be attracted to you."
"Can't blame ya, who isn't attracted to me?"
*Too arrogant there, must work on that* He noted to himself.
"...I'm commited to Squall now... he told me he was sacrificing Rinoa for me... I can't just ditch him now...I'm sorry Seif."
"Squall doesn't have to know, Chicken. We'll just make sure the door is locked..." He reached over to the door and locked it, "and then you're all mine."
Zell took a few steps back, but Seifer caught up to him and forced a kiss. Zell kissed him back but then pushed him away again.
"No Seifer, I can't, Squall loves me... he gave me a second chance at life and I owe him."
"B-But I love you!"
*Well, fall in love with Squall too and then we can be a threesome!*
"Seif, maybe you should just get a one night stand..."
"Why don't you just do this with me?"
"Because I love Squall, and I don't know what I feel about you. I don't know if it's love or what but I..." He didn't know how to finish the sentence so he just shut up.
Seifer started to get pissed.
"Look, Chicken, I am in love with you. I have craved this for years and now that I am this close I am not going away empty handed."
He grabbed Zell's wrists and threw him on the bed. Still holding the wrists he laid on top of Zell to hold him down.
"Seif, you don't want to do this"
"Oh gods, yes I do."
He kissed Zell again and Zell didn't bother to even think of resisting, something came over him and he just went along with it. Realizing Zell was done resisting, he let go of the wrists and took of his white trench coat and white t-shirt and then laid back on top of Zell to kiss him again. With their chests rubbing up against each other, Seifer felt Zell getting hard against his own hard. Seifer undid Zell's belt and unbuckled the jean pants. He unzipped the zipper and slowly slid off Zell's pants, leaving him in boxers.
Their lips touched again and their tongues battled to get into each others mouth, hoping to get as much of the others taste as they possibly could. Zell moaned as Seifer's tongue playfully licked his neck, then his chest and then teasingly sucked at Zell's small hard nipples.
Seifer started to go lower, but Zell got a hold of himself and kicked Seifer off. The smaller blond got up.
"No Seif. Not happening, I can't do this." He pulled his pants back on, and went to the dresser to get a t-shirt. He pulled out the one on top and put it on. He slipped on some socks and put on his shoes as quick as he could and left the room in search of Squall.
"Sorry, Seifer."
Seifer didn't move, he was still he shock. He was ready to even rape Zell and he would've if Zell hadn't have kissed him. But he got nothing. None. Zilch. Nada. Zero.
He just laid on Zell's bed and decided he wasn't leaving until Zell came back.
Chapter Five is finished, sorry it was kinda long, and chapter six can be up really soon, but I don't know if I want to post it yet. It still needs something... Well, I'll figure it out, until then just r&r!
SPOILER!!!
DON'T LOOK UNLESS YOU REALLY WANT TOO
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!!
Okay, well here's what happened for those of you who are offended:
-Seifer comes to Zell's room and confesses his love and the two have a moment. -Squall tells Rinoa he doesn't love her anymore and she goes back to Timber. -Seifer and Zell arose each other, but not much else because Zell leaves to find Squall. -Selphie leaves tomorrow for the train vaca with Irvine. -Seifer is left on Zell's bed and he decides to stay there until Zell comes back.
CAUTION: Spoiler at bottom of the page!
Please review!!! By the way I'm not a Rinoa basher, I don't really care about her either way, but she might take some abuse soon, anyhow.
TROUBLED
CHAPTER 5
Lemony Thoughts and Broken Hearts
Seifer paced around the room, starting to sweat out of being so nervous.
*How can I say this... what about "Hey chicken, I'm in love with you." No too rough, but aren't I always rough... My fantasies with Zell are always rough... maybe if I try to be nice to him first, but then he'll think my fierce exterior is only a cover-up for who I really am. Isn't that the truth, though, if I get into a relationship with him, shouldn't it be truthful? You actually think you can get Zell to like you, you big dope? Of course I can, the kid is obviously gay...* He chuckled to himself thinking of how Zell carried himself, always full of optimistic energy.
*I want to learn more about him, I thought I knew him. I thought he was always so upbeat, but I guess he has problems, just like anyone else. Serious problems, he must to attempt suicide, right?*
It didn't occur to Seifer that he could be a key factor from Zell traumatized childhood. He always thought Zell knew, until the GFs. In actuality, Zell had forgotten for the most part about Seifer's constant bullying, but that feeling of no self-worth stuck.
*I guess I should try to come off a little differently, but too much to scare him off. Something like "Hey Zell." Yeah that's good... nice enough, but still isn't quite giving in to anything*
Seifer heard the shower snap off and Zell moving around. He heard the sound of teeth being brushed and the cap of a deodorant stick being pulled off. He waited for quite a while though he didn't know what was taking Zell so long, he hoped Zell was masturbating with Seifer in mind, but knew he was probably just putting in all that hair gel.
Sure enough, it was the gel. As the spiky-haired blond boy stepped out of the bathroom, Seifer smiled at him.
Seifer was wearing his usual all-white attire, while Zell was only wearing his traditional baggy jean shorts with a belt, but was shirtless.
Seifer's eyes moved along Zell's curvy figure. His waist was tiny, but still somewhat muscled, and his broad shoulders and broad ass made him impossible to not stare at.
Zell saw how Seifer's eyes were looking at his body and he looked at Seifer closely.
Seifer looked up and quietly said,
"Hey Zell..."
*Zell? He called me Zell?*
"I was just going to see you Seif."
*Whoa... really?* "...Really?"
"Yeah, I've decided to get back at you, you asshole, I was getting ready to beat the shit out of you, just like you always used to do to me."
Mentally, that knocked Seifer over. *So he never did catch on...*
"You know, you really hurt me Seifer. It sucks to be afraid to wake up because some jerk is going to call you names and pick on you."
*How do I respond to that... obviously an apology is first, and then I guess I'll just have to explain.*
"Listen, Chicken, I'm sorry, I really am, that's why I'm here, I was going to apologize."
"You are sorry but you just did it again." Zell hands made fists and he looked as if he were about to tackle Seifer.
"I don't really mean for it to be offensive when I call you Chicken Wuss, I think it's really more of an affectionate pet-name."
"...What?!?"
*Shit, I slipped, oh well, I guess I have to 'fess up now...*
"Ya see Zell, all the picking on you, all the names and everything..."
"What about it? You liked making me feel insignificant?"
Seifer started again, "I guess it's like old grade school romance,"
*Romance?*
"you know how when you like someone when you are little, you tend to pick on them constantly? Well guess why I picked on you, Chicken."
*Oh my gods...*
"I don't know why I never stopped, I guess I thought you knew so that's why I kept it up. Plus, all the junior classmen look up to me because I act so cruel, but that's not really me, there is more to me than that... but I don't know if I can change the way I act on the outside so quickly, I don't want people to know I'm a fag..."
He sighed and looked up at the ceiling.
Zell thought he was hot, and he thought he was being sweet too. But instead of saying something forgiving and friendly, he snapped at Seifer.
"You fucking asshole, you stupid jerk. Do you have any idea how traumatized I've been since childhood. I've always been a dork or a loser because of you." Zell sat down on the floor and started crying, "And now you just act like it was no big thing, and you admit to loving me, but now I'm finally somewhat happy and with Squall and everything was going to be okay, but you had to come and screw it up again didn't you?"
*He's with Squall? Isn't Squall with Rinoa? I'm screwing it up? I'm screwing it up, his life, I'm screwing it up... I'm screwing it up...*
"I'm screwing up his life... it's my fault, my fault... I'm screwing it up..." Seifer was now crying as well. "I'm sorry Zell, I didn't mean to... I didn't, I really didn't..."
He turned and started to walk out of the room but Zell stopped him still in tears. "Wait Seif..."
Zell stood up and as Seifer turned around Zell embraced the bigger blond boy and they both cried in each others arms.
~
"WHAT!? ZELL??" Rinoa was shocked and after those two words was speechless.
"It's not that there is anything wrong with you Rinoa, it's just that he needs me and I think I need him too."
"But I need you..."
"..."
He embraced her and she cried on his shoulder. "Oh Squall, as long as you are happy I'll always understand"
"I'm sorry Rinoa, I still love you, but I just can't be with you anymore."
She passionately kissed him and he gave in and kissed back and then she let go and stepped a few feet back.
"I have nothing here anymore then... I am going back to Timber to be with the Owls... But if you don't call me on the videophone everyday I'll come back and make your life a living hell. If we aren't friends once I'm gone..." She smiled with all those tears in her eyes, and turned and ran off into the main hall.
She ran outside into the rain to the front gate and then all the way down to Balamb. She stopped only to buy a ticket to Timber before running into the train, putting her ticket in and going into her private room, she cried her wet self to sleep on the couch and dreamt of Squall until she woke
~
Squall walked around in the rain before he lay on the wet muddy ground and he too cried.
*What if this doesn't work with Zell..? I can't go running back to her because she'll think I am using her, she'll know I'm using her, I can't use her.*
He still sobbed and lie there, and he continued to cry...
~
Selphie wasn't in so bad of a mood though. She must've had all the bubbly energy that everyone was missing. She had already spoken to Cid about her and Irvine taking a week off starting Saturday, and today was Friday. She had not a care in the world, she didn't care if she failed the quiz that sat in front of her, or Zell would be okay for a week without her or Irvine. Well, that was only because she was certain enough that he could confide in Squall as much as he needed to.
~
Seifer's hands ran down Zell's back and for the first time got to feel the ass he had always longed for. Seifer tilted his head down so their lips touched and they kissed passionately.
Zell was uncomfortable. He didn't know what he wanted anymore, a week ago he thought no one loved him and now he was torn between two guys. Feeling he should be faithful to Squall, he pushed Seifer away.
Seifer sighed. "What did you say about Squall a few minutes ago?"
"I'm with Squall, Seif. I can't do this with you."
"But you do like me?"
"I've liked you for a long time, I've only liked Squall since he just kinda kissed me."
"I knew you were a fag..."
"...really? I didn't even know myself at first. I felt so awkward liking you. I felt like I wasn't supposed to be attracted to you."
"Can't blame ya, who isn't attracted to me?"
*Too arrogant there, must work on that* He noted to himself.
"...I'm commited to Squall now... he told me he was sacrificing Rinoa for me... I can't just ditch him now...I'm sorry Seif."
"Squall doesn't have to know, Chicken. We'll just make sure the door is locked..." He reached over to the door and locked it, "and then you're all mine."
Zell took a few steps back, but Seifer caught up to him and forced a kiss. Zell kissed him back but then pushed him away again.
"No Seifer, I can't, Squall loves me... he gave me a second chance at life and I owe him."
"B-But I love you!"
*Well, fall in love with Squall too and then we can be a threesome!*
"Seif, maybe you should just get a one night stand..."
"Why don't you just do this with me?"
"Because I love Squall, and I don't know what I feel about you. I don't know if it's love or what but I..." He didn't know how to finish the sentence so he just shut up.
Seifer started to get pissed.
"Look, Chicken, I am in love with you. I have craved this for years and now that I am this close I am not going away empty handed."
He grabbed Zell's wrists and threw him on the bed. Still holding the wrists he laid on top of Zell to hold him down.
"Seif, you don't want to do this"
"Oh gods, yes I do."
He kissed Zell again and Zell didn't bother to even think of resisting, something came over him and he just went along with it. Realizing Zell was done resisting, he let go of the wrists and took of his white trench coat and white t-shirt and then laid back on top of Zell to kiss him again. With their chests rubbing up against each other, Seifer felt Zell getting hard against his own hard. Seifer undid Zell's belt and unbuckled the jean pants. He unzipped the zipper and slowly slid off Zell's pants, leaving him in boxers.
Their lips touched again and their tongues battled to get into each others mouth, hoping to get as much of the others taste as they possibly could. Zell moaned as Seifer's tongue playfully licked his neck, then his chest and then teasingly sucked at Zell's small hard nipples.
Seifer started to go lower, but Zell got a hold of himself and kicked Seifer off. The smaller blond got up.
"No Seif. Not happening, I can't do this." He pulled his pants back on, and went to the dresser to get a t-shirt. He pulled out the one on top and put it on. He slipped on some socks and put on his shoes as quick as he could and left the room in search of Squall.
"Sorry, Seifer."
Seifer didn't move, he was still he shock. He was ready to even rape Zell and he would've if Zell hadn't have kissed him. But he got nothing. None. Zilch. Nada. Zero.
He just laid on Zell's bed and decided he wasn't leaving until Zell came back.
Chapter Five is finished, sorry it was kinda long, and chapter six can be up really soon, but I don't know if I want to post it yet. It still needs something... Well, I'll figure it out, until then just r&r!
SPOILER!!!
DON'T LOOK UNLESS YOU REALLY WANT TOO
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!!
Okay, well here's what happened for those of you who are offended:
-Seifer comes to Zell's room and confesses his love and the two have a moment. -Squall tells Rinoa he doesn't love her anymore and she goes back to Timber. -Seifer and Zell arose each other, but not much else because Zell leaves to find Squall. -Selphie leaves tomorrow for the train vaca with Irvine. -Seifer is left on Zell's bed and he decides to stay there until Zell comes back.