Ahem... Seifer's thoughts at the beginning of the chapter are actually
slighty modified parts of the lyrics to "11 AM" by Incubus. I plan on using
more songs not just ones by Incubus, I promise!! It's just that their
lyrics are so awesome and easily related to the charries! But I want to use
some hip-hop and other alternative music too, but I have a ton of good
choices so I don't know what I'm going to use yet! Oh, and be warned, most
of the chars take a beating from me! Not really me, but I'm writing it, so
it kinda is me, a mental-beating you might say...
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CHAPTER 6
Could I Press Rewind?
A shirtless Seifer looked at the clock by Zell's bed, Zell hadn't come back all night.
*Seven am, the garbage truck beeps as it backs up and I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away. Could I press rewind? The credits traverse signifying the end but I missed the best part. Could we please go back to start?*
He rolled over a few times and fell asleep again. When he woke he again looked at the clock. He sighed.
*Eleven am, by now you would think that I would be up but your bed sheets shade the heat of choices I've made. And what did I find? I never thought I could want someone so much 'cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear.*
He just walked the clock's red digits get bigger until the two numbers on the left went back to 00. A piercing noise bit his ear.
*Twelve pm, and my dusty cell phone rings. Heavy head up from my pillow who could it be?... I hope it's you... hope it's you...*
~
Zell had stayed in Selphie's room all night. He had told her everything, about Squall, Seifer, and why he tried suicide. Zell didn't really have a crush on her anymore, but after all, she was his second best friend and since Squall was number one, he confided in Selphie instead.
She comforted him, but now she was worried. She wasn't sure if it was okay to go now. She didn't want to be gone if Zell needed her. If Zell made the wrong choices he could end up without any friends nearby, except for Quistis, but Selphie knew that Quisty drove everyone up a wall.
Zell rolled off the couch and fell a foot to the floor, it didn't hurt, but it woke him up. He grumbled and got to his feet and peeked into Selphie's bedroom. No Irvine as usual... she was good about that, a good girl. She was making him wait for a while, but Zell had a sneaky feeling that she was going to blow the cowboy's mind on this train trip, with emphasis on the blow part, and hell, probably further.
He went back to the couch and laid down, letting his thoughts entertain him.
*Sex on a train... go Selphie... I bet that would be interesting, especially around some of those sharp turns, me and Seif are gonna have to try that someday. Whoa? Seifer, was I thinking Seifer?*
He sighed and almost started crying just out of being so confused and so torn between the two.
*I can't turn away Squall now, right? Of course that's right, he sacrificed his life the way he knows it for me... but didn't Seifer do that too? He is changing the way he acts like a bully and he'll probably start getting picked on too.*
Now he was starting to cry...
*Someone pick for me, I can't decide, it's impossible, I want both equally... I've craved Seifer for so long, but he has always been such a jerk, but Squall finally opened up to someone, and it was me.*
His stomach growled and he decided to go find himself breakfast so he left a note for Selphie, composed himself, and walked to the cafeteria. He didn't want to face Seifer now, but he decided that they needed to talk, and now. Squall too. But after he fed himself.
When he entered the cafeteria other students looked at him and whispered to each other.
"Is that Zell Dincht? The suicidal freak?" "So he did survive" "What a crazy ass"
Zell couldn't make out anything they were saying so he decided to ignore it. The sapphire eyes found their way to the pay phone area in the back of the cafeteria and his feet followed. He picked up one of the house videophones. He didn't know if Seifer was at his room still, so he called Seifer's cell.
When Seifer answered, he looked like he hadn't slept in months.
"Hi Seif..."
"...Chicken" he acknowledged Zell.
Zell looked past Seifer at his own bed.
"You're still in my room."
"Yeah"
"I think we need to talk"
"Yeah"
"I don't know what to do Seif, I am completely torn between you and Squall, I don't know what I should do."
"..." Seifer didn't help at all, he only said nothing, so Zell decided to cut the one sided conversation short.
"Well, uhm, Seif, I need to find Squall and talk to him too..."
"..." His eyes trailed off away from the phone..
"Why don't you take a shower, you can use my shower if you don't want to go all the way back to your room."
"..."
"Okay... bye Seif"
Just as Zell was about to hang up Seifer burst into tears.
"I love you Zell!"
And the phone clicked off.
"...love you too Seif."
~
Before it had gotten too dark, Squall had got up and gone to his room. It seemed empty without Rinoa there to bug him. He lay in bed staring at the ceiling all night, not sleeping once. How could he? He had just given up his Rinoa for a ball of energy. He didn't know what he saw in Zell, maybe he was just too shallow to go beyond looks or maybe he was just attracted to that personality. He hadn't lied about what he told Zell. Squall did love Zell for being himself, but he wasn't entirely sure his feelings were only for Zell... he just didn't, he couldn't stop thinking of her. Rinoa.
~
Selphie Tilmitt awoke to the sound of Irvine's boots pacing back and forth. He had been waiting for her to wake up for about an hour now...
She sat up and stretched, looked around and let her eyes focus. Immediately seeing him, she had to try to sound very southern-bell as she greeted him
"Mornin' sugar."
The cowboy raised an eyebrow... She giggled, but didn't let up with teasing the cowboy.
"Well you're up bright'n'early, must be round quarter to five."
"Actually it's closer to noon.
"Oh!" She looked at the clock and ran into the bathroom, shutting the door behind her. As she started her shower she yelled at Irvine in the other room.
"Why'd you let me sleep in?"
"You're cute asleep"
"Asleep?"
"Always."
"That's better cowboy."
~
Zell knocked a few times on Squall's door, but no one answered. He put his ear against the door and could hear Squall muttering something. Zell knocked again and this time Squall answered.
"Unlocked" His voice came out as a croak.
"Hiya Squally..."
"..."
"You guys aren't going to make this easy on me, are you?"
"Guys?"
"Well, yeah, when I woke up this morning, Seifer came by and he kinda pulled the same thing you did..."
Squall raised an eyebrow.
"He just kinda kissed me and threw me on the bed and..."
"You slept with Seifer?! And you've only been with me for like 10 hours?"
"I didn't sleep with him. I pushed him off and hid in Selphie's room. I tried to call, and he's still in my room. And, I think he's a little upset."
"..."
"Tch."
"What?"
"You can't just sit there quiet and wait for me to figure things out... I need help..."
"...whatever"
"You... you jerk! You and Seifer are exactly the opposite, and both of you are equally assholes!"
"...sorry"
"You know what, I want both of you the same, but I can't figure out which to pick. I want both."
"I have never opened up to anyone else before, except Sis a few times, and now you just want to dump me...? For Seifer...? "
"I didn't say that..."
"You know you can't have both of us, it's impossible..."
"I know but,"
"I can't believe you'd even consider leaving me already!" *Wait, wasn't I just thinking about leaving him for Rinoa though? Maybe this just isn't meant to be, Zell*
"That's not fair Squall. I... I..."
"What?"
"Its just that I've always really liked Seifer, and I thought he hated me, but then 'surprise,' he likes me too. But you came out to me, and I like you just as much, if not more... Yeah, I like you more... Squall... you opened up to me, and you broke up with Rinoa... you did break up with her, right"
"Yeah, she went back to Timber in tears earlier"
Zell half-smiled, "...Seifer wouldn't have done that for me..."
~
Rinoa sat on the train, crying. This was the second boyfriend she had lost to Zell. Seifer had dumped her because he thought he was in love with some blue-eyed babe at the garden.
And now Squall had done the same thing to her... Maybe she would just go and try to commit suicide, it worked for Zell after-all. He thought no one loved him and now he's got both of Rinoa's ex-boyfriends hanging all over him.
Her suicide plot unfolded, she took the time to figure out what could be done to make sure someone would found her near-death to revive her, and if they didn't, then at least she would die leaving Squall and Seifer with guilt.
~
Seifer decided he should get up and go back to his own room.
He pulled himself up from Zell's bed and picked up his shirt
Seifer pulled on the shirt and walked to the door.
So, who's gonna die? Anyone have any idea? I have decided but I'll never tell! Well, until the 8th or 9th chapter at least. I'll give you a clue after the after note, don't scroll down further unless you want a minor spoiler. I've also gone back and made some corrections to the first 3 chapters so check it out. Stupid NC-17 ban... pisses me off!! Sign the petition! Please review!!! If you review, I'll sing for you! But you can't listen... Maybe I'll just say something nice about you! Heh...
SPOILER!!
DON'T READ!! (unless you want to, duh, I can't stop you anyway)
Here it comes...
SPOILER!!
And the winners are... Drum roll please...
These characters will not be the one to die.
-Xu -Nida -Edea -Headmaster Cid -Dr. Kadowaki
D
Heh heh heh... ya fell for that one didn't ya?
TROUBLED
CHAPTER 6
Could I Press Rewind?
A shirtless Seifer looked at the clock by Zell's bed, Zell hadn't come back all night.
*Seven am, the garbage truck beeps as it backs up and I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away. Could I press rewind? The credits traverse signifying the end but I missed the best part. Could we please go back to start?*
He rolled over a few times and fell asleep again. When he woke he again looked at the clock. He sighed.
*Eleven am, by now you would think that I would be up but your bed sheets shade the heat of choices I've made. And what did I find? I never thought I could want someone so much 'cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear.*
He just walked the clock's red digits get bigger until the two numbers on the left went back to 00. A piercing noise bit his ear.
*Twelve pm, and my dusty cell phone rings. Heavy head up from my pillow who could it be?... I hope it's you... hope it's you...*
~
Zell had stayed in Selphie's room all night. He had told her everything, about Squall, Seifer, and why he tried suicide. Zell didn't really have a crush on her anymore, but after all, she was his second best friend and since Squall was number one, he confided in Selphie instead.
She comforted him, but now she was worried. She wasn't sure if it was okay to go now. She didn't want to be gone if Zell needed her. If Zell made the wrong choices he could end up without any friends nearby, except for Quistis, but Selphie knew that Quisty drove everyone up a wall.
Zell rolled off the couch and fell a foot to the floor, it didn't hurt, but it woke him up. He grumbled and got to his feet and peeked into Selphie's bedroom. No Irvine as usual... she was good about that, a good girl. She was making him wait for a while, but Zell had a sneaky feeling that she was going to blow the cowboy's mind on this train trip, with emphasis on the blow part, and hell, probably further.
He went back to the couch and laid down, letting his thoughts entertain him.
*Sex on a train... go Selphie... I bet that would be interesting, especially around some of those sharp turns, me and Seif are gonna have to try that someday. Whoa? Seifer, was I thinking Seifer?*
He sighed and almost started crying just out of being so confused and so torn between the two.
*I can't turn away Squall now, right? Of course that's right, he sacrificed his life the way he knows it for me... but didn't Seifer do that too? He is changing the way he acts like a bully and he'll probably start getting picked on too.*
Now he was starting to cry...
*Someone pick for me, I can't decide, it's impossible, I want both equally... I've craved Seifer for so long, but he has always been such a jerk, but Squall finally opened up to someone, and it was me.*
His stomach growled and he decided to go find himself breakfast so he left a note for Selphie, composed himself, and walked to the cafeteria. He didn't want to face Seifer now, but he decided that they needed to talk, and now. Squall too. But after he fed himself.
When he entered the cafeteria other students looked at him and whispered to each other.
"Is that Zell Dincht? The suicidal freak?" "So he did survive" "What a crazy ass"
Zell couldn't make out anything they were saying so he decided to ignore it. The sapphire eyes found their way to the pay phone area in the back of the cafeteria and his feet followed. He picked up one of the house videophones. He didn't know if Seifer was at his room still, so he called Seifer's cell.
When Seifer answered, he looked like he hadn't slept in months.
"Hi Seif..."
"...Chicken" he acknowledged Zell.
Zell looked past Seifer at his own bed.
"You're still in my room."
"Yeah"
"I think we need to talk"
"Yeah"
"I don't know what to do Seif, I am completely torn between you and Squall, I don't know what I should do."
"..." Seifer didn't help at all, he only said nothing, so Zell decided to cut the one sided conversation short.
"Well, uhm, Seif, I need to find Squall and talk to him too..."
"..." His eyes trailed off away from the phone..
"Why don't you take a shower, you can use my shower if you don't want to go all the way back to your room."
"..."
"Okay... bye Seif"
Just as Zell was about to hang up Seifer burst into tears.
"I love you Zell!"
And the phone clicked off.
"...love you too Seif."
~
Before it had gotten too dark, Squall had got up and gone to his room. It seemed empty without Rinoa there to bug him. He lay in bed staring at the ceiling all night, not sleeping once. How could he? He had just given up his Rinoa for a ball of energy. He didn't know what he saw in Zell, maybe he was just too shallow to go beyond looks or maybe he was just attracted to that personality. He hadn't lied about what he told Zell. Squall did love Zell for being himself, but he wasn't entirely sure his feelings were only for Zell... he just didn't, he couldn't stop thinking of her. Rinoa.
~
Selphie Tilmitt awoke to the sound of Irvine's boots pacing back and forth. He had been waiting for her to wake up for about an hour now...
She sat up and stretched, looked around and let her eyes focus. Immediately seeing him, she had to try to sound very southern-bell as she greeted him
"Mornin' sugar."
The cowboy raised an eyebrow... She giggled, but didn't let up with teasing the cowboy.
"Well you're up bright'n'early, must be round quarter to five."
"Actually it's closer to noon.
"Oh!" She looked at the clock and ran into the bathroom, shutting the door behind her. As she started her shower she yelled at Irvine in the other room.
"Why'd you let me sleep in?"
"You're cute asleep"
"Asleep?"
"Always."
"That's better cowboy."
~
Zell knocked a few times on Squall's door, but no one answered. He put his ear against the door and could hear Squall muttering something. Zell knocked again and this time Squall answered.
"Unlocked" His voice came out as a croak.
"Hiya Squally..."
"..."
"You guys aren't going to make this easy on me, are you?"
"Guys?"
"Well, yeah, when I woke up this morning, Seifer came by and he kinda pulled the same thing you did..."
Squall raised an eyebrow.
"He just kinda kissed me and threw me on the bed and..."
"You slept with Seifer?! And you've only been with me for like 10 hours?"
"I didn't sleep with him. I pushed him off and hid in Selphie's room. I tried to call, and he's still in my room. And, I think he's a little upset."
"..."
"Tch."
"What?"
"You can't just sit there quiet and wait for me to figure things out... I need help..."
"...whatever"
"You... you jerk! You and Seifer are exactly the opposite, and both of you are equally assholes!"
"...sorry"
"You know what, I want both of you the same, but I can't figure out which to pick. I want both."
"I have never opened up to anyone else before, except Sis a few times, and now you just want to dump me...? For Seifer...? "
"I didn't say that..."
"You know you can't have both of us, it's impossible..."
"I know but,"
"I can't believe you'd even consider leaving me already!" *Wait, wasn't I just thinking about leaving him for Rinoa though? Maybe this just isn't meant to be, Zell*
"That's not fair Squall. I... I..."
"What?"
"Its just that I've always really liked Seifer, and I thought he hated me, but then 'surprise,' he likes me too. But you came out to me, and I like you just as much, if not more... Yeah, I like you more... Squall... you opened up to me, and you broke up with Rinoa... you did break up with her, right"
"Yeah, she went back to Timber in tears earlier"
Zell half-smiled, "...Seifer wouldn't have done that for me..."
~
Rinoa sat on the train, crying. This was the second boyfriend she had lost to Zell. Seifer had dumped her because he thought he was in love with some blue-eyed babe at the garden.
And now Squall had done the same thing to her... Maybe she would just go and try to commit suicide, it worked for Zell after-all. He thought no one loved him and now he's got both of Rinoa's ex-boyfriends hanging all over him.
Her suicide plot unfolded, she took the time to figure out what could be done to make sure someone would found her near-death to revive her, and if they didn't, then at least she would die leaving Squall and Seifer with guilt.
~
Seifer decided he should get up and go back to his own room.
He pulled himself up from Zell's bed and picked up his shirt
Seifer pulled on the shirt and walked to the door.
So, who's gonna die? Anyone have any idea? I have decided but I'll never tell! Well, until the 8th or 9th chapter at least. I'll give you a clue after the after note, don't scroll down further unless you want a minor spoiler. I've also gone back and made some corrections to the first 3 chapters so check it out. Stupid NC-17 ban... pisses me off!! Sign the petition! Please review!!! If you review, I'll sing for you! But you can't listen... Maybe I'll just say something nice about you! Heh...
SPOILER!!
DON'T READ!! (unless you want to, duh, I can't stop you anyway)
Here it comes...
SPOILER!!
And the winners are... Drum roll please...
These characters will not be the one to die.
-Xu -Nida -Edea -Headmaster Cid -Dr. Kadowaki
D
Heh heh heh... ya fell for that one didn't ya?