I slowly blinked my eyes open and looked around, seeing strange white walls
and dim lights. "Where am I. . .?"
"The hospital, deary."
I stretched my neck to look to the side and saw Marie.
"The. . . the hospital? Why?" I asked weakly.
"Don't you remember?" I shook my head with great difficulty. "My dear, you fell unconscious, and you stopped breathing."
A tear ran down me cheek. This was it. . . my past life had finally caught up with me. I'm. . . dying. "How much longer?" I whispered.
"About eight months."
I looked away. Everything was going so good. . . now the story would be true. But I don't want to. I know what we're all living for, and I have it! I don't want. . . I don't. . . He mustn't know. I can't stand him to see me in the end. But he'll have to take Ewan. Oh God. . . how would my son take it? "Marie, don't tell Christian. . . just give him Ewan."
"Are you going to hide again?" she asked.
"I don't want to hurt him. . ."
"Satine, you think it was an accident that he suddenly appeared in Germany after so long? You think it's an accident?"
"Marie. . ."
"It's not a accident at all. You two were born, by God, to love each other. That's your purpose on this world. Don't fight fate."
"I. . ."
"Satine," said a voice in a breath.
I looked toward the door to see the tear-streaked face of Christian. He smiled when I looked at him - that boyish grin from years ago that made my callous heart melt.
"I'll leave you two alone. . ."
Marie rose from her chair beside my bed and headed out the door, touching Christian's arm lightly, and shut the door behind her.
"Satine. . ." He slowly came to my side and reached out for my hand. "How are you?"
I swallowed a cry. "I'm good. . . really good. D-did I scare everyone earlier?" He nodded slowly. "I'm sorry. . . I'm fine actually." I forced a smile that would be nothing more than pale flesh eight months later.
I looked away, wiping away the tears that started to come.
He caressed my hand. "I love you," he whispered.
No. . . no, don't do this to me now that I can't have you. . . "Christian, please. . ." I cried, looking away from him. "You were right when you said it was too late. . ."
"I was wrong. I was stupid." He stood and touched my cheek and I looked into his blue sparkling eyes. "I. . . love. . . you."
Tears rolled down my cheeks, and I couldn't stop them. "No, please. . ."
"Marry me."
I searched his face. "W. . . what?"
He smiled deeply, wiping away the tears from my eyes and sitting beside me on the bed. He leaned in closer and rested his forehead on mine. "Marry me, Satine. I love you, so much. . . I was stupid for not realizing it sooner."
I wanted so much to say yes, to know that I would be happy for the rest of my life. . . but the rest of my life was only about eight months. I pushed away from him. "I can't."
"Why?" He sounded confused, but not angry. "Is it because of Jonathan?"
"No, of course not. I just wanted Ewan to have a father. . ."
"And he has one."
I bit my lip, fighting for the right words to say, but nothing came to mind. All I wanted to do was fall in his arms, to kiss his lips, to be his forever, raise Ewan together. . . but I can't have him back to the way he was before, half dead and pale. He deserved so much to be happy. . . he can't have the one he loves die again.
He took my hand. "Don't you know I've always loved you," he sang softly, kissing my fingers. "Even before there was time. Though you turn away I'll tell you still. Don't you know I've always loved you. . . And I always will."
A tear fell from my eye and I turned away. "Don't get too close to me and expect me to behave," I swung out of bed and stumbled to the wall. I put down my head and whispered, "I might just sneak a kiss if you come near my face. What I'm trying to say is we can't. . ."
"Well I know that no one is to blame. But do you feel my strength when you call my name? 'Cause I feel yours inside. How could this be more right?" He came up next to me and held me in his embrace. "And I have traveled through my mind, I've given all my dreams up to time. Tell me what else can I do. . . We'll I'm nothing without you."
I swallowed down my feelings of love for him. "I'm withering away. . . and teardrops are all that I can give. But do you really know what true love is?"
"Something your eyes never told me, but it's only now too plain to see. Brilliant disguise when you hold me, and I'm free." He pressed his forehead to mine and ran his fingers through my hair. "There's a light in your eyes that I used to see. There's a place in your heart where I used to be. Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me? There's a light in your eyes. . . Did you leave that light burning for me?"
I turned away from. Why didn't he understand that I can't love him? I can't hurt him again. "You know it only breaks my heart to see you standing in the dark, alone, waiting there for me to come back. I'm too afraid to show. . . If it's coming over you, like it's coming over me. . . I'm crashing like a tidal wave that drags me out to the sea. And I wanna be with you, and you wanna be with me. . ." He smiled warmly, resting his hand on my cheek. His warmth made my shake my head and push him off. "I don't love you any less, but I can't love you anymore."
I moved away to the door, hoping he would understand, but his arms snaked around my waist. "I believe that love is the answer. I believe that love will find the way."
I turned my head and glanced into his beautiful blue eyes. "No one loves me like you," I whispered. "No one loves me the way you do. No one loves me like you. No one loves me the way, the way that you do. . ."
He smiled, moving in front of me and kissed me softly. "I've been looking so long for you now you won't get away from my grasp. You've been living so long in hiding in hiding behind that false mask. And you know and I know that you ain't got long now to last. . . Your looks and your feelings are just the remains of your past."
I sighed, leaning my cheek against his. "Pride can stand a thousand trials," I whispered, wanting to be in his arms forever. "The strong will never fall. But watching stars without you, my soul cries."
"And I'll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete." He brushed his lips around my ear. "Put your arms around me. What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful. Do you manna get married, or run away?"
I sighed and took a step back to get a better grip on reality. "But Christian, how will we live? I'm running out of diamonds and we have no money. . ."
His hands on my waist pulled me closer and he whispered, "When we're hungry, love will keep us alive."
I smiled slightly, letting a tear run down my cheek. "But. . . but what about. . .?
He silenced me with a soft kiss. "Come what may, I will love you until my dying day. Marry me."
I half laughed and half sobbed out, "Yes."
He smiled widely and slipped a diamond ring onto my finger. "You have no idea how long I've been carrying this around."
I laughed. "Oh Christian, I love you."
"And I you." He leaned into me, and for that instant where the butterflies took over, I knew everything would be all right. But then. . .
I broke away from his kiss and wrapped my arms around his neck. "And. . . and Ewan? You will. . . take care of him, won't you?"
"Of course!" he laughed, holding me tightly.
I swallowed a lump in my throat. "And you will tell him what will. . . happen in the next eight months?"
If he hadn't been holding me I might not have been able to stand. "We can tell him together," he whispered. "Oh Satine. . . everything will be so different."
I started to sob. "Yeah," I whispered. After I had found my life, why did I have to lose it?
"The doctor wasn't positive that you knew. . ." He looked me in the eyes and smoothed back my hair, smiling.
"I had suspicions for a while now."
"For. . . for a while?"
I sighed. "Yes. Well first I thought it was a broken heart but then it became really serious. . ." I looked into his eyes, mine blurred with tears. "I'm afraid. . . but now you're here. . . I'm not so afraid anymore to die."
Christian took a deep breath and took a step back. "Die?"
"Well. . . yes. I'm. . . I'm dying." I looked into his confused face. "Aren't I?"
He laughed, placing his hand on my cheek. "Darling. . . you're not dying. Who told you that?"
"Well, no one, but Marie said there was eight months left. . ."
". . .until the baby comes."
I froze. My mouth tensed. Tears began to fall down my cheeks. "Th-the b-b- b. . ."
He held me close. "Satine, you're going to have a baby! WE'RE going to have a baby! A little brother or sister for Ewan. . ."
"A baby. . ." I whispered, closing my eyes. I'm not dying! I raised my hand to my eyes and saw the ring, shining in the small amount of light. I was marrying Christian, having a baby. . . everything was all right.
"Christian, I love you. . ."
And he kissed me, confirming our eternal happiness together. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------- Disclaimer: I do not own Moulin Rouge, not even Christian. ::sigh::
Author's Note: Oooh hoo hoo, there's another ELM. . . sorry it took so long! It wasn't easy to make that! And. . . AAAHHHH!!!! I have over 100 reviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!! Ok well. . . anyway, this is not over yet. . . I have about 3 more planned after this one, so be ready!!
SONGS USED: 'I've Always Loved You' by Third Day 'We Can't Be Friends' by Deborah Cox 'Love's Light' by Vertical Horizon 'Light In Your Eyes' by Blessed Union of Souls 'Stranded' by Plumb 'I Can't Love You Anymore' by Lyle Lovett 'I Believe' by Blessed Union of Souls 'No One Loves Me Like You' by JARS OF CLAY!!!! 'Phantom of the Opera' from Phantom 'I'm Kissing You' by Des'ree 'Slide' by Goo Goo Dolls 'When we're hungry, love will keep us alive' by the Eagles
"The hospital, deary."
I stretched my neck to look to the side and saw Marie.
"The. . . the hospital? Why?" I asked weakly.
"Don't you remember?" I shook my head with great difficulty. "My dear, you fell unconscious, and you stopped breathing."
A tear ran down me cheek. This was it. . . my past life had finally caught up with me. I'm. . . dying. "How much longer?" I whispered.
"About eight months."
I looked away. Everything was going so good. . . now the story would be true. But I don't want to. I know what we're all living for, and I have it! I don't want. . . I don't. . . He mustn't know. I can't stand him to see me in the end. But he'll have to take Ewan. Oh God. . . how would my son take it? "Marie, don't tell Christian. . . just give him Ewan."
"Are you going to hide again?" she asked.
"I don't want to hurt him. . ."
"Satine, you think it was an accident that he suddenly appeared in Germany after so long? You think it's an accident?"
"Marie. . ."
"It's not a accident at all. You two were born, by God, to love each other. That's your purpose on this world. Don't fight fate."
"I. . ."
"Satine," said a voice in a breath.
I looked toward the door to see the tear-streaked face of Christian. He smiled when I looked at him - that boyish grin from years ago that made my callous heart melt.
"I'll leave you two alone. . ."
Marie rose from her chair beside my bed and headed out the door, touching Christian's arm lightly, and shut the door behind her.
"Satine. . ." He slowly came to my side and reached out for my hand. "How are you?"
I swallowed a cry. "I'm good. . . really good. D-did I scare everyone earlier?" He nodded slowly. "I'm sorry. . . I'm fine actually." I forced a smile that would be nothing more than pale flesh eight months later.
I looked away, wiping away the tears that started to come.
He caressed my hand. "I love you," he whispered.
No. . . no, don't do this to me now that I can't have you. . . "Christian, please. . ." I cried, looking away from him. "You were right when you said it was too late. . ."
"I was wrong. I was stupid." He stood and touched my cheek and I looked into his blue sparkling eyes. "I. . . love. . . you."
Tears rolled down my cheeks, and I couldn't stop them. "No, please. . ."
"Marry me."
I searched his face. "W. . . what?"
He smiled deeply, wiping away the tears from my eyes and sitting beside me on the bed. He leaned in closer and rested his forehead on mine. "Marry me, Satine. I love you, so much. . . I was stupid for not realizing it sooner."
I wanted so much to say yes, to know that I would be happy for the rest of my life. . . but the rest of my life was only about eight months. I pushed away from him. "I can't."
"Why?" He sounded confused, but not angry. "Is it because of Jonathan?"
"No, of course not. I just wanted Ewan to have a father. . ."
"And he has one."
I bit my lip, fighting for the right words to say, but nothing came to mind. All I wanted to do was fall in his arms, to kiss his lips, to be his forever, raise Ewan together. . . but I can't have him back to the way he was before, half dead and pale. He deserved so much to be happy. . . he can't have the one he loves die again.
He took my hand. "Don't you know I've always loved you," he sang softly, kissing my fingers. "Even before there was time. Though you turn away I'll tell you still. Don't you know I've always loved you. . . And I always will."
A tear fell from my eye and I turned away. "Don't get too close to me and expect me to behave," I swung out of bed and stumbled to the wall. I put down my head and whispered, "I might just sneak a kiss if you come near my face. What I'm trying to say is we can't. . ."
"Well I know that no one is to blame. But do you feel my strength when you call my name? 'Cause I feel yours inside. How could this be more right?" He came up next to me and held me in his embrace. "And I have traveled through my mind, I've given all my dreams up to time. Tell me what else can I do. . . We'll I'm nothing without you."
I swallowed down my feelings of love for him. "I'm withering away. . . and teardrops are all that I can give. But do you really know what true love is?"
"Something your eyes never told me, but it's only now too plain to see. Brilliant disguise when you hold me, and I'm free." He pressed his forehead to mine and ran his fingers through my hair. "There's a light in your eyes that I used to see. There's a place in your heart where I used to be. Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me? There's a light in your eyes. . . Did you leave that light burning for me?"
I turned away from. Why didn't he understand that I can't love him? I can't hurt him again. "You know it only breaks my heart to see you standing in the dark, alone, waiting there for me to come back. I'm too afraid to show. . . If it's coming over you, like it's coming over me. . . I'm crashing like a tidal wave that drags me out to the sea. And I wanna be with you, and you wanna be with me. . ." He smiled warmly, resting his hand on my cheek. His warmth made my shake my head and push him off. "I don't love you any less, but I can't love you anymore."
I moved away to the door, hoping he would understand, but his arms snaked around my waist. "I believe that love is the answer. I believe that love will find the way."
I turned my head and glanced into his beautiful blue eyes. "No one loves me like you," I whispered. "No one loves me the way you do. No one loves me like you. No one loves me the way, the way that you do. . ."
He smiled, moving in front of me and kissed me softly. "I've been looking so long for you now you won't get away from my grasp. You've been living so long in hiding in hiding behind that false mask. And you know and I know that you ain't got long now to last. . . Your looks and your feelings are just the remains of your past."
I sighed, leaning my cheek against his. "Pride can stand a thousand trials," I whispered, wanting to be in his arms forever. "The strong will never fall. But watching stars without you, my soul cries."
"And I'll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete." He brushed his lips around my ear. "Put your arms around me. What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful. Do you manna get married, or run away?"
I sighed and took a step back to get a better grip on reality. "But Christian, how will we live? I'm running out of diamonds and we have no money. . ."
His hands on my waist pulled me closer and he whispered, "When we're hungry, love will keep us alive."
I smiled slightly, letting a tear run down my cheek. "But. . . but what about. . .?
He silenced me with a soft kiss. "Come what may, I will love you until my dying day. Marry me."
I half laughed and half sobbed out, "Yes."
He smiled widely and slipped a diamond ring onto my finger. "You have no idea how long I've been carrying this around."
I laughed. "Oh Christian, I love you."
"And I you." He leaned into me, and for that instant where the butterflies took over, I knew everything would be all right. But then. . .
I broke away from his kiss and wrapped my arms around his neck. "And. . . and Ewan? You will. . . take care of him, won't you?"
"Of course!" he laughed, holding me tightly.
I swallowed a lump in my throat. "And you will tell him what will. . . happen in the next eight months?"
If he hadn't been holding me I might not have been able to stand. "We can tell him together," he whispered. "Oh Satine. . . everything will be so different."
I started to sob. "Yeah," I whispered. After I had found my life, why did I have to lose it?
"The doctor wasn't positive that you knew. . ." He looked me in the eyes and smoothed back my hair, smiling.
"I had suspicions for a while now."
"For. . . for a while?"
I sighed. "Yes. Well first I thought it was a broken heart but then it became really serious. . ." I looked into his eyes, mine blurred with tears. "I'm afraid. . . but now you're here. . . I'm not so afraid anymore to die."
Christian took a deep breath and took a step back. "Die?"
"Well. . . yes. I'm. . . I'm dying." I looked into his confused face. "Aren't I?"
He laughed, placing his hand on my cheek. "Darling. . . you're not dying. Who told you that?"
"Well, no one, but Marie said there was eight months left. . ."
". . .until the baby comes."
I froze. My mouth tensed. Tears began to fall down my cheeks. "Th-the b-b- b. . ."
He held me close. "Satine, you're going to have a baby! WE'RE going to have a baby! A little brother or sister for Ewan. . ."
"A baby. . ." I whispered, closing my eyes. I'm not dying! I raised my hand to my eyes and saw the ring, shining in the small amount of light. I was marrying Christian, having a baby. . . everything was all right.
"Christian, I love you. . ."
And he kissed me, confirming our eternal happiness together. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------- Disclaimer: I do not own Moulin Rouge, not even Christian. ::sigh::
Author's Note: Oooh hoo hoo, there's another ELM. . . sorry it took so long! It wasn't easy to make that! And. . . AAAHHHH!!!! I have over 100 reviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!! Ok well. . . anyway, this is not over yet. . . I have about 3 more planned after this one, so be ready!!
SONGS USED: 'I've Always Loved You' by Third Day 'We Can't Be Friends' by Deborah Cox 'Love's Light' by Vertical Horizon 'Light In Your Eyes' by Blessed Union of Souls 'Stranded' by Plumb 'I Can't Love You Anymore' by Lyle Lovett 'I Believe' by Blessed Union of Souls 'No One Loves Me Like You' by JARS OF CLAY!!!! 'Phantom of the Opera' from Phantom 'I'm Kissing You' by Des'ree 'Slide' by Goo Goo Dolls 'When we're hungry, love will keep us alive' by the Eagles