Chapter Three ~ A Thousand Miles
Shasa Perino
A/N: Please read the song as you read the story. It will help fill in the abruptness of the plot. Thankies. Makin' my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass and I'm homebound
I dropped my wand. What had I done? I had killed him. Ron. The person I loved more than anyone else. His face passed through my mind a million times. I saw us playing wizard's chess. I saw him rescuing me from that mountain troll. I saw his face at the Yule Ball, jealous of Viktor Krum. I could not forgive myself.
Staring blankly aheadJust makin' my way
I'm makin' a way
Through the crowd
I pushed my mind forward to the moment that he kissed me. Our first and only kiss. Oh how I loved that kiss.
I dropped to my knees and kissed the cold, pale face that was once Ron's. I would never be the same. I stared at his face for hours. The sun had come up by the time I moved again.
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
I screamed out to no one in particular. Maybe the giant squid. Maybe Ron. I don't know. I screamed, "Why? Why did he have to go? It's my fault! I killed him!! I need him to be with me!" I couldn't control it anymore. I burst out into a fit of hysteria. I picked up Ron's wand, snapped it in half, and threw it into the lake. Nothing I could do would bring my love back. I began to wonder. What would have happened if Ron was still here? I could just picture a tall little boy with frizzy red hair running around. He was running to his godfather. Harry. Oh, why, God, did he have to die?
If I could fall into the skyDo you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you…tonight.
I needed to see him again. I just had too. I'd walk from Scotland to China. I didn't care. I had to see Ron again.
It's always times like these When I think of youAnd wonder if you ever think of me
I had to ask him. Why didn't he listen to me? Didn't he know that we all loved him? Probably not. But if he did, he didn't care. "Oh, why, Ron? You were so good at so many things!"
Cause everything's so wrongAnd I don't belong
Livin' in your precious memory
This isn't right. You should be here. You were the one that everyone loved. No one liked little-miss-know-it-all. Only you! See? I don't need to live in your memory. I do need to live making memories. With you.
Cause I need youAnd I miss you
And now I wonder
"Ron! I need you here! I need you! You're the only person who truly knows me! Please, come back!"
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you…tonight.
"Ron! I'd do anything to just see you one more time! I'd quit Hogwarts! Please, please, come back!"
And I, I don't want to let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I, I don't want to let this go
I, I don't…
Ron's face flitted back into my mind. I remembered what he said to me before we were taken underwater in the Triwizard Tournament. He said, "Your little boyfriend chose you? Aww, how sweet!" I had meant to curse him for that. I think I forgot. The excitement of the tournament had gotten to me. Now, I muttered under my breath at him. "Damn you, Ronald Weasley."
Makin' my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass and I'm homebound
I got up from my position by the lake. I muttered a spell that sent Ron straight to the Hospital Wing. I ran as fast as I could to the castle. I nearly bumped into a clutter of first years, and I heard one of them say, "What's up with the head girl?"
Staring blankly aheadJust makin' my way
I'm makin' a way
Through the crowd.
I made my way through the twisting passageways. I bumped into a very disgruntled Professor Snape, and he shouted after me, "What the bloody hell do you think you're doing, Miss Granger?" I ignored him. I had one thought on my mind, and that was to get to Dumbledore's office. When I finally reached the stone gargoyle, I said the password (Butterbeer). Head Girl's privileges, you know.
And I still need youAnd I still miss you
And now I wonder
I thought for a moment as the door opened. That picture of that little boy came into my head again. He was soaring on a broom way up in the air. He had his father's Quidditch talent.
If I could fall into the skyDo you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you…tonight.
I sighed as I stepped onto the moving staircase. It felt like time was moving ever so slowly. It felt like I had been between Scotland and China twelve hundred times this past night. I was relieved when Dumbledore opened the door to his office before I even knocked on the door.
"What is troubling you, Miss Granger?"
"Sir," I started. How was I to tell him? I decided to just tell him straight out. "Sir, I murdered Ron Weasley last night."
A/N: No, that's not the end. Though that would be a wonderful ending, wouldn't it? Snicker, snicker. But I shall not do that to you. Nope. You'll get at least one more chapter out of me. Possibly two. Aren't you so lucky?
