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Marissa watched the condensation trickle down the windows as a shadow of fog grew against the panes. She had been sitting in this "group" session for a little over an hour and had been nauseated for most of it. She despised vulnerability in people, personally speaking the girl could be stone. Hurt, pained, exposed, these were words not present in her personal dictionary of life. To be expected to use them in common terms everyday in this mini share all crap was a fruitless demand. Marissa sighed and brushed away a few strands of hair that had fallen in her eye, feeling a pair of eyes bore into her questioningly, she turned her gaze slightly. Scott held his eyes steady, she challenged him with her own. Raising an eyebrow, Shelby cleared her throat.
"Didn't realize the view was that appealing Scott" Shelby shot, interrupting Ezra's long winded speech on how name brand clothing encouraged drug cartels in America.
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about your eyes down her shirt"
"God Shelby, you're so crude" Juliette scoffed disgusted
"Crude but correct" Daisy pointed out
"Well if you ask me they're kinda hard to miss," Dave laughed
"Well enjoy the view cause clearly you won't be getting up close with the scenery any time soon, reject" Marissa stood up annoyed "Look Shelby, I wasn't aware you controlled rapid eye movements and peripheral vision, so lets call it an honest mistake and you can get a life"
"Why don't you get some self control? You're here less that 40 hours and you're already throwing yourself at everyone"
"It's funny, I didn't know Mattel made Barbies with personality disorders now"
"Stop calling me that"
"Oh what, you control the visual AND speech process around here now? I don't think so"
By this point Marissa and Shelby were going at each other, Scott was trying to break it up, Dave and Daisy were arguing over feminist issues, Ezra was depressed cause no one paid any attention to him, Kat was trying to calm everyone down and Juliette was talking to Auggie about Marissa's boots. Peter had, had enough.
"ALRIGHT EVERYONE SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP!"
Everyone, with the exception of Marissa and Shelby turned pale and sat down.
"Well if you didn't turn into freakin CUJO every time a life form enters your immediate air space, MAYBE you'd find out that you aren't superior to the human race, as you OBVIOUSLY view yourself."
"I never said I was better than anyone!"
"Yea, you just thought it went without saying, well let me tell you this, that way there is no confusion. I've met hundreds of girls like you, hell I was you for a while there, and all you are is some pathetic, used and most likely abused slut, with a resentment for everything cause life didn't hand you a comfy pillow and a cozy place to sleep, well get over it, and get over yourself, lots of people have issues, and everyone goes through their own shit, no one is superior because they've had worse things happen to them, cause whose to say what's worse than what. You have been nothing but a turbo bitch to me since I've gotten here and maybe they put up with your attitude issues but I won't so knock it off and get the hell away from me"
Silence filled the room. No one had ever told Shelby off quite like this. The new girl had no real idea of Shelby's past, no one had told her about it, few really knew, but Marissa had intuition and she knew how to use it. She could get to the heart of the issue without any cues. Shelby's face grew dark, slightly softened as for the first time in a long while she fought back tears. Who the hell did this girl think she was and how could she know? How could she know so much? Anger swelled within Shelby and even though everyone saw it coming everyone was too much in shock to do anything about it. Within two seconds Shelby's fist came in direct contact with Marissa's cheek. A room full of gasps chorused in the background, Peter stepped forward aware of the severity of this situation. Marissa wasted no time in returning the advance. Growing up with two older brothers, Marissa knew how to be tough, living basically on the streets had taught the girls the same moves, the same bitterness. Marissa clocked Shelby in the eye hard enough to cause instant swelling. Marissa could apparently take and give hits better, truth of the matter was that Maurice had made her take every self defense class known to man so she knew what she was doing.
"Girls, GIRLS!!!! Get off each other now!!! Knock it off!!! KNOCK IT OFF!"
Scott had grabbed Shelby by the waist and with the help of Ezra and Kat successfully held her back; Auggie and Dave had pulled Marissa back far enough so that her swings wouldn't reach. Juliette had run to get Sophie and Daisy sat back amused. Peter stepped in between the two girls with his arms spread apart prohibiting either girl from getting close enough to inflict damage on the other.
"Get the hell off me!!!" Shelby yelled, squirming violently against the three holding her back "Who the hell do you think you are!! How dare you! You are such a bitch when I get out of this I swear to God you are going to pay ugh I hate you!"
Convinced that little outburst was gonna set her off Auggie and David held tighter to Marissa whose look of anger and disgust had faded instantly when her arms had been gripped. Marissa looked down and winced in pain, her head was throbbing and her ribs hurt.
"Get off" her voice came out soft and meek, a complete antitheism to her usual personality. So quiet that it went unheard, she could no longer struggle against them, flash backs of that night popped into her brain, grabbing onto her and tearing at her mind in 50 different directions, each one stinging harsher than the previous. Black shadows flashed over her eyes and she instinctively grabbed her head as a shrill ring stung out. By now Marissa was finding it hard to catch her breath. That night was coming back to her, the whole night.
"Make it stop"
The physical pain was too much to endure and Marissa felt the ground go soft beneath her. Not quite unconscious, Marissa was aware of her surroundings but blinded by these visions, almost like snap shots forever mantled in her mind. After every shot a loud shriek would ring in her ear, she couldn't tell if the sound was real or just in her mind. Ever since that night she'd been able to pretend nothing had happened, she hadn't been able to remember it all that clearly, but now, all at once, pieces were coming back to her things she didn't want to know, to remember. She wanted to rinse her brain out with acid to burn away the horrible memories.
"Is she okay?" By now even Shelby was slightly concerned, although she'd never admit it. Auggie and David let her slip down to the floor but kneeled down next to her.
"Marissa? Marissa can you hear me?" Peter sat in front of her not sure what was happening. Just then, Juliette flew in dragging Sophie with her.
"Whats going - oh my god! Peter is she okay?? What happened?"
"We don't know! She just started to freak out" Auggie looked a little scared, not sure what the hell was going on with this girl.
"As soon as we grabbed her arms she just like spazzed out!" David offered
"Alright, someone get the nurse"
"No! I'm okay I'm okay" Marissa slowly opened her eyes and began taking deeper, fuller breaths. "It must just be a migraine... it's gotta be the lighting or something" Though a believable excuse, everyone looked around at each other skeptically.
"Well, why dont' we get you to the infirmary to get you checked out"
"I'm fine"
"Just to be on the safe side..." Sophie pressed
"Look, I said I'm fine" Marissa stood up, swaying slightly and David reached to balance her, she shrugged him off.
"Alright guys, " Peter decided not to press the issue, she seemed alright, although the first thing one picks up on at a place like horizon, is that nothing is ever as it appears, " this meetings over, I think we all need a good break, take an hour free and then get to the dorms"
"Peter, I really think it'd be a good idea if she.."
"Soph... lets just let this one go" Sophie stared him in the eye and then sighed, looking down.
"Alright, but I don't feel good about it"
"I don't feel good about any of this"
And with that the group dispersed. Juliette and Daisy went back to the dorms early to finish their English project, Auggie and Scott went to play some ball, Shelby went to stew over the events of the meeting, Ezra went to the library to work on an assignment with Kat, and David followed Marissa out onto the grounds.
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"So what do you think her issue was?" Scott asked Auggie as he jumped into a clean lay up "42-38" Scott made sure Auggie knew he was losing.
"Yea not for long meat" Auggie responded by sinking a 3 pointer from the foul lines "I'm not sure, she definitely freaked though"
"It was pretty intense, did you see her face?"
"Yea she looked like she was gonna pass out, scared the shit out of me"
"She looked scared"
"Well, maybe one of her demons stopped to pay a visit" Auggie smirked and sunk another 3 pointer. "You're finished now meat"
"Oh you think so huh?"
The game continued on even though the incident still weighed heavy in their minds.
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Marissa took the path down past the lake, the sun was setting and she didn't have must time left before she had to get back for "curfew" whatever the hell that was about. She still couldn't explain it, it had just washed over her. Well, whatever it was, it was over. Marissa laughed at this. It would never be over. It would follow her for the rest of her life. She sighed and glanced towards the docks. The sun was setting in a gorgeous array of colors over the rippling, lazy water of the lake. It was getting chilly, this was a mountainous region, well mountainous compared to the streets of New York. Silently cursing herself for not bringing a jacket, Marissa strolled down onto the docks. David, who had been following her since they left group stopped at the end of the dock.
"How long are you just gonna stand there?, its annoying"
"Sorry you find me so obnoxious"
"I didn't say obnoxious I said annoying"
"Theres a difference?"
"Yea, a big one"
"So you don't find me obnoxious"
"No" she said turning around to face him "I find you VERY VERY obnoxious, it was just at that moment I was calling what you were doing annoying. I think that you are obnoxious and obnoxious people tend to have annoying actions. I was referring to the action of you just standing there after stalking me for the past 30 minutes. You could at least say something instead of standing there like some freaking serial killer."
"I see. Deepest apologies"
"Whatever" Marissa turned back around a shivered
"Here" David stepped forward and handed her his sweatshirt
"Thanks" she had no issues with guys attempting to be chivalrous, it was kinda endearing, and to be frank, her thin sweater left her fashionable yet freezing.
They just stood together at the end of the docks watching the sun set. It was pretty platonic and neither one said much. Marissa decided David was an acceptable acquaintance no matter how much the others hated him. They would definitely get along.
"We should probably get going, you're hot and all, but no chick is worth kitchens"
Marissa laughed a sweet, warm laugh. Her eyes sparkled. "What is this kitchens anyhow? and why is everyone so horrified of it?"
"Oh Marissa...." David sighed in exaggeration, swinging his arm over her shoulders, " let me tell you about the wrath that is kitchens..."
And with that they headed back to the dorms.
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(Somewhere in an abandoned alley in NYC)
He could feel the cold metal lean against his throat, oppressively stinging his jugular. The steely glint reflected in the moonlight and beads of sweat mixed with blood down his face. A swollen eye, broken nose, dislocated jaw, and now this. This wasn't how it was supposed to go down, this wasn't how it was supposed to happen. There was no use in pleading, it was over, no one was coming... all he could do was sit back and wait for the pain... and it came, over and over again.
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Marissa watched the condensation trickle down the windows as a shadow of fog grew against the panes. She had been sitting in this "group" session for a little over an hour and had been nauseated for most of it. She despised vulnerability in people, personally speaking the girl could be stone. Hurt, pained, exposed, these were words not present in her personal dictionary of life. To be expected to use them in common terms everyday in this mini share all crap was a fruitless demand. Marissa sighed and brushed away a few strands of hair that had fallen in her eye, feeling a pair of eyes bore into her questioningly, she turned her gaze slightly. Scott held his eyes steady, she challenged him with her own. Raising an eyebrow, Shelby cleared her throat.
"Didn't realize the view was that appealing Scott" Shelby shot, interrupting Ezra's long winded speech on how name brand clothing encouraged drug cartels in America.
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about your eyes down her shirt"
"God Shelby, you're so crude" Juliette scoffed disgusted
"Crude but correct" Daisy pointed out
"Well if you ask me they're kinda hard to miss," Dave laughed
"Well enjoy the view cause clearly you won't be getting up close with the scenery any time soon, reject" Marissa stood up annoyed "Look Shelby, I wasn't aware you controlled rapid eye movements and peripheral vision, so lets call it an honest mistake and you can get a life"
"Why don't you get some self control? You're here less that 40 hours and you're already throwing yourself at everyone"
"It's funny, I didn't know Mattel made Barbies with personality disorders now"
"Stop calling me that"
"Oh what, you control the visual AND speech process around here now? I don't think so"
By this point Marissa and Shelby were going at each other, Scott was trying to break it up, Dave and Daisy were arguing over feminist issues, Ezra was depressed cause no one paid any attention to him, Kat was trying to calm everyone down and Juliette was talking to Auggie about Marissa's boots. Peter had, had enough.
"ALRIGHT EVERYONE SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP!"
Everyone, with the exception of Marissa and Shelby turned pale and sat down.
"Well if you didn't turn into freakin CUJO every time a life form enters your immediate air space, MAYBE you'd find out that you aren't superior to the human race, as you OBVIOUSLY view yourself."
"I never said I was better than anyone!"
"Yea, you just thought it went without saying, well let me tell you this, that way there is no confusion. I've met hundreds of girls like you, hell I was you for a while there, and all you are is some pathetic, used and most likely abused slut, with a resentment for everything cause life didn't hand you a comfy pillow and a cozy place to sleep, well get over it, and get over yourself, lots of people have issues, and everyone goes through their own shit, no one is superior because they've had worse things happen to them, cause whose to say what's worse than what. You have been nothing but a turbo bitch to me since I've gotten here and maybe they put up with your attitude issues but I won't so knock it off and get the hell away from me"
Silence filled the room. No one had ever told Shelby off quite like this. The new girl had no real idea of Shelby's past, no one had told her about it, few really knew, but Marissa had intuition and she knew how to use it. She could get to the heart of the issue without any cues. Shelby's face grew dark, slightly softened as for the first time in a long while she fought back tears. Who the hell did this girl think she was and how could she know? How could she know so much? Anger swelled within Shelby and even though everyone saw it coming everyone was too much in shock to do anything about it. Within two seconds Shelby's fist came in direct contact with Marissa's cheek. A room full of gasps chorused in the background, Peter stepped forward aware of the severity of this situation. Marissa wasted no time in returning the advance. Growing up with two older brothers, Marissa knew how to be tough, living basically on the streets had taught the girls the same moves, the same bitterness. Marissa clocked Shelby in the eye hard enough to cause instant swelling. Marissa could apparently take and give hits better, truth of the matter was that Maurice had made her take every self defense class known to man so she knew what she was doing.
"Girls, GIRLS!!!! Get off each other now!!! Knock it off!!! KNOCK IT OFF!"
Scott had grabbed Shelby by the waist and with the help of Ezra and Kat successfully held her back; Auggie and Dave had pulled Marissa back far enough so that her swings wouldn't reach. Juliette had run to get Sophie and Daisy sat back amused. Peter stepped in between the two girls with his arms spread apart prohibiting either girl from getting close enough to inflict damage on the other.
"Get the hell off me!!!" Shelby yelled, squirming violently against the three holding her back "Who the hell do you think you are!! How dare you! You are such a bitch when I get out of this I swear to God you are going to pay ugh I hate you!"
Convinced that little outburst was gonna set her off Auggie and David held tighter to Marissa whose look of anger and disgust had faded instantly when her arms had been gripped. Marissa looked down and winced in pain, her head was throbbing and her ribs hurt.
"Get off" her voice came out soft and meek, a complete antitheism to her usual personality. So quiet that it went unheard, she could no longer struggle against them, flash backs of that night popped into her brain, grabbing onto her and tearing at her mind in 50 different directions, each one stinging harsher than the previous. Black shadows flashed over her eyes and she instinctively grabbed her head as a shrill ring stung out. By now Marissa was finding it hard to catch her breath. That night was coming back to her, the whole night.
"Make it stop"
The physical pain was too much to endure and Marissa felt the ground go soft beneath her. Not quite unconscious, Marissa was aware of her surroundings but blinded by these visions, almost like snap shots forever mantled in her mind. After every shot a loud shriek would ring in her ear, she couldn't tell if the sound was real or just in her mind. Ever since that night she'd been able to pretend nothing had happened, she hadn't been able to remember it all that clearly, but now, all at once, pieces were coming back to her things she didn't want to know, to remember. She wanted to rinse her brain out with acid to burn away the horrible memories.
"Is she okay?" By now even Shelby was slightly concerned, although she'd never admit it. Auggie and David let her slip down to the floor but kneeled down next to her.
"Marissa? Marissa can you hear me?" Peter sat in front of her not sure what was happening. Just then, Juliette flew in dragging Sophie with her.
"Whats going - oh my god! Peter is she okay?? What happened?"
"We don't know! She just started to freak out" Auggie looked a little scared, not sure what the hell was going on with this girl.
"As soon as we grabbed her arms she just like spazzed out!" David offered
"Alright, someone get the nurse"
"No! I'm okay I'm okay" Marissa slowly opened her eyes and began taking deeper, fuller breaths. "It must just be a migraine... it's gotta be the lighting or something" Though a believable excuse, everyone looked around at each other skeptically.
"Well, why dont' we get you to the infirmary to get you checked out"
"I'm fine"
"Just to be on the safe side..." Sophie pressed
"Look, I said I'm fine" Marissa stood up, swaying slightly and David reached to balance her, she shrugged him off.
"Alright guys, " Peter decided not to press the issue, she seemed alright, although the first thing one picks up on at a place like horizon, is that nothing is ever as it appears, " this meetings over, I think we all need a good break, take an hour free and then get to the dorms"
"Peter, I really think it'd be a good idea if she.."
"Soph... lets just let this one go" Sophie stared him in the eye and then sighed, looking down.
"Alright, but I don't feel good about it"
"I don't feel good about any of this"
And with that the group dispersed. Juliette and Daisy went back to the dorms early to finish their English project, Auggie and Scott went to play some ball, Shelby went to stew over the events of the meeting, Ezra went to the library to work on an assignment with Kat, and David followed Marissa out onto the grounds.
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"So what do you think her issue was?" Scott asked Auggie as he jumped into a clean lay up "42-38" Scott made sure Auggie knew he was losing.
"Yea not for long meat" Auggie responded by sinking a 3 pointer from the foul lines "I'm not sure, she definitely freaked though"
"It was pretty intense, did you see her face?"
"Yea she looked like she was gonna pass out, scared the shit out of me"
"She looked scared"
"Well, maybe one of her demons stopped to pay a visit" Auggie smirked and sunk another 3 pointer. "You're finished now meat"
"Oh you think so huh?"
The game continued on even though the incident still weighed heavy in their minds.
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Marissa took the path down past the lake, the sun was setting and she didn't have must time left before she had to get back for "curfew" whatever the hell that was about. She still couldn't explain it, it had just washed over her. Well, whatever it was, it was over. Marissa laughed at this. It would never be over. It would follow her for the rest of her life. She sighed and glanced towards the docks. The sun was setting in a gorgeous array of colors over the rippling, lazy water of the lake. It was getting chilly, this was a mountainous region, well mountainous compared to the streets of New York. Silently cursing herself for not bringing a jacket, Marissa strolled down onto the docks. David, who had been following her since they left group stopped at the end of the dock.
"How long are you just gonna stand there?, its annoying"
"Sorry you find me so obnoxious"
"I didn't say obnoxious I said annoying"
"Theres a difference?"
"Yea, a big one"
"So you don't find me obnoxious"
"No" she said turning around to face him "I find you VERY VERY obnoxious, it was just at that moment I was calling what you were doing annoying. I think that you are obnoxious and obnoxious people tend to have annoying actions. I was referring to the action of you just standing there after stalking me for the past 30 minutes. You could at least say something instead of standing there like some freaking serial killer."
"I see. Deepest apologies"
"Whatever" Marissa turned back around a shivered
"Here" David stepped forward and handed her his sweatshirt
"Thanks" she had no issues with guys attempting to be chivalrous, it was kinda endearing, and to be frank, her thin sweater left her fashionable yet freezing.
They just stood together at the end of the docks watching the sun set. It was pretty platonic and neither one said much. Marissa decided David was an acceptable acquaintance no matter how much the others hated him. They would definitely get along.
"We should probably get going, you're hot and all, but no chick is worth kitchens"
Marissa laughed a sweet, warm laugh. Her eyes sparkled. "What is this kitchens anyhow? and why is everyone so horrified of it?"
"Oh Marissa...." David sighed in exaggeration, swinging his arm over her shoulders, " let me tell you about the wrath that is kitchens..."
And with that they headed back to the dorms.
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(Somewhere in an abandoned alley in NYC)
He could feel the cold metal lean against his throat, oppressively stinging his jugular. The steely glint reflected in the moonlight and beads of sweat mixed with blood down his face. A swollen eye, broken nose, dislocated jaw, and now this. This wasn't how it was supposed to go down, this wasn't how it was supposed to happen. There was no use in pleading, it was over, no one was coming... all he could do was sit back and wait for the pain... and it came, over and over again.
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