Standard disclaimers: Sailor Moon doesn't belong to me. Sailor Moon belongs to Naoko Takeuchi, Kodansha Comics, Mixx Comics, Toei animation, Pioneer and a bunch of other companies I'm probably forgetting (sorry).
I've been feeling so depressed lately. I don't know what's wrong with me. Well, maybe that isn't entirely truthful. I live in a grand palace, surrounded by the most loving and caring friends one could hope for; and yet, I find myself feeling lonely. What's brought this on?
I saw my friend, Small Lady Princess Serenity today. She was walking through one of the garden's with her fiancé, Helios. I transformed into my cat form and dashed behind a large azalea bush. They walked by without noticing me hiding there beside the path. When they were gone, I transformed back into my human form and ran to my room inside the palace.
Now that I look back on the incident, I think I was being rather irrational and silly about the whole thing. But seeing them together, happy and in love, was just too much for me. It brought about such feelings of bitterness and jealousy; things I've never really felt before. These things I'd rather not feel again.
They do make a beautiful couple, there's no denying that. She'll be sixteen soon. Shortly after her birthday they'll be getting married. Then Small Lady will go to live with Helios. And I'll be left behind. And I'll be more alone than ever.
Sometimes it's hard being different from other people. Everyone here at the palace knows that first-hand. The sailor senshi are different from other people. They had to give up normalcy in order to do their duty. Mother and Father, they are the only other's like me. Other than we three, there are no more of our kind. But, at least they have each other. Who do I have?
I think Mother must have sensed my feelings somehow. Maybe that's why she decided to raise me in my human form; so that I would make more friends and not be as lonely. But, the royal family and the sailor senshi are my only real friends. They are all I know. Sometimes, I feel isolated here at the palace.
Small Lady is my best friend. But, even she doesn't know the depth of my feelings. I am a wonderful actress, to keep such a secret from everyone. I'm envious of Small Lady's good fortune. She found someone to love, and to be loved by. I may never know those feelings. There is no one here who would love me like that, is there? Who would want a girl, who also happens to be a cat?
I suppose there may be some people that would see past that. After all, Small Lady is marrying Helios, who is also known as Pegasus. She loves and accepts all of him. I hope, one day, I can know such happiness. That maybe, somewhere out there, there is someone made especially for me. But, mostly, I fear that day will never come to be. Sometimes I feel so human. To long for something that is out of reach. It's a very human trait, isn't it?
AN: Ok, I am really messing with the Sailor Moon universe to pull off this fic. Well, maybe not. You be the judge. Anyway, I always felt sorry for Diana because, other than her parents, she's it for her kind. (Well, on Earth, anyway.) Yeah, so I made her over-dramatic. Oh, well.
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