Chapter 31: In the Music Room (Veniz's POV)
I sat at the piano seat of the music room staring at the piano keys. I felt miserable, depressed and very confused. All I thought that Kaede was a rival and an enemy and he feels the same way. Then here I found out that he's in-love with me? I don't understand? Why me?
I also felt horrible, Sendo took my first kiss away and everyone saw it! Kaede saw it! I saw the anger in his eyes, I saw how furious he was and all I can feel was guilt? But why? Why do I feel horrible about their fight? Do this mean I had feelings for Kaede? Is Haruko and aniki (brother) telling the truth? Am I in-love with Kaede? It can't be!
I can't be falling in love with him! He's my rival and my enemy! I, I, I.. I hate this! I hate this! I hate this! I could feel tears building in my eyes again. I don't want to cry anymore. I jerked myself back and decided to play the piano and sing. Maybe it'll ease my pain.my confusion.
I chose to play and sing Kanaete by Akino Arai. Maybe I'll have my wish after singing it.
"Kanaete mune ni GARASU no yuri ga Kudaite ku dasai sono yubi de
Tooku e atarashii higashi e Anata no kokoro wa yume wo miru Tooku e ashimoto no izumi ni Negai wo utsushite
Itsu kara ka katachi wo kaete-ita no omoi wa Aoi asa mou ichido meguriau toki made Aa...
Hikari nagareru moku gen no you ni Itai no wakatte-iru keredo
Tooku e atarashii higashi e Anata no kokoro wa niji wo miru Kodoku na sora no oku fukaku Yasashiku da kareru
Damarikomu mahiru no kaze wa doko de nemuru no Todokanai inori mo koe wo hisomete shimau Aa... sotto
Kuuki no soko ni shizumete Kaoru E-TERU ni shinshite Hoka no dare ni mo fure rarenai you ni
Itsu kara ka katachi wo kaete-ita no omoi wa Aoi asa mou ichido meguriau toki made Aa... kitto
Kanaete Kanaete..."
I took a deep breath after singing and playing the piano but still the pain is still there. Then suddenly the music room door opened and there entered Kaede Rukawa. In surprise I stood up, staring at him. I felt a slight anger seeing him and I know my eyes shows them.
I want to leave the room, but I guess Kaede sensed it closed the door and locked it. I began to feel nervous, what is he up to? Then he spoke, "I know you hate me, you considered me as a rival and an enemy then here I am falling for you! I can't help it! I don't know but it suddenly happens!" he said it so quickly that I wasn't able to say anything. He continued, "I know you hate me because I kicked Sendo's ass! I know that, but God he kissed you! He may hug you but that's too far!"
After hearing that I shook my head and said, "I don't hate you for that! I hate you for falling in love with me!" Kaede approached me and sadly said, "I'm sorry! But like I told you, I can't help it!" I then demanded, "Why me Kaede-kun? Why me? To all the girls, why me? Why not Haruko?"
Kaede stared me smiling and said, "Because you're special, you're more than an angel, a princess or a goddess all combine! You're special and you're heart. you got the most caring heart I've ever seen!" with that answer all I could what stare at him. I knew in an instant my heart melted in those words, but still I'm confused, If I to choose him how about Akira-kun? Kenji-kun? Kiyota-kun? Tohru-kun? I don't know.
I could feel tears building up in my eyes again and this time I had to let the tears out and sobbed, "Kaede-kun. I-I-I I'm so sorry! I can't choose! I'm so confuse right now! I'm so sorry!" I buried my face in his shirt. I know he felt sorry for me and hugged me whispering to me, "It's okay, I understand!"
I kept on crying, I know it's so stupid, he said it was okay but I can't stop crying. I'm so mad at myself. I knew that I am falling for Kaede but still I have to be considerate for Akira and the others! I hate it that way! Why did they have to fall for me? Why can't it be Kaede only?
Then suddenly he replied soothing me, "It's okay Veniz! It's okay!" then he let me sat on a chair. He sat down beside me and wiped away my tears with his hand. He then exclaimed, "Don't be sad now, I promise, I'm not going to clobber anyone of my rivals well except for Hanamichi of course!"
I smiled; I couldn't help smiling to what he had said. It struck me funny. I looked at him and said, "Of course! Brother is a special rival of yours!" he stared back at me. He then said, ""I'm so sorry Veniz but can I.."
I cut him off by saying, "Hai, Kaede-kun!" I seemed to have read his mind; I know what he is asking. He is asking if he can kiss me. I said yes. I don't know what made me say yes, but I did. His face drew closer to mine his lips touched my lips. It was short but sweet. I wasn't able to return the kiss, it was too short and I know that I can't, not now!
He then whispered to me, "Arigatou, Veniz-chan!" I don't know what had gotten into me but I hugged him and said, "Ie, Arigatou Kaede-kun!" at that moment I really don't know what I'm thanking for, for the kiss? For understanding me? I don't know.
Then I remembered something, I broke off my hug and asked, "Hey aren't you suppose to be at the gym?" Kaede smiled weakly and answered, "Yeah. demo.." I was shocked and at the same time worried that I stood up and exclaimed, "Oh no! Akagi would kill you for not being there!"
I pulled him up saying, "You better be there Kaede-kun!" Kaede then smiled and said coolly, "Don't rush Veniz-chan! We'll get there!" with that he put his arms around my shoulder. I didn't hesitate and nudged him for that. It felt good having his arms around my shoulders, I felt protected. We both walked towards the gym in that position. That moment was very memorable and I know I would never forget that day.
I sat at the piano seat of the music room staring at the piano keys. I felt miserable, depressed and very confused. All I thought that Kaede was a rival and an enemy and he feels the same way. Then here I found out that he's in-love with me? I don't understand? Why me?
I also felt horrible, Sendo took my first kiss away and everyone saw it! Kaede saw it! I saw the anger in his eyes, I saw how furious he was and all I can feel was guilt? But why? Why do I feel horrible about their fight? Do this mean I had feelings for Kaede? Is Haruko and aniki (brother) telling the truth? Am I in-love with Kaede? It can't be!
I can't be falling in love with him! He's my rival and my enemy! I, I, I.. I hate this! I hate this! I hate this! I could feel tears building in my eyes again. I don't want to cry anymore. I jerked myself back and decided to play the piano and sing. Maybe it'll ease my pain.my confusion.
I chose to play and sing Kanaete by Akino Arai. Maybe I'll have my wish after singing it.
"Kanaete mune ni GARASU no yuri ga Kudaite ku dasai sono yubi de
Tooku e atarashii higashi e Anata no kokoro wa yume wo miru Tooku e ashimoto no izumi ni Negai wo utsushite
Itsu kara ka katachi wo kaete-ita no omoi wa Aoi asa mou ichido meguriau toki made Aa...
Hikari nagareru moku gen no you ni Itai no wakatte-iru keredo
Tooku e atarashii higashi e Anata no kokoro wa niji wo miru Kodoku na sora no oku fukaku Yasashiku da kareru
Damarikomu mahiru no kaze wa doko de nemuru no Todokanai inori mo koe wo hisomete shimau Aa... sotto
Kuuki no soko ni shizumete Kaoru E-TERU ni shinshite Hoka no dare ni mo fure rarenai you ni
Itsu kara ka katachi wo kaete-ita no omoi wa Aoi asa mou ichido meguriau toki made Aa... kitto
Kanaete Kanaete..."
I took a deep breath after singing and playing the piano but still the pain is still there. Then suddenly the music room door opened and there entered Kaede Rukawa. In surprise I stood up, staring at him. I felt a slight anger seeing him and I know my eyes shows them.
I want to leave the room, but I guess Kaede sensed it closed the door and locked it. I began to feel nervous, what is he up to? Then he spoke, "I know you hate me, you considered me as a rival and an enemy then here I am falling for you! I can't help it! I don't know but it suddenly happens!" he said it so quickly that I wasn't able to say anything. He continued, "I know you hate me because I kicked Sendo's ass! I know that, but God he kissed you! He may hug you but that's too far!"
After hearing that I shook my head and said, "I don't hate you for that! I hate you for falling in love with me!" Kaede approached me and sadly said, "I'm sorry! But like I told you, I can't help it!" I then demanded, "Why me Kaede-kun? Why me? To all the girls, why me? Why not Haruko?"
Kaede stared me smiling and said, "Because you're special, you're more than an angel, a princess or a goddess all combine! You're special and you're heart. you got the most caring heart I've ever seen!" with that answer all I could what stare at him. I knew in an instant my heart melted in those words, but still I'm confused, If I to choose him how about Akira-kun? Kenji-kun? Kiyota-kun? Tohru-kun? I don't know.
I could feel tears building up in my eyes again and this time I had to let the tears out and sobbed, "Kaede-kun. I-I-I I'm so sorry! I can't choose! I'm so confuse right now! I'm so sorry!" I buried my face in his shirt. I know he felt sorry for me and hugged me whispering to me, "It's okay, I understand!"
I kept on crying, I know it's so stupid, he said it was okay but I can't stop crying. I'm so mad at myself. I knew that I am falling for Kaede but still I have to be considerate for Akira and the others! I hate it that way! Why did they have to fall for me? Why can't it be Kaede only?
Then suddenly he replied soothing me, "It's okay Veniz! It's okay!" then he let me sat on a chair. He sat down beside me and wiped away my tears with his hand. He then exclaimed, "Don't be sad now, I promise, I'm not going to clobber anyone of my rivals well except for Hanamichi of course!"
I smiled; I couldn't help smiling to what he had said. It struck me funny. I looked at him and said, "Of course! Brother is a special rival of yours!" he stared back at me. He then said, ""I'm so sorry Veniz but can I.."
I cut him off by saying, "Hai, Kaede-kun!" I seemed to have read his mind; I know what he is asking. He is asking if he can kiss me. I said yes. I don't know what made me say yes, but I did. His face drew closer to mine his lips touched my lips. It was short but sweet. I wasn't able to return the kiss, it was too short and I know that I can't, not now!
He then whispered to me, "Arigatou, Veniz-chan!" I don't know what had gotten into me but I hugged him and said, "Ie, Arigatou Kaede-kun!" at that moment I really don't know what I'm thanking for, for the kiss? For understanding me? I don't know.
Then I remembered something, I broke off my hug and asked, "Hey aren't you suppose to be at the gym?" Kaede smiled weakly and answered, "Yeah. demo.." I was shocked and at the same time worried that I stood up and exclaimed, "Oh no! Akagi would kill you for not being there!"
I pulled him up saying, "You better be there Kaede-kun!" Kaede then smiled and said coolly, "Don't rush Veniz-chan! We'll get there!" with that he put his arms around my shoulder. I didn't hesitate and nudged him for that. It felt good having his arms around my shoulders, I felt protected. We both walked towards the gym in that position. That moment was very memorable and I know I would never forget that day.