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Don't panic the rest of the digi destined will turn up soon, but as this story strays from the T.v series they're not all together yet. Thank you so much to every one, who reviewed my first chapter, you really made my day. Yeah I know I didn't have a very exciting day, but it's always nice to get some praise.
Run away
Chapter two
Sora carefully folded another T-shirt and placed it neatly into her huge backpack. It was already bulging at the sides with all of her possessions that she just couldn't leave behind.
She removed another pair of shorts from her draws and held them against her chest and she took a long lingering look around her bedroom.
She was making the right choice. She was defiantly doing the right thing. This is what she had wanted to do since she was a little girl.
She wasn't running away. She wasn't running away from any of her problems, she was just taking a break for a while.
But how could she really leave this place behind. She had spent 19 years growing up in this city, this apartment, this room. This was her home, how could she leave it all behind?
No she wasn't leaving it all behind. She was just going away for a little while.
She needed to go away, she needed a break, a long break.
All of her life she had always been dependable Sora. The one who was always willing to help everyone out, always there for a shoulder to cry on. Sora always put others before herself, always thinking about everyone else. Kind, giving, dependable Sora.
Well now she was being selfish for once. She was going to do what she wanted to do for a change.
For a long time she had felt like she could be so much more than what she was.
Her five best friends, Matt, Davis, Izzy, Kari and Tai. Tai . . . Her heart seemed to twist painfully as she thought of him.
They all thought they knew her so well, but how could they know her when she didn't even know herself yet. She would smile and laugh pretending that she was happy, but underneath she felt . . .trapped.
No one knew how she felt inside. No one knew how they made her heart ache by holding her back.
They didn't even realise they were holding her back.
She had wanted to leave this city, she wanted to fly away from everything that she knew, and from everyone that knew her. She wanted an adventure, she wanted to see the world and most of all she wanted to discover herself.
She knew there was far more to the bright little Sora that every one saw when they looked at her. She just hadn't found out what else there was to her yet. She had to go somewhere where no one knew her, so that she could grow and developed. Somewhere she could be who she wanted to be, not who everyone expected her to be.
She wanted to be free.
For longer than she would like to admit she had felt like this, pinning to leave this place. But she had never had the strength to leave. She always felt like everyone needed her, if she left, her friends would have no one to go to. She couldn't bear to disappoint them by just taking off.
But last night had changed everything. When Tai had . . .when he had been stupid enough to think that all she wanted from life was him, she had finally woken herself up and looked at what she was doing to herself.
He really believed that she wanted nothing more from life, than to clean up after him and his children. She didn't want to end up as some quite little housewife, she wanted to be a strong independent woman. She could be if she left here. She didn't want to be stuck looking after everyone for the rest of her life, she had to look after herself first.
Last night had given her the perfect opportunity to finally make the phone call that would take her away. After she had ran home from the beach, after the floods of tears had finally dried up. She had picked up the phone and dialled the travel agents number. She had booked her self on the soonest around the world travel package. She had to catch a plane this afternoon to San Francisco. At San Francisco she would meet the rest of her travelling group and embark on an eighteen-month around the world journey. Finally she would be getting away.
She grabbed five letters, each in a white sealed envelope with an address neatly written across the front, and carefully laid them on the top of her pile of clothes in the bag. She glanced at her watch and quickly zipped up the bag. She took one last lingering look over her bedroom, it looked so empty now that she had taken most of her stuff. She slung the blue bag over her shoulder and walked out into the living room.
Her mother sat on the couch silently looking at her hands.
" Mom . . ." Sora whispered, her voice began to choke as tears already started to sting at the back of her eyes.
" You're going already?" Her mother whispered,
She nodded slowly, although her mother couldn't see her.
" My plane leaves in two hours. I want to get there with plenty of time to spare,"
" Sora . . ." Her mother turned her head and looked her over sadly, her only daughter was leaving her, she wouldn't see her for nearly two years, " Do you really think this is a good idea? I know that something upset you last night, but do you really think running away is the best option,"
" I'm . . .I'm not running away Mom. I'm . . .just . . .I've always wanted to do this Mom. I've told you a thousand time that I wanted to travel the world. Now is just a perfect time for me to go,"
" Well if . . .if you're sure," She stood up and walked across the apartments varnished wooden floor, " I'll miss you Sora," She sighed as she wrapped her arms around her daughter's neck, pulling her into a tight embrace.
" I'll write all the time, and email, and call when I get to a place where there's a phone," Sora whispered trying with all her strength to hold back her tears.
" I won't come to the airport. It's easier to say goodbye here,"
" Alright," She pulled away from her mothers warm safe arms, " I'll see you soon Mom,"
" See you soon Sora, take care,"
" I will," She walked across the apartment forcing herself to look a head and not behind her. She had known this would be the hardest part of leaving. She hated saying goodbye. But she couldn't turn back now, she had to do this.
The apartment door clicked quietly as she shut it behind her. A single silvery tear managed to break through the emotional barrier she was holding it back with. She wasn't going to cry she just had to pretend that she was popping down the street to get some milk or something, she would be back soon.
She whipped the tear away and held her head high. She could do this, she had to do this, if only to prove to everyone else that she could.
* * *
" Last call for flight 507 San Francisco," The squeaky announcer's voice called over the commotion of the airport.
Okay this was it, no going back.
She unzipped her bag and took out the five letters. She held them in her hands and chewed her lip.
It was so much easier to say goodbye to the people she loved most in a letter. She knew she wouldn't be able to bear to go if she had to actually say goodbye. They would argue with her and persuade her to stay. They would probably be angry with her for not telling them she was leaving, but she wouldn't be able to cope with that. She dropped all five into the mailbox, turned away and slowly strolled to her gate.
This was the start of a fresh page in book of her life. The start of a new chapter, and this time she was going to be the author.
" Good bye Japan, good bye Sora," She whispered under her breath,
Two days later
" Tai are you ever going to get dressed?" Kari moaned as he walked across the apartment in his shorts and a dark blue robe, " It's nearly 12:30!"
" So, what's there to get dressed for?"
" Look why don't you just call Sora and sort out whatever stupid fight you had this time. I'm sick of you lazing around the house in your underwear. Go and get a life,"
He glared at her as he opened the fridge, hunting for a snack.
" And are you ever going to get the mail. First up gets the mail, you were first up so you get the mail," He reminded her as he reached for a tub of coleslaw,
" But your standing right next to the mail," Kari whined at him,
" But you were the first one up," He mocked her in a high voice.
" You know Tai you've been a real jerk lately," She snapped as she bent down to pick up the pile of letters. She flicked through them dumping two that looked like bills and one addressed to her Mother on the kitchen counter.
" Hey I got a letter, looks like it's from Sora. Why didn't she just call?" Kari said as she examined the neat loopy writing on the envelope, " You got one two,"
Tai slammed the fridge door and grabbed the letter off of his sister.
He glanced at the handwriting, defiantly Sora's he would recognised that writing anywhere. He ripped open the envelope and pulled out the carefully folded white paper.
Dear Tai,
I'm not writing to say I'm sorry for the way I acted the other night. Because I'm not sorry. I never will be. I can't believe you could treat me like that Tai. I thought that you were my best friend not just my boyfriend. If there's one thing I'm sorry for it's that I believed you knew me better. Because you obviously don't. I have never given you the impression that I wanted to spend my life running around after you, acting like you're live in servant. I've told you so many times what I want to do with my life, but I guess that you just weren't listening. I'm not writing to yell at you, you've already made a stupid mistake and telling you how much I hate you won't change what you did. I'm writing to tell you that I'm leaving. By the time that you read this I would have already gone. I've booked my self on an 18 month around the world trip. I'm finally going to get out of this prison you have been holding me in, I'm going to go and do what I want for a change. I'm going to see the world. So I guess I won't see you for 18 months, maybe longer. Because right now I can't even stand to think about you yet alone see you. You have really hurt me Tai and I won't forget that. I don't want to see you again for a long long time.
Bye Tai,
From Sora
" She's left!" Kari cried from across the room. Tai's hands shook uncontrollably as he held the murderous letter in his hands. He couldn't tear his eyes away from the page. Every word seemed to snap his heart into even smaller pieces, but he couldn't stop reading it.
" Did you know she was going! Tai why didn't you tell me!" Kari screamed.
Tai managed to look away from her beautiful handwriting to the face of his younger sister. Tears streaked down her face as she stared at him.
" All I wanted was to say goodbye to her Tai. She's my best friend to you know, not just yours, I can't believe you could keep this a secret from me!"
Tai took his eyes back to the paper in his hands.
" I didn't know," he whispered, Very slowly and calmly he walked across the apartments green soft carpet and opened his bedroom door. He shut it quietly behind him. Then he shut his eyes, threw himself against the door and slid down to the floor with a hard painful thump.
How could she do this? How could she write like that? She made it sound like he was the most evil person in the world. Like he had kept her locked in a basement for her entire life.
All he wanted was to be with her. He wanted to bring her closer to him, but he had pushed further away. He had pushed her halfway across the world.
No she couldn't really be gone. She'd turn up any minute at his door, with all her bags around her and tell him she couldn't leave. She would say she had been a fool and she was in love with him. Then they would get married and they would happily ever after.
Had he really ignored everything she had said to him. He thought he had been doing the best thing for both of them. He loved her. He truly loved her.
Tears began to roll down his tanned cheeks, he couldn't keep them in anymore. He loved her, he really loved her.
How could she do this to him?
Authors note- well there you go that's chapter two. Don't worry like I said there will be more couples later in the story. I know that Sora has been a bit of a Jerk so far, but she has her reasons.
Thank you so much for all of your reviewing ! Please carry on, I love to hear what everyone thinks of it.
Don't panic the rest of the digi destined will turn up soon, but as this story strays from the T.v series they're not all together yet. Thank you so much to every one, who reviewed my first chapter, you really made my day. Yeah I know I didn't have a very exciting day, but it's always nice to get some praise.
Run away
Chapter two
Sora carefully folded another T-shirt and placed it neatly into her huge backpack. It was already bulging at the sides with all of her possessions that she just couldn't leave behind.
She removed another pair of shorts from her draws and held them against her chest and she took a long lingering look around her bedroom.
She was making the right choice. She was defiantly doing the right thing. This is what she had wanted to do since she was a little girl.
She wasn't running away. She wasn't running away from any of her problems, she was just taking a break for a while.
But how could she really leave this place behind. She had spent 19 years growing up in this city, this apartment, this room. This was her home, how could she leave it all behind?
No she wasn't leaving it all behind. She was just going away for a little while.
She needed to go away, she needed a break, a long break.
All of her life she had always been dependable Sora. The one who was always willing to help everyone out, always there for a shoulder to cry on. Sora always put others before herself, always thinking about everyone else. Kind, giving, dependable Sora.
Well now she was being selfish for once. She was going to do what she wanted to do for a change.
For a long time she had felt like she could be so much more than what she was.
Her five best friends, Matt, Davis, Izzy, Kari and Tai. Tai . . . Her heart seemed to twist painfully as she thought of him.
They all thought they knew her so well, but how could they know her when she didn't even know herself yet. She would smile and laugh pretending that she was happy, but underneath she felt . . .trapped.
No one knew how she felt inside. No one knew how they made her heart ache by holding her back.
They didn't even realise they were holding her back.
She had wanted to leave this city, she wanted to fly away from everything that she knew, and from everyone that knew her. She wanted an adventure, she wanted to see the world and most of all she wanted to discover herself.
She knew there was far more to the bright little Sora that every one saw when they looked at her. She just hadn't found out what else there was to her yet. She had to go somewhere where no one knew her, so that she could grow and developed. Somewhere she could be who she wanted to be, not who everyone expected her to be.
She wanted to be free.
For longer than she would like to admit she had felt like this, pinning to leave this place. But she had never had the strength to leave. She always felt like everyone needed her, if she left, her friends would have no one to go to. She couldn't bear to disappoint them by just taking off.
But last night had changed everything. When Tai had . . .when he had been stupid enough to think that all she wanted from life was him, she had finally woken herself up and looked at what she was doing to herself.
He really believed that she wanted nothing more from life, than to clean up after him and his children. She didn't want to end up as some quite little housewife, she wanted to be a strong independent woman. She could be if she left here. She didn't want to be stuck looking after everyone for the rest of her life, she had to look after herself first.
Last night had given her the perfect opportunity to finally make the phone call that would take her away. After she had ran home from the beach, after the floods of tears had finally dried up. She had picked up the phone and dialled the travel agents number. She had booked her self on the soonest around the world travel package. She had to catch a plane this afternoon to San Francisco. At San Francisco she would meet the rest of her travelling group and embark on an eighteen-month around the world journey. Finally she would be getting away.
She grabbed five letters, each in a white sealed envelope with an address neatly written across the front, and carefully laid them on the top of her pile of clothes in the bag. She glanced at her watch and quickly zipped up the bag. She took one last lingering look over her bedroom, it looked so empty now that she had taken most of her stuff. She slung the blue bag over her shoulder and walked out into the living room.
Her mother sat on the couch silently looking at her hands.
" Mom . . ." Sora whispered, her voice began to choke as tears already started to sting at the back of her eyes.
" You're going already?" Her mother whispered,
She nodded slowly, although her mother couldn't see her.
" My plane leaves in two hours. I want to get there with plenty of time to spare,"
" Sora . . ." Her mother turned her head and looked her over sadly, her only daughter was leaving her, she wouldn't see her for nearly two years, " Do you really think this is a good idea? I know that something upset you last night, but do you really think running away is the best option,"
" I'm . . .I'm not running away Mom. I'm . . .just . . .I've always wanted to do this Mom. I've told you a thousand time that I wanted to travel the world. Now is just a perfect time for me to go,"
" Well if . . .if you're sure," She stood up and walked across the apartments varnished wooden floor, " I'll miss you Sora," She sighed as she wrapped her arms around her daughter's neck, pulling her into a tight embrace.
" I'll write all the time, and email, and call when I get to a place where there's a phone," Sora whispered trying with all her strength to hold back her tears.
" I won't come to the airport. It's easier to say goodbye here,"
" Alright," She pulled away from her mothers warm safe arms, " I'll see you soon Mom,"
" See you soon Sora, take care,"
" I will," She walked across the apartment forcing herself to look a head and not behind her. She had known this would be the hardest part of leaving. She hated saying goodbye. But she couldn't turn back now, she had to do this.
The apartment door clicked quietly as she shut it behind her. A single silvery tear managed to break through the emotional barrier she was holding it back with. She wasn't going to cry she just had to pretend that she was popping down the street to get some milk or something, she would be back soon.
She whipped the tear away and held her head high. She could do this, she had to do this, if only to prove to everyone else that she could.
* * *
" Last call for flight 507 San Francisco," The squeaky announcer's voice called over the commotion of the airport.
Okay this was it, no going back.
She unzipped her bag and took out the five letters. She held them in her hands and chewed her lip.
It was so much easier to say goodbye to the people she loved most in a letter. She knew she wouldn't be able to bear to go if she had to actually say goodbye. They would argue with her and persuade her to stay. They would probably be angry with her for not telling them she was leaving, but she wouldn't be able to cope with that. She dropped all five into the mailbox, turned away and slowly strolled to her gate.
This was the start of a fresh page in book of her life. The start of a new chapter, and this time she was going to be the author.
" Good bye Japan, good bye Sora," She whispered under her breath,
Two days later
" Tai are you ever going to get dressed?" Kari moaned as he walked across the apartment in his shorts and a dark blue robe, " It's nearly 12:30!"
" So, what's there to get dressed for?"
" Look why don't you just call Sora and sort out whatever stupid fight you had this time. I'm sick of you lazing around the house in your underwear. Go and get a life,"
He glared at her as he opened the fridge, hunting for a snack.
" And are you ever going to get the mail. First up gets the mail, you were first up so you get the mail," He reminded her as he reached for a tub of coleslaw,
" But your standing right next to the mail," Kari whined at him,
" But you were the first one up," He mocked her in a high voice.
" You know Tai you've been a real jerk lately," She snapped as she bent down to pick up the pile of letters. She flicked through them dumping two that looked like bills and one addressed to her Mother on the kitchen counter.
" Hey I got a letter, looks like it's from Sora. Why didn't she just call?" Kari said as she examined the neat loopy writing on the envelope, " You got one two,"
Tai slammed the fridge door and grabbed the letter off of his sister.
He glanced at the handwriting, defiantly Sora's he would recognised that writing anywhere. He ripped open the envelope and pulled out the carefully folded white paper.
Dear Tai,
I'm not writing to say I'm sorry for the way I acted the other night. Because I'm not sorry. I never will be. I can't believe you could treat me like that Tai. I thought that you were my best friend not just my boyfriend. If there's one thing I'm sorry for it's that I believed you knew me better. Because you obviously don't. I have never given you the impression that I wanted to spend my life running around after you, acting like you're live in servant. I've told you so many times what I want to do with my life, but I guess that you just weren't listening. I'm not writing to yell at you, you've already made a stupid mistake and telling you how much I hate you won't change what you did. I'm writing to tell you that I'm leaving. By the time that you read this I would have already gone. I've booked my self on an 18 month around the world trip. I'm finally going to get out of this prison you have been holding me in, I'm going to go and do what I want for a change. I'm going to see the world. So I guess I won't see you for 18 months, maybe longer. Because right now I can't even stand to think about you yet alone see you. You have really hurt me Tai and I won't forget that. I don't want to see you again for a long long time.
Bye Tai,
From Sora
" She's left!" Kari cried from across the room. Tai's hands shook uncontrollably as he held the murderous letter in his hands. He couldn't tear his eyes away from the page. Every word seemed to snap his heart into even smaller pieces, but he couldn't stop reading it.
" Did you know she was going! Tai why didn't you tell me!" Kari screamed.
Tai managed to look away from her beautiful handwriting to the face of his younger sister. Tears streaked down her face as she stared at him.
" All I wanted was to say goodbye to her Tai. She's my best friend to you know, not just yours, I can't believe you could keep this a secret from me!"
Tai took his eyes back to the paper in his hands.
" I didn't know," he whispered, Very slowly and calmly he walked across the apartments green soft carpet and opened his bedroom door. He shut it quietly behind him. Then he shut his eyes, threw himself against the door and slid down to the floor with a hard painful thump.
How could she do this? How could she write like that? She made it sound like he was the most evil person in the world. Like he had kept her locked in a basement for her entire life.
All he wanted was to be with her. He wanted to bring her closer to him, but he had pushed further away. He had pushed her halfway across the world.
No she couldn't really be gone. She'd turn up any minute at his door, with all her bags around her and tell him she couldn't leave. She would say she had been a fool and she was in love with him. Then they would get married and they would happily ever after.
Had he really ignored everything she had said to him. He thought he had been doing the best thing for both of them. He loved her. He truly loved her.
Tears began to roll down his tanned cheeks, he couldn't keep them in anymore. He loved her, he really loved her.
How could she do this to him?
Authors note- well there you go that's chapter two. Don't worry like I said there will be more couples later in the story. I know that Sora has been a bit of a Jerk so far, but she has her reasons.
Thank you so much for all of your reviewing ! Please carry on, I love to hear what everyone thinks of it.