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Before those men in black suits and shades come like they did in my friend's fic, I need to write this…
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Anyway, on with the fic!!!!!!!!!!
Sakura's life is tangled and broken. The Ghost returns to her every night and she can't escape his clutches.
Along comes a stranger, handsome, cool, he is Sakura's only way out. While Sakura chases the Shadows of her Past, Syaoran Li is determined to chase her.
A Father. A daughter. A stranger. And unspoken secrets.
I was running. Running harder than I ever had before. I was a mistake. Unwanted. And I had killed mom. Why couldn't I see it before? It was so clear and plain before my eyes but I'd refused to acknowledge it. I was in the wood, running further and further into its depths. Once I was far enough, no one would ever find me unless I wanted them to. It never occurred to me that I wouldn't be able to find them either.
It was already early afternoon and I was surprised at how fast everything had come and gone. My freedom had been short lived. Syaoran had lost track of me minutes ago and I hoped he had got home safely. Against everything I had ever believed he had fallen in love with me, and I with him. Poor Meilin. If she ever found out she'd be distraught. I was glad that I wouldn't be there to see her fury when she did.
I wasn't tiring. Wasn't confronting my pain like I had told myself was the key to freedom. I was running from the truth again, but this time I'd never stop. The tables had turned. I wasn't chasing my shadows anymore, they were chasing me.
With strength that even amazed me I leapt across the stream and landed lightly on the other side at a run. I was breathing heavily, but I knew how far I'd come. I was further into the wood than anyone in our town had ever been. There were roomers that bears lived in this part of the woods, but I never had believed them. I found the idea of bears in Tomoeda a little farfetched.
I didn't really have any idea of what I wanted to do. I had only ever got as far as the running in my plan, and the next part was starting to worry me. As I walked, bathed in the dappled light that escaped the clutches of the trees, I suddenly felt scared. I wished Syaoran was there with me, to protect me, and I scolded myself. This had been a very bad idea. Why couldn't I have just run into Syaoran's arms instead of the arms of my shadows? He would have taken me away from all this. He wanted to look after me, marry me when we got older. But what was stopping me? I could easily go back. But as I turned, I realised I was lost.
"Oh yeah Sakura, wonderful plan. You run away on the spur of the moment, then get lost. You're an excellent planner, really you are." I murmured, sarcastically. Something else was also stopping me returning. Fear. The Ghost's control on my life, on my body, had left me scarred not just on the outside, but on the inside too. I would never escape incest. The Ghost had preyed on my mind and now I was terrified of touch. But, another part of me whispered. Syaoran is different. He makes you feel safe and loved. He kissed you and touched you and you didn't see the Ghost. That was true. But it still didn't get me anywhere. I was lost whether I liked it or not. And I definitely did not.
Darkness had fallen and the woods were spooky and gloomy. Shadows crept and slinked around me, taunting me. I rubbed my arms for comfort and carried on walking. I was hungry and cold, lonelier than I had ever been. This had definitely not been a good idea. Why did I even think I would survive this? Yes, I had slept the night in the woods before. But that was with blankets, warmer clothes and I was near the town. Here…I didn't even nowhere here was! The night was stirring with unknown creatures that lurked in the gloom. Eyes seemed to be following me, noises seemed inhuman, and the trees seemed alive! I said I was alone, but I wasn't. I would never be alone in these woods, and that was not a good thing. I stifled a sob and sunk into the hollow of a tree where I curled up and fell into fitful, nightmarish, sleep.
I woke to the sharp touch of someone. I groaned and turned over in my bed. The touch came again and again, pushing me, rolling me. I was too tired; I didn't want to get up. Who was trying to wake me? And where had the Ghost been last night? Yes, he had trespassed in my dreams, but not in true form, just in spirit. And why was my bed so hard and uncomfortable? Slowly, my eyes fluttered open. I was greeted by a round, hairy face with two black eyes and a long nose that was examining my face. I gently pushed it away and then focused. I screamed. The baby bear howled and ran away as I sat up, banged my head on the tree, sat up again and scrambled out of the hollow. Oh no, bear, bear, baby bear. I just woke up, to a bear sniffing me. I wanted to go home. The Ghost was better than this! Well, maybe not, but I was terrified. The baby was howling still and then suddenly fell quiet. I began to walk slowly away. An answering roar and the cracking of trees made me stop abruptly. I was stuck to the spot with terror. Oh man…this was not good. Not good at all! An adult bear walked into the clearing. I couldn't move, couldn't breathe. That bear could crush me in a second with one swipe of her mighty claws. Whatever I did, I didn't want to draw attention to myself. The baby, on the other hand, had other ideas. Overcoming the initial shock, the baby began to inspect me again. With a final sniff, he took my hurt wrist in his mouth. I knew a little about bears, and so in my memory there was some information that told me that baby bears did this to announce friendship. They just played like that. Too bad it took too long to come to me. I let out a pained cry and hit the baby around the head, pulling my wrist out of its jaws. Again, it let out a howl and ran to its mother. I stopped dead. Everything was silent. I took a cautious step back. The mother bear let out a piercing growl and leapt at me. If there was one other thing I knew about bears, it was that they always protected their young, no matter what. I gasped and threw myself backwards as she swiped at me. I heard the tear of my jacket and felt an intense sting before I rolled away and dived at a tree, scrambling up a branch and swiftly leaping onto the others until I was high enough to be out of her reach. She ran at the tree and growled, low and menacing again. I locked my legs around the branch and held onto the trunk as the tree shook in warning. There was a deafening crack…and then silence. I looked down. The bears were nowhere in sight and I was alone once more. I let out the breath I had been holding and sighed shakily. That had been a close call. It's amazing how, when you're scared out of your wits, any other emotion or senses go out of your mind. Then, they come back to haunt you at full pelt. A pain shocked through me, severe and extreme, right across my side, just below my ribs. With a shiver, I looked down. My clothes were covered in blood and a deep gash greeted me with a forceful pain that made my head ache. Trembling, I began to climb down. Another thing about pain and fear is that you loose all control over your muscles. Its like they are made of jelly and refuse to obey you. I got five feet from the ground, and then fell the rest of the way. I rolled and moaned, curling up on the ground and shivering. I was cold, freezing in fact, and pain beyond belief was coursing through me. Without holding back, I began to cry.
When I woke again I was shivering, shuddering. Teeth chattering. Cold? It wasn't that cold, was it? The shakes grabbed me and squeezed me. My teeth chattered uncontrollably. Chills. Fever, that's what it was. I had a fever. The nearest aspirin was all the way in town. No wait, Touya had Advil. All I had to do was ask him. He…Touya? Do you have that Advil? But no, of course not, Touya was…somewhere.
I was sick. Bad sick. Too sick to think straight…
…Dark. The chills had subsided. Now I could just feel the burning. So hot I wanted to take my clothes off but that was a bad idea…
…Sliding in and out of consciousness. I was helpless. Defenceless. Weak. Anyone, anything could come and attack me…
…I felt light headed. Hallucinated. Saw mom. Saw her there, holding me, drying my tears. Saying something…but what? Survive. Syaoran is looking for you. Did she say that? Was she really there? Had to listen. Had to wake up! Dammit, I had to live! Pain from the gash. Blood dripping…
…I was up, moving, crawling. Was I awake? Yes, now, but I'd started moving while I was asleep. The pain was dull now, but still there. I had my jumper tied around it. Did I do that? Where was I? The trees looked familiar…
…Awake. Jolted awake. A voice. A voice I knew. It was held close to my heart. Who was it? Shouting a name…for god sake, wake up! Think! The name they're calling…so familiar…
…Crawl. Stop. Crawl. Stop. Crawl. Nearly there. Know myself now, awake, alive. An opening. The shouting louder. I gasped as I climbed the small mound and looked over. A boy…I know him…love him…calling me. No, vision blurring…must stay awake. Call back, Sakura, call back…
…My voice, weak but louder as I tried to get his attention. So tired…can't move any longer. I'm here…I'm here…why can't he hear me? But he has. He's walking, running now, coming towards me. Smile, relax. Soft amber eyes. Words I can't decipher. Hold on Sakura…hold on…
…Darkness.
Oh no! Is she dead? Syaoran must have found her just in time right? RIGHT?!?!?!
Tune in next time to find out.
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